+ 31 for me.
I'm flustered with myself. The week before my last weigh in I worked really hard to meet my September goal, ate well and hit my first weight loss goal.
This past week I don't know what happened. It's like I stand on the edge and I can see what's possible and then instead of taking it to the next level, I retreat. This morning, I stepped on the scale and I knew what was going to happen and sure enough there it was, the number I was pretty sure was coming. and I know...I know, it's just a number and weight fluctuates pretty wildly, but I also know that I let myself down. I didn't try. I know what's possible and I went in the opposite direction.
I do that, too and know how you feel. Years ago, I was doing Weight Watchers (for like the third time), but that time I had a different outlook. I decided it was a marathon, not a sprint, and I didn't care how long it took me, I would reach my goal weight and make lifetime. I did it. Kept the weight off for quite a while, and weighed in at the meetings at least once a month to keep my status. Well, you can guess what happened....I quit going to meetings and slowly, but surely, the weight has crept back on.
I can't seem to get that same mindset. I will lose weight and then get to a certain point and (like you say - get to the edge and see what's possible) then mess up.
So this weeks' question for the group is this - what's at least one thing that motivates you to exercise?