Okay...........now it's Weight Watchers Here I go again!

[DoeWDW]

Here's a for you! Staying up all night can really mess up our rhythm and make it tough to get back on track! Best of luck at getting yourself back to a normal schedule. Maybe a good workout on the treadmill during the late afternoon / early evening will tire you out enough to help you sleep?

I think you should stop eating the low-carb protein bars. They have been known to stall many peoples' loss. Also, adding a few more carbs per day may help as well. Every body is different and loses best at different carb levels.

May I make a suggestion? Use www.fitday.com and enter your food for a few days. I'm not sure you're eating enough calories to keep your body out of starvation mode. Some days you seem to do okay but other days your food intake just doesn't seem like enough.

Hang in there! I know it can be frustrating when the scale won't budge. Work on building your exercise habit, even if it's only a little bit every other day - that should really help!

Wish I could wave a magic wand and make things better - all I can do is send a and some sunny thoughts your way. Just keep taking baby steps - they WILL take you where you want to go.

 

[A1A1]

Thanks for the suggestions Doe. I will use fitday.com to see where I am.

Right now, I am not feeling well. Feel like I have or am getting the flu. Probably just the lack of sleep, but I feel nauseous just the same.

I am going to get on the treadie more often. The hardest part is just getting on it. It stares at me with pleaing eyes, and I just ignore it. Very mean.

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi A!

I am sorry you are not feeling well. I am worried about your food intake like Doe mentioned. It doesn't seem you eat enough food some days. Please take care of yourself. Exercise will most definitely help you and like Doe already said, if you build on a little but consistent bit of exercise, you can always add more days or a more strenuous routine.

Boy, can I relate to the lack of sleep you mentioned. Before South Beach, I was going to see a specialist because I could not fall asleep at night. I would lay there for hours and not be able to sleep and when I did finally fall asleep I would dream these crazy dreams where I was always doing stuff (driving, grocery shopping, running and yes sometimes flying, I did say I was dreaming so you can do that in a dream). I would wake up absolutely exhausted everyday! South Beach saved me. I sleep like a baby now. I also take a nice hot relaxing bubble bath every night. No matter how late it is. I find it relaxes me and I'm able to fall right asleep and sleep soundly. Hope some of this friendly advice helps you out!

 

[Strings]

A1, Lisa and Doe gave you some great suggestions. I'd like to add my .02. Try not to eat the bars. I checked a keto stick after eating 2 in one day. It threw me out of ketosis. Try taking your thyroid medicine 1st thing in the morning. Put it right next to your bed. Get a watch with an alarm and set it everyday if necessary. Hypothyroidism willcause weight gain. Taking your med later in the day can also be contrubuting to your insomnia. I know you've got a ton on your mind, but the med will help. It does take time for your levels to come up to normal. Are you taking a multi vitamin? to you.
I hope you can sleep tonight.
Beth

 

[A1A1]

Thank goodness for your posts. The connection is wonderful. I appreciate the time you have taken to respond. I will read your journals tomorrow. I am going to go to bed now.

I didn't eat any bars today!


Breakfast was posted above---scrambled egg sandwich

Lunch---I don't think I ate lunch today.

Dinner---Shrimp sauteed in grape seed oil with snap peas and zucchini (sp?). Water. I tried to make a little sauce for the shrimp made of butter, half and half, and parm cheese. It didn't taste very good, so I tried to strain it out.

I just drifted off for a second, so I am going to let that be the end for today.

Again, thanks! I hope you all had good days.........Talk with you tomorrow.

 

[DoeWDW]

It looks like you had a good day! Your food looks pretty good and congrats on not eating any bars. I know I rely on them too much and need to break that habit also!

Sleep tight tonight, A. I hope you have pleasant and happy dreams and wake up rested and refreshed.

 

[A1A1]

YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!

A breakthrough: I lost two pounds (of I don't know what) since yesterday. I can't believe it. Maybe I was hurting myself by relying on those bars. Also, when I did Atkins before and lost so much weight right away, I wasn't really doing Atkins. I made up my own diet which included some wheat bread with my breakfast, and I had a whole wheat half sub from subway once per week. That was my treat. It was turkey with mustard.
Anyway, I did have some carbs in my diet.

I am going to continue with my scrambled egg sandwiches for breakfast and see what happens. It didn't hurt me yesterday.


AAAARRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!! I forgot to take my medicine again. I will now have to wait three hours to take it, and then one hour after I take it before I can eat anything. I wish I could get on the stick with this medicine. I was in such a good routine before. Now that I am not working, I am out of the routine.

I still feel tired even though I went to bed at 9 pm last night. When you don't sleep it seems to take longer to catch up on the rest and to feel good again.


Goals:

1. Go to bed before 10pm.

2. Take my meds at 11am today.

3. No bars.

4. Eat a healthy dinner.

5. Treadmill today - 1 mile.



Breakfast: Two small scrambled eggs. Low carb ketchup. Two slices of wheat bread. Decaf coffee with half and half. Three glasses of water.

 

[DoeWDW]

TWO POUNDS!!

Bye-bye pounds!! You are hereby banished, never to return!!!

Congratulations! I know you must be so thrilled to see that scale move. You've really been hanging in there and your persistence is paying off!! You should be very proud of you!!!

Hope today is full of bright and sunny feelings for you!

 

[A1A1]

I decided that when I lose 50 pounds, I am going to pick up the phone and book dd and myself on one of the Disney cruises. I am not going to put a date or a deadline on these plans, just to keep them on the horizon. I know it will happen, just don't know when. I want to reward myself. I may even get into a bathing suit by that time. I am going to save my DVC points until then.

I hope it is a good idea to set up a reward like this. The reward will actually be the health and longevity that I will be giving myself by losing this weight. I think the cruise will be a nice way to celebrate it.

 

[A1A1]

Recap:


No bars today!

Breakfast--- 2 small scrambled eggs on 2 slices of whole wheat bread and low carb ketchup. Water

Lunch---Turkey with cheese and mustard wrap at Subway. Water.

Snack---2 ounces of cheese

Dinner---scallops (maybe 10) sauteed in grape seed oil with Mrs. Dash's and Old Bay. Salad with ranch. Water.



I did take my medicine at 11 am.

I am going to try to get to sleep earlier tonight, but it's already 9:20 pm. I am going to get on the treadmill right now.


I am excited because I found the Atkins low carb bread today!!!!!

 

[DoeWDW]

Your menu for today looks great! It looks like you actually ate enough food without going overboard. You also sound like you're feeling better.

Have fun on that treadie! Remember, the treadie is our friend!!

Keep it up, A! You're doing just fine!!

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi A,

Repeat after me, I must take my meds - I must take my meds !

Okay, now for the serious stuff. I think it's wonderful that you are going to treat you and your daughter to a cruise when you lose 50 pounds. It's something tangible to work toward and I really appreciate the fact that you have not set a specific date which could prove disappointing if you don't reach your goal by that date. I have a goal of hosting a formal anniversary party for me and DH when I lose 100 pounds. I haven't decided how I want to celebrate my 50 pound loss but it's fun to think about.

We have to set rewards for our weight loss. I know I used to say things like I would "treat" myself to this type of food or my favorite dish as a reward. That's pretty twisted (I'm speaking of myself only here) to reward yourself with food, especially when there are so many other wonderful things in life to enjoy (like a Disney cruise). So save those DVC points because we both know how many it takes for 2 people to go on a cruise! I hope you get some rest tonight. I'll check on you again soon.

 

[A1A1]

I had every intention of getting right up to get on the treadie. I called my Aunt on the phone, and before I knew it, I was eating half of one of those tiny bags of bbq potato chips. Then I went on to the orange pop in the fridge. And washed the soda pop down with about 8 ounces of honey sesame crackers. I went to get the chip dip for the crackers. Yes, I had crackers dipped in chip dip. Then I went to get the cookies. I ate the whole bag. I ate a 7 ounce bag of chocolate chip raspberry cookies with skim milk. Oh, and a small bowl of honey rice cereal with milk.




I am totally ashamed and feeling sick to my stomach. I don't know what happened. I was like an eating machine. I.........I don't know exactly what to write, except that I hope none of my fellow wisher's do what I just did. It was horrible. I feel awful. I am writing this here, in the hopes that I cure myself of whatever evil just happened, that I exercise the demon that inhabited my stomach, and that I might prevent anyone else from weaking to this point.

Honestly, I think I was just thirsty. All I really needed was a glass of water. Any idea if the carbs I ate earlier today got a hold of me and caused major carb cravings binge?

I am sorry to whomever I disappointed, especially to myself. I am sorry self. I will try to refrain from doing that again. I am going to go cry now. Then I am going to get on the treadmill.

 

[DoeWDW]

You sound so sad, A! My heart is breaking for you! I'm not disappointed in you at all. You are human like all of us. You cannot expect to walk this healthy living road without taking a detour or hitting some major bumps. A, that's all last night was - a bump in the road, a minor detour. It's OK!

Today is a new day. You can let your small detour become a journey in itself or you can work your way back to the road to healthy living. When I get off track, I have a hard time getting right back to my healthy ways, so I take baby steps over a couple days to get me back on the right track.

It is true that sometimes a few innocent carbs can bring the Carb Monster back into your life in a big way! For me, it depends on what part of my monthly cycle I'm in. There are times when I can have a few extra carbs and get right back on plan and other times when a couple carbs will set me off on a binge.

So, today is a new day. The past is in the past - no sense worrying about it. You just need to learn from it. Have you ever had a binge episode like that before?? I used to have them. The key is that I no longer have them on a regular basis. You need to make the time between binges longer and longer. That's how you'll know that you're succeeding.

Chin up, girlfriend! You're doing just fine! You sound sad and scared, but you will be feeling better soon. Take baby steps back to the healthy living journey. We're all here to help you find your way. Here's some bright to make the path easier to see!

 

[A1A1]

Okay. The Eating Monster was me last night for about fifteen to twenty minutes. I got that out of my system. Or, rather, I got that into and then out of my system. I did walk on the treadie for 1 mile afterward. I walked and then jogged, then walked, then jogged. I was proud of myself.

I am back on track today. Took my medicine first thing this morning.

Breakfast----one slice of turkey mushroom meatloaf with low carb ketchup. Water. I bought the meatloaf from the local grocery store, so I am not sure how much breading was mixed in. Really didn't taste like any, so I am hoping it wasn't much.

Moving on................

 

[A1A1]

I wrote in Doe's journal that I feel like a bear on the verge of hibernation. I am freezing. Don't want to take the doggie out, because it's so cold. Her poor little feet must be so cold. It has been either 0, 1, or 2 degrees for the past two days. I am sooooo cold. I want to sleep right now.

I walked on my treadmill last night, and was hoping to do the same today, but may not have the energy to do that. I know I would feel great if I did.

Breakfast -was the one slice of turkey meatloaf.
Snack - one ounce of cheese
Lunch - none am having an early dinner
Dinner - ate a bit too much......about a half pound of bacon and three scrambled eggs. lc ketchup. water. half mug of decaf coffe with half and half.
Snack - Carwise bar--- .1 net carbs Needed a chocolate fix.

I had a lot of bacon. It was soooo good. I think I was too hungry from not eating lunch.

I am really tired. I am helping my df clear his home of about twenty-five years worth of clutter and collection. He is moving, and he and my dm stored everything. There are boxes and boxes of our clothing from when dbr and I were children. They saved everything. It has been difficult going through all of my dm's papers as she passed away shortly after my dh became ill. I found some of his important things. Military dog tags......on and on. It has been emotionally draining. I kept several boxes of his things there after he got sick, and while I was looking for a place to live.

Bacon overload aside, it hasn't been a bad day. I didn't feel hungry at all, except for the bacon. I love bacon, btw. I need to learn to love it about five ounces less, I think.

DD wrote me a nice note today. She is a wonder.

Hope everyone has a good and restful evening. I hope that i have no more of those devilish food binges like last night. "Wish" me luck!

 

[A1A1]

Update to yesterday's post:

I had a minor/major slip-up last night. I got hungry. I ate the rest of the bacon wrapped in lettuce pieces with a little mayo. Bacon is so high in fat, that it's scarey to think I ate that before going to bed. I have to curb these late night binges.

I checked a ketostick this morning, and it was dark pink---ketosis. That is good. I don't really know how that could be with eating all that bacon yesterday.

I didn't walk on the treadie. I keep falling asleep sitting up. I have a physical scheduled for later this month. I think it is time to check my thyroid levels. I start this sleep-sitting around 6 in the evening. It goes on until I actually fall asleep I start watching movies in bed for the company. I always fall asleep during the movie, then have to wake up and shut everything off. It's a bad habit that I would like to break. I need to go up to bed, and leave the tv off. There is no cable or broadcast tv, just videos or dvd's.

Goals for the day:

1. Get up from my seat right now and take my medicine.
2. Eat on plan.
3. Walk on treadmill.
4. Stop eating by 7 pm
5. Go to sleep by 11 pm. Shut the tv off when I get in bed.

 

[Castillo Mom]

Hi A! I picked up where I left off on your journal the other day so I could get up to speed on how you're doing.

First of all, do not be ashamed and don't think that you could disappoint us. I'm not disappointed in you! Every single one of has gone through what you did the other day. Your intention wasn't to binge but it happened. Take it as a learning experience. Take the opportunity to analyze what happened and strategize about what you may be able to do differently next time. Is there a way to not bring those food items into your house? Did you have "legal" snacks readily available? I hope I'm not overstepping my boundaries, but I'll go out on a limb and ask you to post your strategy. If you feel more comfortable, PM me. This would be good for all of us, because I know I'll be faced with the same situation again one of these days, and I'm sure I can learn something from your experience, so if you're ok with it, please share.

Now about the bacon and the ketostick. I haven't used a ketostick in a long time but I'm familiar with the process. Remember, you're counting carbs on Atkins, not fat. That bacon had 0 carbs. I'm not promoting eating large amounts of bacon (I love bacon) however, the ketostick was purple because you went into ketosis and the bacon wouldn't affect that process. I'd say, no harm, no foul.

I have to commend you on your honesty A! That's another benefit of WISH, there's a certain amount of anonymity. I appreciate you sharing your experience with us, we can all learn from each other. Just keep looking forward, don't give up, ok? You can do this! I'm sending you a great big hug and hope that next week is a better one. Oh, and thank you for your kind words the other day when I was venting. Take care A!

 

[DoeWDW]

I hope all went well for you today, A! Did you take those meds?? Did you get on that treadie?? Did you eat on plan??

I did not meet all my goals today (forgot those vitamins AGAIN!) but I did meet many of them. If I didn't write them down, I'd NEVER meet any of them so I figure meeting some of them is a step in the right direction.

Take good care of yourself.

 

[A1A1]

I had a terribly stressful day. I need to let things roll off my back, and not let other people get to me. I let them get under my skin. I took my daughter to a class that she goes to every other week on Sat mornings. I took the last spot in a crowded parking lot, and the car behind me entering the lot had a crazy lady in it. She went ballistic. She was shouting out her car window at me. I decided that I'd definitely see her again sometime, so I walked dd into the school and told her to find her class so I could move my car. I was trying to be accommodating. I moved the car and tapped on the crazy lady's window (she was sitting in her car). I told her that I moved my car for her, but that someone else immediately went into the spot. She started mocking me and rolling her eyes. I haven't experienced anything like that since about the second grade. It was unbelievable. So, anyway, it has been bothering me all day. I always let people's personal issues become mine when they vent them on me. I really need to address this issue. It's a big problem that has plagued me all my life.


Food for today:

B----scrambled egg sandwich on lc bread with lc ketchup. water.

L---Subway wrap with turkey and all the veggies and mayo. water.

D---the toppings off two pieces of pizza. no crust at all. antipasto salad with ranch. I did eat lots of the salad. water.


I feel uncomfortable with the Subway wraps. Seems almost too good to be true.


I am exhausted tonight. Will not walk on treadie. Too tired. I am mentally becoming more serious about walking the 1/2 marathon next year. I talked to someone who did it before. She is going to walk one in San Diego this year. I now have to become as physically serious as I am becoming mentally.

I may go up and watch my favorite movie---Pride and Prejudice. I love that movie.

I took my meds. It is almost 11 pm, but I am wound up about the parking lot lady.