Oh, I empathize. This is such a difficult process to go through, not only making the decision but also everything else that goes with it. We had to do this 3 days after my ds was born...such a difficult thing no matter what is going on in your life. As Kerri said, give yourself time to grieve, especially if you are someone to whom pets have an extra special place in your life and heart. Our Meggie was our baby when we thought we wouldn't have human ones... Try not to feel guilty over having to make the decision either - I know I did, even though we went above and beyond trying to keep her comfortable (including chemo). Try to focus on the happy memories to help you through....