@dazedx3 I am sorry for what you and your DH are going through. Sending thoughts and prayers for healing.
@Pea-n-Me It is hard to lose a parent so young. And neither he nor you thought the outcome would be so tragic. It is good that you can use the experience to help your patients. You are such a kind and caring nurse and your patients are fortunate to have you caring for them.
Good morning. Thank you all for the kind words. Before I lost DH I never knew such pain and hurt could exist. I was devastated when my mother died but losing DH is on a whole different level. Of course I forgive him for not seeking medical care. No one thinks about the worst happening. Hindsight is a wonderful thing and I do know he was having heart issues looking logically at the problems he was having. Older DS mentioned possibly congestive heart failure beginning. I just feel so bad the grandkids miss out on having their grandpa, the kids their Dad, and me my beloved DH. It is 3 months today since he passed and it will be a tough one. The therapist asked me to think every day about how this day is better than the day before. Unfortunately this day will not be better than yesterday. But I will think about it each day and see.
@Pea-n-Me It is hard to lose a parent so young. And neither he nor you thought the outcome would be so tragic. It is good that you can use the experience to help your patients. You are such a kind and caring nurse and your patients are fortunate to have you caring for them.
Good morning. Thank you all for the kind words. Before I lost DH I never knew such pain and hurt could exist. I was devastated when my mother died but losing DH is on a whole different level. Of course I forgive him for not seeking medical care. No one thinks about the worst happening. Hindsight is a wonderful thing and I do know he was having heart issues looking logically at the problems he was having. Older DS mentioned possibly congestive heart failure beginning. I just feel so bad the grandkids miss out on having their grandpa, the kids their Dad, and me my beloved DH. It is 3 months today since he passed and it will be a tough one. The therapist asked me to think every day about how this day is better than the day before. Unfortunately this day will not be better than yesterday. But I will think about it each day and see.


I hope they can do something for whatever it is, and that she feels better soon.
It gets in the 40's even later 30's at night which for us is freezing! You have to also remember this apartment does not have safe to use heating
I'm wearing my new nightshirt right now and so thankful for that. I just need some fleecy gloves. They are so expensive though! I just want soft and very loose fitting so not constricting. Also not paying $17 for gloves will keep looking! 
and I know there is a basket of ironing to be done in the bedroom. And it's time tp purge the fridge of leftovers that were never eaten. Plus I need to make a trip to the grocery store....so I think I'm going to get up, get dressed and start my going to the store. Then home to clean up. I have a hair appt at 3, so that is something to look forward to!
. I have quite a few more weekends where I work Friday and Saturday night so I don't know what I'm going to do when I have to go back to the office next week. Hopefully working from home on Monday will help me.