Lost my star, my heart and my sanity

[plutosmyfav]

I am so depressed. After an ER trip on Sunday because my daughter took pills and three days of countless phone calls with so-called professionals trying to get her help, I finally gave in. I feel horrible but I couldn't cope with the fear, anger, frustration, and hurt anymore.

My daughter (13) has been diagnosed "dysthemic" disorder (I don't know how to spell it). She was an A student, but starting last March she stopped doing work, got involved with the wrong crowd and began lashing out at me. She got straight Fs for the last quarter of eighth grade but her average was high enough to pass. I spent the entire summer working on getting her help both through health insurance and state programs. I have all sorts of "services" in place, but she still isn't on medication (long story).

After they didn't keep her Sunday night, her therapist made an apt for me to bring her to an on-call psychiatrist (hers is on vacation which is partly why they haven't gotten her on meds yet). I took her out of school on the first day of her first year at high school to bring her to this guy and he said "I don't know why you're here, I'm not a child psychiatrist". So we left and she screamed at me all the way home for ruining her first day for no reason.

So last night was a major binge. Today has been a bunch of lousy choices. I hope I can get back on track tomorrow.

Its amazing, I was so excited about my WOL and all of the sudden BOOM its out the door.


Thanks for listening

 

[addicted_to_WDW]

I'm sorry you are going through all of this, but you need to stop beating yourself up. Your focus is where it should be, on your daughter, and it's ok to fall off of the wagon a little. Just get started again as soon as you feel emotionally able. You don't need to add diet guilt to your list of worries right now.

(((Hugs))) I hope therapy and meds are able to help your daughter.

 

[PrincessMo]

I am sorry to hear all that your going through with your daughter. Here's a great big HUG!!!!!!! Try to take care of yourself and take each day as it comes.......I hope things at home get better for you and your daughter soon. I know you'll get the help you need very soon! Take care.

Have A Disney Day!!!!!

 

[Debbie]

Ah, sweetie, I'm so sorry that you are going through this right now. But listen to Jen. There is no need for you to be beating yourself up about this. Right now, your place is supporting your daughter, and staying healthy yourself. ((((HUGS)))) and may you know that we are thinking of you, praying for you, and sending you good thoughts from WISH!

 

[pixiechick]

I think that not following an eating plan considering what you've been through is understandable.
Your focus needs to be your daughter's health. Don't forget about yourself though. Eating well and feeling well may help you deal with the situation better.
Especially right now, don't beat yourself up over what you've done today. Focus on what you can do for tomorrow.
Good luck, and let us know how your daughter is doing.