Need Help Quick!!!

[brighteyes]

I am caving, I have a lit cigarette burning in front of me, and I want to smoke it sooo bad, but haven't!!! I feel soo silly, but I really really want to smoke the rest of it before it burns.

I keep thinking, half one won't do any harm, but will undo all the last 7 days. Today is really hard for some reason, and got mad at DS and lit it up.

I have nothing left to eat in the house to much on. lol

Stephanie

 

[toesmom]

I am caving, I have a lit cigarette burning in front of me, and I want to smoke it sooo bad, but haven't!!! I feel soo silly, but I really really want to smoke the rest of it before it burns.

I keep thinking, half one won't do any harm, but will undo all the last 7 days. Today is really hard for some reason, and got mad at DS and lit it up.

I have nothing left to eat in the house to much on. lol

Stephanie

Don't smoke it. Buy the book I told you about "The only way to stop smoking permanently" by Allen Carr. Obviously the medication is not really working for you. If you really want to stop smoking, spend $20, buy the book and begin reading. I guarantee it will change your life, that is if you really want to stop.

If you are really thinking about smoking, then this method of medication to help you stop smoking is not working for you.

Why don't you google "nicotine effects". It will scare you from smoking. Something like over 500 chemicals in cigarette smoke.

 

[brighteyes]

I was doing really well until today. For some reason I have been thinking about it today, and when I got upset, it all went downhill.

I took a drag before it burned away and YUCK!! I could hardly breathe as I inhaled it. I am getting rid of the rest of them.

I feel like such a failure.

7 days all down the tubes and it was yucky yucky yucky.

Stephanie

 

[BitsnBearsMom]

Keep your chin up - good for you for making the effort!!

Just keep remembering how yucky it was.... you can do it!!

 

[brighteyes]

Gross, I still can't get the yucky taste out of my mouth.

Yeah, if I would have really tried to inhale I think I would have choked for real. I guess my lungs are starting to heal, cause that was brutal.

Ick, ick, ick is all I can say. I am not wanting a cigarette anymore. lol

Okay, God help me if I ever get another thought to do that again, that was gross. Can't believe I used to do that 10 - 15 times a day.

Disappointed that I have to start my counting all over for ONE drag, but it was gross enough that hopefully I won't do it again.

Stephanie

 

[siobhan1997]

You are way too hard on yourself. When I quit cold turkey 8 years ago, finally after 20 years of smoking all the time, it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. But I got through it, eating a ton of red licorice. My DH quit with me at the same time. He put up with everything, especially my mood swings, he was what you call a social smoker.

But, while we both took to quitting and we did succeed, took about 3 weeks to get it out of my system. The licorice helped with the finger to mouth aspect, but my fingers would tingle at the ends, and I had terrible insomia, but I kept going.

Not only did I have to contend with me not smoking, my mother who lives in a granny suite in our basement continued to smoke downstairs, but also I continued to do the Charity bingos at our fully smokey bingo halls for my daughters school.

But I beat it, even after 8 years the thought pops into my head for a smoke , but it pops out even faster. And yes, my mom continues to smoke downstairs.

You have the will power you just have to dig deep to find it and bring it out.

When I see someone 15 smoking now, I get really angry, not at the fact that they are so young and smoking, because that was me, but I think about them when they are in their late thirties and have to face the struggles I did to quit.

When my quit anniversary date comes by, it is just another day, I don't celebrate, I don't see the point of that.

And also, I found there was no sense in putting away that so called pack a day cigarette money that you spent, as believe me I would much rather spend that money on my daughter.

 

[dangler]

Don't be too hard on yourself Stephanie. Get rid of all the cigarettes!
At least the taste was gross and it didn't make you want another one, that is good news!

 

[brighteyes]

I know, at least I didn't smoke the whole thing, a drag is better than a whole smoke, maybe by the time I was done I would have liked it.

But wholly cow, I felt my chest and my lungs tighten so much.

I just wish I could keep saying 8 days tomorrow, not day ONE again.

Oh well, if I can go 7 days, I can go longer next time.

I could not quit if I had someone smoking who lived with me. I have not been really moody, or irritable but have always had something to munch on to keep me busy. Maybe too because I got my script filled late and took my morning pill late? But I still felt fine this morning.

Who knows, but onto tomorrow.

Stephanie