HI, Treesinger, I've got another story about getting "saved".
I wasn't a religous person, but in order to get my firstborn baptized in the church (to make both sets of grandparents happy), we had to start attending ourselves. So we did.
I ended up getting to know some people and one wonderful woman invited me to go to Bible Study Fellowship where they were studing the gospel of John.
I found the history absolutely fascinating - they were at the part about the trials. I learned why these trials were really out of the ordinary and were done in secret without the majority of the Jews (who just loved Jesus to bits) knowing what was going on.
At any rate, I still wasn't sold on the fact that Jesus could be the son of God. I'm a scientist by profession and was well aware how my daughter came into this world. I thought Jesus was probably just a good man and a good teacher.
After studying and probing into the gospel more and more (I was mesmorized by this stuff), I realized that Jesus claimed to be God. What I am about to say is not original but it sums up how I feel:
Jesus was either a Liar, a Lunatic or Lord.
He claimed to be God, so therefore that blew my theory of him being a good teacher. Good teachers don't lie. Plus the fact that people will not die or go through the horrible torture he went through for a lie. So he must have believed it.
Ok - so what if he really believed he was God but he wasn"t? That would make him raving mad - a complete lunatic! Again, good teachers with sound teaching are not lunatics. And if he was a lunatic, he would have ranted and raved to prove himself innocent while being persecuted.
Well, that left Lord. I really had to do some thinking. I didn't want to believe Jesus was God because I thought it went against everything I believed for 32 years. Plus I had this crazy notion that if I became one of those Christians, I would never have any more fun in my life.
So I studied Josephus, the Jewish historian at that time. He was the State appointed historian - and he wrote about the Resurrection, so it gave it credibility.
Then I studied the Resurrection. A Roman Guard guarded the tomb. I found out that a Roman Guard consisted of 16 guards. It wasn't just one guy with a sword. These were big men who would've gotten in big big trouble if they had let anyone near that tomb! They would've been put to death themselves!
I came to the very calculated and scientific decision that this man they called Jesus was God.
After realizing that, I read what Jesus said. Basically, through him is eternal life - a good life after death - infact, your eternal life - your good life - actualy starts the moment you get "saved". No hell, no fire, no whatever hell is but it ain't pleasant.
I wasn't tempting Jesus in any way, but I wanted proof - sincere proof. I prayed in my kitchen that if indeed he was God and if indeed I needed to accept him as my Lord in order to be saved, I would do it - ON CONDITION that he showed me he was God.
Please, as I say, I was too naive to know I was tempting God - or giving him an ultimatum. I sincerely was seeking Him. I wanted to know Him if indeed he was who he said he was in the Bible. He seemed too good to be true - a really neat person, and yet God.
God knows your heart. He knows if you're sincere. He knows if you really want Him in your life. I did.
BOOM! I remember an amazing feeling! I remember crying by myself for no reason (I don't cry easily - infact, I'm embarrassed to admit how little I cry) with this most wonderful feeling. It was euphoric.
At that moment, I was saved.
I experienced what I call the Saul/Paul conversion BUT I don't know too many others who have experienced this!!!!
Only one person and that person got saved in my office
My husband never had any strange goings on in his life but he had a gradual coming to the Lord experience - he can't really pin point it although we know the year.
At any rate, I came to know Christ in 1983, my DH in 1988.
I just love Jesus. The more I know Him, the more I love him
And I'm really grateful that He loves me - LOL!
Sorry this is long, treesinger, but I hope it helps you in your journey. Feel free to call me - my journey took 3 years of studying and debating and learning - my decision - a heartbeat
Aloha,
Bwalker
