Need some advice from dog owners

[kermit116]

Thanks for all of the additional advice...I so appreciate the kind words of encouragement and the doses of realism.

My boss owns a horsefarm and he and his wife are animal lovers of the first degree. He had noticed I was not myself this week and when I approached him today and explained my situation, he said they'll help me find her a good home and to not beat myself up about it. I can't tell you how relieved I am to know that she will soon have a better caregiver than I. I'm just so grateful that they will help us.

As an aside, I have never experienced anxiety like this in my life and I may just see a social worker or psychologist over it. I have always been a bit of a worrier, but nothing like this extreme level. Just one example, she had chewed off the rubber gasket around the bottom of her food bowl and it was in about six pieces and I've been consumed since about her choking. I put the gasket back together around the bowl to be sure she hadn't swallowed any and when it seemed that she hadn't I think I cried for a solid half-hour. I don't remember feeling like this when our son was a baby, sure there were tough days but I always felt in control.

I'm guessing that my shoulder pain is not just a function of holding and lifting her, but also brought on by stress. I've got appointments with my osteopath and for a massage, so that will help in the short term.

Glad your boss is able to help out. Hope things get better & less stressful soon!