Friday night Flight 3407 crashed less than half hour from where I live. I did know at least one person on the flight but it has been many years since we knew each other. The whole event has caused me to realize that it could have been anyone in my family or myself that died in that crash. Alot of people live in fear for their lives in different ways everyday, I am not one of those people BUT WOW it made me think.
I have told you I am a 46 year old,single Mom with 4 sons. They have all turned out great so far and I am proud of them and the job I have done raising them (I know 2 still need raising for a few more years at least.) When I got divorced after 15 years of a marriage it was a very painful and heartbreaking event (as I call it now) in my life and it tooks me years to get past it. About two years ago I was sitting at work and thinking about things I have always wanted to do but either day to day life of driving the boys to a million different lessons, sports, family things, etc. and financial reasons always stopped me. Well that day I saw an ad for Carnival Cruise line and how cheap a cruise would be for me and my sons to go on. Now up to this point I had never traveled without other friends or family members. There as always someone with us that knew the ropes so to say and I could lean on them for information. I knew it was time to try something new and just DO IT. So I picked up the phone and called Carnival and after some discussion on dates and cruises I booked the cruise and came home and suprised my boys.
They were shocked...Mom always plans and plans before making a desicion, very much out of character!
We went 2 1/2 months later and had a great time and I did it all by myself!
That was a turning point in my life. Even around the house, I never really changed the house that much since the divorce except for moving furniture around and a fresh coat of paint in some of the rooms. After that...I started remodeling (I did ithe work all myself) some new floors, fixing things, changing light fixtures (electrical stuff scares me some) new bathroom sink, etc.
Lately I realized though that I was getting into the same slump, I forgot to just ENJOY things, little things, big things in my everyday life. The plane crash (yes I was getting back to that) woke me up again. I will try to find at least one thing everyday that is beautiful or interesting (besides my kids) and thank God for them everyday. I cannot let the day to day life make me forget to live!
I also have to remember that even though I cannot wait to go to Disney and I enjoy the planning as much as the trip I cannot skip the next few months of my life and all the joys or pain it may bring and just wait around for the vacation. Once we are there I have to remember to find the joy in being with my sons and family and not worry about where I stand for the parade or if we missed something that was on my list. The reason we go is to have fun, relax and enjoy being with each and even though the Mouse is like part of my family I need to make sure I don't forget why I am with my Real family.
Thanks for listening (reading) and allowing me to get that off my mind.
I will be back on tomorrow night.
of things to buy for the trip.
I want to stay there sooooo bad. We actually had it on our short list for this trip since the 4/3 deal was so good but alas it wasn't meant to be. Maybe if I end up getting the DVC I can stay soon.
