Yay, Lisa came out to play!! Hmm, now I know what to do to get you to come out of lurkdom...
Lisa -I am proud of what I accomplished. I am pissed because I feel like I am standing in this abyss and the old me us screaming for me to throw un the towel and jump to my a life filled with my old ways. You know I am not about a number on a scale or a size on a label and more if a state of mind kind of gal. So when the state of mind is in jeopardy I get nervous and pussed since I am the only one who can really stop me from jumping.
However, it is good to see you here...
Paula - I know how damn proud of yourself you are. That I know and celebrate. And I know how you don't link scale or size to worth. For crying outloud - I"M THERE now. I am (celebrate good times come on - Nancy?
) Why? Because of you. BECAUSE OF YOU.
Do you have any idea how huge that is? Because it WAS
mixed up with sexual abuse as well. So I really watched you Paula and with my work - together I'M THERE and I will never go back to linking them. EVER.
But the "guilt" and "shame" comments - even if used lightly - made this week really pissed me off. One about eating too many Halloween candies. Guilt and eating and shame and gain - I WISH IN ALL MY HEART for women especially to stop this. That's where I was in my head and I was calling you out on it. I'll own that.
Once again, I know where you're at Paula. I'm not walking in your shoes but I do have an idea.
(This below is not about you Paula)
AND I just turned off the Biggest Loser in protest. Just walked away and turned it off. THEY pissed me off too!
Actually I'm not laughing. I don't think I can watch again. Bob just saw a contestent lose two pounds b/c they are off campus at a Army boot camp.
And he says -
No wait first he shakes his head and rolls his eyes. I could have thrown something at the TV just with that.
And Allison says, "you seem _________ Bob".
He says, "I'm all for new experiences but really we're here for weight loss". Guess what Bob every day life IS a new experience. Putting down what? Maybe the food and their very intense workout - just not up to his standards because she LOST - LOST - LOST two pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pissed me off. Subtle effed up statements that leak into someone's head who is already too obsessed with monitoring what is success.
OMG. To me that is almost a promotion of effed up thinking around weight, food and the scale.
I'm so disappointed in him - it really could be the beginning of an eating or exercise disorder for someone who thinks "wow even the trainer is upset with a mere
two pounds".
Yes he's on a show. But to me first and foremost he's a professional that should be promoting good health and balanced thinking so to me - keep your obsessive nonense to yourself Bob.
Yay now I know what makes Lisa drop in
Oh you better not.
Hey ladies. Been feeling a bit under the weather this week. I also got a call from my doctor that I need to go for some further tests to make sure a few abnormalities on my pap smear are nothing to be concerned about. I know abnormalities can be nothing but my mom had some problems with this so my parents want me to be very cautious.
On the other hand being sick is great for weight loss... I haven't felt like having anything but apple cider for days. It's the apple cider diet!
Sighing Meg. Quite the months you've had. Here's to a good outcome.
Okay,
I won't say that being sick is really awful for weight loss because you lose muscle. I won't. I'll refrain.
Lisa - do you have any idea how much I miss you? You, my friend, have been such a planter of seeds that have caused me to grow in ways I never would have dreamed possible. 
Insomia sucks. Headaches suck. Situations suck. I wish they would all go suck somewhere else and leave my friend alone. Hope you have good company tonight at Family Dinner.
Meg - feel better! This illness doesn't have anything to do with that horrid lingering cough you had previously does it? 
And good luck with those tests. Keep us in the loop, k?
As for my own personal suck today - I am SO sick of this effing Insurance Company that we are dealing with for the accident. They are horrific. My husband totally got his hate on with them today. It was amazing He doesn't ever get angry. Ever. Ever. Seriously. But they've pissed him off. I should congratulate them on accomplishing something that is as rare as the eruption of Mt. Aetna.
And...in other suckfest news....I am really, really afraid that I may have a significant conflict with the Princess Half. Completely sick-to-my-stomach scared. I have to verify the date of our big black tie fundraising gala in Boston...and I'm completely terrified to ask.
Well I adored your note to me.
However, is it wrong that I loved suckfest and effing more?
The perfect blend of cheering for the runners and throwing daggers at the cars 
I was so sure that the Gala was going to be the night before the 1/2 marathon. I was at the gym this morning (wearing my Princess tech tee) and like a FREAK I was trying to decide if I could take a flight out of Boston late Saturday night and get to WDW in time to get to the start line by 5:30am. Now I don't have to. (although that would have been an amazing story to tell 
