CHRIZJEN, It is hard when the rest of the world (including stupid Britney Spears) keep have babies when you can't. It's normal -- my brother's girlfriend (!), my boss, my best friend and my next door neighbor were all pregnant and THAT was really hard. (((HUGS))) to you guys -- hang in there.
I had my HSG today and my right tube is blocked with a large mass. Scar tissue? A family of gnomes? Who knows. Guess I'll have to talk to my doctor about my options. It was completely horrible -- my right side feels like a truck drove through there.
OUCH!! I was pretty sore from mine too.
Wow, what if it IS a family of gnomes? Are you prepared to give them a loving home and care for them as if they're your own? (well, technically, they kind of would be your own)
Anyhow, i digress. Hopefully you can find out what's in there and they can get you going in the right direction.
Thanks, guys for your kind words. It really does mean a LOT to have people who know what you're going through.
If you'll bear with me, I have a kind of long-ish story that leads me to tell you something that DP Jen said the other day:
The reason we were babysitting last week for our friends (when we found out the M&M are pregnant) was that they have 5 children whom they adopted, ages 3-9. 4 of those children were adopted just last year from Brazil, speak very little English, and have some SEVERE emotional baggage and behavioral issues that stem from some signifcant abuse. SO, our friends occasionally get a little flustered and need a break. They have asked in the past if we could just come over for an hour or so to give them a breather. Well, on a whim, we called last Friday, and they happened to be having a particularly tough day. So we told them to get cleaned up. They were going out for the evening. We said that we would bring over a movie and sit with the kids, and they could go out on the town and have some fun. So they go out, they're gone for about 5-6 hours, they come home, say thanks, and we go home.
NOW...to backtrack just a bit...LOL
These friends also own and run their own salon. They opened for business about a year and a half ago, and they really aren't doing so well. They cannot find stylists to rent their stations to save their lives. They have one stylist on their payroll, but they really want to fill the rest of the stations with stylists who rent the space. They've put adds in the paper, they've gone to the beauty schools in the area to recruit stylists, nothing's working. They had JUST sat down with us the week before and told us that they were probably going to have to close the salon.
OK, now back to the whole Friday night babysitting thing. We got a call on Sunday from them, and they said that Friday night when we came over, they ended up going to a party that a friend was having, and they met a stylist who happened to mention that her lease was up at the salon where she works, and that she didn't want to renew. She was LOOKING for a salon!!
Well, she stopped by the salon on Sunday, took a look around, and she signed a one year lease with their salon!! AND she said that some of the other girls at the salon were probably going to be interested once their leases were up!!
So they were basically calling to say that it was fate that we were there on Friday and that they were able to be at that party!
So when we got off the phone with them on Sunday, Jen sighed and said, "When's it OUR turn for a miracle? We've now helped two of our friends get theirs. When will we get ours?"
And that's kinda how I feel too. I really REALLY enjoy helping other people out. Don't get me wrong. It's a GREAT feeling to know that we've helped our friends out. But we need a slice of the pie too...LOL
I miscarried March 29 and was told to wait for two weeks before bding. We used the rhythm method because I wanted to wait to get my first period and wouldn't you know it, I ovulated 2 weeks exactly after miscarrying. So what I'm trying to say is I took a test on Saturday and wouldn't you know it, I got a BFP. I'm really concerned about this pregnancy because I've been through so much stress with seeing my son attacked and I have been having anxiety attacks and emotional melt downs like crazy. As soon as I took the test I really got a hold of myself and I'm trying not to stress out. 
