Jen's Journal: Recording it All to Lose it All

[jenanderson]

Today was a day with huge challenges and huge successes. Hmmm...how to make the story short???

I woke up - did my pilates AND did my couch to 5K walk/run. I was really feeling pleased with myself for not sleeping in and doing what I had promised myself I would do.

Here's where it gets messy - I checked my e-mail and discovered one from a parent. The e-mail basically said that they did not agree with the homework I sent home and they did not allow their child to do the homework AND that they wanted a meeting to talk about the homework. This is a child who really struggles with math computation as well as recalling information from previous units. The homework was a simple math review worksheet!!!! My whole class was given this math sheet. We had just started a new unit, they had no math homework to go with that so I thought it was a great opportunity for a review.

When I get to school, the parent calls me and talks for 25 minutes about what they think it is okay for me to give for homework as well as what they will allow their child to do in class. She tells me that I cannot have her child doing flash cards - EVER - in class. This is a 4th grade student who does not know their math facts. I spend 5 minutes, 3 days a week having student play flash card games to help improve their multiplication and division facts. Nope, they don't want him doing that.

There is so much more to the story, including a meeting after school that lasted 1 1/2 hours and solved nothing. Here are the important parts though. I was mad at first, I was hurt by the fact that I do a lot for this child and their parents are always complaining, I felt totally disrespected and I was very stressed to start my day this way. I knew it could potentially be a bad day. First thing I did when I got off the phone in the morning was to pack up all the snacks and treats in my classroom and bring them to another teacher's office so that I would not be tempted. I know that I am an emotional eater and this was enough to push me into opening the Twix candy packs! I also took 10 minutes of our class reading time for silent reading and played some instrumental music my students like. I took this time to really breathe deep and focus on not letting the stress impact my whole day.

Finally, when I got home, I knew it had been a horrible day so back on the treadmill I went. I walked for 75 minutes! I will be honest about it all...I walked, I read the book "Marathoning for Mortals" and I drank 1 light beer!!! My family laughed so hard at the sight of it all. It made me feel great though! By the time I got off the treadmill, I felt like the stress of the day was gone.

Alright, that was such a long story I will try to be brief with the rest.

Exercise: 95 minutes walking/10 minutes running on treadmill, pilates
Water: 10 glasses
Veggies and Fruit: Yep
Time for me: tons - it was great to read and relax on the treadmill tonight.

Food: Used all 24 of my WW points today but no flex points or exercise points. I eat almost the same breakfast and lunch everyday so it is boring to list that. For dinner we had homemade chili. I like rice in my chili and next time I think I am going to try brown rice.

My quote tonight is one that a WISH friend shared with me...

Dead Last Finish
is greater than
Did Not Finish
which greatly trumps
Did Not Start

Night everyone!!!
Jen

 

[jenanderson]

Friday BL Check In Statistics:

Weight
Today's Weight: 185
Weight Change for the Week: -2.5 pounds
Total Weight Change: -13

COW
6 Days Eating 2 Veggies
7 Days Spend 10 Minutes on Me
7 Days for exercising for 20 minutes per day
7 Days for eating 2 fruits each day
Total COW Points = 27 points

Continuing COW on my own
7 Days Drinking Water

I am so excited that I continue to lose weight. I have been working so hard - not allowing for any excuses, actually using a scale to weigh my food, logging everything I eat, exercising more than ever, etc.

Have to run for now but I will come and log in again later!
Jen

 

[jenanderson]

Alright, I have missed a bunch of days again. In some ways this is a good thing. I sit and think...I could log on and type everything out about my day, my diet, my exercising - or - I could go exercise a little bit more. The exercising has been winning out. I have been doing great with the exercising and it feels really good. I think I will just update in a list...that is just the way my mind works...

1. Just bought the Nike+ and love it!!! It is a great little pod that I attach to my shoe when I walk/run. It tells me my distance and speed. The best is that it then takes all the data and makes these great charts. For me, this is inspiring. I am one of those visual type of people and I love to see the bar graph show an increase every day - it is very motivating to me.

2. I am very hungry. I am going to experiment a bit with eating a few of my extra points each day. Since I am on WW, I know I can do that...I just did not want to because I was afraid I would not lose as much. I have now reached the point though where I am okay with not losing as much each week as long as I continue to lose and tone. I am not going to use the points to eat whatever I want...I am going to do things like have a serving of almonds after working out or eating some extra protein. The hunger is only happening on the days where I do really heavy exercise sessions (especially when I run). I am going to try to be really attentive to my body and make really good choices with extra food. I will try this for a week or two and if I continue to lose weight with the extra food I will know I am on track.

3. Vitamins are a MUST! I am not taking any right now. I know I said I would but I just haven't gotten around to it. I am going to make it a priority this week.

That is it for now. I am taking a morning of rest from exercising...I slept in and am enjoying a nice morning. Tonight I am planning some major time on the TM, a bit of weight lifting and some working out with the Wii. I have a cold that is not making me feel the best so we will see how much of that I really get to. Time for work!

 

[kritter]

Alright, I have missed a bunch of days again. In some ways this is a good thing. I sit and think...I could log on and type everything out about my day, my diet, my exercising - or - I could go exercise a little bit more. The exercising has been winning out. I have been doing great with the exercising and it feels really good. I think I will just update in a list...that is just the way my mind works...

1. Just bought the Nike+ and love it!!! It is a great little pod that I attach to my shoe when I walk/run. It tells me my distance and speed. The best is that it then takes all the data and makes these great charts. For me, this is inspiring. I am one of those visual type of people and I love to see the bar graph show an increase every day - it is very motivating to me.

2. I am very hungry. I am going to experiment a bit with eating a few of my extra points each day. Since I am on WW, I know I can do that...I just did not want to because I was afraid I would not lose as much. I have now reached the point though where I am okay with not losing as much each week as long as I continue to lose and tone. I am not going to use the points to eat whatever I want...I am going to do things like have a serving of almonds after working out or eating some extra protein. The hunger is only happening on the days where I do really heavy exercise sessions (especially when I run). I am going to try to be really attentive to my body and make really good choices with extra food. I will try this for a week or two and if I continue to lose weight with the extra food I will know I am on track.

3. Vitamins are a MUST! I am not taking any right now. I know I said I would but I just haven't gotten around to it. I am going to make it a priority this week.

That is it for now. I am taking a morning of rest from exercising...I slept in and am enjoying a nice morning. Tonight I am planning some major time on the TM, a bit of weight lifting and some working out with the Wii. I have a cold that is not making me feel the best so we will see how much of that I really get to. Time for work!

Jennifer,,

Keep up the GREAT work. You and Jude are doing a SUPER JOB!! I am soo PROUD OF YOU BOTH!!

 

[jenanderson]

Friday BL Check In Statistics:

Weight
Today's Weight: 183.5
Weight Change for the Week: -1.5 pounds
Total Weight Change: -14.5

COW
7 Days Spend 10 Minutes on Me
7 Days for exercising for 20 minutes per day
7 Days for eating 2 fruits each day
5 Days flossing
Total COW Points = 26 points

Continuing COW on my own - I was bad this week since I did not track the told COW items. I am leaving it here though because I am going to be sure to do it again this upcoming week. I was a bit lazy with tracking EVERYTHING this week and I think that was not the best.
? Days Drinking Water
? Days Eating 2 Veggies

That is all I have time for right now...I will be sure to come back to my journal because it is something else that helps me.

 

[jenanderson]

I feel like I am always starting over with my journal. The days get so busy and it seems like I am just not taking time to record things the way I should be. Even though I am losing weight, I feel like I have slipped a little in terms of motivation and dedication. I have really good intentions and I am still exercising but I know I need to be better or I will be back on the wrong path.

I will start with the positive...the exercising. I feel like I have done really good with staying dedicated to my running but I think in some ways I am over-dedicated. I do not think I am doing a great job with cross training and I really know I am not doing well with days of rest. Today I was reading my book "Marathoning for Mortals" as I walked on the TM and read the chapter on cross training. I need to get back to other forms of exercise. I had been doing more minutes of exercise each day as well as trying out different things. Now I feel like I just walk or run. I am going to be sure I focus on that this week and give my run muscles a bit of a break.

The not so positive...the eating. I don't think it was horrible and I bet I was not too far off track. The only things is...I did not track at all this week. I am going to be sure that I am dedicated to tracking this week because I know it makes me feel better about where I am at.

The other not so positive...my attitude. I have now been at this for a little over 5 weeks. I have lost 14.5 pounds. I have gone from walking one mile being difficult to my walk/run of 4 miles today (I probably could have done more). You would think that I would be happier. I am pleased but I think I am still feeling very "fat". I look in the mirror and am still so unhappy with how I look. I think part of it is that I have just had a bad and long week. I am fighting a cold, my body feels tired (ran too many days this week) and I am mentally tired as well. I know that part of this journey is mind over matter and so this week I need to work at being more positive with what I have accomplished as well as finding inspiration to keep me going.

Thinking ahead to tomorrow:
Breakfast: Oatmeal w/toast
Snack: Low fat smoothie
Lunch: Ham sandwich, orange, baby carrots, yogurt
Supper: ?? I will have to check out the freezer in the AM

Exercising: Cross Training Day - I will do pilates and spend at least 30 minuntes on the Wii (Fit, Active or Just Dance).

Motivating Thought for Myself Today: In 1 week I have clocked 16.33 miles of exercise on my Nike+. This is INCREDIBLE! I can continue to do this! Plus, I saw a really cute pink running skirt that I want to buy so I must keep going!

Night Everyone!

 

[jenanderson]

Today was a stressful sort of day...lots of snow = bad drive to work/get to work late, teacher = some days the kids are just a bit more than you are prepared to handle, PMS = how do you avoid chocolate ALL day long when that is all you want?

Let's see how the day went...
Breakfast = oatmeal with 1/4 c. skim milk
Snack = low fat smoothie w/ fruit
Lunch = ham sandwich, orange, baby carrots
Snack = almonds
Dinner = wrap, baked chicken, refried beans, salsa

I still have 3 points left so I will debate that piece of chocolate.

I did not run or walk tonight. I am giving myself a day off to help rest my running muscles. Instead, I did 33 minutes of the hard workout on the Wii Active. I thought of doing more but really need to listen to my body and do just the scheduled 30 minutes of cross training as recommended by my running program. It felt good to know it was just going to be a short workout.

Plans for Tomorrow:
It will be a WW weigh in day and this means that I have to do AM exercising. I am not looking forward to it as I also have to leave for work early tomorrow. So, the goal is to get up and do pilates and some brisk walking on the TM. If I do not get up early, I will make up for it in the evening.

Breakfast - Oatmeal w/milk, toast
Snack - Yogurt
Lunch - Ham sandwich, orange, baby carrots
Snack - Almonds
Dinner - Veggie calzone

Evening exercise will include week 5, day 2 of my C25K workout. It will have to be on the TM because we are getting lots of snow right now. If my legs feel alright, I will continue on the TM with walking to get in at least 4 miles tomorrow.

Alright, plan is in place...time to relax for the night.

 

[jenanderson]

Friday BL Check In Statistics:

Weight
Today's Weight: 182.0
Weight Change for the Week: -1.5 pounds
Total Weight Change: -16.0

COW
7 days of exercising for 20 minutes per day
7 days eating 2 fruit
6 days flossing
7 days doing something for someone else
Total COW Points = 27 points

I see a trend going on...-1.5 each week. I would like to kick that up a bit this week to see if I can't get in the 170s. I am not sure it will happen but I am going to go a bit hard on myself this week and see what happens. Since I am the BL9 coach for the week, I have to stay focused and that could help!

I love the COW but I need to get back to some of the old things that we have let go of. I need to drink my water and eat my veggies. I also need to focus on time for myself again...it just makes me happier through this tough journey.

 

[jenanderson]

Friday BL Check In Statistics:

Weight
Today's Weight: 180.0
Weight Change for the Week: -2 pounds
Total Weight Change: -18.0

COW
7 days of exercising for 20 minutes per day
7 days flossing
7 days doing something for someone else
7 days journaling your food

Total COW Points = 28 points

Well, I keep promising that I will use my journal here more but I find that by the time I log all my food on WW, log all my running information on the Nike+ site, post on the thread for the Rebel Alliance, post on the thread for the BL9, post on the thread for my cruise...there is little time left. To top it off, I was the coach for the BL9 this past week and I was amazed at how much time that took. I am beginning to wonder if this journal is just going to hold all my data for the BL9?

I was a bit disappointed in myself this week as I was hoping to reach 20 pounds lost. It would have been a big stretch but I thought with dedication I could do it. I will say...I wasn't all that dedicated. I did record food and I did exercise but I also did things like have tiramisu for dinner one night. I was accountable for all my food but I did not eat like I was serious about losing a huge amount. Still, 2 pounds is not bad and I will take it.

My personal goals for this week include:
1. Figuring out how to streamline this system - what really works best for recording all my data instead of recording all over the place. This week I am going to try using a notebook and keeping it all on paper.
2. To complete week 6 of the C25K program - the 25 minute run scares me a bit.
3. Setting a week-long menu again - I like the feeling of being a bit more in control of the week as a whole and know what I am planning for.
4. Take measurements and record it all again.

That's it. Time to get to work.

 

[jenanderson]

Friday BL Check In Statistics:

Weight
Today's Weight: 177.0
Weight Change for the Week: -3 pounds
Total Weight Change: -21.0

COW
7 days of exercising for 20 minutes per day
7 days doing something for someone else
7 days journaling your food
7 days for fruit/veggie

Total COW Points = 28 points

 

[jenanderson]

Friday BL Check In Statistics:

Weight
Today's Weight: 176.0
Weight Change for the Week: -1 pounds
Total Weight Change: -22.0

I have not been posting in my WISH journal much because I have been trying a variety of different methods. It seems that I record things here, I record on the WW website, I have tons of little notes around the house where I record things and it is taking so much time that I don't really have. So, I tried using a whole new method - a running journal/log (book form) with my paper WW journal taped inside of it. It has actually worked really well. But I am still not really sure it is what I want yet. I am almost thinking that I will continue with that but that I will try posting here a bit again. One of the things that is really missing for me is a chance to reflect on it all or put a bit more of my own "feelings" into it.

In reflecting on things, I have been on this journey of weight loss for 9 weeks. Here are some interesting things for me to note:

1. 22 pounds lost divided by 9 weeks = 2.4 pounds average loss per week

2. When I started, I could barely run for the 60 second interval on the C25K program. Last night I ran 3.15 miles in 35 minutes:2 seconds. I find it amazing that I am running! First official race will be on March 20th. I will be running a 7K.

3. I am down 1 pant size. I still wear my size 14 pants because that is what I have the most of but I easily fit in my size 12 now and it feels really good.

4. I am still struggling with the following: my love of Mike's hard lemonade, my love of all things chocolate, going out for dinner (especially when their are chips/salsa involved) and cross training.

Alright. I am going to be late for work so it is time to run! If anyone is reading....have a great day!
Jen

 

[lisah0711]

To top it off, I was the coach for the BL9 this past week and I was amazed at how much time that took. I am beginning to wonder if this journal is just going to hold all my data for the BL9?

Great job, jen, and thanks for coaching. I know it is a lot of work! You're doing great!

 

[jenanderson]

I love that the COW is back for the BL9. I think it has been one of the things that has helped me the most. I am really the type of person who if given a challenge where I have the ability to get each point....I am going to get each point. Here is what I have to do this week.

COW 9

Drink 8 glasses of water each day. (1 point for each day)
Do 20 minutes of exercise every day (1 point for each day)
Do something for yourself each day (1 point for each day)
Eat 2 veggies each day (1 point for each day)

Here is how I am doing:

Water - Got 8 glasses yesterday. I could have gotten much more but I decided to have a picture of beer with DH when we went out last night. It may not have been the best of plans but I am not going to dwell on it. It was nice to go out and not feel so worried about everything that went in my mouth. My goal will be to get more than 8 today.

Exercise - After the above eating out situation....came home and got on my treadmill. It was not a day for me to run so I decided to set the pace at a moderate pace and just enjoy a walk. I also grabbed DS's 3-pound weights and did a bunch of curls and such as I walked. Stayed on the treadmill using the weights for 40 minutes and really enjoyed the workout. My goal for today is a long run (anything over 5K) with DH.

Something for Me - Slept in for an extra 20 minutes yesterday. That might not seem like much but it was so nice. In some ways it put me a bit behind as I had to get to school early but I have been so tired and it was so good to just lay in bed. My goal for today is to have a nice candle light dinner with DH. Life is busy and DH and I rarely do much with just the two of us. Tonight I am going to cook lemon chicken with capers and artichoke hearts (going to play with the recipe and try to lower the points). I love to cook this meal but don't often take time to do it. Then, I am going to set the table in our dining room and plan a nice meal. While this benefits DH as well, it is really for me because I love to cook and then sit down for a nice long meal.

Eat 2 Veggies - Yesterday I was able to get just 2 veggies in. I normally have been doing better than that but I didn't eat really great yesterday. My goal for today will be to drink some V8 (2 servings of veggies per serving), have some carrots at lunch, put broccoli in the risotto and to have a nice salad before we eat dinner. I would hope for 5-6 servings today.

There is so much to get done in my life today so I will assume that I will be going full force pretty much most the day. There will be several trips up and down my 2 flights of stairs for laundry today. I will be cranking up the music and cleaning at high speed to feel like I am getting a work out in as I clean bathrooms, dust, vacuum, wash dishes, sweep, mop the floor and more. I know that a cleaning day like today can be a real calorie burning event.

I have to go to a meeting at my school today at 11:00. I am not real thrilled about it because I think this type of meeting needs to take place during the week and teachers should not be asked to come in on a weekend.

I am hoping for a long run today with DH. We have finished our C25K program and I have to find a new training program. Until I do, we will do runs between 5K and 7K. I would like to do 7K today since we have a 7K race in a few weeks.

This afternoon I need to work on lesson plans and report cards. I have a lot going on at school...that tends to make me stressed...when I am stressed I tend to eat...and stress eating is not good for me. I also need to work on my resume. I will be looking for a new teaching job this spring. I like my job right now but the pay is horrible and I have no benefits. I teach in a private school and could do so much better if I were in a public school.

Finally we will have the nice evening with DH! It will be good after such a long day.

Lisa - Thanks for the note about the coaching. It was a lot of work but I loved doing it. I feel like I really got to know people better and I was inspired by everyone. Since I volunteered to do it again you know that I didn't think it was too much work!

Alright....huge list of things to get done means I should not sit here typing away about what I want to do...I need to get doing it!

 

[cclovesdis]

Just catching up with WISH Journals when I noticed I have never responded to yours.

You are doing great. Like Lisa said, thanks for coaching. I can't believe you have lost so much weight. BL 9 is really keeping me motivated. It's such a wonderful addition to WW. I know I wouldn't be doing nearly as well without the BL 9 and the corresponding COWs. It sounds like we're in the same boat.

I know what you mean about writing things down here and there. I use so many resources myself. I think it's the only way I'd be doing as well as I am.

Have a great day today!

 

[jenanderson]

Just catching up with WISH Journals when I noticed I have never responded to yours.

You are doing great. Like Lisa said, thanks for coaching. I can't believe you have lost so much weight. BL 9 is really keeping me motivated. It's such a wonderful addition to WW. I know I wouldn't be doing nearly as well without the BL 9 and the corresponding COWs. It sounds like we're in the same boat.

I know what you mean about writing things down here and there. I use so many resources myself. I think it's the only way I'd be doing as well as I am.

Have a great day today!

Thanks! BL9 is probably more motivating to me than just WW. I do go to the WW meeting and the weigh in there helps motivate me but I think I am one of those people who needs the daily accountability I find here on the WISH. So many days I think I would just "let the day go" if I didn't feel like I was going to check in with someone. Everyone has been great with new ideas, motivating thoughts, support when I mess up and it has really made me feel like I can keep going!

 

[cclovesdis]

Have a great day today!

 

[jenanderson]

COW 9

2 - Drink 8 glasses of water each day. (1 point for each day)
2 - Do 20 minutes of exercise every day (1 point for each day)
2 - Do something for yourself each day (1 point for each day)
2 - Eat 2 veggies each day (1 point for each day)

Lets see how I am doing:

Water - Oh boy, yesterday was such a challenge. I was getting my last glasses in just as I was trying to go to sleep. I do not know why the water has become such a challenge for me lately. One thing that does make it a bit hard is that for some reason, I don't like cold water...I want it just warm. My DD says it is gross but I think it is because I get so cold and the cold water just makes it worse. I am fine if I just get a glass of water but if we are going someplace and I want to grab a water bottle, they are all really cold so I skip it. I know this just means that I need to put some in the cupboard instead of keeping them in the garage but I haven't done it yet. So on my list of things to do today is to fix that situation. I also need to get back to starting my day with some water. Goal for the day will be to keep my water cup with me at all times.

Exercise - Yesterday was INCREDIBLE! Alright, DH and I have pretty much graduated from the C25K program. We have been successfully running 25-35 minutes and completing 5K without too many problems. We decided to see if we could go a full 7K because we have a 7K event on March 20th. Yep, we did it! The weather was so nice outside, we ran a new path, I could easily have my running skirt and a light weight t-shirt on and life was good! In the end, we went 4.65 miles, burned off 643 calories and averaged a 11'44' min/mile pace (that included our 5 minutes of walking to cool down at the end). I have to say I LOVE my Garmin running watch that gives me such great data! When I calculated our run for WW AP points, that run earned me 6 AP points! My goal for today was going to be a shorter, slow run but it is raining right now so I might I have rethink these plans. I also want to put in 30 minutes of cross training.

Something for Me - DH and I had a wonderful dinner date night last night. I cooked lemon chicken with capers and artichoke hearts along with risotto. We also had some wine with the meal. I did not measure my food and I did not keep track of what I ate. I simply know I did not eat to the point where I was feeling stuffed and I ate WAY less then I normally would with this meal. I know that I had to have gone over my daily points allowance but I allowed myself to have a meal where I was just relaxed and enjoying the evening knowing that I have flex and activity points. It was good not to obsess so much over a meal. Today for me I will be taking a nice long hot bath!

2 Veggies a Day - Yesterday I did okay with this...thought I would do better but I skipped a few things. I still had my glass of V8 (2 servings of veggies) and some baby carrots. I did skip the salad and probably should not have. Today will be easier as our menu has a lot of veggies on it and DH went grocery shopping so there are many choices in the house.

Yesterday I was really motivated about cleaning the house and got a lot done early. Today I need to remain motivated with my lesson planning and report cards. I will plan on a rotating schedule today: school work for a time, workout for a time, and then time on the DIS - repeating this several times to get me through (I do not like writing report cards).

I will hope that the rain lets up and that I can wear one of my new running skirts! Yesterday as a reward for running a full 7K and being prepared for our first race....I went and got 2 new running skirts and I LOVE them.

Alright, I should get a load of laundry going (yep...still washing today even after all I did yesterday) and then get on track for the day. The list is huge and I want to feel successful today!

Have a great day!
Jen

 

[jenanderson]

Have a great day today!

You too!

 

[jenanderson]

COW 9

3 - Drink 8 glasses of water each day. (1 point for each day)
3 - Do 20 minutes of exercise every day (1 point for each day)
3 - Do something for yourself each day (1 point for each day)
3 - Eat 2 veggies each day (1 point for each day)

As you can see, I am focusing on the COW this week instead of just weight. I am struggling to with losing pounds and feel like I have hit a bit of a plateau. I know that part of it is my own fault as I keep on being sloppy even though I say I am not going to be. I even had a pretty sloppy weekend in terms of eating over my points limit. I know that today I have to focus on all parts of my plan to hope for a good week. So, here is what the COW looked like:

Water - I really focused on water yesterday and got more than enough in. I avoided coffee, pop and alcohol so I feel better about that. I struggled with all of those lately and am going to try to cut them out all together this week. Today I will work at keeping the water by me all day again today. It is so cold at work I may have to have some decaf tea this morning though.

Exercise - Yesterday was a good day. I went running and did only 2 miles. It wasn't a lot but after doing a full 7K on Saturday, I did not feel up to doing any more. I also did the Wii Fit for 20 minutes and did some stretching for about 10 minutes. Today would normally be an off day according to my running training. This means no running and no cross training. I think I will try to get on the TM tonight though and do some slow walking with a nice incline for about 30 minutes.

Something for Myself - Yesterday I was able to do 2 things for myself and it was so very nice! First, I took a nap in the afternoon. I really did not intend to take a nap but I sat down to do some computer work and fell asleep! Then, last night I did take the hot bath that I wanted too! It was so nice to have a bit more of a relaxing day. Only problem is that sometimes I get off track when I am trying to do something for myself a bit too much. This is when I tend to get lazy and give myself excuses to be sloppy. So, for today, my something for myself is going to be to read some articles about weight loss that I wanted to get to. Not only will it be something for me but it might help me refocus or give me new ideas.

2 Veggies - Why do 2 veggies continue to be a problem for me? Well, I think it is because my meals are not real balanced right now. Last night we decided to have a DeLite pizza from Papa Murphy's. I did get the veggies in as I loaded my part of the pizza with them. I was just going to have the pepperoni and cheese but at the last minute decided to top the pizza with the veggies to get my servings in. The funny thing was that the pizza was so much better with the added veggies. I have got to quit skipping veggies.

Some quick reflections before I get back to my work:

1. My total miles running this week 15.44. My goal was 10 miles plus cross training. I did the cross training as well and am really proud. My goal for this upcoming week is 18 miles.

2. I am still losing 1 pound a week but I have gotten lazy. I will reward myself this week - if I do EVERYTHING that I should...recording, not using all my points, not going over in points, etc...I will make the appointment to get my hair cut like I want.

3. I have been journaling each day since Friday. I need to continue this because it does help.

Gotta run! I am at work and this has taken me 4 hours to type in my spare moments.

Jen

 

[jenanderson]

COW 9

4 - Drink 8 glasses of water each day. (1 point for each day)
4 - Do 20 minutes of exercise every day (1 point for each day)
4 - Do something for yourself each day (1 point for each day)
4 - Eat 2 veggies each day (1 point for each day)

Alright, I can see that I am doing the water, doing the exercise, eating my veggies, finding time for me but it is not going to be enough at this point. Going to have to re-think all that I am doing and figure out why I am in a bit of a battle with myself.

Quick Summary

Water - Got it in. Didn't even have the coffee (I drink decaf). Had a lot of just plain old water.

Exercise - Walked briskly on the TM with an incline while using the 3 pound weights. Put in 2 miles (about 40 minutes).

For Me - Went to bed early as I was very tired.

Veggies - Had carrots for lunch and chow mien for supper (lots of veggies).

Today when I stepped on the scale...I had a .5 weight gain! This is bad. I would not be worried except that I know I have not been doing my best and it feels like it could be the start of something bad.

An Honest Note to Me about WHY I am Not Doing Well:
Dear Jen,
You are eating too much. You are making excuses about how you are running and need to eat more. You are bored with what you are eating and need to find some new recipes to change it up a bit for you so you are not so bored. It is not okay to eat your daily points, your flex points AND your activity points. It would be okay to have a treat here and there but it is not okay to eat all of that each week. You have reached a point where you are not embarrassed by your weight but you have not reached your goal. You must keep going and you must work hard again. This is where you normally give up and you should NOT give up. You want to do better and you can do better. Buckle down and get going again!

Enough said! I need to listen to myself and work harder. I am hoping for a better day..time to get started on the day!