
Don't ever feel badly about missing her. I don't think we ever get over it. It's a forever thing. We just get 'used' to it. Not an oddball in the least. And if you were to be an 'oddball', well then....you would be my kind of oddball.
I'm so sorry it's as difficult as it is, Kirk. It's been 11 years and 4 months for me since my husband died. Losing a spouse is so hard, especially when they're young! You don't expect that in the least. Of course it's difficult to get past that pain. I was at 11 years before I even seriously considered dating someone. Everyone has their own timing for things. Bless you and your kids!
So sorry you are feeling the pain... sadly I know you are not alone
Hang in there...