Journey back to ME!!- I'm getting bugged!!

[goldcupmom]

Y'all are so sweet!!! Thanks for all your encouragement, all the time! You're the BEST!

I did a quick run thru of DS20 taxes and he should get back just about enough to pay off what he owes the University- assuming I have the amount owed correct. Now I just need to see him long enough to get a chance to talk with him about the real amount, deadline, etc for pmt, & get him to sit down while I do the taxes so he can learn something. Fun, Fun, Fun!

I REALLY, REALLY want to go to the gym today, but the wind here hasn't stopped blowing in about 36 hours & I'm talking 25 - 35 steady and gusts to 70! I live in a desert - think DUST BOWL!!! On top of the chest cold, having coughed all night, my allergies are horrid and I'm mildly dizzy/lightheaded from the sinus pressure. Not stuffy, just pressure. So, gym isn't looking too likely. But I WANT to swim - isn't that strange!! If DD gets home in time, I may try to talk her into going up with me and swimming/steam room/hot tub for a bit.

DD is enroute home from Solo & Ensemble. According to her, she totally BOMBED! She chickened out on having an open room-- Oh well..... No penalty for that & she's very self conscious. She scored a 2+. 3 is good, 2 is very good, 1 is Near Perfect & 1+* is you're a prodigy. I think she did fine. The new choir director didn't have them do a 'run thru' for the class, and he didn't realize they needed an accompanist until DD told him last Tuesday, so they never got a chance to practice with their accompanist. I could have gone & done it, but figured I would have made DD even more nervous.

I finally am getting a start on Ebay. I've brought the spring/summer containers up and started taking pics. I don't know how many, but it seems like a lot! I think I'm just tired!

Food is a bit more controlled today. I think I've been eating because I can't taste anything and want to. I'm hooked on diet orange sunkist soda & it's super sweet and I really can't even taste that - although I've polished off almost 1/2 of a 2 L bottle.

Off to take a few more pics before DD gets home. I'll try to get to journals later.

 

[goldcupmom]

I misunderstood DD - she DID have an open room and that was the problem. She got a 2+ (Excellent+) because she was so nervous she had to restart the song 3 times - the first 2 starts nothing came out. The judges only comment was that she had no need to be nervous - it would have been a 1+ without the restarts.

I coughed all night long & could hear the whistle in my lungs. I'm going to try to get a lot done today and am going to swim around dinner time, hot tub & steam room. Hopefully it will help.

Eating yesterday was much more controlled, but not perfect. Low sugar oatmeal for breakfast, LC mac/chz for lunch, 2 potato skins, 5 boiled shrimp & 5 pot stickers for dinner. It was the 4 dove chocolate hearts that were bad, but I could taste them!

DH is off to work, DS17 is off to church w/ girlfriend, DD is asleep as I think she is coming down with what I've got. DS20 already has it. When he got up earlier, DH & I did get a brief chance to discuss some finances with him. When he wakes up again, I'll help him do at least his Federal Tax.

My plan for the day is to finish a few pics for Ebay, clean part of my office & list a few things. I took 219 pics yesterday & still have MANY more to take & then edit out the bad ones.

And I need to take it easy. I'm not a medicine taker since I reacted to drugs after an outpatient surgery 13 years ago (almost killed me), but I may have to go get some cough medicine.

Since the Minnie isn't looking too likely, I've decided that DD & I will do the Run for the Zoo here (10K) the same weekend if it doesn't work out. The registration deadline for both is sometime in April.

I'm determined that food will be better today! So far WW yog w/ fiber one(1) & I'm having Boca meatless lasagna for lunch(5). I'm making DH grill an assortment of meats for dinner tonght so we will have them to eat on this week. I added 2 slices of lt bread w/ garlic to my lunch, so at 7 pts for the day.

DH has his follow up with the Cardiologist who did his angioplasty tomorrow morning. I REALLY want to go as I am fairly certain that DH will be stretching his adherence to the 'plan' a bit, but I'm not sure I should spread my germs. Hard decision.

 

[bekkiz]

The zoo run sounds like a lot of fun!

I'm so sorry you're not feeling so ell--I bet the steam room is just what you need. I've been spending SO much time in my shower on HOT, it makes the bathroom like a little steam room. But it's so relaxing and I feel great after getting out. I hope you have a chance to have one

Good luck w/ your eating today (sounds like it's under control!)!

 

[goldcupmom]

I made it to the gym, but have truly felt steadily worse all day. I managed to swim for 45 min, then rewarded myself with 10 min in the steam room. Felt GOOD!!!

Dinner I made myself some brown rice and a small box of lf broccoli/cheese. Couldn't taste it, so I added soy sauce. I know it will not help the scale, but at least I can kind of taste salt - better than the sweets which seem to be the only other thing I taste.

DH said he didn't want to be around me as he doesn't want to get sick, so he left early this morning with the portable DVD player & his laptop & was at work til 5. When he got home I asked him if he wanted to go to the gym with me as he hasn't been all week - Nope - too tired! UGH!!!!!! I hope I somehow wake up feeling better in the morning so I can go to the Dr. with him!

 

[toystoryduo]

... Hope you are feeling better soon, Julie. Way to go getting your workout in!

 

[goldcupmom]

Thanks, Tracy! I didn't cough as much last night, only in spurts, but now my nose won't quit running. Maybe it's a good thing!

Took DD to school, went back again to give her her ID as she forgot it. Just finished helping DS17 fill out his college application for UNM, called about his taking the GED. If he takes a GED, he can get 4 years of tuition paid for by the NM lottery. If he gives them his HS transcript from the E-school, he doesn't qualify as it's not in NM. He WILL take the GED, then once accepted, get his HS diploma from Keystone. Why would I let him pass up the chance to have free tuition for 4 years?? So, he will take the GED on 3/20-21 - needs a 530/800 to qualify. I don't think that will be a problem! Math was his only low score on the ACT and that's because he's never memorized formulas - on the GED they GIVE you a page full of formulas, telling you what they are, and a calculator to use.

I'm going to try to make it to the gym today, but if it's nice enough, I may end up just going for a long walk instead. My breathing isn't good, so whatever I do it will have to be done at a lesser intensity than usual. Oh well, at least I'll be doing something!

Breakfast was ww yogurt & fiberone (1 pt). DH never grilled last night, so he MUST do it tonight! I still can't taste anything.


Off to get stuff ready to Ebay later this evening & start some more laundry.

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Julie
I hope that cold goes away soon, i too have the bad chest, runny nose & coughing all night!!!!
Good luck to DS for the GED (havnt got a clue what it is, but i gather its some sort of test/exam to get into uni!)
Well done to DD for doing so well with her singing (my DD(12) sings too...is this getting spooky??)
Tell her I will be watching out for her on American Idol in a few years
Look after yourself

 

[goldcupmom]

Thanks, Tracy, for the healing thoughts! I hope you get over your stuff soon, too!

A GED is a "Graduation Equivalency diploma" you get after you take a test that is equal to graduating from High School. Since DS17 is homeschooled, if he takes this and scores a 530/800, he will be eligible for our Lottery Success Scholarship which pays full tuition for 4 years of college if they keep a 2.5 Grade Point. Well worth it!

Today was BAD!! Yesterday was a 2+ box of kleenex day, Today I'm almost thru my 3rd full box! UGH!!! I was good at breakfast, but it went quickly downhill. Lunch was Nachos, AGAIN!!! DS17 did the grilling (much better than DH, but don't tell! ) and he also made some julienne potatoes(from a box) and brown rice with salsa corn & green chili. I ate about 2 oz of steak, a tiny bite of the potatoes & about 1/4 cup of the rice.

DD is at a friends & then they are going to the gym. She's to call if there are swimming lanes open. I want to go, but don't have the energy to go there & find out I can't swim. Pathetic, I know.

I've not gotten much done today, too tired! Our 25th anniv is coming up & I'm quite confident that DH has no intention of doing anything, & if he does think about it it will be the day before when it will be too late. I know the only place he would be interested in going would be Hawaii (EXPENSIVE), and he HATES humidity and sun. (DUH!!! Can you say 'scantily clad females on beaches???') So, I spent a good part of the day researching. It won't go beyond that, I'm sure, especially since I don't know if Mia is expecting yet and if so, we would still have puppies at home early summer. It was an entertaining, mindless diversion, though!

Off to try to get some Ebay listed before hopefully going to swim. I'm also hoping for some longer, better sleep tonight. The cough seems better at least during the day today, so hopefully it won't hit tonight.

 

[goldcupmom]

Ebay done & I'm off to bed soon!

Breathing through my mouth makes me REALLY thirsty so I'm trying a new crystal lite flavor - Blueberry white tea. I'm NOT at all sure I like it. I'm afraid if I was really tasting it I might hate it, and I LOVE blueberries! Maybe it's the color - it's rather disgusting - think rusty old toilet water. (appetizing description, huh?)

To make my food intake worse, DD made 'ooey gooey chocolate' dessert from Sam's. Since DS17 made dinner, she had to keep up. I had one bite and I WILL NOT have more!!!!!!!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Julie, I am so sorry you are sick! I hate colds worse than about anything. When will you find out if Mia is in a family way? Better her than you huh ? That is great if you son can get some free tuition. Maybe I need to move to NM! And I love blueberries but that Crystal Light flavor sounds sort of nasty. It never hurts to surf the net for vacations that might or might not ever happen. Maybe you should go to Hawaii with your sister or by yourself! Feel better very soon!

 

[CaroleD]

What kind of dog is Mai? I have a black Lab and would love to have bred her. In the end we opted out as we figured it should be done by people who are experienced in that sort of thing. So poor Maggie never got to be a mama dog. She just gets to rule the roost here.

Congrats on your weight loss so far. Twenty seven pounds is an awesome loss.

 

[toystoryduo]

Julie,

I hope you are feeling better soon. Sending you some get well from Ohio.

Great job getting your eBaying done! I need to get some eBaying done over the next couple of days myself.

I hope you and your DH get a chance to do something special for your 25th Anniversary.

Have a great day today!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Julie
I hope your cold goes away soon, you will be eating the unhealthy stuff cos your feeling ill & run down. (thats my excuse )
Thanks for clearing up the GED & i hope DS does well
Did you manage to get the swim in?

 

[goldcupmom]

Last night was a basically no cough night, but I was so tired I couldn't sleep! GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

DH was supposed to have his followup with the Cardio yesterday, but he got there & the Dr. was out sick. So they rescheduled him with a different Dr. today. He's all upset as he truly believes the original Dr. will REMEMBER him & everything about him & know if there is a change. He didn't want to hear that they just read the charts/info & go from there unless they see you frequently.

I made it to swim today - 74 min of laps including 50 stair tricep pushups & 50 reg pushups. I picked up the mail before I went & my new RX swim goggles were there. I've been swimming w/ my glasses on as if I got out to check the clock, I'd lose my lane. They aren't my full RX w/ bifocals, but for $18 they are GREAT!! And I don't have the chemicals bugging my eyes.

Breakfast today was lt bread w/ turkey sandwich before the gym. Lunch was lt chips & ff cottage cheese. Dinner will be chicken, salad & Bpotato.

 

[goldcupmom]

Warning, I'm very tired & there's a VERY frustrated VENT ahead!

DH had his follow-up Cardiology appointment today - 2 months check up I guess.

Don't get me wrong here, as I AM thankful that he is doing well, I'm just frustrated, angry, miffed, and many other words that would get edited!

I don't know what he told the Dr. But, the fact is he has gone to the gym to exercise 3 times since he quit cardiac rehab. He claims to walk at lunch, but if he does, he's doing it in dress shoes. Plus, he sweats like a shower anytime he does ANYTHING physical (ie: taking out trash bag, carrying a laundry basket, walking up stairs, etc.) always has. If he were OUTSIDE, walking, he would not be in shape to go back into work w/o a shower. His daily activity at work is sit at a computer, sit in meetings, maybe walk to meetings or to another cubicle. And he has to walk from his parking spot into the building. At home, he lays on the bed- which is on the main level (he won't even walk down the stairs to watch our new 42" plasma TV) and watches TV and does Sudoku puzzles. He usually fills his plate at mealtime and eats alone on the bed - not at the table with the rest of us.

Yes, he's cut back SOME on eating, but isn't watching his diet as much as they told him to. He's lost a little bit of weight, but NOTHING noticable or significant.

So, his report to me from the Dr. is 'Everything is PERFECT!' His BP, his bloodwork, his ECG, his pulse, his WEIGHT, his EXERCISE, his EATING - I specifically asked him about the last 3! Let's see, he doesn't exercise, he doesn't eat healthy and his BMI is well into the Obese range.

So, I've NEVER gone to a Dr. that hasn't said, lose weight, eat healthier, exercise more - even now! What do I need to do, behave like him and I'll get glowing reports, too??? Makes me want to go suck down 1/2 a bottle of wine, have a cigar, a bag of chips & cheese dip, eat a steak & watch about 8 hours of cartoon network/Star Trek/Andy Griffith/Poker/MASH reruns!!

What am I doing WRONG?????

My sane self says that this can't be true about him, and that I"m doing the right thing, but GEE, I really don't feel like going to the gym when I'm sick, etc, and I do anyway.

End of vent! I guess we should all become couch potatoes & we'd be healthier!!

So, I'm exhausted and I swear if I try to go to bed and he does what he usually does - turn UP the volume on the TV, turn on the overhead lights, I think I'm going to LOSE IT!!!!!

Dinner I had a Baked Potato w/ 1 tsp butter, 1 tsp ff sour cream, 2 tbsp steak sauce and 2 oz pork that DS17 grilled yesterday. The pork was REALLY good and I don't even like meat!

DS17 1st bug is advertised in the paper starting tomorrow. Please send lots of P & PD that it sells quickly and for a good price for him!

Off to list Ebay & try to De-hype before DH gets home & I let him have it!!!!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Maybe dh made out the doctor's report to be a bit more glowing than it was? I can see your frustration big time! I work harder at my food and exercise than people I know who weigh 50 pounds less than I do. It can really get me down. But then I just realize I have to do what I have to do for me. If your dh gets a glowing report in spite of his bad habits I guess thats good for him but I am betting he padded that a bit because he knows you are concerned and ready to come down on him if he gets a bad report! Men can be very sneaky little kiddies sometimes .

GREAT job getting all that swimming in. That is a very long time to be swimming, you must be in some pretty serious shape to do that! Just hang in there and keep doing what you need to do for you!

Hope the bug sells for a great price!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Julie
I agree with Amy, maybe he embelished a bit
You are definatly doing the right thing, YOU havnt had a heart attack!
I hope you manage to catch up on your sleep theres nothing worse
& as usual our very similar lives are spooky again, i had an argument with DH last night about my lack of sleep & constant coughing & his lack of understanding, consideration & out right lousy attitide!

 

[goldcupmom]

We must be related, Tracey!!!

Yesterday I was a bit better & I slept pretty well last night. Today, however, the wind is blowing again - we're talking 30 -40 steady and gusts to 75. The air is brown with sand. My allergies are horrid!

Then, when I dropped DS17 off at work I decided to go get a Keva smoothie. Standing there I suddenly, briefly got VERY dizzy/lightheaded & had to grab the counter to steady myself - lasted a very brief few seconds at most. I don't exactly know what it is, but I've been told it's all hormone related - I could tell last night my hormones were wild as so was I!! And if this strikes, it's mid cycle or right before. I HATE MIDLIFE!!!!!!!! (have I mentioned that before??) The last time I had a 'spell' like that one I had to grab the door frame & it was over 2 years ago. I sometimes have little mini 'dizzys', but not like this. Came home checked BP, etc & all was well. Just an annoyance! These first started almost 13 years ago - and each time I would end up in urgent care with a panic attack. It was a cardiologist who finally realized the hormone connection when they figured out I was in Urgent care the same week of every month. Brilliant!

DS20 worked from 10 - about 10 this morning, was home for a couple hours, and just went back. I'm a bit leery as one of his wonderful friends just got a job there and is now hauling him. Makes me wonder if he will actually make it to work or if he's going to end up losing another job!

I'm still pretty tired, so I'm hoping for another good sleep night. DD & I are planning to go to the gym early evening. I've got to pick her up at the bus due to the wind.

So far today I've had a slimfast, a sf latte & a smoothie. And a slice of turkey breast. I still can't taste anything!

 

[CACruisin']

Here's that you are feeling better soon. A cold is rotten, but allergies on top of it are just down right unfair .

Giving DH the benefit of the doubt, it sounds like he only "heard" what he wanted to hear. I can't imagine any dr telling someone with obese BMI that his weight is perfect. You are doing what you know is right for your own longterm health.

Glad you got your RX goggles. That will make swimming so much better. It is always so frustrating to decide between keeping the glasses/contacts so you can see and wearing goggles so you can focus on the swimming. Now you can do both !

Scary about the dizzy spell. The same thing happened to me about three weeks ago. I thought it was because I hadn't had enough to eat, but now I am thinking maybe not. It really freaked me out at the time.

Oh, and nothing wrong at all with mindless vacation planning/dreaming. I spent the better part of this morning figuring out how much exactly would it cost to get back on the May repositioning cruise to Europe . As I say, I have a rich fantasy life, it keeps me sane Dreaming is good.

Take care Julie!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Are your ears stuffed up with your cold? That can cause dizziness. I agree midlife is lousy! But I don't want to go back and I don't want to be old so I guess I am stuck! Feel better soon!

P.S. Can you send me some information on your rx goggles? I would love to have some. I didn't know there was such a thing.