I've made a positive step forward today...

[AmazingGrace]

As some of you know, we were settling in Mississippi, and had to move when Katrina struck. What many of you don't know, is I've been really struggling with homesickness bordering on depression because of the move.

I've been missing my old house and my screened in porch and my beautiful yard and all the coastal stuff like crazy. We've logically decided to put that house on the market and put an offer on this house here in Texas. This decision has made me feel trapped like you wouldn't believe. I'm happy here in Tx. but I miss ocean springs like i've never missed anywhere else in my life. Between jobs and healthcare for Benji and the threat of more hurricanes, there's really no going back. I'm slowly starting to realize that what i miss is what used to be, not what things are like now. The homesickness is finally starting to subside.

So, for the past three months, I've been pretty superficial. I've been kind of on the fringes of being involved. Tonight, we went to an open house at the little's school. I suddenly felt ownership of the school and for the first time was glad that my kids were there, and not pining for last year in Ocean Springs. Before I knew it, I found myself talking to a PTO lady and I volunteered to volunteer next year.

This is a big step for me in many ways. The very fact that I'm planning for next year HERE means i'm letting go of my escape plan to run screaming back to Mississippi. I'm finally starting to form an attachment to this house, which is probably a good thing since we're going to likely buy it. Tonight instead of feeling numb, sad and indifferent, I actually feel good for a change. The best part about tonight was that while I was starting to fall into the comparing the new school with the old school, the new school really kept coming out ahead tonight!! I also bought a yard swing this week. That is a real key to feeling at home for me and i'm letting it happen!! So, tonight was not only and open house, it was also an eye opener. My poor DH!! He actually works in mental health and the poor man has had no idea what to do with me lately.

 

[disneymac]

Good for you! I'm so glad that you're feeling better. It's certainly understandable to be depressed after so much upheaval! I wish you and your family the best.

 

[mickeymousemom]

Sounds like you've come along way! I wish you and your family the best!

 

[mickeysgal]

Tonight, we went to an open house at the little's school. I suddenly felt ownership of the school and for the first time was glad that my kids were there, and not pining for last year in Ocean Springs. .

Good for you! We didn't survive a hurricane move, but we recently went through a major move/upheaval ourselves and I completely, completely understand! It wasn't until my kids felt settled in the new school that I started to enjoy being here. I just couldn't embrace this area until my kids were happy. The kids don't treasure it as much as their old school/town, but they've adjusted and we're all liking it here now. The first year was rough...I'm glad you're adapting and feeling like you belong there now.

 

[mt2]

I'm glad that things are finally looking feeling positive for you. I understand the feelings. I had the same ones liing in the NE but I didn't have to move as quickly as you did.

Texas grows on you!

 

[FreshTressa]

I'm happy for you....but sad too.

I know how you feel....missing your porch and having to leave. That can be VERY traumatic.

It takes a strong person to be able to pick it all up again. Best wishes and congratulations on your big step!

 

[Dan Murphy]

It's been a tough time, Loriann, you guys have been through a lot. So nice to hear your thoughts here this evening.

 

[dixipixi]

Glad to hear you're feeling better. I know it's a long process. Thank goodness we didn't have to move, but after cleaning all the trees off our property, I felt like I landed on the moon!

It has been so depressing looking out at that bare yard for the last 6 mos., but spring is finally here and things are starting to look better.

I can totally relate to you cause I have had days where I felt like breaking completely down. Then I would come home and see where some more progress had been made. The last couple of weekends, we've planted some new trees, I've gotten my porches finished (like you...I LOVE my big porches), and even bought some new outdoor furniture.

It's funny, but little things like that start making you feel at home again. I had big porches full of lovely antique iron and wicker pieces...all destroyed. The new stuff is new...but it's still a chair and we're still here to enjoy it! I guess that's the most important thing.

Sending you a great big and lots of good wishes!!!!

 

[DVC Sadie]

I hope that you and your family are blessed for the rest of your lives and may nothing as traumatic ever happens again. Take care and be good to yourselves.

 

[crazyj4488]

Glad to hear your spirits are perking up. Welcome to Texas...I'm in Houston