NLC's Journal

[NeverlandClub23]

Hello!! I signed up for Wish awhile ago but could never get back into the motivational mindset I had then. My name's Kim, I'm 24, 5'5", and 161 lbs. Not bad but nowhere near what I want to be. I want to get healthy now as I don't want to live the rest of my life being healthy one day and eating a gallon of ice cream the next.

I want to do this for myself for life instead of for the next vacation or special event. I am really trying to stay motivated and I'm hoping by doing this journal and holding myself accountable that I can do it for good this time.

My biggest problem is my love for food and large quantities of food. I overeat when I'm happy, sad, bored, tired, frustrated, etc. It also doesn't help that my family is pretty unhealthy and I'm so used to living that way (I still live at home). My DBF is going to change his lifestyle with me but I think it may actually be harder for him as he doesn't like to give up things (i.e. eating a whole bag of Doritos) and has no idea what's good and what's bad for him (he thought Fettuccine Alfredo was healthy!). I at least KNOW what's bad for me, I just eat it anyways.

Another motivator is my DBF and I really want to do parasailing together on our upcoming trip to WDW. But to do a tandem parasailing thing at the Contemporary the maximum weight limit is 330 lbs. He's 6'5" 244 lbs so between the two of us we have about 75 lbs. to lose. But even if we didn't make it to the maximum weight I would just be so much happier with myself.

My plan is to change the way I view food as not just something that is just there to please me but actually fuels my body. I also want to get up early and go to the gym but this week and last week has been hard as I've been having to be at work at 7 a.m. instead of the normal 8:30, but hopefully that will change back next week. I visit my DBF every weekend (he lives in NC) or he visits me and I want to plan more active things for us to do together. I also plan to get back into taking dance classes. I wanted to try karate but I think I'm scared of the unknown. I always try to talk myself out of new things.

The food's the hardest part. I love being active and excersizing, it's just sticking to a healthy eating plan that I struggle with. I get to be lazy when I get home from work and put off going to the grocery store and then end up having nothing to eat for lunch the next day and I go get fast food. Or I wake up at the last minute (story of my life) and don't have time to make anything.

I'm a generally lazy person and that drives me crazy. I want my life to change and I'm going to make it. We only get one life here and I want to make it the best life a person could have.

Thanks Dis Wishers for giving me a place to go!

 

[NeverlandClub23]

Ok so once again my alarm went off at 5 a.m. and my body laughed at me and said "Yeah right" and rolled back over. You see, for the past four days I've been setting my alarm for 5 to go to the gym before having to be at work at 7. But it isn't happening. I really hope my hours go back to 8:30 as now I'm used to getting up at 6:15 and could go to the gym then.

My mom and I are going to go for a walk this afternoon. Maybe at the beach. So at least I'll have some kind of activity.

I'm starting WW. Not the actual meetings and what-not but I ordered the starter kit off of Ebay and hopefully will be getting it soon. I bought two Lean Cuisine meals (with Weight Watchers points) for lunch and dinner and I had a plum for breakfast. I need to drink more water but it is so hard not drinking diet soda.

I also ordered some fitness mags from www.speedymags.com. Fitness mags (especially Women's Health) really get me motivated and inspired and they have very interesting information. The thing I love about that website is I got 1 year subscriptions to 3 different magazines for $25 total. Great deal in my opinion.

I'll be weighing myself in two weeks. I would do it every week but then I become a slave to the scale and check it every day and get discouraged when I gain or lose weight.

Here's to Day 1!!

 

[CACruisin']

Welcome to WISH and starting a journal. It sounds like you have a great plan. Journalling and being accountable is a wonderful way to stay on that plan too. It is wonderful that your DBF is going to do this with you and that you have a joint goal with the parasailing. What a fun reward that will be for you both.

May I make one suggestion? Try having more for breakfast and include some protein. It is hard to take those extra few minutes in the morning (believe me, I know!), but it really does set the day of right for your body. Try PB sandwich on the way to work or hardboiled egg maybe? Even some kind of granola bar (Balance, Luna, Kashi, etc) would work.

Again, great job starting off with a journal. Journal often. You know all the right things to do and you can do it!!

 

[NeverlandClub23]

Thanks for the suggestion! I really do need to eat something for breakfast but it's getting my mind to think it's ok to eat food and to be satisfied and to still lose weight. I'm so used to practically starving myself to be able to lose weight. But I really am going to try to eat breakfast.

I think this journal thing is going to be great for me as I have somewhere to get it all out so I don't stay frustrated at myself and eat more food. Why is food so addicting?

I have done pretty good today with drinking water. God bless the Bubba Keg! I have a 32 oz. one and have drank two so far.

Thanks so much for the motivation! It really helps!


I might even have to do a before and after picture on here.

 

[NeverlandClub23]

Ok it's Day 2 and I'm still feeling good. I usually do until the second week where things start to fizzle. I had a glass of milk and some fruit this morning for breakfast.

Last night I went with my parents for a walk at the beach. That was nice but I never feel like my heart rate goes up, but I guess it's better than nothing. My DBF is coming to see me this weekend so I went to the grocery store last night and got some healthy meals and snacks as we have a tendency to go out to eat for every meal and order appetizer, entrees, and desserts.

I can't wait to start going back to the gym. I could go at night but it's so much more crowded than it is in the morning. But I do plan on doing two 5 mile walks this weekend.

I hate water so getting it down is getting harder and harder but I know it's something I have to do.

That's all for now. Here's hoping for a successful day #2!!!

 

[CACruisin']

Sounds like you are doing great

Good job adding the milk to breakfast (I am a BIG milk fan! ) and planning ahead with healthy meals for you and DBF this weekend.

Just getting out and moving is better than sitting on the couch, so yes, everything counts.

It is a mindset change to think about eating vs. starving to lose weight. Yes, the weight will come off SHORT TERM if you don't eat, but that is not a sustainable lifestyle. It will all come back with a vengence when you do eat. It is important to not let your body get into starvation mode by givning it enough fule while still having your body use its "excess" fuel so you lose weight. For some people it is low/no carb. Others like WW, counting calories, or small meals throughout the day. Reading some journals can give you some ideas. You just need to find something (or a combination of things) that works for you and fits into your lifestyle so it is a long term solution. You have a lot of knowledge and will find that combination that works for you, I am sure.

 

[NeverlandClub23]

Hooray! I lost 7 lbs.! I lost 7 lbs.!

I hadn't planned on weighing myself but, well, I did. And to my shock and amazement, I had lost 7 lbs.! I did very well this weekend. I went on a total of about 6 walks. I went out for dinner to Cheeseburger in Paradise and Chili's on Saturday and Sunday night but I only got dinner salads (the one at Chili's was OUT OF THIS WORLD!!). My DBF and I also went to Cracker Barrel Sunday for lunch and I had a Grilled Chicken Salad which was pretty good (and no sweet tea or biscuits!). The rest of the time I had fruit and Lean Cuisine meals and lots of water. I had scrambled eggs for breakfast both days as well. I'm so excited because I'm on my way! I also went to the gym for an hour and half this morning so I feel good about that. Next weekend will be the real test as I'm going to my DBF's house and his family is extremely southern and makes HUGE breakfasts, lunches, and dinners and constantly say "Eat more!!". But I'm bringing my own meals and just hope they understand I'm eating healthy now.

Here's to day 5!!!

 

[kimwim8]

Welcome, and CONGRATS on your loss! You're really doing great!

I agree that breakfast is really important, even if you can only grab a quick protien. It will help get your body burining off the calories!

Good luck at your boyfriend's house. I know it's hard...but you are in the zone right now...don't let them push you into eating something you're gonna feel horrible about afterwards. That food will all be around when you've lost your weight, if you want to eat it then (every once in a while ).

Take care, and keep up the GREAT work!

 

[CJK]

Congrats on the weightloss!!!! Isn't that wonderful motivation?? It sounds like you're really geting the swing of this healthy lifestyle! You and I sound similar in a lot of ways. I have a much easier time exercising, than I do with healthy eating. I've exercised fairly consistently for the last 10yrs, but still continued to gain weight since I wasn't watching what I ate. I'm now developing a great routine of smaller portions combined with my usual exercise. I hear you about the water thing too!! It's still a struggle for me too, but I can tell you that it does get easier.

Best of luck to you as you continue on your weightloss journey. Keep posting in your journal as I have found it a wonderful motivator. It helps to be accountable. Have a great week!!!!

 

[CACruisin']

Congrats on the loss! Sounds like you made good choices this weekend with DBF too. You have a good plan next weekend. Taking small portions can also be helpful. Then you don't feel like you are depriving yourself.

Have a great week. You are off to a great start on your WISH journey.

 

[NeverlandClub23]

Thank you all for your positive comments!! I really appreciate it . It helps keep me motivated.

I'm really going to try not to weigh myself until Sept. 9th because I don't want my emotions caught up on what the scale says. My DBF lost 6 lbs. in the past five days so I was proud of him too (I lost more! ).

I feel like I had so much energy this weekend. I felt like I wanted to run everywhere. It was such a great feeling.

I'm seriously considering training for a marathon next year. I've always wanted to do one and I can only imagine the sense of accomplishment that comes from doing one.

Thanks again everyone!!

Back to chugging down more water......yuck.

 

[CJK]

That's fantastic that you're feeling more energized!! You can't beat that feeling! Way to go on considering a marathon!! Maybe you could try running a 5km or something to see how it feels. Be sure to check out the "events" board on WISH. There are some walkers/runners who participate in many events (Disney marathons for example!!) and they'd be happy to chat with you. Keep up the great work!

 

[NeverlandClub23]

I feel so good today!! It was a struggle to get out of bed when the alarm went off at 6 a.m. but after I left the gym at 8 it was soooo worth it. I felt wonderful! There's something invigorating about getting up early, sweating to death, taking a shower, and heading to work.

My mom and I went for a walk at Yorktown Beach last night and it started pouring down raining halfway through. But I was so proud of her because we kept going!! This is the same lady that if a drop of water hits her she runs like she's being chased by lions. We then came home and watched Diet Doctor on FitTV and that was pretty interesting. One of the most frustrating things for people trying to be healthy, I think, is all of the conflicting advice out there.

I was very tempted to eat the enchiladas my mom and I made last night. We made them for my dad and brother (neither would be caught dead eating healthy). But after we both read the nutrition facts I couldn't bare eating one. One enchilada is 40 minutes worth of being on the elliptical machine. I didn't work my butt off for one enchilada! We both ate Lean Cuisine meals. I ate Asian pot stickers and she had roasted garlic chicken pizza. I love Lean Cuisine. They taste pretty good.

I also called last night to register for dance classes (jazz and hip hop) that start in a few weeks. I danced from 5-17 years old but then I started to hate it. I think I'm ready to get back into it now.

My DBF is starting to get moody. I feel bad for him because his family is extremely unhealthy and he's used to eating all of the food his family does. But I keep trying to support him and tell him it'll get easier. When he used to live on his own he was so much healthier so I think in the future, if/when we get married, it would be easier for us to have a healthy lifestyle.

It's supposed to pretty much rain everyday for the rest of the week so I don't know how many afternoon walks my mom and I will be getting in. She's lost 25 lbs. in the past 3-4 months (used to be 185).

I have ALOT of tempting situations coming up. Trip to Gatlinburg, Rascal Flatts concert, and a trip to King's Dominion (yay funnel cakes!!). So hopefully I can keep my motivation and not be tempted (too much) by evil ( ) food (or alcohol).

Here's to Day 6!!!

 

[kimwim8]

Congrats to your boyfriend! I give him a LOT of credit for losing weight while being around people that don't eat healthy foods. It's SO hard to be the odd-man-out.

You're doing so great too! Great job getting to the gym. I feel the same way...I like to work out first thing in the morning to "get it over with" but when I'm done I just feel GREAT.

You do have some events coming up that will tempt you. If you are good 99% of the time, you can treat yourself too. If you want a funnel cake, get it...make it your lunch, or have a salad for lunch - know what I mean? Just stick to treats in moderation, and you'll be fine. I know we're not "supposed" to treat ourselves with food for living a healthy lifestyle...but I do. It stops me from binging on those foods because I get the taste of them every once in a while. And if I've been really good about sticking to my healthy plan, then I feel NO GUILT when I have a treat. It's my pat on the back.

Keep up the great work!

 

[goldcupmom]

Belated Welcome to WISH and CONGRATULATIONS!!! SEVEN pounds GONE!!!

You're doing great!

Have a wonderful rest of the week!! Parasailing is SO MUCH FUN!!

 

[CJK]

Your terrific attitude is going to get you far!!

I agree that you can plan for some of your tempting situations. You don't want to deprive yourself completely or you'll binge (and boy, have I been there!).

Continued success!!!

 

[NeverlandClub23]

It's been a week! Still going strong. I really haven't been tempted by anything as we don't keep much junk food in our house. Although my mouth does water a bit when I drive by Sonic and think of a Brownie Blast. I also believe popping popcorn should be illegal when anyone is within 500 ft. and trying to be healthy. And of course it's the coated in a pound of butter kind.

I went to the gym this morning. Felt good and refreshed after, of course not when I could barely open my eyes and grumbled to get out of bed. My mom and I went for a walk last night on the sidewalk that never ends. Seriously, it never, ever ends. We decided to walk around a neighborhood close to us (as we don't have sidewalks in our neighborhood and it isn't that big). My dad and her (on a different night) had mapped out a 3 mile loop taking the sidewalks so we went to do that. If felt like a 3 day loop. We were sweating and walking and panting "Will this ever end?!?", but we made it. It only took an hour.

What a coincidence...one of my coworkers just popped a bag of popcorn.

Anyways, I haven't weighed myself yet, although I kind of wanted to last night. I think my boyfriend's starting to fall off of the healthy bandwagon. He made chicken alfredo last night and said he ate a little of it. Which is code for he ate alot of it. But I just keep supporting him and not make him feel bad for eating what he wants. But I may be doing solo parasailing on our WDW trip .

I've been drinking about 110 oz. of water a day and 16 oz. of skim milk. I drink most of that water at work as once I get home it's hard to remember to drink water. I wanted a diet soda last night but I keep them in my car and I was too lazy (and it was pouring down raining) so I didn't go get it.

Well, here's to day 7. And thanks to all of you for the comments, compliments, and for being so welcoming!

 

[CACruisin']

Congrats on your first week! and great job going to the gym AND getting a walk in too.

You have a very good attitude about your new lifestyle and that will take you far - including parasailing with or without DBF

 

[NeverlandClub23]

Went to the gym this morning. I had a very interesting time there. While on the elliptical machine I started really feeling the music and started going faster. Next thing I know, my headphone cord gets stuck on the handlebars, they get ripped out of my ears, my CD player flies off of the machine, hits the ground and the batteries and CD come flying out. I think I was more mad that I had to stop and get off than anything. Then I go to the lockeroom and take my bag out of the locker and take my clothes into the changing room right beside my locker (leaving my bag out and in front of my locker with my shower stuff in front of my bag). Next thing I know I hear all of my stuff hit the ground. Apparently my stuff was slightly in front of the locker beside mine and the lady who's stuff was in there thought she would prove a point by pushing all of my stuff on the floor. I thought at first it was an accident but then I thought if I had accidentally knocked someone's stuff on the ground I would have at least picked it up and put it to the side. Oh well. But then as I was getting ready 3 different women told me to have a great day, which for some odd reason always makes me happy.

I wasn't able to go for a walk last night as it was raining and my grandmother (mom's mom) died a few weeks ago and she's been going over her house every Wednesday with her brothers and sisters to try and go through all of the stuff she had. So I stepped up and down on the hearth of our fireplace for 10 minutes which didn't feel like anything at first but I was exhausted after 10 minutes.

I didn't drink as much water as I should yesterday. Maybe 45-50 oz. Water irritates me.

I now no longer have to worry about binging on funnel cakes as we decided not to go to King's Dominion as that's money we could spend on our trip to TN. But since I haven't really had any temptation since I started I wonder if I would even really want a funnel cake.

I'm really worried about this weekend. My boyfriend's family is going to constantly try to push me to eat junk. They are pretty heavy people and think anyone thinner than them is too thin. I'll just have to say no (like I'm being peer pressured into drugs ). But we are going to his aunt and uncle's house for the day this weekend. They live out in the mountains of VA and own alot of land. We're planning on going for a four mile hike on this trail through the woods. He also wants me to shoot guns and ride their four wheelers, but I'm not a boy and have no interest in doing that stuff. But we'll see.

I didn't weigh myself today, but again I really wanted to. I feel like I've lost weight but I asked myself how I would feel if I got on the scale and it said I had lost nothing. Honestly I would feel a little disappointed and I figured it's better feeling like I'm losing weight than knowing I'm not.

Day #8 and the last day of August!!!

 

[NeverlandClub23]

AND like an idiot I was going along on the elliptical machine and I glanced up at the clock. It was 7:15. I kept thinking "Hmmmm....there's something I'm supposed to do this morning" and then it dawned on me that I was supposed to call to try and get an Illuminations Cruise.

Oh well, I'll try again for our second night in Epcot this Saturday. Hopefully I'll remember this time.