An Update: Princess, My Future With Running, Finding Something New
Been meaning to update for a bit. Things have been a lot so its been hard to remind myself to take the time. But here we are. Hopefully I can get through all this today.
runDisney Princess Weekend
When Princess Weekend was first announced, I was interested, but I didn't know if it was gonna happen. Once the themes were released, I wasn't in love with all of them, but I was kinda thinking about 5K (Cinderella) and Sunrise Yoga (because why not). But my sister's life is a little unsettled right now (honestly, everything has been a little unsettled lately, but that's a different story) so I didn't really bring it up with her because I didn't think she could make it happen. As registration drew closer, I thought about mentioning it, but I was mad at her about something and decided not to. So no registration happened.
A little bit later, I was talking to Beth, and Princess came up. She asked why we hadn't talked about it yet. At this point, the 5K was sold out. We talked about the half but we didn't pull the trigger. We agreed on discussing it again a few weeks later. But ultimately, we weren't ready to commit. We did an early look at Princess Weekend vs a
Disneyland trip and DL actually turned out to be cheaper. I was a lot more excited about the Disneyland idea, but we weren't ready to commit to that either. We left things up in the air and now everything is sold out, so I guess no Princess.
I've been thinking a bit about whether I think this was a right move. If I could go back to registration day having already had all of these conversations, would I register or would I still hold off? Honestly, I'm a little bummed about missing the yoga thing (although the no race transportation thing killed that for me), but I am fine with not registering for the races. I feel like runDisney has taken over my Disney experiences and I'd like to do a "normal" Disney trip (I
reaalllyy want to do this DL trip, but we'll see). Maybe in the future I'll go back to runDisney, but for now I'm okay with not doing it.
We'll see if all that changes after Wine & Dine weekend.
My Future With Running
Okay. So we've established that I'm okay with taking a break from runDisney. And I decided a while ago that I didn't really want to do races outside of runDisney. So where does that leave me?
I've had a difficult relationship with running for a while now. And it's gotten worse over the last few years. In the early days of COVID I appreciated running because it got me out of the house when not much else did, but those days are behind me and the shine has worn off again. I still love really long runs, but I don't know that I love them enough for it to be worth suffering through the shorter runs that are necessary to survive the long runs.
So where do I go from here?
I've been tossing around 3 options in my head:
- Option One: Go all in. Force myself to fall back in love with running by just doing it. Register for a race. Get back to training levels of running. Just keep running until I love it again. The problem with this is that I think being signed up for races that I didn't really want to do and forcing myself to train when I didn't feel like it is what got me into this situation. So I don't know that this wouldn't make things worse.
- Option Two: Dial back, but keep running. Run twice a week instead of 3 or 4 times a week. Start off with no specific distance or pace goals but maybe eventually find ones that make sense. The idea here is to keep running but not really focus on it. Running will be like grocery shopping - it's not something I particularly look forward to, but I gotta do it and I gotta do a little planning before it can happen.
- Option Three: Stop running entirely. Fill in the gaps with more barre3 and probably some new type of exercise. Maybe come back to running if I find that I really miss it, but don't try to force it.
I don't know where I'm leaning right now. Option two is the least extreme option. But I think option three may be the most psychologically healthy. Option one is likely the most physically healthy, particularly since I like beer. So there are pros for all the options. I just think I need to take some time to figure out which of these options truly represents who I am and who I want to be.
Finding Something New
The thing about options 2 and 3 above is that in both cases, I'd want to find some new exercise to fill in the gap left by cutting down on/cutting out running. But I don't know what. I'm not really sure what I'd love or what I find missing in my routine.
I'm not really into anything that involves weights (I mean, we use some weights in barre class but it's for less than 1/3rd of the class and it's really not at all emphasized). I tried a dance cardio class online during the early days of COVID and it just made me feel super uncoordinated. Yoga doesn't really agree with me overall, and the parts that I can tolerate are similar enough to my barre class that it doesn't feel like something different.
I did like spin classes when I took them pre-COVID, but the studios I had tried back then have all closed. So do I want to try to find a new spin/cycling studio? Or do I want to try something new entirely? I really don't know. I've done okay sticking with what I know I like. I'm not sure I can find something new.
(I do also have a fitness center in my building, but it's like 2 treadmills and a few stationary bikes and some handweights so not really much doing there.)
So anyway ... that's what's up with me. I have a lot of decisions to make and hopefully a Disneyland trip to plan.
Life, y'all.