In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[larry's girl]

Hi, Dawn (and everybody else on this wonderful thread).

I am here at Dawn's kind invitation and I would like to join this group of supportive and encouraging friends if I might. I have a LOT of weight to lose, and no time to type out my story now (if you have a few days to spare, check out my journal (the link's in my sig) - it tells ALL about me in the beginning and then goes on to catalogue my fairly abortive attempts (so far) to lose this weight again).

This is probably not the best day to start posting here, but what the hey? We're all friends, right? I am not in a good place emotionally today - my DH started working nights this week and I HATE it!!! Absolutely hate it. I worked nights for nine years so that our DD could homeschool, and I hated it then, too. The only reason I did it was for her benefit, and DH and I agreed it was the right thing to do (and it worked out very well, so no regrets there). Once she was done with school, I went back to a day-time schedule and was SO GLAD to finally be on the same schedule that he is (that was 10 months ago). And now his company has asked him to work night shift for the next 1-2 years!! I know he is doing it for us (they gave him a substantial raise and we need the money right now), but I HATE it when he leaves me at night!! I have tears in my eyes when he walks out the door because I miss him SO MUCH - I want to grab his arm and say "Don't leave me - I NEEEEEEED you" like a little kid. I don't know why it's such a big deal to me. I know he's coming back the next morning (even though I only see him for five minutes before I walk out the door to go to work, but he's there). I know I will see and spend time with him each evening before he goes to work. I never reacted this way when I was working night shift - I think I am just SO disappointed because we only had 10 months of working on the same schedule and I ENJOYED it so much. I just miss his presence in the house - it is KILLING me, it hurts me so much. Maybe I just need some time to adjust. Anyway, it is hard to think about the eating plan/exercise thing right now, but I am giving it my best. I was up a pound this week, but I am trying not to get discouraged but just to keep going and hope for a better week to come.

Thanks to all of you for listening. I promise I won't always be such a killjoy. I will try to keep up with the thread and offer my own encouragement (and hopefully a laugh or two somewhere along the way). Hope you all have a good day.

Susan

 

[Dizneydawn]

Hi, Dawn (and everybody else on this wonderful thread).

I am here at Dawn's kind invitation and I would like to join this group of supportive and encouraging friends if I might. I have a LOT of weight to lose, and no time to type out my story now (if you have a few days to spare, check out my journal (the link's in my sig) - it tells ALL about me in the beginning and then goes on to catalogue my fairly abortive attempts (so far) to lose this weight again).

This is probably not the best day to start posting here, but what the hey? We're all friends, right? I am not in a good place emotionally today - my DH started working nights this week and I HATE it!!! Absolutely hate it. I worked nights for nine years so that our DD could homeschool, and I hated it then, too. The only reason I did it was for her benefit, and DH and I agreed it was the right thing to do (and it worked out very well, so no regrets there). Once she was done with school, I went back to a day-time schedule and was SO GLAD to finally be on the same schedule that he is (that was 10 months ago). And now his company has asked him to work night shift for the next 1-2 years!! I know he is doing it for us (they gave him a substantial raise and we need the money right now), but I HATE it when he leaves me at night!! I have tears in my eyes when he walks out the door because I miss him SO MUCH - I want to grab his arm and say "Don't leave me - I NEEEEEEED you" like a little kid. I don't know why it's such a big deal to me. I know he's coming back the next morning (even though I only see him for five minutes before I walk out the door to go to work, but he's there). I know I will see and spend time with him each evening before he goes to work. I never reacted this way when I was working night shift - I think I am just SO disappointed because we only had 10 months of working on the same schedule and I ENJOYED it so much. I just miss his presence in the house - it is KILLING me, it hurts me so much. Maybe I just need some time to adjust. Anyway, it is hard to think about the eating plan/exercise thing right now, but I am giving it my best. I was up a pound this week, but I am trying not to get discouraged but just to keep going and hope for a better week to come.

Thanks to all of you for listening. I promise I won't always be such a killjoy. I will try to keep up with the thread and offer my own encouragement (and hopefully a laugh or two somewhere along the way). Hope you all have a good day.

Susan

You are not to be ashamed of having the love of your life away and you sad!!! We just need to figure a way to get this part of your day filled with things to connect you two....and not food.

How about excersize....do it for you and him...how proud would he be to know how many times a day you think of him.

Like walk a flight of stairs every time you think of his smile....do 10 marches in place when you want to kiss him...5 jumping jacks when you think he should be with you at that moment. Keep a journal from now to Valentines Day and give him it for a gift. What better gift than a healthier you?

Okay everyone....let's help out Susan and give her some positive choices....

 

[HockeyKat]

If you're ready to join Oprah and Bob's Best Life Challenge, Bob says there are five things that you must start doing today.
1. Get moving.
"That's the single most important thing," Bob says. "Most people cut calories, but you've got to lead an active lifestyle."

2. Stop eating two hours before bedtime.
"That alone is going to translate into significant weight loss," he says. "Build it into your lifestyle of what's your normal schedule."

3. Drink at least six glasses of water.
"Most people are dehydrated, and that hurts the weight loss process," Bob says. "Get your six 8-ounce glasses a day. …But if you're active, you've got to step that up."

4. Eat three meals, including a nutritious breakfast, and a snack.
Bob says restructuring your eating, especially to incorporate a healthy breakfast, is extremely important.

5. Eliminate alcohol (for now).
"You can add it back at a later date," Bob says. "Give it a month or two."

Wow I think that I am actually right on target... even the alcohol part! (chokes down more water...)

I keep a drawer at work with oatmeal and other healthy b-fast stuff. I will say, w/ 1200 calories, almost anything starts tasting good after a while!

...

Later when my Dad left...Treyner said..."I am sorry mom...I thought Grandpa had been watchiing that Sally lady on Sunday mornings that says you can adopt a child for like a quarter a day."

I love that boy!!!

End of story...he still likes her..I think she should get here...married to him..and give me 7 years of peace from the responsibility of his life! It is a win win for all of us!!

Hope ya laughed...I will have to dig up a picture of Big TI*S. She is a hideous beast I tell ya. If anyone is in Oklahoma..she is there now...she looks like a cross between Bozo the clown and well....I can honestly say I can't think of anyone that ugly.

Wouldn't that be great.

Dizneydawn, I know what your telling me. And I thank you for your honesty. (You guys are nothing like Britany's entourage.) I am just not to that point. If I think about leaving, and having to live in Section 8 housing (not on my short list, kwim?), and working 40+ hours per week (nothing like working for yourself. good and bad.) having to find help with my girls, it's just not worth the trade off. Now, ask me in 20 years, hindsight being 20/20 and all, but for now...I'll keep running. Again, I'm not looking for pity. It is what it is. Which is 50% of the reason I'm overweight. I'll let you know when I figure out what the other 50% is.

I will not eat the Wilton Rose. I will not eat the Wilton Rose. I will not eat the Wilton Rose.

...

Thanks, Dawn, for sharing the story of your marriage. You are an inspiration and sharing your life is sure to help others. I have shared a bit of my situation with DH and eventually I will share the rest. Yes, it is part of my weight struggle.

I go back to work today! (Yet another need for the vomiting smiley! ) Ah well, it's ok. I have a great teaching load this semester, so it shouldn't be too tough.

Stay strong everyone. We are doing this for US! This time, I am doing this for ME. And in making ME better, I will be a better mom to my kids...and so on and so on and so on.....

Meh to work, but at least it will keep you busy!! I find unstructured free time to be heck on my eating habits.

Hi, Dawn (and everybody else on this wonderful thread).

I am here at Dawn's kind invitation and I would like to join this group of supportive and encouraging friends if I might. I have a LOT of weight to lose, and no time to type out my story now (if you have a few days to spare, check out my journal (the link's in my sig) - it tells ALL about me in the beginning and then goes on to catalogue my fairly abortive attempts (so far) to lose this weight again).

This is probably not the best day to start posting here, but what the hey? We're all friends, right? I am not in a good place emotionally today - my DH started working nights this week and I HATE it!!! Absolutely hate it. I worked nights for nine years so that our DD could homeschool, and I hated it then, too. The only reason I did it was for her benefit, and DH and I agreed it was the right thing to do (and it worked out very well, so no regrets there). Once she was done with school, I went back to a day-time schedule and was SO GLAD to finally be on the same schedule that he is (that was 10 months ago). And now his company has asked him to work night shift for the next 1-2 years!! I know he is doing it for us (they gave him a substantial raise and we need the money right now), but I HATE it when he leaves me at night!! I have tears in my eyes when he walks out the door because I miss him SO MUCH - I want to grab his arm and say "Don't leave me - I NEEEEEEED you" like a little kid. I don't know why it's such a big deal to me. I know he's coming back the next morning (even though I only see him for five minutes before I walk out the door to go to work, but he's there). I know I will see and spend time with him each evening before he goes to work. I never reacted this way when I was working night shift - I think I am just SO disappointed because we only had 10 months of working on the same schedule and I ENJOYED it so much. I just miss his presence in the house - it is KILLING me, it hurts me so much. Maybe I just need some time to adjust. Anyway, it is hard to think about the eating plan/exercise thing right now, but I am giving it my best. I was up a pound this week, but I am trying not to get discouraged but just to keep going and hope for a better week to come.

Thanks to all of you for listening. I promise I won't always be such a killjoy. I will try to keep up with the thread and offer my own encouragement (and hopefully a laugh or two somewhere along the way). Hope you all have a good day.

Susan

Welcome, and I am glad you are here. Don't feel like a killjoy, Dawn has created a wonderful place for us to come and share and laugh and cry.

I wish I could share more of my struggle, but DH knows way too much about DIS for me to do that.

Interesting how many of us have home issues that are contributing to our weight...

Sorry this is short but work is killing me today...

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I promise I won't always be such a killjoy. I will try to keep up with the thread and offer my own encouragement (and hopefully a laugh or two somewhere along the way). Hope you all have a good day.

Susan

Welcome. This thread seems to be coming & going. One minute we are laughing out loud the next we're crying. I think you'll fit right in.

I will say, w/ 1200 calories, almost anything starts tasting good after a while!

True. I could gorge on rice cakes if that's all we have.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

What is a Wilton Rose???

I don't know. The ad telling you what you'd learn, included something like this..."you'll also learn to make the Wilton Rose," like I should know what that was. SO, I assumed the rest of you would know what it was. I mean who doesn't know what the Wilton Rose IS?

 

[goofyfan-12]

Welcome Larry's Girl.... We always have room for a fellow kindered spirit... Break out the tissues, the exercise equipment and get ready to laugh until you cry, cry until you laugh and work out until you want to cry.... With this bunch, you never know where it will go next...

How is everyone's day going? Mine is going fine so far.... Since it is Tuesday, I thought I would share one of my family traditions with you all (since you feel like part of the family now... ) Since my sister and I moved out of the house so many years ago, my father started complaining that he never got to see his girls. To fix this, my mom suggested a weekly family dinner where we all get together a catch up on what is going on with each other. Over the years, this dinner ended up being on Tuesday nights and has grown to include other family and friends with some nights having as many as 10 or 12 around the table. Mom always cooks enough for an army and has always said the more the merrier... Well, tonight is Tuesday Night Dinner folks... So, your mission (should you choose to accept it) is to go home and have a healthy dinner with the folks that you care about the most. I'll be having a carefully measured serving of my mom's pot roast with lots of fresh veggies (no Jenny Craig food tonight, I have been planning and saving for this all day...). Larry's Girl - give your hubby an extra hug before he walks out the door... we'll be here to get you through the night...

Happy Tuesday Night Dinner everyone...
Goof

 

[milestogo]

Welcome Susan!!!!

 

[HockeyKat]

Edited for my own good...

Some days I just want to open up a trapdoor, hide inside, and stay there.

On a good note, I have eaten well today and managed to squeeze 40 min on the arc trainer in between my work problem calls. I am determined to take my life and my body back, because I am well prepared for the fact that I may need it sooner rather than later.

 

[Dizneydawn]

Okay...so I just realized I never answered the question about dinner...


I would love to have a meal with Steven Biko. He was a man from South Africa who fought against apartheid and if you get a chance...rent the movie "Cry Freedom." It will change how you view the world and how you view your role of importance in it. I had a good friend in high school named Yvette and she was from South Africa (she was white) and her testimony of how seeing first hand the devestation of her father's choices (he was a government diplomat supporting appartheid.) Her and her mom sought assylum in Minnesota with a church I attended.

I would love to eat with him in a grassy open field...just watching and listening...enjoying finger foods and believing there could be a better world someday.

He died by the way for his cause so no romatic notions as I re-read this and it sounds like a Harliquin Romance Novel.


Okay so here is some passion for your lives....

What would you do for work if you could have a realistic dream job?

I mean for example..."I would love to train flying unicorns" is not a realistic job. Or..."I have a desire to be known as the tassle queen of the north." (okay so that was my dream but sincle the tassles started heading south..they are now just sweeping dust. That's right you too can own the newest Swiffer to hit the world market. They are called Dawn's Dusters!)

I...would love to write for a living...really...a dream since I was 7.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hi everyone! Just home from work, the house is quiet, and I can catch up!

WELCOME SUSAN! Based on your post, you are gonna fit right in, girl!

Ok, I am kinda depressed at the moment. I have had a perfect...I mean perfect...10 days. Not one cheat in 10 freakin' days. I've been feeling good, proud of myself, knowing that I am finally going to deal with this once and for all.

So, I went to LL Bean today to retrun/exchange some stuff. Feeling so good that I have been fitting into more clothes recently, I thought I might get myself something...just a fleece top or whatever (I live to be ensconsed in fleece! ).

I am sure you know where this is going...I head into the dressing room....and... OMG! It was awful--I mean just god awful. The thing fit--no problem there. BUT...they had those 3-way mirrors (more aptly glass torture of doom)! I saw rolls where I didn't think I had any rolls!

More depressingly...I looked at myself in that mirror for a while...and man oh man, it sure looked like I had gained...and I mean A LOT. I don't think that is really possible (as I would notice it in my clothes), but it was so awful. Maybe my mirror at home is a skinny mirror? Or the store mirror was a fat mirror? It is also "that time" so I may be somewhat bloated. But let's face it girls...bloating does not cause fat rolls!

So now I am doubting everything. Maybe I should stop South Beach and try something else (I had great success on it before). Or maybe I have been eating something that I thought was ok but actually isn't. Maybe I just wasn't in reality about how big I have really gotten. I don't know. But I am bummed.

I may *gasp* start running tomorrow. I have to do something. I have never been a runner, but I am willing to try. I used to be an aerobics instructor (yes, really.... c'mon, stop laughing at me...it's not THAT funny or unbelievable!) I am definitely having a hard time getting my exercise in. I have always said, if I only I can get into a running routine, I would be in great shape. There are plenty of times when I have 30 minutes...and all you have to do is throw on your shoes and sweats and you are ready. (With my schedule, getting to the gym is impossible....or at least it seems that way.)

Anyway, any encouragement you want to pass along...I could sure use it tonight.

 

[3DisneyKids]

What would you do for work if you could have a realistic dream job?

I mean for example..."I would love to train flying unicorns" is not a realistic job. Or..."I have a desire to be known as the tassle queen of the north." (okay so that was my dream but sincle the tassles started heading south..they are now just sweeping dust. That's right you too can own the newest Swiffer to hit the world market. They are called Dawn's Dusters!)

I...would love to write for a living...really...a dream since I was 7.

First, I think you would make a wonderful writer! Second, it is so interesting that you asked this question as my dream job recently became available. Several years ago it looked like my faculty line was going to get cut due to budget stuff, so I was all over the web looking and applying, etc. I went to one site that had a function for "e-mail me if this job ever becomes available..." and right before New Year's, I got an e-mail!

I would be a dolphin educator and on the marine mammal rescue patrol. I have actually done this job both in Alaska and Florida (in the Keys) and just loved every minute of it (during my doctoral program, I had to do a year of animal behavior...which is not my specialty now as there was no future in it...but I have always loved marine mammals, so I chose that for animal behavior...most of my classmates did primates).

So here are some pics of me at that time...this was one of the happiest times in my life (and I will say that I am still happy today...this was just a carefree time). I was skinny and doing what I loved most....(may take a few attempts as I am not great at posting pics)

 

[Debbie]

Ah ha! I have a couple of minutes before I head to school.

Welcome, Susan!

DWDelights, how did the cake decorating go? You didn't eat the Wilton rose, did you? My DS23 used to scarf the roses when we had cake. I'd look and every one of them would be gone. I might just as well have bought a bag icing roses as make a cake and stick them on! [I had to buy them, since I could never get the hang of making them.]

(grumpy....don't read the next paragraph). Men are something else sometimes! I have the most wonderful, kind, generous one, and, except for Dad<--->Kids relationships, we have few, er, disagreements. HOWEVER, I have my [former] BIL, who, less than 4 months after my sister died was dating, and didn't have the courtesy to let my mom know. In fact, he announced it right here on the DIS. And I quote. "My GF won a million dreams prize." Good thing it was only the three sisters that have computers and was able to read it. He was engaged before you knew it. In fact, the wedding invitations came out....the week of the first anniversary of my DSis' death. The wedding was 4 days after what would have been her birthday at her favourite place in the world. Walt Disney World. Nice they had the money to do that. OMGosh. Don't get me wrong. We knew that he would remarry, and we're delighted that the kids have 4 more siblings to play with, and a mom to be there for them, ....well....when the parents aren't on one of their "6 weeks since we've had alone time" trips.....it just would have been nice to wait a little while, you know? I guess many men are weak.

Kat Hope today goes well for you, sweetie.

3DKids, you can do it. Why not stick to the SB for another couple of weeks. Get out and move (me, who would like to be reincarnated as a sloth, says that ) and see how you are at the end of the month. Since you've had success before, I'd just give it a little more time. How exciting to be offered your dream job! Great pics, btw!

Last night I did move during Biggest Loser. Couldn't anyone have warned me that it was a TWO hour episode? When it was over, I went upstairs and didn't peek at the turtle in my bedside table. I didn't eat anything before bed.

Of course that may have been because I really wasn't hungry. DS20 gave DH and I a gift card to Montana's for Christmas. Last night was the night. I had the chicken wings and ribs, rice and beans. I ate half and will have the other half for lunch today. Since supper is turkey soup, I think it will all be a wash in the end.

Gotta go! This has gotten longer than I thought!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Well helloooooo Disers!!!

I too need to get a better handle on the food train....had a few slips the last 2 nights and the scale showed it this morning.....I will be super good so I show a loss by Friday morning though....I am not gorging but eating a little later than I should and some pizza and fried foods may not be a good choice either or maybe the 1/2 piece of chocolate cake (from the very first part of the thread...the one my neighbors darn dog ate) last night too .

Okay so I am not Catholic but I do love confessing my food sins because than the guilt is gone and I can moooove on.

I have not done fast food and besides 1/4 cup of 7up for an upset tummy 2 nights ago...no pop. A duh....maybe that pizza was not a good thing. Since eating healthier I had not suffered from heartburn and wham....pizza did it in a flurry. Maybe it was my food God kicking me from the inside out saying..hellloo you big idjit...you do not need this.

So...that is the good side to a scale...keeps ya honest...and not in Da Nile!

3 Disney Kids....I am not sure if you stated how old you are...but there is a womens radio talk show on here ...FM 107...they are Podcast I know...and they have 2 women who are best friends...SIL's and now are on the radio. They are called Lori and Julia Show. Hilarious....gossip, Hollywood and real women feelings and issues.
Lori has been skinny her whole life...never had kids...and just got what she refers to as SBF. (SIDE BACK FAT) she is 40ish and is so real about her body. She talked last week about her and her husband and how it has been the pink elephant in the room for a year. She finally caved lst week and said...
"I can't take it anymore....I know that you know that I know you know that I have SBF."

He said "yes....I do. But it has been your choice to stop working out 4 days a week and go to 2 days so you could get your hair done every 2 days. Your choice...your SBF."

She says..."Well why didn't you tell me that you noticed that I had SBF."
He Says..."Don't you look in the same miror I do?"

I was laughing so hard at this....yes he is a little obsessed about her gaining weight (based on other comments she has shared before) but the want of a woman to believe her man isn't noticing an extra roll...while knowing he is...is so funny. Who hasn't just wanted them to say... "really...I never noticed!"

I am so jealous about your time working with the dolphins....that too is a great dream of mine but since i was hideous in math and science....good luck with marine biology. Can't I just have one to swim with like they did in Flipper???

You will be reduce those rolls with workout....or my vote is surgery...lipo anyone??? No I am serious....I will never be totally flat in the stomach after 5 abdominal surgeries and when I hit 150...I will have a consult for a tummy tuck...little lipo and breast lift/reshape um so they do not look like torpedos no more mama, surgery.

I know that it will be scary but not as scary as those 3 way mirrors neked !!!

Deb....good job at eating 1/2 the meal!

I do have a intro to a story I keep revising that I posted last year and I could re-post here if anyone would like to read it...I think it is pretty good and I am finally happy...I am psycho about re-reading and proof-reading and re-editing. Even these posts drive me crazy after I put hem up. I edit them about 20 times. Can I get a plate of OCD waiter???

 

[Dizneydawn]

So here is a question I am strugling with.

Everyone I hope knows about the 35W bridge collapse of last summer here in Minnesota. 24 hours before it happened I was literally on that bridge...I had a past Tupperware host on the bridge (she was featured on all the news programs because her husband brought her 5 month old baby to the site as soon as she came off the collapse...she had a red car) and I live in a town that has a 2 lane bridge that is the main news story here now.

This bridge was built by the same company that built the 35W bridge and the NTSB just released the cause of the collapse.

The rivets were 1/2 the thickness that is mandatory when built and due to erosion etc..was 1/2 of that when it collapsed.

News crews were all over our town yesterday...all 2800 rivets are not okay that hold this bridge up.

I am not being funny here at all so using smilies is actually sickening. This bridge was supposed to be replaced 30 years ago...our town has increased by thousands since then and it is scary.

This is the only bridge that crosses the Mississippi from our town to Wisconsin and other towns we as a family need to get to.

Treyner plays soccer for a different town on the Wisconsin border and right now...it takes 30-40 minutes each way to get there. If we went the only other way out of town...it will take at least double that time. He has practice from 8-10 p.m. 2 nights a week. That would mean getting home at midnight roughly. He needs this team for his college scholarship potential. It is an elite travelling team.

So do I keep sending him over the bridge? They have not closed it down as of yet but they had planned on shutting down 1 lane at a time this summer...to re-strengthen it. The added weight of the constuction vehicles added to the collapse this summer. Now though...they just need to replace it. DOT says that but the town is saying they don't have the money and can't afford to. Will they though??? Who knows?

I mean we do not have to cross it daily...there are families..school busses that do since accross the river is still our school district...so why am I so paranoid about this.

It is not even a very long bridge...about a 30 -60 second drive depending on traffic...but here I go again making excuses on why I shouldn't be worried.

I do not worry about plane crashes...car crashes and there are thousands of those a year....but this is really freaking me out. I have all this fear and all the news crews and radio stations are obsessing about the fact they are worried for the residents of our town and wouldn't cross it if they had to.

So what should I do. Have faith that we will be allright...or say better safe than sorry and suck up the longer time.

Ugh!!!!

 

[HockeyKat]

...

Kat Hope today goes well for you, sweetie.

3DKids, you can do it. Why not stick to the SB for another couple of weeks. Get out and move (me, who would like to be reincarnated as a sloth, says that ) and see how you are at the end of the month. Since you've had success before, I'd just give it a little more time. How exciting to be offered your dream job! Great pics, btw!

Last night I did move during Biggest Loser. Couldn't anyone have warned me that it was a TWO hour episode? When it was over, I went upstairs and didn't peek at the turtle in my bedside table. I didn't eat anything before bed.

Of course that may have been because I really wasn't hungry. DS20 gave DH and I a gift card to Montana's for Christmas. Last night was the night. I had the chicken wings and ribs, rice and beans. I ate half and will have the other half for lunch today. Since supper is turkey soup, I think it will all be a wash in the end.

Gotta go! This has gotten longer than I thought!

Thanks!!! Yesterday was really a bad day.

Well helloooooo Disers!!!

I too need to get a better handle on the food train....had a few slips the last 2 nights and the scale showed it this morning.....I will be super good so I show a loss by Friday morning though....I am not gorging but eating a little later than I should and some pizza and fried foods may not be a good choice either or maybe the 1/2 piece of chocolate cake (from the very first part of the thread...the one my neighbors darn dog ate) last night too .

Okay so I am not Catholic but I do love confessing my food sins because than the guilt is gone and I can moooove on.

I have not done fast food and besides 1/4 cup of 7up for an upset tummy 2 nights ago...no pop. A duh....maybe that pizza was not a good thing. Since eating healthier I had not suffered from heartburn and wham....pizza did it in a flurry. Maybe it was my food God kicking me from the inside out saying..hellloo you big idjit...you do not need this.

So...that is the good side to a scale...keeps ya honest...and not in Da Nile!

3 Disney Kids....I am not sure if you stated how old you are...but there is a womens radio talk show on here ...FM 107...they are Podcast I know...and they have 2 women who are best friends...SIL's and now are on the radio. They are called Lori and Julia Show. Hilarious....gossip, Hollywood and real women feelings and issues.
Lori has been skinny her whole life...never had kids...and just got what she refers to as SBF. (SIDE BACK FAT) she is 40ish and is so real about her body. She talked last week about her and her husband and how it has been the pink elephant in the room for a year. She finally caved lst week and said...
"I can't take it anymore....I know that you know that I know you know that I have SBF."

He said "yes....I do. But it has been your choice to stop working out 4 days a week and go to 2 days so you could get your hair done every 2 days. Your choice...your SBF."

She says..."Well why didn't you tell me that you noticed that I had SBF."
He Says..."Don't you look in the same miror I do?"

I was laughing so hard at this....yes he is a little obsessed about her gaining weight (based on other comments she has shared before) but the want of a woman to believe her man isn't noticing an extra roll...while knowing he is...is so funny. Who hasn't just wanted them to say... "really...I never noticed!"

I am so jealous about your time working with the dolphins....that too is a great dream of mine but since i was hideous in math and science....good luck with marine biology. Can't I just have one to swim with like they did in Flipper???

You will be reduce those rolls with workout....or my vote is surgery...lipo anyone??? No I am serious....I will never be totally flat in the stomach after 5 abdominal surgeries and when I hit 150...I will have a consult for a tummy tuck...little lipo and breast lift/reshape um so they do not look like torpedos no more mama, surgery.

I know that it will be scary but not as scary as those 3 way mirrors neked !!!

Deb....good job at eating 1/2 the meal!

I do have a intro to a story I keep revising that I posted last year and I could re-post here if anyone would like to read it...I think it is pretty good and I am finally happy...I am psycho about re-reading and proof-reading and re-editing. Even these posts drive me crazy after I put hem up. I edit them about 20 times. Can I get a plate of OCD waiter???

Consider us your confessional.

I would love to read your story!!

Well, at least one good thing came out of yesterday. I was so irritated and upset by about 10PM that I couldn't stomach the snack I had planned.

I have a feeling that tonight is going to be no better than last night. I am not good at a poker face, and I am just about at the end of my rope (again!! why am I so weak!?!).

 

[Dizneydawn]

http://kstp.com/article/stories/S314025.shtml?cat=1&v=1

I hope this link works...you can go to it to read the whole confusing story....they say that the gusset plates that hold the bridge together are bad...but it is not bad enough to close the bridge??? It depends on who you want to believe....nothing is up to par but the government doesn't wnat to scare everyone is my opinion. The way the bridge is structured...if one of the load bearing plates brakes...the whole thing collapses.

Goofy - can you read this and let me know what you can decifer between the lingo and BS. I don't understand all the construction double talk??

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Edited for my own good...

Some days I just want to open up a trapdoor, hide inside, and stay there.

HK - you are just about ready to explode. I can feel it. You can PM us if it would help.

BUT...they had those 3-way mirrors (more aptly glass torture of doom)! I saw rolls where I didn't think I had any rolls!

My best friend just called me. I guess just the other night she had an "Aha" or shall we say "OH-NO" moment with herself and a dressing room mirror, in a swimsuit no-less. I think you have been in a food induced coma and are awakening. Stick with the SB for a couple. You've been so good for 10 days, what's a few more. I think 10 days, no cheats, deserves a prize.

You have had a busy life. So far, if I have my facts right, you are a college professor, a marine life edcuator/rescuer, and an aerobics instructor. Your plot just keeps thickening.

DWDelights, how did the cake decorating go? You didn't eat the Wilton rose, did you?

Debbie - the cake decorating went great. I was the dork at the front of the class asking lots and lots of questions. We don't actually get to decorate until next week...but we learned alot.

I always get so inspired while watching TBL. Congrats on your successful evening. Eating moderately and exercising.

I'll say it again, "Men are IDIOTS."

...but there is a womens radio talk show on here ...FM 107...they are Podcast I know...and they have 2 women who are best friends...SIL's and now are on the radio. They are called Lori and Julia Show. Hilarious....gossip, Hollywood and real women feelings and issues.
Lori has been skinny her whole life...never had kids...and just got what she refers to as SBF. (SIDE BACK FAT) she is 40ish and is so real about her body. She talked last week about her and her husband and how it has been the pink elephant in the room for a year. She finally caved lst week and said...
"I can't take it anymore....I know that you know that I know you know that I have SBF."

He said "yes....I do. But it has been your choice to stop working out 4 days a week and go to 2 days so you could get your hair done every 2 days. Your choice...your SBF."

She says..."Well why didn't you tell me that you noticed that I had SBF."
He Says..."Don't you look in the same miror I do?"

OK, can I download that on itunes? Sounds funny. My BFF, who I talked about a few lines up, was crying over her new found realization of her size. She was telling her husband, I am so ashamed. His reply, "it doesn't bother me." NOT - it's not that bad.

Let's read the book intro. I'm all eyes.

I think I want to be a caterer. I love making food that others enjoy. Nothing is better than a good recipe.

I'd also like to write, but sometimes I'm alittle scared of what would come out of my head. Like, could my mom read this? I'd have to write under another name. Plus then if I failed, no one would know it was me.

 

[Dizneydawn]

HK - you are just about ready to explode. I can feel it. You can PM us if it would help.
Ditto....you have us always...



My best friend just called me. I guess just the other night she had an "Aha" or shall we say "OH-NO" moment with herself and a dressing room mirror, in a swimsuit no-less. I think you have been in a food induced coma and are awakening. Stick with the SB for a couple. You've been so good for 10 days, what's a few more. I think 10 days, no cheats, deserves a prize.

You have had a busy life. So far, if I have my facts right, you are a college professor, a marine life edcuator/rescuer, and an aerobics instructor. Your plot just keeps thickening.

I too am so impressed with her will and skill!

Debbie - the cake decorating went great. I was the dork at the front of the class asking lots and lots of questions. We don't actually get to decorate until next week...but we learned alot.
I am so jealous of this...I want to take a class too...sounds like so much fun.


OK, can I download that on itunes? Sounds funny. My BFF, who I talked about a few lines up, was crying over her new found realization of her size. She was telling her husband, I am so ashamed. His reply, "it doesn't bother me." NOT - it's not that bad.
http://www.fm107.fm/ here is the link..it is the LOJ show or Lori and Julia they are on from 3-6 central time. Let me know what ya find out.

Let's read the book intro. I'm all eyes.
I will post it today

I think I want to be a caterer. I love making food that others enjoy. Nothing is better than a good recipe.

I have an idea for us....pm me when you have time so I can call ya.

I'd also like to write, but sometimes I'm alittle scared of what would come out of my head. Like, could my mom read this? I'd have to write under another name. Plus then if I failed, no one would know it was me.
I am living that life right now.

HOPE ALL OF US HAVE A GREAT DAY!!! LOVE OURSELVES & LOVE EACH OTHER!

http://www.fm107.fm/

Here is the link again

 

[goofyfan-12]

DizneyDawn - I'll take a look at the bridge story during my lunch break and let you know what I think they are trying to say...

HockeyKat - Hang in there sista'... We all want to hide some days, but that only really delays the inevitable. We are here to help... (especially on those days when you are attacked by carrot cake, but it only really goes after your mouth...)

DW Delights - keep us posted on the cake decorating class... we expect photos of that elusive Wilton Rose... (that you're not eating....)

3DisneyKids (and all the rest of us who see rolls, where we don't want 'em, didn't expect to see 'em, etc.) - Try not to get too hung up on these insidious little suckers... If we stick to our eating and exercise plans, they won't be there for long.... Don't get discouraged!!! Besides, you may not notice it yet, but as the weeks go by, they will get smaller and soon, they will be gone... Just give it some time, keep with it and don't give up!!!!

We can do this everyone!!!! I know we can!!!

Talk to you all soon,
Goof

 

[goofyfan-12]

http://kstp.com/article/stories/S314025.shtml?cat=1&v=1

I hope this link works...you can go to it to read the whole confusing story....they say that the gusset plates that hold the bridge together are bad...but it is not bad enough to close the bridge??? It depends on who you want to believe....nothing is up to par but the government doesn't wnat to scare everyone is my opinion. The way the bridge is structured...if one of the load bearing plates brakes...the whole thing collapses.

Goofy - can you read this and let me know what you can decifer between the lingo and BS. I don't understand all the construction double talk??

DizDawn - From what I could find from the report, this bridge is in need of some serious work. I don't like the sounds of the issues the engineer found with the welds at all, but the thing that has me the most concerned is the fact that the rocker bearings on one of the piers is basically frozen in place (the report references this as "tipped to the outh in contraction". This could mean that either the bridge itself or the abutment supporting it has moved to the point where the rocker bearing has locked up.

To explain - think of these bearings as a pivot point with pin holding it together. The two parts of the bearing are supposed to be free to move about the pin in order to account for the thermal movements that all materials have. This movement is a result of the fact that all materials grow and shrink as the temperature changes (kind of how our feet tend to swell in the summer time). Now, since steel moves at a different rate than stone or concrete, engineers have to design joints into a structure to allow for this movement. On bridges, they usually have a fixed support at one end of the span and a rocker bearing at the other. In short, certain spans of this bridge don't have the flexibility to move the way it should.

So - back to your original question of is the bridge safe. Based on the info I read, it does not appear that this bridge in danger of immediate collapse, but (and this is a pretty big but) I don't have all of the information so I can't tell you that with any certainty. Most structural designs have certain safety factor built into them where the structure will actually support more than it is rated for so this bridge may fall into this category. Of course, the bridge needs some serious repairs to get it back up to snuff (which ifrom the sounds of things, this work has been scheduled).

Now - after all of that, I can't tell you that this bridge is safe and I can't tell you that it will collapse because I honestly don't know. There is not enough public information available for me to make a professional judgement about it. What I can tell you is that if you don't feel comfortable going over the bridge, than don't use it. Some extra time driving in exchange for piece of mind is priceless. It will be interesting to see if they change the allowable load rating once they get done with their studies. I suspect you will see the allowable loads reduced.

Hope this helps. Feel free to PM me if you have any questions.
Goof