Need help - MASSIVE amounts of weight to lose

[ashleypmo]

Hello everyone I have read several of the posts and I think this is the right area for me. I replied to the thread for the 150 pound club, but this looks like this is more my area.

I am 34 and 330 pounds. I have been with my husband since highschool and I see less and less of the girl I was. I remind myself that I was a girl then but now I am a grown woman with two children. My marrage is fine and my husband does not treat me any different but it is me that keeps wondering how can he love this. I think I am not the only woman who feels this.

My huge wake up call was over the weekend when we took our girls to six flags and they wanted me to join them on a roller coaster and it would not close. I was almost in tears and I knew my kids understood why I was asked to leave. My girls are 12 and 10 so it is hard to get anything past them.

I have no clue how I am going to do it but to start I am going to drink more water and cut half of what I would eat at any given time in half. My portions have always been on the large side so this should help alot.

My goal is to walk a mile every other day and do 40 situps everyday. My weight goal is to shed 180 pounds but I am going to try 10pound sets. We are going on a disney cruise in 13 months so that is a huge thing I can shoot for.

Thanks for listening
Kristin

Hey Kristin! Welcome! I know how you feel. And I definitely think you are right about attacking your goal in 10 pound sets.

Don't let your physical body define you. That will just demoralize you and set you up for failure. Who are you really? without the trappings of weight, who is inside there? See yourself as that person, the person defined by your relationships, dreams, talents, goals. See yourself as a "healthy" person, an "active" person. Do your situps in the morning so that all day you feel like you started out on the right foot.

You've found a great group of women here--they've been lots of support to me! Take care!

 

[ashleypmo]

Delaih I can't even imagine who stressful, fustrating and demanding your job must be. 9 days until Disney, just keep reminding yourself of that! I hope you have a wonderful trip!

Well yesterday I tried on some clothes that I haven't been able to wear in forever and some that I bought and could never wear because they didn't fit. Guess what they fit! I am so excited! I packed up some of the ones that are way to big on me for Goodwill. Now I have no clothes or no excuse to ever go back to the size I was. I'm losing more slowly now but I am going to try and step up my exercise so I can drop this last 1.5 lbs to be at the 30 lbs loss mark! I want my new clippy dang it!

Hope all my other Sistahs are doing well!

Have a great and healthy day!

Michele

Is that your new clippie? I thought I noticed it over on my pretrippie (shameless plug alert!)-- and it looks like it is! 30.5 no less! Good for you!

I feel like I've been out of touch with my sistahs. For one thing, the kiddos were sick for 2 weeks (different kiddos in sick-rotation). THeir main symptom was loud moaning and wailing. Plus, I'm trying like crazy to finalize a DVC point rental for our trip in May. It's eating my time! And on top of it all, the MRI was a huge comedy of errors (except that a comedy is funny, and this is definitely not). The neck scan was a cervical-spinal, which the primary care doc ordered for the MS. BTW, there are two brain lesions which are indicitive of MS. I'm not that upset about it--I've kind of known for years and years, and I'm just relieved it's MS and not a brain tumor or something.

Anyway, when I told the ENT who was looking at my lymph node that my pcdoc had ordered an MRI to screen for MS, he said great! have them send me a copy. He didn't ask what kind of scan , just asked if we were screening my neck. Well, after the fact his office calls and tells me that they needed the soft tissue scanned, and that wasn't done. So I have to get another MRI done.

Wait--it gets better....or worse....the ENT asks if I already had my bloodwork done before the first MRI. SHe said it like she was absolutely assuming I had, and when I said "NO..." she FREAKED OUT!!!! You HAVE to have your blood screened for proper liver & kidney function before they inject you with the dye. Are you sure you didn't have blood work? Well, I'm reasonably sure I would remember hauling all 4 kids to the lab and begging them to be quiet while Phyllis the Phlebotomist stuck me 4 times trying to find a vein which she can't find because I never drink enough water and my veins always roll when I'm dehydrated....so Yes, I'm sure.

So I look up "MRI dye reaction" on the internet--bad mistake! Now, let me first say that apparently I am fine. If you don't hear from me again, then maybe I'm wrong. BUt so far, so good. But evidently the consequence of having the contrast injection if your liver & kidneys aren't working correctly is that you die. Incurable, untreatable, ending in death. I'm still watching for my skin texture to resemble an orange peel, but it's been a couple of weeks, and the web said it comes on fairly soon after the MRI, so I think I'm okay.

BUT....I have to go have bloodwork and lay on that concrete slab again. I swear, I have pantyliners thicker than the cushion they put under my head! It took a week and a half for the neck stiffness and headaches to go away the first time...

Of course, I know this whole thing sounds like a kvetchfest, and I really don't mean it to be. It's just that as it comes out on the page, the humor of it just overcomes me. God has me in the palm of His hand, so it's all good no matter what. I just really enjoy writing about my pain in the process !

So, that's why I've been around less lately, and I"m sorry if I've missed anyones milestone announcement or other goings on. HOpefully once my DVC ressie is set in stone I'll have a little more free time, and I can decide if I want to sleep or to DIS!

 

[ashleypmo]

This is a token short post. All of my posts are so darn wordy, so for once I thought I'd post a nice, concise post like everyone but me is capable of doing. Mark this date--it is a momentus occasion!

 

[krisngreg]

Thanks for the kind words. Well it is about 6am here in Missouri and the coffee is going and the slim fast drink is working its way into my body. They really are not that bad.

Did some research last night and pulled out all my old weight watchers stuff. Boy the dust was bad. So my point range is like 34 so here we go.

Does anyone else do WW and if you do any tips?

Sorry to hear about all the scans, mri, and things of that nature. The waiting is the hardest!!!

Kristin

 

[VernRDH]

Welcome Kristin and Sue and BettyAnn and BrendaLee We are here to help any way we can, be if information or just a shoulder to lean on
Its a great idea to set up small goals, you will be more successful if you take it in small steps, and don't let the "big" picture overwhelm you. One day, one meal, one step at a time will get you there.

Kristin, I do WW on my own. I have been relatively successful (I think )
losing 46 lbs since Feb 1, 2007. I tend to eat the same things over and over, but it makes it really easy to figure the points!!! I want to get the newest books, so I am going to head over to ebay and see if I can't pick them up there. There are some great websites too like Dotties Weight Loss zone and you can get the free newsletter for WW without joining or anything. Ask away if you have questions, I'll do my best to help you out.

I too feel like I haven't been here enough, but life keeps getting in the way!!!

Ashley-you are too funny Sorry the kiddos were sick, that is a real pain. Remember, man plans, God laughs!!! He knows what he's doing, it would just be nice sometimes to be let in on it!! Hoping that all your tests turn out all right, and since you have posted, I guess the dye didn't do you in!!!

Well Sistahs, I gotta run. Off to work, then I have to start getting ready for DD's Halloween party on Sat.

Have a healthy day!!!

 

[ashleypmo]

Hi Veronica! I know, I haven't been posting here or checking in as often as I should. Now that I've been working on my PRETRIP REPORT--"...and THAT'S when I threw up on my grandmother!" (who threw that shameless plug in? ), I've been trying to at least come check in after I do my daily update! Our trip plans are rolling along!

Have you sistahs noticed our thread has been viewed over 9,000 times? Maybe someday my PRETRIP REPORT (Ohmygosh--did you see that? They did it again! ) will have that many views.

Hope everyone is gearing up for the holidays. Remember: it's doable. You can have a yummy, healthy holiday meal, whatever plan you're doing. And if you get discouraged, just imagine me trying to stuff everything--including coffee and pie--into my face in under an hour "Must.....eat....pie....no...more....carbs....til.....tomorrow...." --that should raise your endorphine level!

'night John Boy! (anyone else old enough to have grown up watching The Waltons? Is there a geriatric smilie I can use for this occassion?)

 

[VernRDH]

Ashley-

You threw up on your grandmother?? I am headed over to check out the awesome pretrippie after this.

The holidays.....well Thanksgiving has always been my favorite since its about FOOD and all my favorites as well. But this year I am going to be better about portions. And since I am running the Turkey Trot 5k that morning, I think I can indulge at little. And after everyone leaves (by 4 pm) me, DH and DD will go to KMart and do some shopping.

The thing I really have to stay away from is the turkey skin I love crispy skin from the bird. I could eat all of it. Absolutely horrible for me. And I LOVE pie. With ice cream. Well I guess I will have to run harder to get it!!!

Today is DD's halloween party. And my MIL made all the goodies-cupcakes, cookies etc. Hopefully I can resist!!

 

[PilotWife]

Hi Everyone!
I was browsing and found your forum....I do not have 100 lbs to loose but I have been there....and I do need to loose 20 more. So, I was hoping to maybe join your groups.

About me : I am a 33 (almost 34) yr old mother of 3. Parker we adopted 5 yrs ago and he is almost 8, Ethan is 4, and Sarabeth is 2. About 4 yrs ago, I weighed almost 265. And worked really hard and lost down to 132, between the birth of Ethan and Sarabeth. Since then I have gained and yo-yoed up and down with 20-25 lbs.

My husband is a military medevac pilot and will be deploying to the mid-east around Christmas for 18 mo. and we are planning a trip to WDW hopefully for R&R in Sept 08. So, I would really like to get the last 20is lbs OFF. I know that my eating habits are good, and I really need to add the exercise back into my routine. (kinda stopped because of Sarabeth being born at 31 wks and then a big move ) and Just haven't gotten back into it.

I hope to make great friends in this lifelong DIET!

Jennifer

 

[VernRDH]

Jennifer-

Welcome to the Sistahs!! Congrats on all you have lost already!!! You can be another inspiration for those of us struggling that it CAN be done!!! Good thoughts and wishes that your DH stays safe while deployed.

Exercise can be tough with 3 kids (I only have one and its hard enough!!). But remember, that you need to do for yourself as well as everyone else. And come over here now and again for support and let us know how you are doing.

 

[ashleypmo]

Hi Everyone!
I was browsing and found your forum....I do not have 100 lbs to loose but I have been there....and I do need to loose 20 more. So, I was hoping to maybe join your groups.

About me : I am a 33 (almost 34) yr old mother of 3. Parker we adopted 5 yrs ago and he is almost 8, Ethan is 4, and Sarabeth is 2. About 4 yrs ago, I weighed almost 265. And worked really hard and lost down to 132, between the birth of Ethan and Sarabeth. Since then I have gained and yo-yoed up and down with 20-25 lbs.

My husband is a military medevac pilot and will be deploying to the mid-east around Christmas for 18 mo. and we are planning a trip to WDW hopefully for R&R in Sept 08. So, I would really like to get the last 20is lbs OFF. I know that my eating habits are good, and I really need to add the exercise back into my routine. (kinda stopped because of Sarabeth being born at 31 wks and then a big move ) and Just haven't gotten back into it.

I hope to make great friends in this lifelong DIET!

Jennifer

Hey Jennifer! Welcome!

I know--that last 20 pounds is going to be the death of me! What you've done already is so amazing! Thanks for joining in!

 

[mommy2aprincess4]

Hi everyone,
I just found this forum and am so glad I did! I am 35, 5'5", and have atleast 60 lbs to lose. I am currently around 220. The lowest I've ever gotten in my adult life is 160 and would love to just get there again! Shoot, 2 Thanksgivings ago I was 189 and wearing a size 14 and was loving that! (in large part because MIL didn't spend all of our Thanksgiving visit commenting on how fat I was).

I am an emotional eater, a boredom eater, an eater just because it's 10 o'clock on a Wednesday. My thing is though that I don't think I love food. A lot of times I eat something and barely even taste it or enjoy it, it's for the sheer act of eating.

I haven't been to the gym in a long time. I went almost every day this summer, didn't lose anything since I was still eating the same, but atleast it felt good. But I haven't been back since school started and I need to. I just don't know how to force myself to go.

My self-esteem is at an all time low. I have diabetes. I don't want to die. I grew up w/o my mother, she died when I was 9 months old from Lupus, I don't want that to be my daughter. Some nights I lay awake crying from the thought of it. And that should be enough for me to get straight shouldn't it?!

I have signed up for the WW monthly pass and am going to try my best to make a meeting tomorrow morning. I am miserable in my own skin at this point. I'm glad I found you all!

~ Lisa

 

[mommy2aprincess4]

oh yeah, subscribing so I can read through the whole thing later. forgot to do that

 

[LaLaroo78]

Good Morning Sistahs!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I seem to keep losing and gaining those same few pounds. I am changing up my exercise routine this week so hopefully that will help.

Jennifer and Lisa!

Jennifer congrats on your accomplishments so far! I am sure you will be an inspiration to many of us. for your husband to stay stafe while deployed.

Lisa - We've all been there. Congrats on making the decision to becoming a healthier you! What has helped me is to set small goals for myself so that the overall number is not overwhelming.

Remember ladies we are here for you so post often and we are all worth it!

Ashley - I hope you and the kiddos are feeling better. I'll be seeing you on your pre trippy report (shameless plug for ya)

Hope everyone has a great day!

Michele

 

[ashleypmo]

Welcome Lisa! You are on your way, girlfriend! One thing I read a few months ago that I really love is that we should always make eating a conscious, intentional experience. No eating while talking on the phone, stuff like that. Sit down and really focus on what you are eating, texture, taste, etc.

I know what you mean about emotional eating. I just hit that 75 pound mark when Whammo! I've been dealing with some medical stuff, and I can't seem to keep myself on plan. I'll do fine for a couple of days, and then I get on this pity party kick. I think it's because I can't really let everything I"m feeling out because I am always around my children, and of course I don't want to worry them. So since I can't talk about it and get comfort that way, I'll just eat.

Michele--thank you for the shameless plug! I think tomorrow (Wednesday) I'll probably post about our 1978 stay at the Contemporary...where this time at least it wasn't ME doing the throwing up! So, are you already planning the Dec. trip? So cool!

 

[LaLaroo78]

Happy Halloween, Sistahs!

Ashley - Hey if you ever need to vent about anything whether it be your medical issues or everyday life you know we are all here for you! I hope everything turns out well for your!
No I haven't started planning my December trip yet. I think I am going to wait until January or February so I don't make myself crazy during the holidays!

Have a great day everyone!

 

[delilah]

We had a very enjoyable trip to WDW last week for fall break. We got to visit with my brother and his family, who we hadn't seen since Memorial week. My SIL was very excited about my weight loss. She is hoping that my success will help my brother who has been very overweight since he was 5. He had gastric bypass surgery years ago, but, hasn't been able to maintain the weight loss. I hope so,too. I am probably fighting severe odds against losing weight. Many people in my family are morbidly obese, on both sides of the family. On the other hand, I am reach an age where people are less likely to become obese. All I can do is try.

If I can figure out how to do it, I will try to give a link to my photopass pictures. This is the first time I have willingly allowed my picture to be taken in years.

We had some interesting experiences in Florida. One experience in Epcot almost totally freaked me out, and another at our resort was scary. After we attended the Halloween party, we decided we wanted to go to the spa tub by the pool to relax (we stayed at AKL villas). It was just after midnight, so technically against the rules, but we were quiet, and didn't turn on the current. On the way to the spa, a man passed between my husband, my son and I. It was distressing, because he seemed angry and aggressive, so, I pulled my son closer. We got into the tub, and heard yelling between a woman in one of the rooms, and the same man we had passed. They had a very loud fight using language that I wouldn't care to repeat. At one point, the man threatened to go up the room and beat the woman. A few minutes later, we could hear blows, and a child screaming. So, we very quietly and quickly got out the tub, and went up to our room the opposite way we came, and my husband reported the fighting to the front desk. That was the scary part. One never knows what an angry person will do in a frenzy of rage. My brother is an attorney, and says, quite possibly, the children would be placed foster care, and the parents forced to return to court later to regain custody. I don't feel bad for reporting, however. I just can't stand back and hear a child crying like that.

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

Hi everyone, I was hoping I could come in and join your thread. VernRDH mentioned this thread and I think it is something I need very much! I actually posted on here when this thread first started, (post 22) but I fell way off the wagon, and fell out of posting on WISH. When we started the Biggest Loser challenge on WISH I came back full and strong. I realize how important it is to feel connected to stay motivated. THE BL challenge has done that, and I want to join another group for more motivation and support.

A brief intro... I am almost 39 and I have 150+ pounds to loose. I am happily married to my HS sweetheart and have 2 wonderful kids. Right now I am doing a modified WW plan. McDonalds is my biggest downfall and right now I am going to avoid it for at least 1 week, I will continue to try and make adjustments as I go to avoid the fast food trap.

I am struggling a bit and part of the process of getting back on track was to join this thread. Hope there is room for me.

 

[ashleypmo]

Princess Vija--welcome! You're right, staying connected is a big key to being successful! Glad to have you on board!

Delilah--oh wow! That's so scary! And it's sad, too.

Last time we were at WDW, in fact it was the morning we were checking out, and we were taking one last walk around POR. DH was videoing the kids, and there was this dad who was talking so rudely to his child. We have it immortalized on our video forever. It's just so sad that some people can spend the time planning and saving to bring your family on what should be a happy time of making memories, and then let all that frustration and anger ruin it. But what you experienced was just downright scary.

I am still having such a hard time staying on plan. It's like I have 2 weeks worth of PMS each month. I just go crazy. I mean, I'm not eating donuts & chips all day long or anything, but I'm definitely not on plan, and I'm scared to even step on the scale. It's like the part of my brain in charge of decision making just checks out. The thought that I'm premenopausal at 39 is frightening, but all the women on my mom's side hit menopause in their early 40s.

I just really have to get back on track. I want these last 20 pounds gone by the time we go to WDW at the end of April! Whereas I used to just eat a handful of broccoli or bell peppers at my non-reward meals, I think I'm going to put a little more effort into planning more "meal-like" options, and maybe that is what I need at this point during those hormonal swings. The other two weeks of the month I'm fine, but the two PMS weeks just undo everything. I just don't understand how I could go from no PMS to crazy-insane-person PMS all of a sudden like this!

I'm going to go watch the Biggest Loser I Tivo'd from last night and get motivated!

 

[LaLaroo78]

Deliah - Welcome back from your trip. It sounds like you had a wonderful time minus those few experiences. If you can figure it out please post your pictures. We would love to see how great you look!

to the Minnie Sistahs, Vija! I hope we can be a great support system for you here and provide some motivation as well! The people that I met on this board have been great! I truely don't know if I would have made it through the last few months without them! Their support and encouragement has been truely priceless to me.

Ashley - I know you will get back on track soon and you will reach your goal by the time your trip rolls around! Just remember you are supermom and you can do anything that you set your mind to! Remember you are WORTH it and you CAN do it!

To all my other Sistahs I hope you are well. Check in with us when you can!

Have a great day!

Michele

 

[delilah]

Let me see if this will work to link to our photopass pictures:http://www.disneyphotopass.com/shar...a-4330-82e2-0ce07db6633f&site=WaltDisneyWorld

I got to have a screening colonoscopy this morning, which was normal. I'm not supposed to drive or work or make any important decisions for the next 12 or so hours. My assessment of the procedure was that the anticipation was much worse than the actual experience. I got some medication by vein, was watching the video screen. I woke up when water was spilled on me, and actually, at the time, the procedure was nearly over (I could tell by looking at the screen that the scope was being removed). It's not something I would want to do every day, but once every 7 years or so is painless. Now, I will need to nag my colleague into getting his done. My husband had his first colonoscopy when he was about 29, because his brother had colon cancer at about 40, and two of his father's brothers had colon cancer. On the other hand, nobody in my family has had it, to my knowledge.