Lesli's Live Long and Strong WISH Journal

[pearlieq]

Oh my goodness! What a roller coaster you've been on. You handled yourself so well. I think I would have been a big blubbering mess from beginning to end (I actually misted up just reading your story...) It sounds like you left it just pefectly though--with a great foundation for you two to become friends over the next few years.

Moving into the dorms sounds about like what I remember--no fun!!! There has got to be a better way, here! I've heard about college with the crazy elevators that only stop on certain floors--certainly there must be a way to change that during move in. My dorm freshman year was a 3 story walk-up. No elevators at all! Yee haw! My sophomore year I was in a dorm that had an elevator, but only on the street side where ther was no car access. You had to haul your stuff up stairs from the parking lot to get to the ground floor elevator from the parking lot side. By my junior year I got smart--I met a nice boy, fell in love, got engaged, and moved in with him!

 

[Lesli54]

Thank God, we weren't there for the regular move-in day!

8/18 - better known as yesterday and then I am on track.

I got up fairly early. Breakfast was oatmeal, 2 slices ham & yogurt. The kids were at it early. Some of it, I am sure is from DD18 being gone, school being a few days away, and some things beginning to change. The rest, was just one of those "kids are driving you nuts because they like to days".

Of course, the computer was out of commission, so I didn't really know what to do. I read a little, but didn't feel like doing much at all. Just thinking alot about DD18. Finally, I was so tired that I went to lay down. I don't really think I slept any, just rested mainly, but it helped.

Just after noon, I called DD18 to see if her roommate had moved in yet. They were in the process of moving her. She said the crowds were at least 10 times worse than when we were moving stuff the day before. The elevators were almost impossible to get on and at one point they thought they would walk everything up - 16 flights! She said it was really much quicker than the elevator, but they wouldn't be doing it again. The hallways were a mad house, I guess and she was glad that she moved in early. We didn't talk long, as I didn't want to take up her time with things being so busy and I knew the rest of the day she had meetings and games and activities to do.

I am sure that in 2 years she will be in her own apartment and will skip the dorms. Her boyfriend is probably transferring to another college after this year. Once he is done, if they are still together, I am sure they will end up with an apartment. Wouldn't surprise me.

For lunch, I ate some cheetos and a LC Swedish Meatballs. I really wasn't hungry, juts snacky. Then I had some more cheetos and 2 Reese's PB cups. Nothing healthy. I think part is TOM the other is stress of the children and part is missing DD18 and being "out of whack".

I really felt lost for most of the day. Water was ok. We did some shopping in the evening and then went to Taco Bell. I ate 2 hard shell tacos and about 1/3 of the nachos. Also drank some Sierra Mist. We realized that we need to cut back on our order next time since DD18 is gone. Took the leftovers home.

Lots of emotional lows throughout the day. I slept better last night, but not great.

Breakfast today was: 1 egg omelet, 2 slices ham, 1 yogurt. Water is almost on track. I had to go to the dentist so my mouth is feeling funky and I am not really hungry. Just snacky. I ate 2 PB crackers.

The plans for the rest of the day? I don't know. I am trying to get a few things done, but just haven't gotten in the right frame of mind yet. Mostly, I think it is the mouth thing now more than it is DD18 being gone. It's hard to work when part of your body is numb and you feel like you might swallow your tongue.

We also started potty training DS today. Not going well. He knows what to do and is excited to have "big boy" pants, but the two aren't meshing yet. In time.

I better get going. There are a few things to get in the mail before I go get my hair cut. Also need to start some laundry.

Everyone have a great day.

 

[Mykelogan]

Lesli... ok, so you got me all teary!!! I am pretty much exhausted so that might be part of it but hearing your description of moving your DD in just really hit me. And I have to say thank you for sharing it too because it is easy sometimes to get overwhelmed by the parents who are yelling and not remember the parents who care so much like you do! I needed to read a story like that after the day I had. (I present 5 workshops today! Oh my I am tired!)

No more journal time for me, so I am off!
I hope that you have a great weekend!
Mike

 

[goldcupmom]

Sounds like you've had an emotional 2 days. Hang in there, it does get better. (and at least you know where she is - to an extent - and that she's not on the verge of jail like mine!)

Glad that you are being successful with being on track. Potty training does NOT sound like fun! I'm glad to be beyond that. I think having a toddler around would be my worst nightmare at age 45.

Have a great weekend!

 

[pearlieq]

Wow! I can't imagine dropping one child off at college and turning around the next day and potty training another. Talk about switching gears!!!

I hope things start to feel more normal again, whatever your new "normal" will be. I also hope your mouth feels better and the little ones give you some peace!

 

[Lesli54]

First of all, I didn't mean to make everyone shed a tear, but I had to get it out, which really helped. I am much better today, of course that could be due to a lot of reasons. Mike, I am glad that my story helped you get over a day of screaming parents. Julie, you are right, at least I know where DD18 is for the most part and I pray for you and your son every day. Pearlieq, I am not sure what "normal" will be either, but focusing more on just three is definitely a new experience.

Well, yesterday just went from bad to worse in terms of food, energy, mindset, everything. I truly think it was the worst day I have had since beginning this program. But maybe sometimes you need that in order to realize how much you appreciate how far you have come and the fact that you need to work at it to get more out of it.

My mouth took well into the mid-afternoon to quit being numb. The dentist said that numbing the bottom portion stays that way for a long time, because the tongue gets numb as well as the lower lip. He was right. I couldn't really taste any food since my tongue was numb. It must throw off the taste buds. For lunch I wasn't really hungry either and I had a huge craving for some chips. I sent DD15 to the store for some Cheetos since DH forgot to bring them home when I asked for them. The first time he forgets what I "need" him to forget in terms of health and I am complaining. Obviously, I am rubbing off on him as far as no chips in the house. I am happy about that, but yesterday it wasn't working. Thankfully, I had the presence of mind to have DD15 get a small grab bag of chips. That was my lunch. Then later, I was snacky still and went for some PB.

I knew exactly what I was doing and it's not that I didn't care, I did, but it was more that I wasn't strong at that point and no amount of telling myself what I should do was working. The weakness was probably due to a combination of all the different stressors going on at the same time.

Went to go get my hair cut. I will never go back. I have seen this lady 4 times, which is more than my usual if I am not completely satisfied with the hairdresser. Well, I went in wanting the length to be just below my shoulders and the longer layers to be trimmed up in proportion to the length. The shorter layers I wanted left alone so that the could grow out a little. Well, she paid way too much attention to what was going on with other customer's conversations and the other hairdressers that she only took off some length and then began blow drying my hair. She "curled" it in order to style it a little, I guess. Needless to say, I hated it. It was the worst "styling" I have ever had, but was not about to say anything. WHY? I refuse to fight with a hairdresser who doesn't care about what I want and will just do what she wants, because it won't change the next time, it won't make her care more. This is not the first time that she didn't do something specifically requested. Social hour is more important than my hair, I guess. I just won't go back. Time to find a new hairdresser. There is only one lady left in town and I am not sure if I want to mess with it or not. My only other choice is to leave town and if I do that then I am finding a male hairdresser, they seem to be the only ones who listen to you now-a-days.

So, grouchy from my hair not being what I want. Not bad, but not what I want. Anyway, I went to the store and complained a bit to DH, who understands that I have little patience for people who don't give me what I want when it is part of their job and I am not usually one to make a scene. Then went grocery shopping. MISTAKE! I think the only healthy thing in the cart was bananas and a cucumber.

I went home and tore open the big bag of Double Stuff Oreos right away and inhaled 4. Most of them, still didn't have much taste due to the numb tongue. Shortly after that it was supper time and I had a Marie Calendar's Chicken Pot Pie. Talk about calories. I even ate the whole thing, which I don't normally do. Later in the evening, I was back to eat about 2 more Oreos.

Sure the day sounds bad, but not that bad. However, there is alot to be said for having your kitchen "dejunked" for the most part. In the frame of mind that I was in, I would have just kept eating anything in my path if it was available.

None of it felt good and most of it didn't taste great. Even the oreos were only ok. Not as good as they used to be. Of course, I think it has been well over 5 months since I have had one. I felt kind of icky and constantly overstuffed even though the quantities were not near as bad as they were in the "before". My mind kept wandering back to Pearlieq's comments on returning to the old neighborhood. I don't like it there. It is miserable, uncomfortable, an energy zapper, confused, and I can see that if I "visit" to long then all the things that I hated about my "before" lifestyle will come running back with a vengence.

The only "bright spot" in my day yesterday was when DD18 called. She is having alot of fun and meeting alot of people. She went shopping yesterday with her roommate so that they could pick up a rug and lamp for their room. I guess they did rearrange the room just a tad, but not much. The walls are in the process of getting decorated and they are setting it up to be more like a small studio apartment than a dorm room. DD18 wants me to blow up some pictures of our trip to London and send them down. They want poster size to go with the posters of Paris that her roommate has. She has been to meetings and some activities, even saw a hypnotist which she enjoyed. Didn't make it to the Amazing Race event since she was in meetings. Loves her RA, says that he is really funny. We didn't talk long since she was on her way to a picnic, but it was nice just the same. She is thinking of getting her own cell phone plan instead of sharing with us since that is how everyone communicates down there and she is afraid of going over minutes. Guess we'll see. Well, 2 more days and she will get the full force of the college professors.

Breakfast: oatmeal, 2 slices ham, 1 banana, 1 c. hot tea w/vanilla
AM snack: cucumbers & cheese
Lunch: grilled chicken ceasar salad
PM snack: yogurt
PM snack: grapes (this is if I need something to get through til late supper)
Supper: something light, maybe BLT's

Goals for day:
1. 15 min stretch & tone exercise
2. 15 min dance or other aerobic exercise
3. 2 hrs bookwork
4. 1 hr GS
5. 30 min cleaning my office

I have learned that I cannot go through the day totally unplanned. It works better for me to have goals even if I don't get to them all. I also need to update for my 5 month progress. I want this for myself. I am about 13 lbs behind where I was hoping to be at this point and I guess I need to A) jumpstart things again and B) reevaluate things to adjust my timelines on my goals.

Enough yakking. Everyone have a great day!

 

[joelyfaithsmommy]

I admire your strength on move in day, and commend you for keeping it together...my day is coming soon, and worse yet I have a son, who will not be happy with 'mommy tears'....uhhhh they grow up so fast!

just keep swimming! you'll make it on ALL counts ~Jen

 

[pearlieq]

I'm late, but I'm here...

I'm so sorry you had such a rough day--I can imagine how "off" everything feels. Give yourself time and be kind to yourself, you will bounce back. Remember, you just swung by the old neighborhood for a visit, you aren't moving back!

I can only imagine how frustrating your experience at the hairdresser must have been! The nerve! You're paying for her to perform a service for you to your specifications, not for her to catch up on her friend's sister's cousin's love life! I hope you can find someone good--you deserve it!

On a happier note, it sounds like your DD is having lots of fun! That must be heartening to hear. Sounds like there's a lot going on, which is really neat. I hope she keeps having a good time and finds lots of new friends and interests!

I'm sending prayers and your way. I hope you've had a great day today and the same for tomorrow. At least it's supposed to cool off!!!

 

[Lesli54]

It's time to get the Oreos out of the house!

Yesterday seemed to really drag on. Food was ok, except for the Oreos and the humungous T-bone.

AM snack was as planned and it really tasted good. Lunch took a turn. There weren't any chicken breasts cooked yet when I went for lunch so I grabbed a pork chop instead, no bun. Then I brought it home to eat with a small salad. It was good, but next time, I think I will just come home and make a large salad and either skip the meat or get some turkey. The PM snack? Well, let's just say it wasn't as planned AND it lasted all afternoon. I think I ate about 9 Oreos. Don't really know why other than I knew they were around. Maybe part was that I was bored, maybe part was that I am feeling overwhelmed, maybe part was TOM's final revenge. I really don't know.

Supper ended up being steak, 1/2 baked potato, and too few green beans. I should have saved some of the steak for another meal, but I didn't. I just ate. There again, I am not really sure what was bothering me that I just kept eating. Maybe some of it is the frustration of the scale not moving, maybe some of it is the frustration of eating all those cookies, maybe part was the frustration of not getting any exercise, maybe part is just being frustrated with myself. Ah HA! Maybe, I just hit on a reason.

I am frustrated with myself. I am not demanding enough of me when it comes to exercise, which I know will make me feel even better and look better and help the scale to move. I am not demanding enough of me to take time for myself. I am trying to do too many things at once, falling back into old habits, and really not getting anything done. I am still in the frame of thinking that I got to do it all now or never do it. I am not doing a little at a time until it gets done and so some things are suffering. I feel like I know everything I am supposed to do to make things work smoothly, but I am not practicing it. WHY not? Why wouldn't I ..................just had an epiphany. I think it is my way of hiding. I think I am afraid of something. I don't think that I am afraid of success, I often succeed at most things I do. I think I am afraid of failure and boredom. I think that I am afraid that when things are caught up and running soothly, I will find that I am bored because I KNOW it doesn't take as long to do some of these things as I make it out to be. And I think that when I look around and see that I don't really have as much to do, except be a mom and clean house, then I will feel like I have failed, like I am not contributing to my family as much as I could financially, like I missed my boat to have a career and have failed in my father's eyes. I also think that if I am not longer as "busy" then DH will expect me to find a job once DS is in school and if I don't then I will be a failure in his eyes.

I think that is it. I am afraid of failing in a better life. The thing is, it really sounds stupid. I am not a failure and I have done really well raising my children. The longer I put things off and drag them out, I am really failing as we speak, so I am really doing what I am afraid will happen. I am already failing my business when I don't get my bookwork done in a timely manner, I am failing to give my family the best of me when I spend too much time hiding because I take more time away from them. I am already creating some boredom for myself now since I tend to drag out a some things. If I had those things done quickly, then I could pursue other activities and I wouldn't be bored. Why should I worry about what my father thinks about my career potential? This is a man who chose career over family and I have done the opposite. By doing so, I know that my children are comfortable around me and that they will be there when I am ill one day, I cannot say the same for my father and all his children. So it is probably myself that has a life that he wanted and never got, maybe he is really trying to live up to me. Never thought of that before. As far as DH, I know in my mind that he will support me in whatever I choose to do as far as working outside of the home. I just feel bad sometimes that he works so hard to bring in a good income and I am not working as hard. That feeling would probably change some if I was more active in our business.

It is strange to think that the things you are afraid of are actually already happeing and you just don't see it. Now to devise a plan to get past this line of thinking.

Breakfast: oatmeal, 1 c. hot tea w/vanilla
AM snack: yogurt
Lunch: salad & tuna wrap
PM snack: milk & fruit
Supper: BLT's and fruit

Goals for day:
1. Begin to conquer my fear of failure by completing tasks faster
2. 15 min dance
3. 15 min toning
4. 2 hrs bookwork
5. Finish cleaning my office

Well, I have taken up enough of everyone's time. I better get going. School starts tomorrow for everyone except DS, so I sure today will be busy.

Have a great day!

 

[pearlieq]

Yesterday is in the past--just pick yourself up and move on. Begone Oreos!!!

It sounds like you been doing a lot of thinking and it's been very productive. I share a lot of those same fears--I fear failure and sometimes choose not to try rather then risk failing. Your candor and honestly will help you a lot, I think.

Very powerful insight about your father. It's amazing how we can internalize other people's criticisms and expectations even when we can see the not so great effects of those decisions in their own lives.

I hope you have a great day and go to bed feeling good about what you have accomplished. Take care!

 

[goldcupmom]

HUGS!!!!!

I totally understand what you are going through and your insights could apply to me mostly as well. Very hard!!

Somedays I eat myself into oblivion just for the sake of eating. Maybe I fear getting thinner? Who knows.

Hope you have a better day tomorrow!

 

[Lesli54]

Well, yesterday wasn't so great for food either, but I did manage to get my office clean. There are still some "organized" piles here and there that I need to work through, but I can see the daybed (not knowing when DD18 will come home is reason to always keep it clear), I can see a good portion of the top of my desk AND I actually was able to find enough floor space to vaccuum. So, I did stay busy and I feel a little less overwhelmed. Now to get through the piles one day at a time. My plan is to have things really in order in my office by the end of the week. I will still be behind, but everything that can be put away will be. Should make it easier for me to concentrate on getting caught up.

DH took DD15 out for her first driving lesson. I don't think I can handle all these changes all at once. My family definitely decided to grow up over night.

AM snack was as planned. Lunch.....it started with the fritos that DH brought home. Sure now I don't want them and he brings home 2 huge bags of chips. I know I didn't have to eat them, but as I said before, I am on the weak side at the moment. Then I got a salad. After that it was more fritos and a few chips and more fritos. Followed by 1 tbsp of PB. Then I think more fritos. The kids wanted some oreos and since there were 5 and only 2 kids, I ate the last oreo. Then more fritos and chips. So much for my PM snack. Supper didn't even sound good and I ate a bowl of cereal. Unfortunately, I had company pop over for a few minutes and when I returned to my cereal it was really soggy. Then more fritos. Then another Tbsp of PB. Then DH made popcorn and yes, I had some of that as well. Water was ok, not great. I have to get beyond yesterday and go back to being strict today. DH is going to be under orders to not bring chips back into the house. Chips just make you eat more junk.

Breakfast: 1 scrambled egg, oatmeal (don't have grits), 1 c. milk, 1 sm banana, 1 c. hot tea
AM snack: yogurt
Lunch: Seared Tuna Salad & a pear
PM snack: vegetables w/ guacamole (if I can find all the ingredients)
Supper: Herb Roasted Chicken, asparagus (if we have any, salad if not), corn

Going back Dr. Phil's Rapid Start 14 day plan. I just remembered, we might be gone during supper. Well, we will eat healthy.

Goals for day:
1. 2 hrs bookwork
2. 20 min run errands around town
3. 30 min exercise
4. bills
5. 1 hr GS
6. tackle one stack in my office

School starts back today. In the next 15 min to half hour, everyone will be running out the door. They are excited to go back. I am excited to get back to a normal routine.

Better get going. Today is a new day and a new start. Everyone have a great day!

 

[pearlieq]

Happy first day of school! I hope the kids have fun and you enjoy having a semi-quiet house!

Good job with all you accomplished yesterday, despite the evil Fritos! DH's just have a marvelous sense of timing, don't they. My DH does the same thing too often as well--he thinks he's being nice or buying me a treat, but it becomes a piece of chocolate cake or a candy I have to deal with! Glad you asked DH for no more chips!

Hope you have a great day today! Your dinner sounds yummy!

 

[rcyannacci]

Just got caught up...wow, you've had quite the week. It seems like you've been doing a lot of deep thinking, which is to be expected during a time of transition, and I agree with pearlieq, it seems to be really productive. All I would add is just to remember to be kind to yourself...know that for a few weeks, things might be off, but you will get back on track because that's who you are.

Move-in day sounds crazy! I always thought my parents hated helping me move in...until my senior year when I got my boyfriend (now DH!) to help me move in, and my dad, I learned later, was sad he didn't get to help me one last time. Really, I thought I was saving him a headache! I had no idea the emotions that were wrapped up in it for him. (BTW- he and my mom are always in the back of my head, and I wonder if they would feel about this decision or that one...it's inevitable, I suppose.)

Good luck with DS and potty training, and getting everyone else off to school. Won't your other DD start cheerleading soon? I'm sure that will keep everyone busy too.

Be GOOD to yourself, and have a good week!

 

[Lesli54]

I cannot begin to express how nice it was to have a semi-normal routine yesterday in a "quiet" house. We have routines in the summer, but the volume of the house can get to you at times. But yesterday, I enjoyed every minute of the low volume.

DD7 loves 2nd grade. She says that it is totally awesome and just so cool. DD15 says that HS is boring so far. Yesterday every teacher in every class went over the rules and expectations of the students, which turned out to be the same thing and is supposed to be stricter this year. Something new they are trying and supposedly enforcing a dress code. Yeah, I will believe it all when I see it. It would be cool, but I have learned not to believe what comes out of the mouth's out the school system.

DS is back to taking naps. It is making the day a little easier as he is not so crabby. DD18 called to tell us that dining services offered her a job at Pizza Hut Express starting yesterday since Burger King will take even longer to finish building. She grabbed the job. Pizza Hut happens to be her favorite. Hopefully, if she does a good job, they will just keep her there and not move her over to BK when it opens. Her math class was canceled for today since the books still haven't come in.

Last night we went to DH's aunt's house to pick up some folding chairs that she was giving us and some living room chairs she was giving BIL. She also tried to give us the sleeper sofa that she just bought, but we insisted that we buy it from her so that she can replace it with the piece she wants. It works out 3 ways. She doesn't completely lose all the money she spent (which was too much), we get a sleeper sofa for the living room in the basement so DD18 has a more comfortable place to sleep when she is home, and we won't see SIL take off with yet another "free" peice of furntiture for her family. So, next time DD18 and boyfriend are home, we will move the sofa.

Everything was good up to lunch. I didn't have all the ingredients to make my lunch so I went with tuna (very uninspiring since I was out of some things), cherry tomatoes (lacked flavor), and some fritos. I stayed really busy yesterday which was great, but then I stopped and ate the rest of the fritos (not much). Supper was at Paneras, we took DH's aunt with us. I had French Onion soup of which they forgot to put in the cheese and I ate some bread. They were out of cookies for the little ones, so DS got a triple berry muffin and DD7 got a cheese croissant. I had a very small taste of both. Water was almost on track. Things could have been a little better, but considering the days I have had recently, I did pretty well. The scale is at least moving back down again towards where my ticker reads.

Breakfast: 1 egg omelet w/cheese, cream of wheat (didn't eat all), watermelon, 1/2 c. hot tea w/vanilla
AM snack: cucumbers & cheese
Lunch: salad w/turkey
PM snack: banana & milk
Supper: leftovers of some sort

I thought I better hold off until Thursday to begin with my rapid start plan. We have a meeting at the school tonight for DD7's class and tomorrow, I have a meeting that may take most of my late afternoon and evening. Kind of hard to cook then. So for now, I will just keep everything reasonable and concentrate on the basics.

Goals for day:
1. 15 minutes dance
2. 15 minutes tone
3. Bills I didn't get to yesterday
4. 2 hrs bookwork
5. 1 hr GS
6. walk around the house 3 times and straighten something every time I take a break

Time to get going. DS is still asleep. DD15 just left and DD7 is just about to leave, so my work day will begin real soon.

Everyone have a great day!

 

[pearlieq]

So happy to hear you're getting settled into a more manageable school year routine! Enjoy the bits of quiet you can find today!

Sounds like you ate very well yesterday--good for you!

Good luck with your goals today--they look very reasonable and I'm sure you can knock them all out!

Take care!

 

[rcyannacci]

Ah, that French Onion soup sounds so good right now! I wish we had a Panera's here in Austin...we went to one while in PA with the inlaws and I LOVED it!

Sounds like a schedule is starting to fall into place for you and the family. That should help you get back on track in no time

BTW- I loved 2nd grade too! It was one of my favorite years...some days I'd love to go back to that classroom and spend a day Glad your DD is so happy.

Have a great day!

 

[Lesli54]

Yesterday was a day that made me remember my passion and made me think of what I need to do to ultimately have what I want. I wish there was a passion for losing weight, but after awhile it just becomes a neccessary thing you need to do to get to where you are comfortable and free to be who you want to be. Anyway, in the middle of doing bills one of my mother's cousins called and started asking more questions about the family research that I have done and how did I find certain things etc. He and his wife are going out to WY and MO and thought about stopping by some of the places where his grandparents lived. He was so excited to find that there was more out that way than originally thought. I haven't worked on genealogy since the beginning of the year because life has been so busy. But that chance to pull things out and begin sharing info was so fun. It felt good to be the person with the info. After hanging up the phone, I was biten by the bug again and as soon as I finished my bill paying, I took a break from everything else and started doing a little more research on the family. Just enough to whet my appetite. The night before last, DH told his aunt that I am really good at finding info on family and many times I find things others don't. I just think I look at things from a different perspective than some of the others who I research with, so I am able to find people in locations they never thought to look. But his words kept ringing in my ears and with familiy beginning to come to me for info (not the first), I felt so exhilirated. Last night DH mentioned that I should go back to school and then practice genealogy as a profession. I want to. He then said I don't have enough time. Normally that would crush my hopes, but this time I said that I would have to make time.

So now I am on the path to doing what I love on a daily basis. That means finish losing weight so that I can stop concentrating on it every day. It means making some more life changes. First thing is first, I need to get caught up on my bookwork so that it is manageable day to day. I need to work on backing off Scouts, which just takes finding the right people to share in some of my responsibilities, I hope I can. I need to set up a schedule for family chores so that everyone knows where they need to pitch in. They know, but they forget unless I tell them or it is in writing. Also, I need to keep one genealogy file out where it can act as incentive. If I finish all my taks trying to get caught up, then I will set aside time for research every few days. I feel so excited.

Anyway, I didn't get to everything yesterday, but that is ok. I did work on straightening some rooms while I "watched/listened" to one of my soaps. That is a plus. My breaks from the office did include doing other chores around the house, which actually felt good and made me feel like I was accomplishing something.

All food was as planned until I hit the PM snack. I started munching on teddy grahams, then I ate a little tuna and crackers, then more teddy grahams. Then some turkey. At that point, I would have told you that I was really hungry, but I don't think I was. I think I was just really thinking about what I want and the changes I need to make. Supper was an LC chicken chow mein. Not what I wanted, but I didn't feel like going to the store. Later I ate 1/2 bag of popcorn. This was more because I didn't get the taste I was looking for at supper. Then I had to get rid of the salt in my mouth so I went for PB. A vicious cycle. There really is something to be said for sticking with whole foods that you have to actually prepare in order to eat. All these quick fixes just lead to more quick fixes. The scale did drop a little more though this morning. 1 more lb. and I am back to my ticker claim.

Breakfast: oatmeal, 1/2 c. milk, 1 c. OJ
AM snack: veggies, if I remember to grab them before heading out the door
Lunch: Martha's vineyard salad, grab at Arby's in between errands and going to work
PM snack: apple, to eat in the car on the way to meeting
Supper: don't know, depends on when I get out of the meeting there isn't much to eat along the way, if it's early, I will wait til I get home

Goals for day:
1. run a few errands
2. take DD15 to ortho
3. work at store for a few hours
4. GS meeting over an hour away
5. dance for 15 min when I get home tonight

I guess I better get going. DD7 will be leaving for school soon and DS will probably go to the store with DH. So that means I have about an hour to get a few things done before hitting the road.

Everyone have a wonderful day!

 

[pearlieq]

Yay! I'm so happy you found a direction you're passionate about! It's such a wonderful feeling and makes everything else better along the way. You sound so energized and hopeful. I know you can do it!!!

Sounds like a super busy day today. I hope it's a good one!

 

[rcyannacci]

You're a historian!!! I love family geneologies, and wish I had more time to research our family history...some people in our family have researched certain sections, but it would be nice to have something more comprehensive. For years, I've also been thinking about writing a family history of food, pulling together family stories and recipes, and the way family traditions carry...in America, a lot of traditions fall by the wayside, but families generally hold on to recipes as a way to reconnect with the past.

Anyway (I'm rambling), I'm always a big fan of anybody going or returning to school, so I'd say go for it! You seem to be a pro at scheduling, so it would just be a matter or setting priorities.

Hope you have a great day!