In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[MaMabearJo]

I survived, but feel like I went to jiffy lube, I think they forgot to inflate my tires, they are a little low and droopy.
Doctor says,
I have to keep my IBS under control, and they found some red spots and erosion in they stomach lining.

My Dr. called about an hour ago and said my lab work will be in on Wed. then we will figure out what is needed to be done. She said the use of Advil, Celebrex, and any anti inflamatory medication is the cause. I had to live on the stuff for years plus many pain and muscle relaxers. A car accident caused me to have 2 neck surgeries, the first one failed because I rejected the donor bone, the second one they used a piece of my hip bone and put a metal plate in. I suffer with neck pain and headaches ever since and the accident and that was in 2000. Plus I have a low back disc they want to fix, but due to the major amount of surgery and lay up time I choose to baby it and go to a chiroprator . This is a major problem with me losing weight, at the time of the accident I had lost 76 pounds, was down to 200 pounds and loving it. With two surgeries about 6 months apart and years of phyical therapy I gained it all back and then some. I went through times of depression and a lot of anxiety (sp). So back to the Advil, they help but I have had to increase them to a point I was taking 3 to 4 or them 3x's a day. So now I have a bad stomach. NO GOOD..

I will let everyone know what is up when she calls me back.

THANK YOU Dawn for the ride and lunch, the soup was wonderful.

 

[HockeyKat]

Jodi and Dawn, for all the pain and suffering.

And Dawn, you are more and more making me think I need to get my butt up to MN and kick some booty.... dr booty, soon-to-be-ex-hubby booty... I have boxing gloves and a hockey stick and I KNOW how to use them!!

Food for today:
B: Coffee, 100-cal pack cinnamon streusel muffins
L: Salad (100), south beach grilled chicken caeser wrap kit (230), activia yogurt (70)
D: 5 oz grilled chicken breast (~120), 1 cup steamed broccoli (40) over 1 medium baked potato (100) w/ 1 TBSP ff sour cream (10) and 1/2 oz shredded cheddar (30), 1 steamed artichoke (60) w/ 1 TBSP melted light butter (50), 1/2 whole fresh pineapple, grilled w/ cinnamon (115)

Total, 1025. Guess I get a snack! I just finished totalling up dinner and wow, that was a lot of food for the calories.
Exercise: 30 min on the elliptical, 30 min weight training.
Water: 64 oz + 32 oz sparkling water (not sure that counts)

Hope everyone had a great day!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Heather--thanks so much for sharing more of yourself with us! I can relate to you on so many levels (I feel like I say that to all of you though! How many times have I written, "I could have written that myself...").

For 3 years I dealt with an administrator from hel l and it was awful beyond words. Never before have I been medicated for depression or anxiety type of stuff...but I had to be xanaxed to the gills just to set foot on campus during on semester. Lawyers were involved...the whole nine. I feel for ya' girl!

As for not wanting to post your weight until it was a number you could deal with?? Hello! Sound familiar anyone???

But what got me the most was the comments about your DH still being 165 after all these years. Mine too. Not gained an ounce in the 14 years we have been together. And worse...

Listen up girls, cause this is brutal to live with...my DH is a flippin' body builder! Yup, a muscle head. A gym rat. A chisled specimen straight from the Roman Gods. And it even gets worse than that. Whenever he gets like 1 pound over weight (or is more than *gulp* 3% body fat) he is OCD about it like crazy. Once after a sugery he gained like 4 pounds (could not even see it on him) and he walked around saying, "I can't believe how disgusting my body is this way..."

Which of course leaves me thinking..."um, ok, if that is how he feels about HIS body...he must be totally REPULSED by mine..." And while he has been kind enough to never say anything, I know it has been a major issue for him.

And honestly, I think that is one reason it has taken me so long to tackle this. I needed to do it for ME and not for HIM.

Anyway, Heather...glad you are here and posting! You are an important part of our little group!

Jodi--glad the ordeal is over! Hopefully they can get the rest of the issues under control relatively quickly!

Dawn--OMG! I hate him already! Someone needs to kick this guy where it counts! Seriously, if you would like the name of a good urologist in your area, I am sure I can get a recommendation for you. I know ever urologist on the eastern seaboard...one of them has to have contacts out your way. I cannot stand docs who will not listen to the patient! Don't even get me started on what this one as s put my precious dd through...for no freaking reason!

 

[HockeyKat]

Oh Heather, not sure how I missed that post... . Thanks for letting us into your life!! I hope things improve on all fronts.

Mr Kat is exactly like me, or maybe worse, in that sniffing at food adds inches to hips immediately. I am not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing... we have a tendency to drag each other off track.

I did have a snack, a bowl of dry special k redberry, to make my total more like 1150.

Let me know if you all don't want me to post my food...

 

[MunkyMe13]

Hello folks,

I am back from the gym and dinner... Irritated because the chicken was not thawed and I was too hungry to wait... We did Taco Bell and I ate off the fresco menu... I did 30 minutes on the elliptical tonight. Saw someone I knew from the Landmark Forum and chatted with her. I burned 373 calories and did 2.31 miles... My food totals today were:

Breakfast: 1/2 cup non fat cottage cheese (62 calories according to SparkPeople tho I question this because the packaging says 80)

Lunch: South Beach Living Sesame Chicken Wrap Kit (220 calories), salad with french flair salad spritzer (30 calories)

Snacks:2 packages of Apple Sweets Natural Apple slices (62 calories total)

Dinner: Fresco Style Bean Burrito (330 calories), Fresco Style Ranchero Chicken Taco (170 calories), and a Fresco Style Grilled Steak Taco (160 calories)

12 cups (the measurement not the glass) of water...

For a grand total of 1052 calories yay for me! and yay for fresco style!!!

Hope everyone had a great evening and Dawn I'm sorry to hear about your horrific experience at the doctor... I hate em myself... Never go... LOL... I had a bacterial stomach infection for like 3 weeks before I finally went... lol...

Sweet dreams
Sarah

 

[MaMabearJo]

Good morning to you all
I like how some of you post what you are eating. It not only keeps you on track it gives me idea's of different foods to eat. My doctor always told me writing down what I eat and drink during the day would help me lose weight. He must be right.

I'v got to go I am meeting Dawn a 9 for our water workout The only part I hate is coming outside afterwards it is below 0 brrrrrrr. Talk soon
Jodi

 

[MunkyMe13]

Good morning to you all
I like how some of you post what you are eating. It not only keeps you on track it gives me idea's of different foods to eat. My doctor always told me writing down what I eat and drink during the day would help me lose weight. He must be right.

I'v got to go I am meeting Dawn a 9 for our water workout The only part I hate is coming outside afterwards it is below 0 brrrrrrr. Talk soon
Jodi

Good Luck with your water workout!!!!

Good Morning ladies! Back down to 236.4 after being at around 239 this weekend... I think I must have been retaining water hardcore... I was very pleased to see this on the scale this morning... hehe... I forgot a measuring cup for my oatmeal so I am going to have to get creative... Anywho have a fabu day and I'll be floating on and off the board today!

Sarah

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi Everyone....

You take one night off from the board and look at what you miss…

Let's see if I have this right...

Jodi made it through her test yesterday with no problems... Now we just need to get her IBS in check.... (my mom has the same issue... its not fun... ).

Dawn needs to go back to the hospital and drop kick that doctor... (Now we just need to get her to a new doctor that can / will actually treat the problem… )

HockeyKat is willing to go open a can of whoop @@@ on Dawn's doctor if need be... (call me if you need a hand with this… I can unload a verbal lashing like none other when the situation calls for it…I work with contractors remember…. )

Sarah is conquering her crazy schedule and has found yummy and healthy food options at Taco Bell… I may have to try that menu someday when I am craving Mexican food… (and she is kicking butt on the elliptical machine )

3DK lives with a body builder… (sheesh.. no pressure there…. ) whom I believe is not repulsed by her body… (if he hasn’t said anything, how do you know it is an issue with him at all? He loves you…. )

Heather has a huge heart full of compassion (love you Heather… ) and is stuck in job hell…. With more on that to follow… (I remember the days when I was in job hell… it is not fun, but we are here to help get you through it… )

So - how am I doing... I am doing GREAT!!!! I weighed in last night and all of the exercise and good food choices paid off.... I was rewarded with a 4.2 pound weight loss for the week... I am so excited I could jump up and down just typing this.... I hope everyone is having a great week and I can't wait to read about everyone's results on Friday...

Also - I agree on the posting of food choices for the day... they give me great inspiration and ideas for when I start to wean my way off of the Jenny Craig food after I reach my 60% to goal mark...

Have a great day everyone...
Goof

 

[3DisneyKids]

spot on, Paula! Great recap!

And a HUGE WOO - HOO for you. 4.2 pounds gone FOREVER!

You are amazing! That is a great loss and you SHOULD be jumping up and down! I am jumping with you!

As I have said before...my issues with DH are there...I have just shared some of it and I am sure the rest will come out with time. Mostly, I just don't feel like typing that much...I need a lazy, sleeping smiley!

Basically, though, our marriage is good. He is a wonderful provider (really takes it seriously), is a huge help around the house doing more than his share of chores, and adores the kids and truly enjoys being with them. All good things. The down side is that he is a total perfectionist (not just about himself but about everything...me, the kids, the house, weight, and everything else under the sun), and that is just plain hard to live with.

You may remember a looooong while back on this thread when one of us posted that her DH going out of town and she was actually relieved. This is how I feel, too. Again, our marriage is in pretty decent shape, but it is often exhausting to live with his standards and so when he goes away on business, I feel like I can breathe for a while.

Here are some examples....as you all know, I am super proud of myself for running (just finished my 5k for the day! ). So, the day when I ran 3 miles for the first time, I came bounding in the house...just so proud I was bursting...and his comment was, "Now you need to work toward 5 miles..." And DS came home with a test score...again, very happy..."Hey, I got a 98!" And of course Dad's response was, "That's good...let's shoot for the 100 next week." And it is like that about everything! It drives me nuts.

Don't even get me started on the house... He is OCD to the Nth degree. Every spec of dust, every finger print on the window or counter...he can't stand any of it and is usually loud in his displeasure. (And remember, we have 3 young kids....kids come with mess...it is a package deal.)

For example, in the warmer months when I pull in the driveway and see their little bikes strewn around the driveway or the yard, I smile...I think, "Great! They were riding and playing outside like kids should do an a beautiful day...." DH, on the other hand, will drive in and pitch a fit b/c the kids didn't clean up after themselves. What upsets me the most is that it is totally affecting the kids. They now run in a panic when it is close to the time when he is coming home...."Guys, come on....we have to pick up our bikes before Dad sees them!"

I know this sounds like he is a tyrant and that really isn't fair. He is silly and makes me laugh all throughout the day. He is a marshmallow when it comes to cuddling with the girls. He makes fires in the fireplace on Sunday afternoons so we can all sit in the living room together and have family game day. He is the assistant chef to DD (5) when she uses her Easy Bake Oven. All very sweet and good and kind.

Right now I am committed to working on ME. Once I feel like I have myself back, then I am going to work on my marriage. Honestly, I think he needs medication for the OCD. It is that bad. However, he will NEVER take it. Due to the whole body builder part of him (also part of the perfectionism), he doesn't put any medication in his body. Not even aspirin, etc. But I am pretty sure I can get him to agree to come to counseling where we can talk about some of these issues. I worry that the kids are going to be neurotic after a few more years of this... And I truly belive that once I am happy with myself, he and I will be able to work on being happier together. And fortunately, we don't have far to go. If I had to grade our marriage right now, I would give it maybe an 83%. It's good, it's solid, but there is definitely room for improvement.

Ok, so that is the bulk of it. Thanks for reading. I think it was good for me to get it out.

 

[goofyfan-12]

spot on, Paula! Great recap!

And a HUGE WOO - HOO for you. 4.2 pounds gone FOREVER!

You are amazing! That is a great loss and you SHOULD be jumping up and down! I am jumping with you!

As I have said before...my issues with DH are there...I have just shared some of it and I am sure the rest will come out with time. Mostly, I just don't feel like typing that much...I need a lazy, sleeping smiley!

Basically, though, our marriage is good. He is a wonderful provider (really takes it seriously), is a huge help around the house doing more than his share of chores, and adores the kids and truly enjoys being with them. All good things. The down side is that he is a total perfectionist (not just about himself but about everything...me, the kids, the house, weight, and everything else under the sun), and that is just plain hard to live with.

You may remember a looooong while back on this thread when one of us posted that her DH going out of town and she was actually relieved. This is how I feel, too. Again, our marriage is in pretty decent shape, but it is often exhausting to live with his standards and so when he goes away on business, I feel like I can breathe for a while.

Here are some examples....as you all know, I am super proud of myself for running (just finished my 5k for the day! ). So, the day when I ran 3 miles for the first time, I came bounding in the house...just so proud I was bursting...and his comment was, "Now you need to work toward 5 miles..." And DS came home with a test score...again, very happy..."Hey, I got a 98!" And of course Dad's response was, "That's good...let's shoot for the 100 next week." And it is like that about everything! It drives me nuts.

Don't even get me started on the house... He is OCD to the Nth degree. Every spec of dust, every finger print on the window or counter...he can't stand any of it and is usually loud in his displeasure. (And remember, we have 3 young kids....kids come with mess...it is a package deal.)

For example, in the warmer months when I pull in the driveway and see their little bikes strewn around the driveway or the yard, I smile...I think, "Great! They were riding and playing outside like kids should do an a beautiful day...." DH, on the other hand, will drive in and pitch a fit b/c the kids didn't clean up after themselves. What upsets me the most is that it is totally affecting the kids. They now run in a panic when it is close to the time when he is coming home...."Guys, come on....we have to pick up our bikes before Dad sees them!"

I know this sounds like he is a tyrant and that really isn't fair. He is silly and makes me laugh all throughout the day. He is a marshmallow when it comes to cuddling with the girls. He makes fires in the fireplace on Sunday afternoons so we can all sit in the living room together and have family game day. He is the assistant chef to DD (5) when she uses her Easy Bake Oven. All very sweet and good and kind.

Right now I am committed to working on ME. Once I feel like I have myself back, then I am going to work on my marriage. Honestly, I think he needs medication for the OCD. It is that bad. However, he will NEVER take it. Due to the whole body builder part of him (also part of the perfectionism), he doesn't put any medication in his body. Not even aspirin, etc. But I am pretty sure I can get him to agree to come to counseling where we can talk about some of these issues. I worry that the kids are going to be neurotic after a few more years of this... And I truly belive that once I am happy with myself, he and I will be able to work on being happier together. And fortunately, we don't have far to go. If I had to grade our marriage right now, I would give it maybe an 83%. It's good, it's solid, but there is definitely room for improvement.

Ok, so that is the bulk of it. Thanks for reading. I think it was good for me to get it out.

I'll work on that lazy smiley face for you... but you certainly don't sound lazy... You hubby sounds like a good and decent kind of guy with a few quirks.. (don't we all have those...) He may in fact be battling with OCD (I have a friend who is like this and the meds do help) which would explain his need for perfection, but take solace in the fact that if it is, he can't help it. It is a chemical imbalance that is causing it not you or the kids.

On the plus side, you do sound better having talked about it. I am more and more convinced every day that our emotions play a huge part of our outlook towards ourselves (diet, exercise, attitude, etc) and that we need to treat those first before we can tackle anything else. (how very Oprah sounding...)

I started my diet / exercise plan because I was looking to feel better about myself as a whole not just my outward appearances. Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled with the physical results, but I am most happy about the changes in my emotional life. Those are the major accomplishments and it sounds like you are on your way towards accomplishing your goals too...

Can you imagine the party we can have when we all reach our goals.... that would be one heck of a bash.... until then, we will party on here on the bodyboard to keep us going...

Paula

 

[Dizneydawn]

Hi Everyone....

You take one night off from the board and look at what you miss…

Let's see if I have this right...

Jodi made it through her test yesterday with no problems... Now we just need to get her IBS in check.... (my mom has the same issue... its not fun... ).

Dawn needs to go back to the hospital and drop kick that doctor... (Now we just need to get her to a new doctor that can / will actually treat the problem… ) This was the ER doc...kinda like buggers...you can't help what you get!!!

HockeyKat is willing to go open a can of whoop @@@ on Dawn's doctor if need be... (call me if you need a hand with this… I can unload a verbal lashing like none other when the situation calls for it…I work with contractors remember…. ) Wow....a bodyguard and a b*tchguard...I am blessed and you will be remembered in my prayers tonight!

Sarah is conquering her crazy schedule and has found yummy and healthy food options at Taco Bell… I may have to try that menu someday when I am craving Mexican food… (and she is kicking butt on the elliptical machine )
Good ideas on when life hits and you didn't prepare food choices...
3DK lives with a body builder… (sheesh.. no pressure there…. ) whom I believe is not repulsed by her body… (if he hasn’t said anything, how do you know it is an issue with him at all? He loves you…. ) I think he loves her too...Jodi and I agreed that the pressure of being married to a perfectionist would be hard to not start looking inward on what is wrong with me...

Heather has a huge heart full of compassion (love you Heather… ) and is stuck in job hell…. With more on that to follow… (I remember the days when I was in job hell… it is not fun, but we are here to help get you through it… ) Life is too short to live in a life of sadness at work or home...

I think each night you should re-cap the days activities like a Soap Opera Update...we could be..."Body Boarders...a day in the life of women and man and food...not neccesarely in that order..."

So - how am I doing... I am doing GREAT!!!! I weighed in last night and all of the exercise and good food choices paid off.... I was rewarded with a 4.2 pound weight loss for the week... I am so excited I could jump up and down just typing this.... I hope everyone is having a great week and I can't wait to read about everyone's results on Friday... I actually clapped at the table in front of my laptop when I read this...like a 6 month old proud of playing peekaboo!

Also - I agree on the posting of food choices for the day... they give me great inspiration and ideas for when I start to wean my way off of the Jenny Craig food after I reach my 60% to goal mark...
Agreed and ditto'd!

Have a great day everyone...
Goof

I'll work on that lazy smiley face for you... but you certainly don't sound lazy... You hubby sounds like a good and decent kind of guy with a few quirks.. (don't we all have those...) He may in fact be battling with OCD (I have a friend who is like this and the meds do help) which would explain his need for perfection, but take solace in the fact that if it is, he can't help it. It is a chemical imbalance that is causing it not you or the kids.

On the plus side, you do sound better having talked about it. I am more and more convinced every day that our emotions play a huge part of our outlook towards ourselves (diet, exercise, attitude, etc) and that we need to treat those first before we can tackle anything else. (how very Oprah sounding...)
I concurr also but I do feel that if it is something out of your control...you owe it to the people who live with you to try and curb the ramifications of the idiocincricies that we all have....and I also remember "Sleeping with the Enemy" and the food and the towels in perfection....and how hard it must be to feel the need for the perfection and to be the other half trying to be perfect but never being able to because true perfection is never going to be there and thus the fact there is never a good enough. 3 Diskids...I am proud that you see the ramifications on the kids and that might be the feather for you to intice him. He might truly not comprehend how the kids are responding to him....maybe..in counseling...set up a camera and tape the kids when he is about to come home...show him with a counselor how he induces fear in them...that may be a hard reality for him to get to the point of wanting to beat some of his OCD tendencies because...when you are in the middle of the drama...you can't see it or he might not be willing to acknowledge it...but viewing it as a third person...is eye opening....kinda like seeing a picture of yourself is more powerful than looking at the weight in the mirror each day....I hope I made some sense...


I started my diet / exercise plan because I was looking to feel better about myself as a whole not just my outward appearances. Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled with the physical results, but I am most happy about the changes in my emotional life. Those are the major accomplishments and it sounds like you are on your way towards accomplishing your goals too... You are so wise Mr. Owl....that's what we should do...give each other nicknames basedon who we remind each other from the Disney Movies....you Goof are totally the Owl in Winnie the Pooh....very calm....very wise...very able to sit back and look objectively...solution filled...and calm... did he have a name???

Can you imagine the party we can have when we all reach our goals.... that would be one heck of a bash.... until then, we will party on here on the bodyboard to keep us going...

Paula

I want to have a party!!!! I will put my food totals on tonight...going to go and get some Tupperware done... check in a bit...need to get wet swimsuit off....tells you that you guys are my priority...

 

[goofyfan-12]

I want to have a party!!!! I will put my food totals on tonight...going to go and get some Tupperware done... check in a bit...need to get wet swimsuit off....tells you that you guys are my priority...

Go... get that wet swimsuit off.... that is just a yucky feeling when it is this cold out.....

I don't know if I am as wise as Owl from Pooh, but thanks... I have been told that I have an amazing knack for seeing this stuff in everyone else's lives, but in reality, my own life is a mess and I rarely have this kind of clarity with myself... oh well... something else to work on...

ciao'
Goof

 

[MunkyMe13]

Hi Everyone....

You take one night off from the board and look at what you miss…

Let's see if I have this right...

Jodi made it through her test yesterday with no problems... Now we just need to get her IBS in check.... (my mom has the same issue... its not fun... ).

Dawn needs to go back to the hospital and drop kick that doctor... (Now we just need to get her to a new doctor that can / will actually treat the problem… )

HockeyKat is willing to go open a can of whoop @@@ on Dawn's doctor if need be... (call me if you need a hand with this… I can unload a verbal lashing like none other when the situation calls for it…I work with contractors remember…. )

Sarah is conquering her crazy schedule and has found yummy and healthy food options at Taco Bell… I may have to try that menu someday when I am craving Mexican food… (and she is kicking butt on the elliptical machine )

3DK lives with a body builder… (sheesh.. no pressure there…. ) whom I believe is not repulsed by her body… (if he hasn’t said anything, how do you know it is an issue with him at all? He loves you…. )

Heather has a huge heart full of compassion (love you Heather… ) and is stuck in job hell…. With more on that to follow… (I remember the days when I was in job hell… it is not fun, but we are here to help get you through it… )

So - how am I doing... I am doing GREAT!!!! I weighed in last night and all of the exercise and good food choices paid off.... I was rewarded with a 4.2 pound weight loss for the week... I am so excited I could jump up and down just typing this.... I hope everyone is having a great week and I can't wait to read about everyone's results on Friday...

Also - I agree on the posting of food choices for the day... they give me great inspiration and ideas for when I start to wean my way off of the Jenny Craig food after I reach my 60% to goal mark...

Have a great day everyone...
Goof

Congrats on the weight loss! Keep up the amazing work!!!!!! Definately try the taco bell menu its awesome! Your recap was dead on! Work is sooo slow today... Thank god for busy work... lol... Hope everyone's day is more productive...

Sarah

 

[grumpyyoungguy]

OK - A new question of the day for everyone....

What is one thing that you are able to do now that you couldn't before you started to lose weight?

For me, it is being able to walk long distances without my lower back tightening up and causing me pain. At the weight I was at, I am not sure how much of the Disney parks I would have been able to cover before sitting down. Now, I am looking forward to walking those parks in December...

How about you?

Goof

ahemmm..... I can't answer that one

 

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[grumpyyoungguy]

900 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!