Cam, we must have posted at the same time!
I can be pretty stubborn. When I got home, I said to Rob, Is this hair me? And he looked at me funny and said, Well, no, because you'd never do that yourself, but... I guess it looks like you. Then he stopped. Then he told me it looked beautiful. I don't think he wanted me to think he didn't like it. He did. I think I didn't word the question correctly.
I think it's a little more than I had originally intended, but I still like it. And I had the most adorable hair once I took the clips out. We took a bunch of pictures last night because I couldn't get over how cute it was.
I will tell you that when I was there, it wasn't about objectivity. I specifically said to the make-up artist, I don't like it, but if you think it'll make me look better, then I'll do it.
She told Sara to take pictures of me and she told me to look at them when I get home and review them. See how I feel.
I can say, honestly, without a doubt, and without ANY amount of bias, that I absolutely do not think the mascara does anything for me. At all. None. Zilch. In fact, I think it takes away from my eyes.
I want to keep saying to everyone, Look, it's not the mascara you like, it's the eyeliner! It's the concealer that covers the blue bags under my eyes. It's not the mascara!
I think the mascara makes my eyes look smaller and my lashes look too separated. It's not a flattering look for me. I didn't see my eyes as larger. I thought they looked too small. Not nice enough.
I know it may sound like I'm biased, and of course, I am. But I was able to look at these pictures and see what I liked about them. I thought I had WAY TOO MUCH blush on. But when I looked at the pictures, I realized that no, it doesn't look like that. I also thought I had WAY TOO MUCH eye make-up on. I thought it sparkled way too much. I didn't like it. But in the pictures, I don't see all that eye make-up. All I really see is that I look so much more alert because of all the concealer she used under my eyes. I also dislike the lip gloss, and I dislike how pink and light my lipstick looks with the lip gloss. But I'll let her have her way on that, and I'll take off the lip gloss (be it by my manually removing it before the ceremony... poor Rob will have lip gloss all over him, and I don't think he'll be thrilled with that or it'll come off after he kisses me), and I'll put more lipstick on. And I'll be happy.
The mascara was heavy, uncomfortable, and I didn't like it. And while I was on the fence there, I am now completely off the fence, and I know, without a doubt, that I won't wear it.
That takes a LOT from me. Seriously, a lot. I can't voice a negative opinion to anyone helping me. I can't. I had the worst time trying to tell her I didn't like it, because I feel like it comes off as a personal attack against her (must be because I'm a writer), and because she knows better than I ever will. I actually was on the verge of tears the entire time I was there because I felt so uncomfortable and didn't want to be there. So the fact that I made a decision and am going to stick with it should show how strongly I feel about it.
I think I'll feel a lot better when all of that is done. And once that's done, another worry will creep in (since she washed and cut my hair, will it not look as nice because I'll be washing my hair that day? Etc., etc.).
Good thing for concealer since I'll need it to hide the worry!
Thank you, Cam. I always love how you are completely honest and still the consummate morale-booster. I still need you to come and hold my hand.
