How sad, I know just how you feel its horrible like someone tore your heart out. I was in disney last Nov when I found out my Ginger who I had for 15years was doing very poorly at home I instructed my girls try to hold on to her till I got home which they did sadly the next day I had to put her down. This was truly the worst thing I have ever had to do I think of her all the time. So whatever memories and pictures you have will hold dear to your heart. I also had her cremated so she could still be with us. Lucky my daughter bought a little maltese about two years before this so now I have her to love