Kirk - many .... I lost my husband 3 1/2 years ago and can relate! Some times of year are harder than others but I hope that you have happy days more often than not. I truly believe life does not hand us more than we can take. Sending you some PD!
Just today I was thinking about my dad... He passed away almost 15 years ago and never got to meet any of his grandchildren; my children. Today, I was thinking about how much fun he and my kids would have had together. He would have made a wonderful grandpa.
I don't think you're an oddball at all. I think it's perfectly normal to have those emotions when you've lost somebody so close.
I had a very close cousin that died 4 years ago this July...he was like a brother to me. On my way home from work yesterday, I heard a song that just reminded me of him so much, I couldn't stop crying. I truly can't imagine what I'd be like if it were my DH. I agree with the poster that said that the birth of your grandchild is probably making you remember your DW more - and that's OK!!!
Chin up and know that you can come here for lots more and support!
Sorry to hear you are feeling blue. You are expecting a grandaughter soon and my guess is that it is making you think that your wife should be here to share in the joy. Perfectly normal.
My guess on DDs delivery is March 31st btw. Better buy those cigars soon!