I'm sad to read about your loss and pain. I remember when I lost my grandmother, and yes it sure did hurt a lot. Talking about her may help...we're here to listen.
I'm so sorry, Rich. Remember, she'd want you to think about the good times you had together. She must have been very special to have someone as nice as you love her so much.
I am so sorry for your sad loss Rich . Altho it's been many moons, I remember well the heartache of losing my wonderful grandparents.
May your dear gandmother's loving memories warm your heart and help guide you in all your days.