~~~SEWING my way to POFQ ~ American Girl outfits & Custom Park Bags! ~~~

[nowellsl]

Thinking about you and your family! Rest in peace Ruf

 

[mommy2mrb]

continued prayers and hugs

 

[DMGeurts]

It's over.

It was horrible.

I don't know what else to say.

D~

 

[DisneyTeacher01]

hugs!!!

 

[Debbie19]

So sorry

Debbie

 

[blessedmom4]

Dearest D~

There aren't any words to ease your pain, I know. PLEASE KNOW my prayers continue for your entire family, I DO know your heart is broken. Because you love Rufus, your soul is crying. I am thankful he is no longer in pain. I picture him running free, happy and smiling as he remembers his selfless family who loved him enough to let him go.


Until one has loved an animal a part of one's soul remains unawakened. ~Anatole France~

 

[tinkbell13]

I have no words to make it better. Just know that we are here for you.

 

[Tinkercc]

I have been reading your PTR since you began. I look forward to reading it every morning. I wanted to let you know how sorry I am for you and your family. I know from reading that Rufus was a very special member of your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

 

[solana131]

I can't even imagine...and hope I never can. Thinking of you

 

[mommy2mrb]

you don't have to say anything D~ we know you are hurting...just know how much Megan and I are thinking of you all....she said to send you a BIG HUG and one from me too we will continue to hold you all in our hearts and prayers

 

[VBAndrea]

I'm so sorry D Thank you for being such a wonderful Mommy to Rufus.

 

[sjs314]

D ~

 

[mommy2mrb]

D ~

this is so sweet!


D~ if this can maybe bring you some comfort....Jim loved dogs, so hopefully they are playing fetch together

 

[denvergirl]

Praying you'll all get a solid night of rest. You are so right. . .it is horrible, but just keep breathing, one breath at a time. You can do this. . .many friends are holding you and your family up tonight in prayer. Much love to you all!

 

[cogero]

aww D~ my heart is broken for you all. I am so sorry you are sad but know that Rufus is at peace and whole again.

many (((hugs))) and prayers to you all.

 

[cajunfan]

Awe D~ no words are needed. Just know your family is loved and there are a lot of people who are holding you guys in their thoughts and prayers and would do anything to take your hurt away.

Take care...

Lynn

 

[WDWCP96]

D~my heart is breaking for you and your family. Please know you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[mphalens]

Oh my friend We gave a toast to Rufus tonight at my book club. Know that I'm continuing to pray for you and your family. I know you will see Rufus again one day . . . and I know that he was a better dog for having you all in his life.

 

[DMGeurts]

So sorry

Debbie

Thank you Debbie.

hugs!!!

Thank you.

Dearest D~

There aren't any words to ease your pain, I know. PLEASE KNOW my prayers continue for your entire family, I DO know your heart is broken. Because you love Rufus, your soul is crying. I am thankful he is no longer in pain. I picture him running free, happy and smiling as he remembers his selfless family who loved him enough to let him go.


Until one has loved an animal a part of one's soul remains unawakened. ~Anatole France~

Thank you Judy. And thank you for the quote... It is so true.

I have no words to make it better. Just know that we are here for you.

Thank you Loree...

I have been reading your PTR since you began. I look forward to reading it every morning. I wanted to let you know how sorry I am for you and your family. I know from reading that Rufus was a very special member of your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Thank you so much for supporting us at this time... It means a lot to me that you introduced yourself to let us know you are praying for us.

I can't even imagine...and hope I never can. Thinking of you

Thank you Suzi.

you don't have to say anything D~ we know you are hurting...just know how much Megan and I are thinking of you all....she said to send you a BIG HUG and one from me too we will continue to hold you all in our hearts and prayers

Thank you Lisa and Megan.

I'm so sorry D Thank you for being such a wonderful Mommy to Rufus.

Thanks Andrea... and thanks for saying that.

D ~

Thank you Sheila.

this is so sweet!


D~ if this can maybe bring you some comfort....Jim loved dogs, so hopefully they are playing fetch together

That does bring me comfort... Thank you Lisa.

Praying you'll all get a solid night of rest. You are so right. . .it is horrible, but just keep breathing, one breath at a time. You can do this. . .many friends are holding you and your family up tonight in prayer. Much love to you all!

Thank you so much... and thank you for all your helpful posts for me during this time - they really helped a lot.

aww D~ my heart is broken for you all. I am so sorry you are sad but know that Rufus is at peace and whole again.

many (((hugs))) and prayers to you all.

Thank you Chiara.

Awe D~ no words are needed. Just know your family is loved and there are a lot of people who are holding you guys in their thoughts and prayers and would do anything to take your hurt away.

Take care...

Lynn

Thank you Lynn... That means a lot.

D~my heart is breaking for you and your family. Please know you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you.

Oh my friend We gave a toast to Rufus tonight at my book club. Know that I'm continuing to pray for you and your family. I know you will see Rufus again one day . . . and I know that he was a better dog for having you all in his life.

Thank you Marianne.

I am not sure how much detail I want to go into about yesterday. I know that many of you overcome so many greater challenges on a daily basis than I can ever imagine, so I feel so badly that my grief over Ruf has consumed my life. But he has been my 3rd child for more than a decade, and such an integral part of our family - we always knew this day would come, but I feel he was just taken so suddenly. 3 weeks ago, he was still acting like a puppy, and if you would have told me then that this was going to happen, I wouldn't have believed it.

I am still so shocked at how quickly he was deteriorating. I look at pictures from just 3 days ago, and there were so many things that he could do then, that he wasn't doing anymore.

I do believe we did the right thing, but I still wish he would have been able to leave us on his own. It was so hard to leave him at the vet yesterday.

Since Josh is still on his lifting restrictions, I've been the one carrying Ruf around when he got stuck somewhere and didn't have the energy to go any further. So, it was me that carried him into the vet office... I held myself together pretty well, until we got into the office by the counter, and this lady was watching me carry him - oohing over how cute he was, a 55lb teddy bear at that point - and the tears just stared falling, I couldn't see this lady because I was just trying to get Ruf to the room - but I could hear her go from "awww, he's so cute...." to "oh.... oh.... oh no" and by that time I was sobbing uncontrolably, while still trying to carry Ruf - I almost dropped him, thankfully the vet tech was right there and took him from me.

He went quickly, he went peacefully... It was all of us who weren't peaceful. All I wanted to do was throw up. I have to keep telling myself that I didn't kill him, and he was in pain, what I did was right by him... Over and over again.

Ruf's body will remain at the vet until Friday. We paid for a private creamation. So the creamation (society? Is that what it is?) will pick him up on Friday, then return him the following Friday. Which is the day after the girls and I return from Disney.

However, I am thankful that Allison was finally able to cry... Victoria has been crying all this time - ever since we found out. But Allison hasn't been crying at all - she was finally able to let it out last night - and even though it was hard to watch, I think it brought her some relief.

I am also thankful to each and every one of you who have been great friends to me through out all of this... Your words and prayers have brought great comfort to me.

D~

 

[DMGeurts]

The girls and I still need to do some trip preparations.

I don't want to be at home right now anyways... It's just too quiet and sad here with out Ruf.

I figured that today would be a good day to get out of the house for a few hours and get some of our last minute stuff done.

We need to go to Target to get the last of our GCs.

We need to go to the bank to get a little cash.

We also need a couple of random items while we are at Target.

I will probably grab a pizza for dinner tonight.

And the girls and I will most likely go out for lunch this afternoon.

We will probably try to stay gone until Josh gets home.

D~