just to let you know how i am doing....
after a awful, awful weekend, (my boys both played football for the saem club, u12 and u10, the teams decided to seperate last week, as we have both boys we were literally stuck in the middle, ref finances and equipment, started at 5 on friday, and literally all 3 phones ringing and people at the house all weekend, got worse on monday when they said we were biased and eldest son could no longer play

. i literally lost the plot and cried like a baby, we had been stuck there and it wasnt ds s fault, yet he was the one being punished.
the manager has since said he could play and apologised, but im still hurt as i considered him and his wife close friends (she was the one who sorted everything out)
monday night i went and brought and smoked a cigarette, didnt enjoy it, it didnt help, and i think i needed to get it out my system....
back on the patches today, no cravings, bit narky but need to keep to keep going....
thanks for your support
tracy