So... I'm really ashamed of myself. I'm the heaviest I've been in 5 years. I've put on almost 20 pounds since my dad died. I'm really not doing a good job with self control at all. The fact of the matter is, I can watch what I eat all day while at the office (even though everyone there eats all day long) but as soon as I get home, BAM! I'm donezo.
So I have to decide how I'm going to tackle this eating at home thing. My mom and I talked about sitting down and making a menu for the week (just like 3 or 4 days, since it's just me and her eating usually). I told her since my dad was gone I really wanted to move away from buying the junk food and more into healthier items. And cooking healthy too. I had figured out that when my parents were away (my older sister lives in New York) that I'd always lose weight because I would only cook and prepare healthier dishes. But when they were home, my dad never really liked the healthier options.
I noticed my mom munches a lot. She was supposed to have quit smoking in 2007, but I have a feeling that she really didn't (and now she is) and plus just stress eating. So if I'm downstairs with my mom (as opposed to being in my room) I munch with her.
So I just need to get control of that. And it's not like I'm hungry. My appetite is actually really low and I'd be happy munching on carrots or blanched green beans.
Number two, I need to get myself sleeping again. I've always had difficulty sleeping (I'm actually taking Ambien) but I can't sleep. I think I let the things that are going on around me affect me too much.
Number three, I need to start walking. I'm thinking a half hour a day to start with, maybe after two weeks (or a month) move it to 45 minutes, then an hour. When I lived on my own I'd walk 2 miles every day after work, and 5 on the days I didn't work. I didn't really lose any weight, but I definitely think I felt better. I have to decide what to do on days it rains, since it rains about 50% of the time here.
Number four, no drinks. I don't drink a lot, but I love those fruity cocktails that pack a million calories. Years ago when my ex was in college, I quit drinking (I'd have like margaritas everyday) and I lost like 10 pounds over the summer, just from that alone.
I think if I can handle all that, which really isn't a lot... then I'll be looking better and feeling better for my trip to
Disneyland.