New TTC Thread

[chloelovesdisney]

Haha, Dollar Tree, baby! Dollar Tree

There's no dollar tree or similar type stores around here. The rent is sky high, it would have to be ten or twenty dollar tree store, lol.

 

[Kronk's girl]

Think of all the money we wasted on BC methods.

Exactly...I would like all that money back please!!

Hey I have a serious question-- how do you all stay so optimistic? I just can't. I try. I just can't. Do you all know a trick or secret that I don't?

I think it is just different for everyone. I know a lot of people in here have a hard time at baby showers or visiting friends with babies. Surprisingly those things don't bother me- in fact I threw a few baby showers this year and I try to visit all the moms/babies as much as I can. I feel like if I don't get a chance to have a child of my own, I might as well enjoy spending time with their babies, and I am happy that they don't have to go through what I am going through.

But then there are some things that really get to me, like movies/tv shows. At Up I was hysterical in the theater. I was as silent as a mouse, but I was grateful to have the dark and the 3-D glasses on because my eyes were like running faucets and I was all sweaty from holding my body stiff and trying to not cry out loud.

The other day I almost started crying at the doctor's office because sometimes just saying it out loud is hard. I wasn't even there for anything related to infertility (but you always have to remind them you are TTCing for prescriptions) and the nurse hugged me and said "why do all these nice young girls have such a hard time getting pregnant, I don't understand God's plan up there sometimes" - it was sweet, but I had to just say "we're still crossing our fingers" and run out of the room because I could feel a few tears coming.

I am trying to stay positive, I hope that someday this will all just be a forgotten "bad dream" and that I will be busy taking care of a baby next year... and then when I am changing diapers, and cleaning up vomit I can remind myself how BADLY I wanted this

 

[Kronk's girl]

I didn't mean to put down people getting sad at baby showers- I totally understand it's a giant reminder that you aren't pregnant!! It's just not something that hits me particularly hard. Sorry I just had to add that in

 

[WDWAurora]

I wouldn't say I stayed optimistic at all. Kronk's Girl-I also bawled during Up. I mean, really? A kid's movie needs to deal with infertility? I took my nephew and he was so confused about why I was crying. I will NOT purchase that movie out of principal. Yuck.

Anything baby was (and sometimes IS) hard for me. I had to throw 2 baby showers for my sisters-in-law (one who was due a week after the baby we miscarried was due) and it was awful. I found myself overcompensating on a lot for them to try to keep me from thinking about it too much. Lots of things are still insanely hard, even after getting pregnant. Babies R Us completely overwhelms me. The idea of mother's day still seems like something I'm not going to like. I think it's more something you just survive, and you really don't know how you do it, you just do it because you have to.

 

[esbrick]

Pollito~I'm sorry AF showed up I know what you mean about getting af after wasting a PT.


Well I did my shot last night! Once I stood up and was pointing that needle at my stomach my heart started to race! But I did it! It didn't hurt at all!!!! So glad that first shot is over with, so now I don't have to worry about it from now on. If anyone wants to see me doing my first injection I have it on photobucket. The sound isn't good because it was recorded with my picture camera.

http://s40.photobucket.com/albums/e...n=view&current=firstIVFinjectionlupron037.flv

Great Job! Yahoo! Fantastic!

 

[esbrick]

Broke down this afternoon and tested 5 days early, BFN. Oh well, I'll try again in a couple of days.

You're braver then I am! Alls not lost yet sister!

 

[esbrick]

Right there with yas!

 

[esbrick]

Think of all the money we wasted on BC methods.

Shoot seriously that kills me! Can't believe it!

 

[esbrick]

Look there have been alot of ladies here before me. However, each person's journey is different. We all have stuff going on. I had a friend whose wife and he had gone through it and we both deal with it similar which was great. A little humor but LOTS of compassion. Doesn't make one way right or wrong as it's differnt to every couple.

I have to say that learning has been so important. I know we have desided not to test until 1/1 but of course I am jonsing to go down stairs right now, however, I also know I can't bear the disappointment so I can wait it out. AGGG! I'll cave, I know but at least I can be strong for a bit here. . .

I am sending hugs to everyone!
xo
E

 

[Kronk's girl]

Well Esbrick and Chloe- having done IUI I could only imagine the urge to want to test being twice as strong! Hold out Esbrick! Distract yourself with Christmas festivities...and if you don't celebrate Christmas, celebrate festivus! Get ready for your church wedding, try on that dress and tell yourself it's a good thing your aren't pregnant...yet...because you will look awesome in those pictures! Pack and re-pack for your exciting Ireland trip... Okay that's all the things I can think of to help you try to keep your mind off of it- good luck!

 

[esbrick]

Thanks Kronk's Girl! I'm off to start "distractions" now!

 

[skuttle]

Hi ladies!! I've been sick so haven't been on the boards much. I had to jump on before things started getting too crazy over here to wish y'all a very Merry Christmas!

Chloe...Don't give up!! It's not over until AF shows up!

E...I was never good at not testing! LOL! After my IUIs I usually started testing at 10dpiui, which is really early. I couldn't help it. Plus, I bought a bunch of cheap HPTs on line so the money factor couldn't stop me either!

Charming...I'm not optimistic at all to be honest. I try to be, I really do, but after 3 years of this, it's just not in me. I guess I'm slowly trying to accept that I may never have another child even thought I want another SO much. Then I'll have to work on being okay around pregnant girls and newborns. One step at a time I suppose.

Kronk's Girl...UP got to me too. I did buy it for DS for his stocking, but that part kills me. And then I get mad at myself for letting a fictional character's fictional TTC problems get to me.

Hey Courtney! Glad things are going well for you.

Not much going on here as far as TTC goes. I'm on CD31 and still no AF. My first cycle off of all fertility meds, AF arrived early at CD24. Last month was CD26. Guess we'll see how long it goes this time. I know better than to get my hopes up. When I was on fertility meds, AF would arrive around CD30ish.

Just one more week and then we can say good riddance to 2009 and hello to a hopefully fertile 2010!!

 

[esbrick]

OK. . . I caved. . . Nuff said. . .

It's only 8 days though. Way early right? As I have said and Allison just said, It's ain't over til AF is here.

Need to start getting ready for dinner this eveing and get everyone on board.

Merry Christmas my Sisters!
xo
E

 

[D&DDisney]

Anything baby was (and sometimes IS) hard for me. I had to throw 2 baby showers for my sisters-in-law (one who was due a week after the baby we miscarried was due) and it was awful. I found myself overcompensating on a lot for them to try to keep me from thinking about it too much. Lots of things are still insanely hard, even after getting pregnant. Babies R Us completely overwhelms me. The idea of mother's day still seems like something I'm not going to like. I think it's more something you just survive, and you really don't know how you do it, you just do it because you have to.

Same here Aurora.
I think infertility really scars you for life. I have had both my sons for 8 years now and Mother's Day is still the hardest day EVER!!!! DH can't understand it. Sometimes neither can I. Its just a day that reopens the wound. Even though I am thrilled to have my boys and try to be happy that day -for them, I am still very emotional and refuse to go out to eat or celebrate too much. I told my DH to keep it very low key. Somehow infertility just sucked the joy out of my 1 pregnancy and every Mother's day since.

I too cried at that scene in UP.
The movie that gave us hope was one that we watched a lot before we had the kids. Its an old movie called "A Smile Like Yours". Its about a couple going through infertility and finally in the end have a baby.

 

[D&DDisney]

OK. . . I caved. . . Nuff said. . .

It's only 8 days though. Way early right? As I have said and Allison just said, It's ain't over til AF is here.

Need to start getting ready for dinner this eveing and get everyone on board.

Merry Christmas my Sisters!
xo
E

Yes, way too early. Hang in there es and have a glass of eggnog.

 

[D&DDisney]

Merry Christmas everyone!! Hope there's a "little smiley" in your stocking tonight.

 

[minnieandmickeymouse]

Merry Christmas!!!!

 

[skuttle]

Early christmas present for me...AF arrived. Why is it hard every month even though I know my chances of conceiving w/o help are slim to none!?!

Oh well, at least that's over with. Time to focus on DS waking up tomorrow morning!!

Merry Christmas, girls!!

 

[esbrick]

Merry Christmas Ladies! Just finished wrapping! Had a great Christmas Eve with the family.

I wish you all a very Merry Christmas! You have all been my greatest gifts this year! Thank you!

xo
E

 

[minnieandmickeymouse]

I hope everyone had a wonderful christmas.

Skuttle, sorry AF showed up for you on xmas. That happened to me last year during xmas, made me very sad.


I think the lupron has started to give me side effects. I woke up this morning with the worst migraine, and I was soaked with sweat! I never sweat at night.