Kim's new and improved life journal!

[ScoJo15]

How'd it go??? How'd it go???

Hoping it was a good race for you!!

 

[kimwim8]

Darnit - I just typed a long post & it didn't go through.

OK, here goes again....

I dread posting this guys, I really do. I can't thank you enough for all of your support and encouragement. I thought about not posting this, but I owe you guys at least this much...

I didn't run the race. I didn't even go.

My sister backed out yesterday for work reasons out of her control. When she first told me, I thought...ok I guess I'm going by myself. But the more I thought about it, I realized I shouldn't.

This might sound like excuses, but honestly - I haven't told you guys all that this past week has been like. After my last run ('bout a week ago) I haven't felt too well. My left hip has been "out" of joint more than "in". My right knee is a constant dull ache. My ankles lock up if I sit down for more than an hour. None of these are stopping me from working, or doing what needs to be done for my family. BUT - running hasn't happened. And after my sister bailed y'day, I realized that I should too. If she had still been able to go, I would have gone without a second thought. But when it was down to just me, it just didn't seem "important" anymore. That sounds horrible, but by important, I mean in the grand scheme of things. Would it be worth it if I hurt myself by pushing my speed in a race? Would it be worth it if I hurt my knee or hip more for a 5k, maybe so much that I wouldn't be able to work for a while? To me, the answer was no. If it was a 1/2 marathon, I know I would have felt differently.

Hopefully it's just the fact that I've run for too long on old sneakers. Possibly some of it could be my non-stable running pattern/schedule. But at this point, I'm gonna wait until I get the new sneakers to see what's going on.

I completely feel like a drop-out, a loser and a failure. And I'm sorry to let you guys down. Hopefully you won't give up on me.

I did run/walk today. At my own pace and on my own turf. And I paid for it the rest of the day. That darn mileage challenge made me do it. I walked a bit yesterday and again last night at the boardwalk. So I made it to my 35 mile goal. Not sure what I'll set October at, we'll see.

Thanks again, for everything. You have no idea what you guys mean to me.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Kim,

First, YOU DID NOT LET ANYONE DOWN, AND YOUR ARE NOT A FAILURE!!!!!!!!
Second, you need to take care of yourself. You said that your leg pain is not interfering with your family responsibilities and work. Okay, if the new shoes do not take care of the pain, please go get checked out. I worry.

Now, congratulations on making your September challenge. I hope you are feeling better today. I think you are wise not to set a new goal for October. At least until your new shoes arrive.

buddy. You made a wise decision, and I respect you for it.

Have a good Monday,
Beth

 

[toystoryduo]

Kim,

Beth is absolutely right.... You did NOT let anyone down and you are NOT a failure. Honey, what you did is what I would call success....You listened to your body and your body told you no.Sweetie, not running that race is a victory because you listened to your body, you weighed your options and you possibly prevented further injury. You made a very, very wise decision, Kim and I am so proud of you for it.

I do want to congratulate you on making your September goal. Please be sure and take some time to heal a bit and get those new shoes in October.

I hope you have a great week ahead.

 

[postesf]

Hi Kimmy!!! First of all, CONGRATS on your Sept numbers! Good job girl!!!

Do NOT think that you dissappointed us! We are here for YOU! To support YOU in whatever decision YOU think is best! There is no shame in taking care of yourself and that is what you did! Do not feel bad for that! We are proud of you no matter what! You got that!!!

Hope your new shoes get you back on track and feeling better!!! Keep us up to date!

Have a good one!
Stacie

 

[kimwim8]

Thank you, thank you, thank you guys.

Still no sneakers yet...but unfortunately TOM has reared his ugly head, so a few days off will be all I can handle. (and you thought I was done whining )

Again, I can't thank you enough for understanding. I'm no hard-core runner, but it's still disappointing and frustrating.

Only good things to come, right? Staying positive.

 

[kmp1191]

Hopefully you won't give up on me.

Oh....like we would do that!!! Not once have you ever given up on ANY of us!!! You have ALWAYS been supportive, no matter what the situation!!! Honestly kim...you're such a goober!!! That's why we love you!!!
I, for one, can honestly say that I'm proud of you for:

#1-signing up for the race to begin with!
#2-training for the race
#3-listening to your body and knowing when to say when
#4-getting back out there and doing what you can without overdoing it!!

You have never, and will never be a failure....no matter how hard you try!!! (but you are, and always will be a goober!!! )

Btw-I'm thinking of doing the October Challenge....maybe just logging it on my own for now....

Great job on the Sept Challenge!!!
love ya!
reeeeeeeeeeeeeee

 

[postesf]

HI Kim!!! Just checking in!!! Hope you're having a good day!!! Are you going in January to WDW???

Stacie

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Kim
I agree with everyone else, you did the right thing, by listening to your body!
Well done for meeting the September challenge
Hope TOM is swift & painless

 

[kimwim8]

HI Kim!!! Just checking in!!! Hope you're having a good day!!! Are you going in January to WDW???

Stacie

I wish!! Nope, this year isn't my year (not able financially to get there with a trip already in November). But I am definitely shooting for 2009.

Tracey - swift & painless ?!?!?!? Wouldn't that be nice!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Gentle Kim,

I know that TOM kicks your behind each month. Just do what you need to do to get through the day.

Take care of yourself,
Beth

 

[toystoryduo]

Kim,

Hope you're feeling better soon.

 

[AmyBeth68]

Hi KIM!!!

I hope you are feeling a little better today! I know that TOM is brutal for you. I really hope it's not too awful this time!

Look at you ....you hit your mileage goal for September!!! You have to be so happy with that. Just really take a look at that hip issue you are experiencing. The hips can be tricky and it can become chronic. Make sure you are doing a lot of good hip and psoas stretches. If you need any information on those just PM me and I'll link you to some good exercises for that area. A lot of times the hips come out of alignment and running can aggrivate that. The misalignment tends to be caused by tight psoas and hip flexor muscles. By stretching those areas daily you may be able to stay pain free. I know you had mentioned a long time ago that you've had hip issues for a really long time and that you have popping hips. Just be careful with that!!! Another way to help with the hip issues is to keep your core strong...so keep beanercizing McBeaner . A pilates video or class might not be a bad idea either . (spoken like a true Pilates teacher).

Anyway...I hope your week is going well. Are you watching Survivor??? Interesting location for sure. I haven't found anyone I 'like' yet. But as for DWTS....HELIO all the way.

Take care and hang in there kiddo! I really appreciate all the amazing and kind words you said in my journal .

 

[keenercam]

Oh, Kim, I'm sorry I havent' been posting, but I want you to know I have been thinking of you. And how SILLY of you to think you let ANYONE down. My goodness, girl! Don't you know better than that by now? The most important thing any of us can do in our quest to be fit is to be mindful and respectful of the messages our bodies send us!
Now, Look at you!!! You finished 35 miles in September!! That is so rockin'!!! Start giving yourself some credit where it is more than certainly due, or I'll have to come there and kick your butt. And you know I am close enough to do that!!!
Seriously, Kim, congratulations on all you have accomplished. Sending you a huge and hopes that you are feeling better.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Kim,

I am just checking in to see how you are feeling. You know us moms, always worrying.

Take care of yourself.

Beth

 

[postesf]

Hey there KIM! How's it going??? Hopefully well! Just checking in to say HI! TOM of sucks!!! Hope you're making it through!!!

Hope you're feeling better soon!

Stacie

 

[kimwim8]

Hey all. Thanks SO much for checkin' in. I'm hanging in. TOM, unfortunately, is the same as always for me. One day at a time.

My hip is really the only lingering problem right now. (Amy, I'll certainly be PMing you) I haven't run or walked at all this week. Just taking it easy and waiting on the new sneakers.

I know I'm hard on myself. And the disappointment I felt after not running that 5k was pretty extreme. But you guys helped me realize that I had really done well in September (even with going away) and that I need to focus on that and take care of myself. So a BIG BIG thank you to you guys!

Cam - stop on by anytime!! Me, you and Jen should get together.
Amy - yes, we're watching Survivor. I too don't know who I like yet, but it really looks BRUTAL!! DWTS.....I think I'm rooting for Sabrina. She's got it in the bag.

DS's never-ending birthday event continues tomorrow. We're having my side of the family over for cake tomorrow night and he has his kid party at Bounce U on Sunday. I'll share some pics after the weekend is over. I can't WAIT for the long weekend!

Thanks again. I'll never be able to say it enough.

 

[keenercam]

Cam - stop on by anytime!! Me, you and Jen should get together.

Kim -- That sounds awesome! Just say the word and we'll all powow by PM with our calendars!

 

[ScoJo15]

Hey Kim

Good luck with the hip issue and the TOM pain...I know that's been a struggle and I really hope that things get better for you.

And geesh..those shoes LOL...what the heck did you order?? Those things need to come in already!

Survivor...I like the kid from Nashville that has received ZERO face time so far...he may be the only normal one of the bunch.....and DWTS, I'm pulling for Helio!! Granted, Sabrina has done very well, but I'm against the celebrities that already know how to dance & she's a professional! Helio seems to be a genuinely good guy, so let the battle begin! LOL

Have a good night...

 

[larry's girl]

Hi, Kim. I went back and read through your journal from the beginning, and I have to say - YOU ARE AWESOME!! You lost a TON of weight and then kept going with the exercise even when you weren't feeling well and life kept getting in the way. You haven't given up and that inspires me SO MUCH when I feel like giving up (which is a lot lately, but that's another story). Anyway, please don't be disappointed in yourself - no one else is.

Hope you feel better and get back to running soon. Have a good weekend!

Susan