Jen's Journal.....Baby Steps to a new me

[Blueeyes101817]

Thanks guys....
Its defnitely hard hearing it, even though i knew it was coming..
i wasnt home most of the weekend because when i sit home, i think about it more.

I am starting day 1 of the c25k program again this week--i dont thnk last week was enough to get me started so ill try agan..i cnanot let this stuff with my granfather be an excuse for me

 

[kimwim8]

One recommendation....you might want to have some music in your ears when you run. For me - if I go out without music, my thoughts take over and I dwell on stuff instead of getting my mind off of stuff. (know what I mean? ).

If you have music, I think running can be a GREAT distraction from life. It's been a great source of therapy for me, and I know you need a mental break from time-to-time.

Take care, girl. And call anytime.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

One recommendation....you might want to have some music in your ears when you run. For me - if I go out without music, my thoughts take over and I dwell on stuff instead of getting my mind off of stuff. (know what I mean? ).

If you have music, I think running can be a GREAT distraction from life. It's been a great source of therapy for me, and I know you need a mental break from time-to-time.

Take care, girl. And call anytime.

hmmm i wonder if my brother will let me borrow his ipod----good idea!

 

[keenercam]

Jen -- I'm hoping the weather there is as gorgeous as here. Perfect day for a run outside. Or a walk. I hope you get out into the sunshine and away from all the stress. Sending you a

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hi everyone--I did day 1 today! it was still rough, but i think i did better t han i was last week...day 2 will be Thursday!

Hope you are all having a fantastic week

 

[kimwim8]

Good job girlie.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Jen,
You are doing awesome. Listen to your body, and you'll be running 5ks in no time.

Have a great one,
Beth

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Day 2 is tomorrow!

sorry i havent been writing much--just pretty down lately and dont want to "brng the journal down"

 

[kmp1191]

Jen....I don't know where I"ve been....but I just caught up on your journal.
I am so sorry about g-dad!! I'm choked up now because I know how hard this is. I hate this crap!! It makes me so damn mad that it takes so many good people!!
And of course you & your family is in my prayers!!

On another note...good job getting out there and running....it really is a great stress reliever....myabe I should take it up again huh?!

marie

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hi everyone-
Thanks for beinig there for me--even when im not here..I have been reading your journals so today i am going to post..

This week has been rough---We have a diffiicult child in the class and itis really taking a toll on everyone....Im exhausted and still trying to stay on track..and im a mess with the stuff with my grandfather.

But, i have stayed on track..im drinking 4-5bottles of water a day..and just finished week 1 of the couch to 5k program..Havent lost any weight so of course thats discouraging, but im getting there i hope

Im having a really rough time with the stuff wiith my grandfather--im going to the dr to talk to her about gettng back on the depression meds ij was on in high school after my surgery..( i have never told that to anyone before) ...I come home after work and just sit in my room...keep thinking this may be the last bday, last xmas with him..and all that...
hes not doing well--just started chemo..I saw him todahy and itis just so hard everytime

Again, im SO sorry i havent been here lately--but i have been so down, i ddnt want to whine and bring the journals down ...but i fgured i needed to give an update..thanks guys

 

[keenercam]

Oh, Jen, I am so sorry you are feeling down, but I'm glad you felt comfortable posting here. That is what we are here for, to support each other. I know how hard this is for you. I went through it with my Dad and with my Father-in-Law, whom I loved like a father. I hope you will follow through with your doctor and get some advice on how to cope. I am glad you have taken up running. I know it really helps me to get away and to be distracted and to be doing something good for my body. I hope you'll find that the endorphins help to naturally elevate your mood, too. Take care of you, sweetie!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Jen,

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I am proud of you for being proactive and seeing your doc about the possibility of some meds. It took me way to long to ask for help. Your running will also help stabilize your mood. Just know, that what you are feeling is normal. If posting here will help, do it. Don't worry about bringing down the journals. We're here to support each other. It makes us feel better to know that we can help by listening. This is a safe place to express what you are feeling. Anyway, youget the point, we're here if you need us.


Beth

 

[kimwim8]

Hey girl. You know, that even though I bust on you every chance I get, you can ALWAYS talk to me. Anytime. Call if you want to come over. Again, anytime.

A big ol' CONGRATS to you for finishing week 1 of the C25K program. You're really doing great! Don't try to think about what's going to be expected of you in the future. Take it one run at a time. If you need to repeat a day or a week, then do it. There's no shame in that. You're still being active, and it might prevent an injury down the road. I'm so proud of you, buddy. You're gonna be a skinny minnie on that cruise...

Oh, and don't ever feel bad about posting what's going on with your life. We, your journal buddies, are here for you because we care. Not just in the good times, but we're here for the bad times too. I'm glad you're going to the doctor. Again, no shame in that. It's so much more important that you take care of yourself. That's what your grandpop would want.

 

[toystoryduo]

A big ol' CONGRATS to you for finishing week 1 of the C25K program. You're really doing great! Don't try to think about what's going to be expected of you in the future. Take it one run at a time. If you need to repeat a day or a week, then do it. There's no shame in that. You're still being active, and it might prevent an injury down the road. I'm so proud of you, buddy. You're gonna be a skinny minnie on that cruise...

Oh, and don't ever feel bad about posting what's going on with your life. We, your journal buddies, are here for you because we care. Not just in the good times, but we're here for the bad times too. I'm glad you're going to the doctor. Again, no shame in that. It's so much more important that you take care of yourself. That's what your grandpop would want.

I want to second everything that Kim said here. We are here for you, Jen....Good times and bad. We care about you and we care about what you are going through. It is so important that during this difficult time, that you take good care of yourself. I am proud of you for going to the doctor.

Sending lots of prayers and good thoughts your way.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hey Jen,

I just wanted to pop in here to say I'm thnking about you.


Beth

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hi guys

well , yesterday i did day 1 of week 2 of the couch to 5k! its not easy, but im proud of myself!
Im headed out to dnner now wth my gradnparents, so hopefully i can update later

thanks for thinking of me!

 

[kimwim8]

Nice job, girlie!!!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Look at you go, woman!

You are doing awesome on the c25k program.

I hope dinner was good.

Beth

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Jen,

The weekend is almost here. I hope you get at least a few minutes to relax. I'm thinking of you.

Beth

 

[Blueeyes101817]

hi guys-
Its FRIDAY!!!!!
Its hot so i will be running after work..then im going to a coworkers house for some drinks...

My great uncle died last night so not sure when the funeral will be...but tonight is a good night for drinks

Tomorrow--i will be helping at Alex's lemonade stand and then going out to lunch with 2 of my girlfriends so that should b e fun

have a great weekend all