Kirk, I think you are perfectly normal. It's been seven years since my dad died, almost eight, and my mom still isn't over it and I don't think she ever will be. He was the light of her life, as he was in all of ours. I miss him so much every single day. Your wife was very lucky to have someone like you love her so much. I wish I could give you a hug in person. I know how excited you must be over the birth of your grandchild, yet it must be bittersweet. That baby is going to bring you so much joy, and will be part of your wife living on. Hang in there, and I hope your DIS friends have lightened your heart a little.