KAREN and JO....this is for you! A little blast from the past! From my very first-ever race. It was a 5k/5 miler. I ran the 5k and my husband did the 5 mile. Here is my pre-race freak-out post, my race report, and my post-race celebration post. WOW...I wrote a lot back then! 
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Yes, tomorrow is the big day. My first race. It is chip timed and everything, so I got my number, my chip, all that stuff. You all have to promise me that you will be sending positive thoughts my direction between 8:45 - 9:30 tomorrow morning. Don't forget! I need all of the help I can get!
Ok, so the time thing is wigging me out a bit. If you are not done by 9:30, then they come pick you up in what is called the "Stragglers' Van..." UGH! That is my absolute worst fear.
I am trying to keep the WISH motto in my head:
Dead Last Finish
beats
Did Not Finish
which greatly trumps
Did not have the courage to start.
So tomorrow I will go to the Starting line. I am pretty terrified, but I am obligated now. Jeff is running, too, and my mom and kids are going to be waiting at the finish line and cheering.
Here's the thing...if you haven't figured it out, I am pretty competitive by nature. Lots of years in sports and coming from a big family I guess. Anyway, I know that I will be near the back of the pack. I am brand new to running and still pretty slow. (ok, really slow) And I am not feeling good about being a back-of-the-packer. Logically, I know the real victory for me is that I am going to be at the STARTING line (not the finish). I am able to see all of the amazing progress I have made with my running. But there is a part of me that is just sick about the fact that I am going to be in the back.
And then I wonder about my kids. I mean, they all know what a race is. And they are going to see their mom come in after most others. Again, logically, I know I am setting a great example for them. But that other part of me wants them to be able to see their mom beat the pants off lots of other runners.
The other thing about this race is that lots of the "skinny moms" are in it. On Friday morning, we had "summer sign up day" which is where every parent in town stands in this line that starts at 6am in order to get their kids enrolled in summer activities. And if you don't get there early, all of the programs fill up. It takes about an hour and half to move through the line. And even though it sounds awful, it is really one of the main social events of the season. They put out coffee and doughnuts and you see everyone you know, so it is fun to catch up with people, etc. Well, since I run in the morning, I went to sign-ups in my running gear. And lots of the other moms were in theirs as well, so several of us were chatting about what work-outs we were doing these days, etc. Then one of them said, "Didn't I see you running out by my house the other day?" Which of course lead to "Hey, are you doing the race on Sunday?"
Well, it turns out that most of them are doing it as well. And they are all gonna kick my a$$ in terms of time. And none of them are stressed about it. It is like, "yeah, I just decided the other day to run it since I was going to something running anyway." Totally blase about the whole thing, while I am dying inside.
Then another one said, "I am just going to keep it slow and run 9-minute miles since my husband will have to have the kids...I am going to milk it for as long as I can..." Now, in my wildest dreams I can't run 9-minute miles. ONCE I was able to run about a 9:30 and it all but killed me. I am pretty solidly doing 11 minute miles when I do my long runs, and I can go a bit faster on my short run days....but I will be thrilled to clock 10-10:30 minute miles.
"Keeping it slow at 9 minutes...." F you!
Thank you all so so so much for your support! I can't tell you how helpful it has been!
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Ok, so I AM BACK! And I finished! AND I WAS NOT LAST!!!
It was raining and cold...and what a trip! Having never done a race before, I wasn't completely sure what to expect, but I thought I had read enough and asked enough questions from my WISH teammates that I knew what to expect.
WRONG!
I specifically chose this race because it was just a little local 5k/5 miler. I figured it would just be area locals who run for fitness, etc. OMG there were like REAL REAL REAL runners there. I mean like semi-pro people. And they were all greased up and stuff and wearing running tights (which look like granny panties, I swear, just skin tight and made of spandex), and they were doing that high-step jogging thing before the race to get all warmed up. They were SERIOUS as SH*T, I tell ya.
It was at this point that even Jeff began to freak out. He was all calm before...just another run to him (though it was his first race, too...but he has been running for years and years). And then he saw the running freaks and he turned to me and said, "I am so not happy with you right now...and I have 5 miles to think about what you can do to make this up to me..."
There were LOTS of people there that I knew. I literally bumped into my SIL (she was doing the 5, of course, cause she is a skinny mom). I thought that the rain might keep the prima donas away, but nope...they just had their color-coordinated running hats and tights on.
Scoping out the crowd, I looked for some people that were more normal sized...not just the twigs that could run. I figured I would keep near them. I was somewhat confident when I saw a group of 60-something women all wearing matching t's that said they were some sort of walking group. Phew. Walkers are good. Even a slow runner will come in ahead of walkers.
So, the national anthem is sung, the horn goes off, and the race has started. The first half mile or so is just everybody weaving in and out of the crowd and trying to get their own pace and space. Once I was in a bit of a groove, I turned my iPod on and try to just have "my run."
Well, they had a clock at the one-mile mark. And man, Nancy, I wish I had read your post BEFORE the race. Yup, my first miles was 9:25! Now, for anyone who considers him/herself a runner, this is NOT fast. But this was a full minute faster than my FASTEST mile on record. CRAP! If I didn't slow down, I wasn't going to finish.
Ok, at this point, I am running out by the ocean and just trying to feel good. I was thinking of all of you guys and a couple of the volunteers who were helping the runners commented that I was the only person they saw smiling! That made me laugh!
So I am feeling pretty good about myself because I know that there are lots of people behind me...and then I got to the HILL! I did really well up the hill! Yup, body boarders pushed me all the up it! But then there was about half a mile left of the race...straight and flat to the finish line. And I had very little left.
I knew I would finish, but there would be no "extra boost" and kicking it in to get to the finish line. It would just be a slow jog. And at that exact moment, Jeff came running up from the other direction. He had finished his race and then doubled back to come and escort me to the finish. I fell in love with him all over again at that moment.
He really tried to push me to turn up the fire to get to the finish, but let me go at my pace.
The end result: I finished in 31:15. That means that I ran 10:05 minute miles. I am OVER-THE-TOP excited with that number! That is MUCH fast than I have ever run!
My mom and kids were there at the finish...soaking wet. They got photos which I will post soon.
Ok, time for brunch...Jeff is making a victory brunch for us all.
LOVE YOU GUYS and thanks for everything!
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OMG! I am in SHOCK!
They just posted the race results for my race yesterday....I PLACED!!!
I didn't place overall, of course. But for my age group (30 - 39), they post the TOP 10...and I came in 8th! Overall, I came in 44 out of 94...that is the TOP HALF of the pack, baby!