You sound like me! I'm always ready to freak out, lol. My hands actually shake when I'm ready to pounce on a dining reservation! You'd think I hadn't done it before. And if the restaurant I really really want hasn't shown up on the day it's supposed to, I freak out that I must not have gotten it in time. So far, that hasn't been the reason, but my go-to is to freak out.