Dear Mum,
I can't understand how you don't get it, honestly. I really like Fil. I mean, really really like. To the point at which i think i love him, already. Surely the way i talk about him is proof of how much i do like him, i never did it with Richard or anyone else.
And i know there is a few cons to Fil coming down, in your point of view. I know you are a little iffy with him staying here because you've never met him before. But the number of times he's suggested that he talks to you, and even suggesting that he stays in a hotel instead, isn't that proof enough that this is different to a normal 'crush'?
I seriously like him, but you're making things difficult. You say it's my problem about him coming down. That i was the one who got into this long-distance relationship, but you could at least show some understanding. And if it's my problem, why can't i say right now 'yeah, you can come down'? You say i have to wait until my exams are over, before i start worrying about it, but i can't.
I respect your point and for that reason i've tried to slacken off the amount of times i talk about him. And have you noticed i've stopped suggesting when he comes down?
At the moment you hate the fact that he's all i think about. You hate the fact that i'm always talking with him on the phone and through texts and such. But i just see it as a way of showing you how much being with him means to me, because you didn't take me seriously when i tried to confide in you about how much i really was missing him.
And i was talking to Mikey the other day. He said that you're right - maybe Fil isn't going to be my one and only love. But he is the one right now, and that's all that matters. Atm i need to focus on making it work, which is what im trying to do.
Please, please, try to understand where i'm coming from.
Sian x x
, they're expecting it now 
