Lindsay's Not Hiding From Cameras Anymore Journal- comments/questions/support welcome

[SunFloridaDisney]

Hi Lindsay,

First, Welcome to WISH, I didn't realize until today that you had started a journal. Looks like you have some great goals, and a fantastic attitude to go along with it!

I've heard it very often that eating a lot more fresh produce will have that particular effect on your body! But after a short time, things will settle down.

Your idea of the water bottle is such a good one, I do that all the time, I keep a huge bottle of ice water with me, whether I'm at work or at home working. It really helps.

And I also wanted to say, about the weight, when you said you judge by your clothes, I think that's the best way anyhow. I know myself I can get obsessed with the scale, but what really matters is whether the things that have gotten too tight are fitting better again.

I think we all have things we need to get a handle on, whether it is eating whatever, whenever, or some particular food that does us in. Mine is chocolate, I just can't stop once I have some.

Stop by some of the other journals, there are a lot of supportive people here, and we all share ideas with each other. I know you have lots of good recipes, we're always looking for new ideas.

Have a good weekend.

 

[LindsayDunn228]

Blech. I hate mornings.

I had a rocking day yesterday. I am really proud of myself, you guys. We went out to eat to the Olive Garden. I ate a little bit of the salad and had a ravioli dish. Not the healthiest choice, but I didn't eat all of it and didn't gorge myself on breadsticks. Baby steps, and they are working. Oh and we passed up dessert. How hard is that to do the TOG??

I gave myself a little treat yesterday too. We went to Barnes and Noble to use some gift certificates. I got a tall skinny cinnamon coffee WITH NO WHIPPED CREAM! It was really good and it satisfied my sweet tooth.

Can you believe my deltoids are STILL sore?! That was quite a workout I had 3 days ago!!

Well, I'm off to church here in a little while and a day filled with relaxing with my husband. Sorry it's such a boring journal today. I may come back later and post again.

Thanks to all of you who have posted. I really appreciate it!

 

[LindsayDunn228]

Yesterday was a good day. Today will be even better. Way to start the morning. I hate mornings

I don't have much on my plate today (no pun intended). I want to spend a little time reading. One of my New Year's goals was to read one book a month. I am getting off to a good start reading The Prestige by Christopher Priest.

Would you believe that I am STILL sore from my workout?! My deltoids are still killing me. This is awesome. I can't wait until tomorrow. Kill me again, Laura!!

I have been thinking a lot about my WDW trip that we'll be taking in November. It will (hopefully) be here before I know it. Taking this trip being a little lighter and lot healthier is exciting to think about.

I'm having writer's block this morning.

 

[LindsayDunn228]

It's 37 degrees here this morning. Very warm for January here, but at least it's a lot cooler than it has been. I think that's why I slept so good last night

I had a good day yesterday. I got sooooooooooo tempted midday though. I was like, "Need something sweet. Need something sweet. Need something sweet. Must. Have. Something." I took a deep breath, calmed that annoying voice, and sliced up a pear. All better!! Not to mention I ate it close to dinner time, so it decreased my appetite. Cool eh?? Not to mention I am trying my best to get 1-2 fibrous fruits down daily for my plumbing Like I mentioned earlier in my journal, I am trying to make sure I have a variety of options so I don't get sick of any one food. It can be costly, but it's working so far.

My trainer informed me last Thursday that she is pregnant. I am so excited for her. I can't help but have selfish thoughts though. I know that after she has the baby, she will not return to work. No one, and I mean no one, can train me like she can (at the studio). So I am taking a lot of notes now. When she leaves I will quit where I am at and just join the YMCA or something and do it myself. The studio I work out at is WAY to expensive not to get Laura-like training 3 times a week. I have entertained the idea of talking to her about this and suggesting she train someone to train me, so to speak. But as she once told me, you can't teach creativity. You either have it or you don't. She is absolutely right.

I have a lot on my mind this morning. Mind if I vent a little?

My dad remarried when in December 1995, I was a senior in high school. He had dated the woman for about 6 years, so it was a good thing. We got really close, as did myself and her kids (who are 6 and 7 years younger than me).

My stepbrother (who I adore) was born with some kind of kidney disorder. He had troubles with it his whole life. In 2002, when he was 17, he had to have a kidney transplant, and guess who was a perfect match to donate? My father. I had a lot of problems with this. My dad was not the best dad in the world as I was growing up, and the thought of him giving a kidney to my stepbrother when he couldn't give a pint of blood to me when I had a spinal fusion as a child, honestly made me jealous (note: my dad contracted hepatitis from a blood transfusion in the early 80's and that's why he couldn't donate blood. Apparently we know a lot more now than we did in the late 80s when I had my surgery for scoliosis and his kidney was safe to give my stepbrother).

So anyway, they had the surgery, all was well, bing bang boom.

Fast forward to now.

My stepbrothers moved out back in the spring of 2006. My stepbrother (the kidney one) has never eaten what he was supposed to, taken his meds like he was supposed to, and taken care of himself like he is supposed to. He is now in the very early stages of rejecting the kidney. My father is so frustrated with him and I don't blame him. He had to have a port-a-cath inserted last week and he is going through dialysis-like treatments.

If you look up "helicopter parent" in the dictionary, you will find a picture of my stepmother. She has been giving him insulin injections, taking him to the hospital for these treatments (which apparently don't leave him feeling bad, he could drive home himself), and texting him to death all day at work (when he's actually working).

Now the big news? My father tells me yesterday that he and his girlfriend want to get married in June. Ok, let's put this in perspective: you are 21 years old; you are in a dangerous situation right now, health-wise; when you do work, which right now is not often, your job pays under $10 per hour with no benefits; your girlfriend is still in college and works only part-time as a CNA; your mother dispenses your meds and gives your injections.

Do you really think you can get married?!?!?

Ok, I got that off my chest. Sorry, I just needed to vent about that.

My coffee is getting cold. I will come back and write more in a few.

 

[LindsayDunn228]

Does anyone actual read the journals? I am kinda bummed out about mine. It says a bunch of people have viewed it, but rarely any responses. If I read someone's journal, I make a point to at least post some kind of comment/suggestion. I was hoping my journal would be beneficial for someone besides myself. Oh well.

Ok, enough whining.

I am doing really good this week. Still no binging or anything. I tell you what, the pears have been my saving grace. When I go to the grocery store I need to make sure I get enough pears to last me the whole week, not just a few days.

My Pooh has jury duty today.

My roots are mega showing. I need to go get them touched up tomorrow and my highlights pepped up. The only reason I color my hair at all is I have WAAAAAAAAAY too much gray for a 28 year old.

Off to drink my coffee. If you take 2 minutes to read my journal, please let me know that you did, ok?

 

[dhcoffey]

Hey Lindsay,

I've been reading your journal and enjoying what you write about. I'm looking for all the inspiration I can get! Sounds like you're doing a great job.

I also read the WFD thread every day and have gotten some great ideas from that. Thanks so much for keeping it up,

Heather

 

[LindsayDunn228]

Today will be a better day. Today will be a better day.

Food/exercise-wise, yesterday was fine. I just had a bad day in other aspects. I had a very embarrassing incident happen to me at work. I won't go into what happened, let's just say it had something to do with my disability

I normally work out at 7 a.m. on Fridays, but I am staying in today. I am having bad cramps and just need to get going a little slowly this morning. Laura is not my trainer on Fridays so I won't be missing a kick-*** workout, so I don't feel too guilty. I may stick in an exercise tape in later to at least get some cardio in. I don't know. I'm feeling so sorry for myself I may just forget it today.

I am going to get my hair done at lunch today. Getting out of the house and having my hair touched up will probably lift my spirits. Also, I am going to my grandmother's for dinner tonight so that will help, too.

Just say a prayer for me, if you pray. Think about me and love on your pet, if you have one, if you don't pray. I'd appreciate it.

I've got a long weekend ahead of me. My husband is off on Monday, and I don't work on Monday's anyway, so we get to spend the day together. We may try to go see "We Are Marshall." We are going to go see "The Prestige" again tomorrow at the cheap theater. We saw it on New Year's Day and I am dying to see it again. Mmmmmmmmm, Christian Bale. Yummy!!

Well I better go for now. I will try to come back and post again when I am more awake. Thanks for all the support, WISHers

 

[r3ngels]

Hi Lindsay,
I haved check in, in a couple of days. I am sorry you had a bad day yesterday. Today will be better.

I had a bad day yesterday too.... but it will be the start of a 3 day weekend tonight

It's a bummer about your trainer... I know how much she means to you.

Have fun at the movies

 

[r3ngels]

Hey... where are ya?


How was your weekend?

 

[LindsayDunn228]

Will report in the morning

 

[LindsayDunn228]

Sorry I have been MIA the past few few days. Not much has been going on and I haven't any time to come in here and write.

We had an awesome weekend. Saturday we had plans to see "The Prestige" again. Sadly, there were no matinees, so we went and saw "We Are Marshall" instead (I'm kinda partial to Mr. McConaughey). I easily blubbered off all my makeup, hee hee. What an awesome movie.

Yesterday Pooh was off, and I don't work on Mondays anyway. I stayed in my pj's all day and we chilled out together. Boy was it nice!! We watched some stuff, surfed, and were just plain worthless. It's nice to do that every now and then.

Warning: this may be TMI for some readers. Consider yourself warned!

I am going through my first PMS of the year. I am on the Pill to help my periods (been on them since I was 20). One of the symptoms of my PMS is intense bloating. And I mean intense. I was hoping that eating better would make a difference but it hasn't so far. The stinky thing about being so badly bloated is I have to pee, all the time. For someone who has to take a whiz using an intermittent cath, it's pretty inconvenient (will explain if needed). Anyone have any suggestions on making the bloating better? Something to eat, drink, pill, etc.?

Ahhh, now that I got that off my chest...

Well I guess that's all for now. I may come back later. Have a great day all!!

 

[LindsayDunn228]

*I'm looking at you through the glass, don't know how much time had passed..."

Sorry. When I begin my journal I don't have the tv or radio or anything going so I usually have a song in my head. (the above is "Through Glass" by Stone Sour, if anyone cares. I love that song.).

All is well here. My bloating is thankfully getting better. I was ready to cry yesterday when I was getting ready for work. I just knew the jeans that I could now fit into would be unbuttonable (if that's a word) because of the bloating. Surprisingly, but happily, they slid on. Woo hoo! I was so happy

I don't think I've mentioned this yet. I have another goal, weight-wise, concerning my WDW trip this year. I want to wear a fitted shirt while on my vacation. I cannot wear tops with any kind of Spandex in it, I look and feel like a hoss. I want to be able to wear a few in WDW

I kind of hurt my shoulder last night. I was laying on my back in bed and my husband came over to hug me. He got on his knees beside the bed and leaned and against it and kind of hyper-extended my arm. My shoulder has been hurting ever since. I hope it's better by tomorrow. My workout will be very hard to do with a bum shoulder. I am going to try and nurse it today.

Well I better go for now. If you read this, please post a comment, ok? I would appreciate it!!

 

[CathrynRose]

I should do a WISH Journal. It would be nice to see how Ive progressed.... I think once I kick this Sinus Infection of mine, I will !! Thanks for the idea! i didnt even know this board existed!

I think your goals sound great, Lindsey.

One thing, that I always try to keep in mind, because my mom was diabetic (and passed away at age 55 from complications of such, a year ago January 28th ) that the cause of that disease is your glucose/insulin levels. And by cutting out that cr@ppy white food - sugar, flour, and root vegetables for now you can very often shed weights AND lower your chance of getting that horrible, horrible, horrible disease.

Portion control is great and works for a lot of people - not me though. Im a hungry person. I need to eat, so if Im gonna eat, it cant be "white".

ETA - I re-read this and it sounded preachy. Its not supposed to at all. I just have a serious PASSION for low-carb, or at least get rid of BAD carbs for people prone to diabetes. I wish my mom would have done it.

 

[LindsayDunn228]

Thanks for the post Cathryn

Your post wasn't at all preachy!! I totally get you I have tried and cannot do no-anything. It works for awhile and then I completely binge. So I do an everything in moderation approach.

 

[KristinBelle]

Hi Lindsay! Great job so far, keep up the hard work and you'll be wearing those fitted tops before you know it.

 

[LindsayDunn228]

*Stretch. Yawn. Grumble grumble* Morning all.

First of all, thank you to everyone who is posting on my journal. You don't know how much I appreciate it

Just finished my breakfast and coffee. Having a good day so far. I am taking things one day at a time (as much as I hate this phrase, it works). The only thing is I really need to be drinking more water. I will work on that.

I taped the Real World last night so I'm off to go watch it. Have a good day all

 

[LindsayDunn228]

I'm getting a butt-kicking today, and not the killer workout kind.
Warning: TMI
Last summer I gave Yaz (the Pill) a try. I LOVED it!! No PMS, a dot of a period (no pun intended), and it lasted only 2-3 days. How can you beat that? The catch? I had a severe headache 24/7. So after about 4 months of this I go back on the Pill I have been taking since I was 20.

I'm back to 5-6 day periods, kind heavy off and on, and cramps. But it's totally worth it not to have that blasted headache that literally made me ask my husband to please shoot me and put me out of my misery.

So I'm not working out today. I need to rest. I've got a crazy busy weekend ahead of me so I need to pamper myself a little bit.

Everything is still going good food-wise. I cannot judge if I have lost any weight with period bloating going on. I still feel better than I did before though. Know what I mean?

I'm off to go attempt to eat some breakfast. I have no appetite but have to eat something so I can take my vitamins. Have a great Friday all and thanks for reading my journal

 

[LindsayDunn228]

*WARNING: A TMI JOURNAL BELOW!!*

It has sucked to be me the past 2 days. I have learned the hard way that I cannot eat nuts anymore. I had a small handful as a snack on Wednesday. Friday and off and on yesterday I have sick with constipation. Ohhhhhhh, it's been bad. I have NOT had a good weekend. How do you know it's the nuts that did it, you ask?? My answer: you really don't want to know. *shudder and gag*

At least now I won't be tempted to eat nuts when I know what they can do to me.

So I have been taking it easy and not really eating a whole lot because of my raw tummy. After I pulled myself together yesterday I put on a pair of jeans that had been fitting fine. They were so loose around the waist it was pathetic. A very hard way to lose an inch or so, but I did.

We are taking my grandmother out to eat for her birthday today, along with my parents. I don't plan on eating much to give my tummy a break. Not to mention I don't have much of an appetite yet. When you deal with nutty poo for 2 days, food kind of makes me gag. Know what I mean?

Well I'm off to shower. Have a healthy day!

ETA: I'm also chugging water to make sure I don't get dehydrated.

 

[LindsayDunn228]

Whoooooo boy, has it been a long weekend. After being sick as a dog Friday and Saturday, I spent Sunday semi-chilled out and am feeling much better now.

As far as WISH goes, I am doing awesome. No flubs at all. I'm hoping I feel like working out tomorrow. I'm still kind of blech. I should be fine though. Sometimes I just suck it up and work out anyway and I usually feel much better because of it. Sometimes exercise IS the answer. That's not just an annoying cliche.

Hmmm, not much in my mind yet this morning. Think I'll go DIS a little more

 

[escape]

Hi Lindsay! I'm more of a lurker than a poster. However, I do want to let you know that I think you are doing a great job here with your journal...and...getting on the right track, weight-wise.

I'm thinking about starting a journal. I need some accountability as well. My goal is to run/walk a full marathon at WDW next January. I have a year to train but so far, I'm falling down on the job. I've been eating everything in sight and I can feel some of the pounds that I've lost already starting to creep back on. Not a good thing. I want to lose about 50 more pounds. Ugh! Your journal, as well as others, are giving me the swift kick in the pants I need to get back on track.

Another bummer about your pg trainer. She might not be able to pass on her "creativity" but maybe she can recommend another trainer close to her style. As for me, I have to use a personal trainer. Otherwise, I wouldn't push myself as hard. I'm just not disciplined enough at this point. As a matter of fact, I need to go get ready for my appointment now.

By the way, glad you are feeling better today. Hopefully you'll feel like working out tomorrow.