Something I Wrote

[Sparx]

Whatever Life Magazine

That is a piece I wrote for a webmag about Self-Mutilation.

I recently made a post on the TB saying that I had hurt myself before. After that I had several posters open up to me via PMs and email telling me their stories.

Those people inspired me to write that. It was difficult to write, but I'm glad I did.

So, discuss. What are your thoughts on self mutilation?

 

[WORLDwarQUIFFLE]

I've never actually hurt myself intentionally.
I've thought about it.. though I could never bring myself to.
I know people who have, and it kills me to see where some of their lives have gone.
I think that's what's stopping me.

 

[SplshMtnLvr28]

That's a great piece.

Well, I could never cut myself. I'm super squeamish, so even when I touch my wrists I get grossed out. But my friend was cutting herself for about a year, and I was so scared. I couldn't tell anyone cause they'd put her in a mental institution, right? So I know the addiction you're talking about. It's scary for everyone around you, not just the person cutting themselves.

 

[disney100666]

cutting yourself is the most silly thing ever i think. if youre not feeling ok you should talk to parent or guidence consular at school. that is just my opion

ps i loved that article it was great, now i really know what other people r doinng that make them commit suicide or think about it. so inpiring!!!

 

[Sparx]

That's a great piece.

Well, I could never cut myself. I'm super squeamish, so even when I touch my wrists I get grossed out. But my friend was cutting herself for about a year, and I was so scared. I couldn't tell anyone cause they'd put her in a mental institution, right? So I know the addiction you're talking about. It's scary for everyone around you, not just the person cutting themselves.

Is your friend still cutting herself?

 

[HSMndLKfan92]

That article is a thought provoker for me. I think its amazing how you will open up a dark side of your life for the world to read.

I've thought about cutting myself more times than I'd like to mention. My reasons for it were stupid. I realize that. I thank God that I never acted on my impulses. I just can't. I've come close to cutting once or twice, but, this may sound weird, my "inner voice" that I didn't know existed stopped me. That inner voice made me cry.

I have a friend who has cut themself. When I found out, I was furious at them. I was also sad. This friend was the same friend who gave me the best advice last summer, to avoid myself from cutting. Now, I don't know if this friend still cuts or not. The last time I talked to this friend, their conscience stopped them.

Last night, I accidentally knicked my ankle while shaving. This knick is my worst one yet. As I was blotting the area where it was bleeding, I thought, "what if this was my wrist? What if I did this intentionally?"

 

[BabyPiglet]

I have an old friend who does it for the stupidest reasons. Like this guy doesn't like her...Boohoo I'm going to go cut myself...

I have never though about it. If I feel bad I deal with it. I don't hurt myself. In my opinion it is pretty stupid. People know they are doind, they think rationally, why then?

If a person does cut themsleves they need help. Whether doind it for a fad or not. Becasue if they're really willing to do it just beacsue it's a fad, that's retarted...

 

[Babyjustrun]

I could never cut myself or harm myself. I freak out when I have superficial cuts or burn myself by accident with the straightener. I find physical pain just makes the emotional pain hurt worse.
I've seen an episode of Dr.Phil, and this guy would pierce his skin everytime his mum yelled at him, it was sad.
I think when people find out their friends are cutting they should be more there for them. Even though they may seem like they don't want help or want you saying anything, cutting in the wrist area is dangerous and the emotional pain is dangerous too.

 

[ktbutterfly2011]

I know someone who did for a short period of time. I dont' understand the whole thought process you go thorough before you do something like that... and i'm hoping I never fully do.

 

[kjkcool]

I've never thought about cutting myself,though I've thought about doing a bunch of other things..... terrible ,stupid ,idiotic things....
Thank God I never followed through!
I had a hard time as a kid,but now everything is better.

 

[SplshMtnLvr28]

Is your friend still cutting herself?

No, she stopped about a year ago.

 

[yoyo93]

i have really been wanting to talk to someone about this for a while.
Last year in august one of my best friends father took his own life. The worst part about this? I found out from one of my friends in choir. Here is how that conversation went.
Me: I miss Sarah (My friend, she had moved about a year ago to another school)
Taylor(Another friend): Me to, *sigh*
Melissa(Other friend): Wait is her last name *not going to say it*
Me and Taylor: Yeah
Melissa: I found his name in the newspaper yesterday
Taylor: really? for what?
Melissa: It said...they found him...dead. In his home..

My heart dropped. It sersiously just felt like i was falling. So that night i got on my local newspapers web sight and saw that it was in fact her dad. Do you know what it feels like to find out that one of your best friends was found dead? And worst, from someone who bearly knows the person?
Well it was horrible. (At the time I didn't know how he had passed away,) I cried i will admit that. But when i told my parents about it, a whole new world opened. A bad one.
My mother had been telling me for 13 years my grandpa was suffocated in a car becacause the door was stuck, truth was, he took his life to. For 13 years she kept that from me. I was truly in a state of depression. Yes. I thought about cutting myself. But i could never put myself to do it, i mean i freak out if i get scratched by my cat! So i could really never hurt my self to such a horrible degree. But i think i may have hurt myself mentaly because my parents noticed after that i became alot more..well conserned about everything, then i began to defend everything.

But to let me sum this up, my friend taylor called sarah to talk to her about it. And I am glad she did because i would have never knowen that sarashs father had tried to 'take his life' before infront of her. Right in front of her!
A few months after that my friend Taylor began cutting herslef again. She stopped for a week or so but then she came to school with a very short shirt on (sleeved, not like that you guys!) i saw her arms. It was....so..disturbing a person could DO THAT to themselfs. I counted them, they were not very deep. But there were 77 of them. She spent all most two weeks at a mential instutution.

I really needed to tell someone that. If you read this all, i truly thank you for taking the time to. And I hope you never have to cope with such things as i have said, and i hope I will never cross roads with that agin. (By the way, incase your wondering, she stopped, once she relized that doing that was just plain stupid.)

And that's not even half of it, i wish i could put everything down, but i really, just don't think i could..

 

[Arielfn93]

Aww Rachel *huggies* Although I already knew this, still *huggies*

(not the diapers)

 

[Sparkle_Cherry]

I don't think that the people who mutilate themselves on purpose are stupid, if they are having real emotional problems. They are doing something stupid, but they can't help themselves.

Not that that makes much sense. But how can any of us really expect to analyze something so complicated and personal?

People who do it for attention are stupid. There's quite a difference between having an emotional problem and wanting to be ''in the moment''. Drama Queen's who mutilate themselves are blinded by ignorance.

~Caitlin