Lisa's Journal (Life on the "Beach" - Part 2 all the way to goal!)

[JCJRSmith]

Lisa,

I'm getting in here a little late, but, like the others, I was both surprised and not surprised at the feelings you expressed. Prior to starting this jouney there were too many days that I had where I was not satisfied with my weight, my physique, my health and my self-esteem, but at the same time I had this little voice in my head that kept telling me "You will never be able to do ANYTHING aobut it."

I was always told growing up that I can do anything I set my mind to. I always believed it, too, EXCEPT where it came to my weight. Now unlike many here who have struggled with weight all their lives, my weight problems have come on relative recently (starting around 1990, while I was still in the Navy). Dealing with these feelings of negativity and cutting myself short were new to me.

I got tired of listening to the voice - I told him to pound sand. He isn't as voiciferous as before, but he is still there, but I find him easier to ignore as each day passes.

Small victories are the key for me. I take inspiration from those who have shared their success stories here, and you, Lisa, are one of those. So tell Nelly to pound sand. You are doing great.

Okay, I'm done.

All the best,

 

[marsh0013]

hey lisa, have a great day today

 

[DoeWDW]

Hi Lisa!

I was just wondering how you're feeling today. If you're feeling better, that's great! If you're still having some doubt and uncertaintly, that's great too!

Wherever you are, however you're feeling, know that I'm sending good thoughts and a your way.

 

[ZerasPride]

January 28, 2004 (Wednesday) Day 59 on the Beach

Well today is another cold one here. DS school was closed again. He was very happy about that. I had someone ask me this morning what was different about my face. She asked me if I had change my hair. I said no. She kept staring at me until I said something so I told her I had lost almost 30 pounds. As soon as I said it she told me that she thought that's what it was but she didn't know how to say it! People can be so funny. It ws nice to get the compliment. And for the first time, I wasn't embarassed that someone noticed. I am slowly and I repeat slowly getting used to the idea that people are going to notice and they might (or might not) say something to me. So I just have to get used to it.

Menu for today:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat flakes with 1% milk and 3 slices of bacon
S: 7 whole almonds
L: tuna on whole grain wheat bread (1 slice, toasted) with lettuce and tomato
S: 60 calorie light and fit Dannon yogurt (strawberry)
D: taco salad with a cup of hot chocolate with redued calorie whipped topping for dessert

Exercise/Water Gauge:
I did my FIRM cardio video this morning for 30 minutes. Water level was about 5.0. Not too bad.

That's a wrap for Wednesday!

Marcia - thanks for checking on me. Today was a good day until I got home and lost my car key (just that key alone - long story). I was out in the snow for a long time digging around trying to find it. DH went out and looked too. I finally just gave up and came in the house to warm up. I was so frustrated. Normally I would have gone straight for the frig but I didn't. Now that is true progress. This girl is learning not to deal with stress by eating. That is a miracle in and of itself! I hope you are well - take care!

Laurie - thanks for stopping by! I really appreciate your support. I really enjoy eating the foods on this plan and of course I enjoy seeing the results. This journey is scary and maybe that's why I have never been successful before. I wasn't ready for the changes - I believe I am now. Slowly but surely. Thanks again for checking on me. Take care!

A - Hi! How are you? I have to get by your journal to really see how you are doing. Thanks for the encouragement both to me and DH. I can't wait for Sunday to see what the scale says. I'll definitely post as soon as I know. It's exciting to reach a goal you have set for yourself. Talk to you real soon!

Jerry - thanks so much for commenting on my journal. I do appreciate your words of encouragement. I guess I can expect to feel a myriad of feelings some good and some bad and I have to learn to face those feelings without running to my old friend food for support. I have myself, my family and support from my WISH buddies to keep me on the straight and narrow!

Doe - It's so good to hear from you as always! I am feeling much better today but of course, that could change at any moment . Thanks for the hug, I needed it!

 

[marsh0013]

Now that is true progress. This girl is learning not to deal with stress by eating. That is a miracle in and of itself!

that is so great! and that you are recognizing it is even better! such a wonderful change, isn't it? i know i fall into the nasty food trap sometimes when something bad happens, but i'm learning there are better ways to deal with things. and i'm glad you are too

and that is so wonderful that you got complimented and felt okay about it! maybe not completely comfortable, but you will get there. and once you do, it can sure be a real motivating factor to stay on plan.

hope you have a wonderful day

 

[ZerasPride]

January 29, 2004 (Thursday) Day 60 on the Beach

I had an interesting experience happen this morning (Friday) and I had better record it now while it's fresh in my mind because I might forget to mention it when I write in my journal tomorrow. We had to switch buses this morning on the way to work and the second bus was very crowded. I had to sit next to someone and I picked someone I ride with everyday thinking she might not mind me squishing her. I try to avoid sitting next to someone on the bus because I end up spilling over into that person's seat and half hanging out of mine. It's embarassing and very uncomfortable so I try never to get caught in that situation. Anyway, when I sat down I was prepared to be squished and to squish and guess what? It didn't happen! I actually fit in my own seat, even with my big winter coat on. I had to explain to my riding companion why I had the biggest silliest grin on my face. It really is proof positive that I am losing weight and inches too. I can't express what a gratifying ride it was this morning!

Menu:
B: 2 scrambled eggs with a slice of lf cheese, 3 small sausage patties and 1 slice of whole wheat toast with simply fruit on top
S: 7 whole almonds
L: tuna salad with 1 slice of whole wheat toast, tomato and lettuce
S: 1 Dannon light and fit 60 calorie yogurt (peach)
D: grilled bacon cheeseburger on a bed of lettuce and tomato with a diet rite (white grape) - no dessert - I drank .5 litre of water instead

Exercise/Water Gauge:
I rode my exercise bike for about 5 miles and water was a 5.0

I had an interesting experience at a meeting in the afternoon. My office manager sent us an email telling us there would be cookies and brownies at the meeting. My instant reaction was panick then I remembered my snack and proudly brought my yogurt to the meeting with me. No one could believe I was going to eat my yogurt instead of partaking of the goodies. I wasn't even tempted to have one! My yogurt was delicious, I didn't feel deprived and I didn't have to worry about (1) guilt later; and (2) that nasty sluggish feeling you get when you come down from a sugar rush late in the afternoon. Several people at the meeting commented on my weight loss and it made me feel good.

Don't get me wrong, I am not a robot without feelings and cravings but I just didn't think it was worth it and it required little or no effort on my part not to take one of those treats. I am content with the foods I eat and enjoy and that's progress too. I feel almost like this is a dream sometimes and that I am going to wake up and all this won't be real. It's almost like watching some other woman make these decisions. Anyway, I just wanted to get down in my journal what happened at the meeting and how I was able to come away from the situation and feel good about it.

That's a wrap for Thursday!

Marcia - thanks for checking on me. It took me 2 hours to get to work this morning instead of the usual 30 minutes due to mechanical issues with my bus and that was frustrating so I feel like my whole day is thrown off but I'm glad it's Friday. That's always something to be happy about! I hope you have a good weekend!

 

[DoeWDW]

Lisa, you're having so many positive experiences!! A squish-less bus ride and a meeting where you felt confident enough to bring your own snack and not cave under peer pressure - WOW! You've come such a long way, Lisa!! I know you don't always feel like a strong and courageous woman, but you are! Deep down on the inside where it really counts, you are strong, even if that little voice in your head tells you otherwise! That strength will continue to shine through, Lisa.

Enjoy your weekend!!

 

[Castillo Mom]

Hello Lisa, looks like you've had a pretty busy weekend, same here. Tomorrow is my official weigh in day, wish me luck! Hope everything is well with you. I've noticed a couple of times that you mentioned mock french toast on you menus. Well, I figured I could make some french toast with my lc bread. Thanks for the idea, you have a lot of variety in your menus. I bought sf syrup. I'll let you know how it turns out. Take care!

 

[marsh0013]

hey lisa, hope your weekend went well! also, have a great day today

 

[Castillo Mom]

Hey you, hope everything is ok. I miss ya! Take care and hope to hear from you soon.

 

[lulu201]

Hi, Lisa. to you. I hope you're doing OK. Check in when you get a chance.

Erin

 

[CourtasanSatine]

just stopping by to say hello

 

[Strings]

Just checking on you.

Beth

 

[ZerasPride]

February 2, 2004 (Monday) Day 64 on the Beach

Wow! I can't believe I haven't had time to post to my journal in days! Suffice it to say that things are going along as they pretty much always have. I won't bother to post Friday, Saturday or Sunday's menus and exercise. I stayed on plan, didn't cheat and worked out each day except Saturday. Saturday night we ordered Ruby Tuesday's to go. I had the cajun grilled chicken salad and it was delicious. Of course I had my lc cheesecake for dessert.

On Sunday I weighed in and was estatic to see I had lost 3.5 pounds! I am 22% of the way to my ultimate goal and reached my first minigoal of 28 pounds or 10% of my body weight. I wanted to lose it by February 1. Not only did I reach my goal, I surpassed it! My next 10% minigoal is 25 pounds and while I am not putting a time limit on when to accomplish this minigoal, it would be nice to do so before my Disney trip in June. So totally I have lost 30.5 pounds in a little over 2 months. Yea me!!! Which means I get my first gold clippie.

Today's menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat flakes with 1% milk and 3 slices of bacon
S: I forgot to eat my almonds (drat!)
L: leftover fried fish and cole slaw
S: 60 calorie light and fit yogurt (strawberry)
D: chili with shredded lf cheese and a tsp of lf sour cream on top with 1/2 cup of no sugar added ice cream for dessert

Exercise/Water:
I did my FIRM cardio sculpt video for 30 minutes this morning and water was a 4.0 - not too good for a weekday but I'll get better as the week progresses.

That's a wrap for Monday. I have been so busy lately that I haven't had a chance to check in with my WISH buds. I am trying to limit my time on the internet so I'll try to check in each day with one or two and hopefully make the rounds by the end of the week. I hope everyone is doing well and I'll be checking in on you guys shortly.

Doe - thanks for stopping by. Your words are always like a ray of sunshine beaming through the clouds. Thanks for always checking on me. I appreciate it!

Lisa - I love the mock french toast! I don't use real bread though. I use ricotta cheese, vanilla, cinnamon, 1 egg, 4 egg whites and whip it all together. I pour it like pancake batter in a pan I spray with Pam and ICBINB spray. They turn out like crepes but taste just like the real thing! Let me know how the ones you make with bread turn out. I've also learned to go easy on that sf syrup - it just tastes better that way for some reason. I hope your weigh in went well. I will check with you and your journal later. Have a good day!

marcia - thanks for the well wishes. I hope things are fine with you and that you are making strides in your weight loss efforts. I will get over to your journal to see how things are going. Take care!

Erin - Hi!!! Thanks to you too for checking in on me. I know there was a day or so the boards seemed to be down and that kind of threw me off my schedule. I think I'm back in the groove now. I'll be stopping by to see how you are doing soon.

CourtasanSatine - thanks for stopping by my journal! It's always nice to have a new WISH bud!

Beth - how sweet to check on me! I am still in the land of the living. It seems like if you miss a day or two of your journal, it's hard to catch back up. But this is important to me so I'm back in the saddle again. I will be stopping by to check on you soon. Take care of yourself!

 

[A1A1]

Love to read your menus. You always give me great ideas. Hope you have a wonderful day. Looking forward to reading your menus for today.

 

[DoeWDW]

Lisa, I know what you mean about having a hard time keeping up with everyone's journals! I will have less time for journals also and am thinking of making a rotation list so I get around to everyone over the course of 3-4 days! I guess I could check in with less people but I truly enjoy reading everyone's journals and I learn so much from everyone!

A GOLD CLIPPIE!!!

Lisa, you are amazing!! Congratulations on over 30 pounds less of you! You are looking slim and trim in that beautiful gold clippie!!

Be extra good to yourself while I'm away, OK? I'll be back to check on you next Tuesday.

 

[septbride2002]

Congratulations on your new gold clippie! You look amazing in it! I am still blown away by your exercise program.

~Amanda

 

[marsh0013]

congrats on the new clippie . it looks maaaah-velous oh you . you're doing such a great job, that number is going to keep going down down down!

have a great day today

 

[Strings]

A GOLD CLIPPIE!

Congratulations! All that hard work is paying off. Great job. Gold is definately your color. Congrats.
Beth

 

[LAinSEA]

Look outside! Fireworks just for you! (OK, you have to use your imagination...but I put in the Mickey Mouse ones too!)

Congrats on meeting your short-term goals. I know that you can meet the next and the next.

-Laurie