- Jul 7, 2001
So very very sorry. I have experienced it in my world but not a child of my own. There are no words, I'm so sorry. Sending prayers and healing to all.my daughter chose to end her life by hanging in our home, my husband and son (21) found her. She was my baby, and only 18. It's only been one month
her ex bf had done the same two weeks earlier , and his sister blamed her, as she had a new bf.
We are really broken and trying to survive . Last year I lost both my mom and stepdad in 5 days, but this is something no parent should face. I wish for nobody to have this pain.
Please keep us in whatever you do, thoughts and/or prayers
Thanks for the update. I'm sure it's all still so raw and I admire your honesty and all you are doing to get through this. It must have been very hard to go back to the shore where you had so many happy memories with your kids and then not to have one with you. Take care of yourself and think through the work thing. I'm not sure how your job is, but mine is very stressful. Returning to it after something stressful would do one or two things: break me or really help me. It's hard to know what that kind of stress will do for you in this situation.I don’t post often, I wanted to thank everyone who has posted, and give a little update , if there is one.
I haven’t returned to work yet, there is discussion of September, I’m under ZERO pressure, only my own. My best friend things it’s a bad move, the year anniversary is in October so I’m uncertain.
I walk a lot, I’ve gained 10 lbs back, and people seem so glad, so I guess I looked that awful. My son seems to be ok, ALWAYS such a worry. My husband will not talk to me about it, refuses therapy of any kind, is not on the same path as me. I’m not sure what path I’m on, but I’m trying to live, to survive for my son. My husband is angry always. I can’t force a 49 year old to get help, but I wish he would.
I think we will move within a year, we will rent out this house, and move to a different city. I hate doing groceries, seeing anyone, those looks, pity , and more .
We did get to the Jersey shore twice this summer, not easy, my children were brought up there each summer.
However, I am trying hard at this. Extremely hard . ThNks again
Mommasita Wishing you a nice trip to FL and keeping you in my prayers for good MRI results.Thanks again everyone.
I haven’t returned to work, I’m aiming for January. I am awaiting on some recent MRI results from VERY bad vertigo. I have had brain surgeries, and other events gone bad roughly 9 years ago, so it may be back, and it may be stress. The dr wants me to get those results after the holidays, because as per usual , we are taking off. FLORIDA bound we are as of Thursday. I can’t stay here, so we are going with another family. I can’t do Xmas. I’m unable.
I have a friend whose husband took his life last month, and wants to meet before I go, not a close friend, but none the less. I am worried, but maybe it’ll do us both good.
Not much has changed here, trying and trying to survive. Each breathe is different, and I can’t believe I have survived 14 months.
I wish everyone a happy holiday season.