My confession and goodbye...

[zakatak]

Well, it is now Thursday, May 15th... My arms are down to 10.25 inches (loss of .25 inch). I am still doing my arm exercises every other day.

DH wants to buy me a bike so I will be biking soon.

I have come to the conclusion that I have a problem with food (anyone who is reading this will probably say, "duh"). I just love the excitement of losing weight... everyone is so excited about it around here, but I can't be anymore. But I am. My original weight loss goal was to be 125 at July for Disney (which I thought I would never reach). Then 120. Then 115. Now, at 116 I am thinking it would be cool to be 113. And I know at that point, I would desire 109 just for the "09" part.

So, anyways, this is a "Certain People were right" post. I guess I have to leave since I definitely don't belong here anymore. I guess you could say that I wish to be healthy, but these losing posts just make me jealous. Weird, I know. Plus, I can't post about losing because nobody but me is excited about it. So, I will just say:

Thanks for helping me get here (173 all time high/156 started diet/116 current).

Good luck to all of you and please don't let yourself get to where I am (thinking that weight loss is addictive, goal weights can be lowered and smaller sizes are "sexier"). Pick one goal and stick with it.

I am sorry. I know you will all recommend counselling but right now I do not want to gain back anything. I just want to stop the desire to keep losing. Anyone at all understand?

Good Luck,
Karen

 

[wovenwonder]

I don't have anything to add that you don't already know. So just sending some {{{{HUGS}}}} your way!

 

[PAdisMOM]

Zakatak, I'm so glad you posted because I've been worried about you. I hope you log on to get these replies.

I have been where you are. When I graduated from HS I weighed 95 lbs. And I really didn't see anything wrong with that. I am so glad you reached your goal. You did a great job. And right now you are terrified you will gain that weight back. I have no answers for you.

I just want you to know that I'm cheering you on and hope that you become comfortable at some set weight.

 

[Kelsie]

(((hugs)))

I don't know what to say. WISH was never intended to make ANYONE feel jealous or bad. YOU need to take care of YOU and if that means leaving this board, you do just that. Your health is the most important thing right now.

Please come back when you feel you can, we will miss you!

 

[TigH]

Good luck! Hope you go to counseling when you feel up to it.

You know, one of my mottos is "I'd rather be happy than right." I'm sorry if my PMs expressing concern for you were bothersome.

 

[Disneyaholic]

More {{{{{HUGS}}}}} coming from here. I agree totally with what has already been said and that when and if you feel the time is right, you'll stop back and say "hi"!

Dottie

 

[glo]

zakatak
I want you to know that what you said has been said over and over to me lately. I have kept re-adjusting my goal. People say I look good but I don't see it. I think I know and understand what you are going through. I still have a few pounds to loose, but I think that once I do, I will want even less. Katholyn, constantly reprimands me, for feeling bad about myself, and not seeing the loss.

I am thinking of going to counseling...it scares me because I have three young girls and I do not want to hurt them, by my example. Please think about all you can offer here. You have helped me know that I am not alone...and that maybe I need to get my head together.Maybe you can start thinking about counseling too.

You have made a big accomplishment. You have succeeded in what you wanted to do, and you should be proud. Please know that you are always welcome here. That you don't have to be loosing to post here, and that there is always a place for you here.


Big HUGS....

 

[lmhall2000]

First, you have accomplished a great deal- not only the weight loss but your own personal realization that your 'current' way of looking at weight loss may not be healthy for you.

This board and all the folks on it are more focused on staying healthy than losing weight- granted many of us are overweight to the point of being labelled obese so weight loss looks as a major factor for us getting healthy.

What an encouragement you will be when you feel you're at the point of sharing how to maintain your weight and stay fit. I lost down to the 120's- I'm 5'8 so that was thin enough for me- I started adding weight lifting/nautilus to my routine (about 3-4x a week) and I gained to about 135- I was fit- my heart rate was in the low 60's and I didn't look "skinny" anymore- I was physically and mentally fit. I didn't let the scale tell me how good I was, I let my heart rate and body signals tell me- I was stronger and had more energy than ever and added lots of veggies/lean meat/fruits/breads in my diet. Those are my parting helps if you're needing to check out for awhile- focus on making your goal being healthy and toss the scales for awhile.

You can do this sweetie!!
Tara

 

[zakatak]

Thank you for the encouraging words, and I do think you understand, Glo. Part of me is petrified of gaining the weight back if I "stop" dieting, while the other part is happy with what I have accomplished. I'm also scared of biking since I might gain muscle and gain "weight". But, it will feel good to get out and do something around here, so I will.

Thanks again. I have an idea that I will still lurk because I love seeing all the successes. One day I might have something worthwhile to post! Promise!

Karen

 

[CathyCanada]

Karen,
No advice, just wanted to remind you that WISH stands for We're Inspired to Stay Healthy, not necessarily thin. Be good to yourself and take good care.
Hugs,
CC

 

[rbuzzotta]

Wishing you the best Karen!!

 

[yasuern]

Karen,

I don't know you but I have PM'd you and I have been very worried and concerned about you and I am GLAD you are realizing that you may have an issue with dieting and losing weight. I hope you find a way to stay healthy and in that process find a way to balance good health and a healthy weight.

This board is here if you need to talk with any of us - need suppourt - You may always PM me or email me if you ever need someone to talk to.

Please stay HEALTHY and Happy

Sue

 

[nativetxn]

ZAK, you sound pretty sad, to me. First of all, {{{HUGS}}} for you, sweetie.

Plus, I can't post about losing because nobody but me is excited about it.

I know you probably believe that is true but it really isn't. Every one of us here celebrates any loss at all. We have several WISHers who have less than 10 pounds to lose and I cheer them on as much as I cheer myself on trying to lose 100 pounds.

If you feel that it is better for you to leave WISH, I certainly understand but please don't leave because you believe we wouldn't appreciate your successes. The people here are kind hearted and care about everyone no matter how much weight that person may want to lose.

I think that cycling is a great idea for you or how about training for a marathon? There are lots of WISHers doing that. Give yourself something else to concentrate on besides losing weight. Find yourself a new goal, something new to <i>celebrate</i>. I don't think you will build up your muscles up more than you choose.

If you decide that you want to participate in the exercise threads here, that's great. If WISH just isn't the place for you then we understand, we really do.

Just don't feel that we don't care about you and your personal goals. We care about you a lot and we will miss you if you don't visit. I hope you will stop by occasionally and cheer us on, that's just so very helpful to us all. Keep us posted about your progress with this issue. More {{{HUGS}}}

Katholyn

 

[KathyTX]

Karen,

I think you were very brave and strong to tell us this. It sounds like you have a good understanding of your needs and weaknesses. I am confident that you'll be able to face your issues head-on, and come out smiling!

I hope to see your happy face on the other boards at the DIS.

 

[PartyofSix]

I wanted to say that I have missed your post i have not been on wish much the last two weeks due to being completely overwhelmed with the kids and working. I wanted to offer you my ((HUGS)) and support. I can definetly see where you and Glo are coming from and how this could happen. It's so addictive to want to reach goals and always challenge yourself to get to them. I don't have any real advise but wanted you to know I support you and we are here for you and will be thinking of you as you work past the weight loss challenges and work into maintance. You are an awesome person for coming here and getting this off you i think what you did sharing this with your friends was a first really big step in moving past this point in your journey. Please let us know how your doing as i'm sure you will not be the only one to go thru this and you could help others in the future.

 

[DVC Daisy]

"One day I might have something worthwhile to post! Promise!"


Zakatak -

After *lurking* for a few days it was YOUR post that inspired me to join the WISH callenge! I read about your wonderful success and the "trouble" you feel that you are having now and all of the wonderful responses and decided this is where I would like to be.

I wanted to thank you for helping ME. I would love to see someone struggling with maintenance hang around. After all, that is where we all want to be.

MODS - How about a clipie for those that maintain their goal weight? Like "Goal Weight maintained for One, Two, Three months, etc." Then Zakatak would have goals she is working towards and I would love to see THOSE clippies in my signature some day. Just a thought from a newbie.

Anyway, I just want to let Zakatak know that her post was extra special to ME

Deb

 

[zakatak]

Thanks again... see? I'm still lurking here..

Thanks Deb, for your beautiful post. The Maintaining clippie would be wonderful (if I could actually TRY to maintain, lol). I *think* I have come up with a new goal... Ready?

1) Maintain weight under 120.
2) Ride my bike (once I get it) at least 8 miles a week. That should be a decent goal to start (2 miles 4 days a week), eh?
3) Steady caloric intake (instead of low days and binge days).

Ok... That is my new goal and that corresponds to the "We're Inspired to Stay Healthy!" board! So, I guess I'm back. Thank you for all the support!

Karen

At goal weight... now working on fitness goals!

 

[karebear1]

Now that's what I'd call an answer Zakatak! You have always been an inspiration to us- and you continue to do so now! I can hardly wait until I get to the point when I can set maintanace goals as well! Just think- next time you go to WDW you can rent those bikes they have sround the resorts and motor all over WDW- see it by bike. I'll bet that opens upa whole new side of Disney we've never seen! Maybe I'll be considering this thing myself. Biking would only help me get into better shape for the marathon anyway..... especially with all the hills here in Portland!
I am so happy to see you're back! WELCOME HOME .... again!

I LOVE the idea of a maintanance clippie! That would show that we WISHers are goal oriented to the end and that we stick with our idea of being healthy!

 

[KathiWithAnI]

Just wanted to add my HUGS and wish you all the best in reaching your new goals!!

Kathi