In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[3DisneyKids]

I got in a quick run (20 minutes, but hey - that's better than none! )...I have PT this afternoon - and that is quite a workout in itself most days, so...while it's not my typical a$$ kickin' that I prefer it's a start. Tomorrow a.m. it's my day for spinning class (although I'll probably be sucking wind.... )

I've also began to wonder if I'm suffering form some version of chronic fatigue... I don't get nearly as much sleep as my body & activity level require, and it's really started to take it's toll. Goal for today - in bed, lights out EARLY!

Glad you at least got something in. Good luck at PT....here's hoping that issue is taken care of quickly. You need to start racking up those miles again! I give you credit for spinning...I hate it (though I like cycling) and have vowed to never do it again. I saw a great shirt at the gym, though:

I sin, therefore I spin...

I am tired a lot, too, but I don't sleep. So go figure.

DAWN: Sorry that the giant turd is acting out in full force. The light bulb finally went on for him that he is going to lose you. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to help and support you through this.

Heather: Where are you??? Missing you and hope everything is ok.

SG: Same question...where are you? Still can't get your head out of the Disney clouds???

Jodi: Please let us know what is going on with your son and the surgery. Hope all is well.

DWD: Hope you can check in at some point during home show week. We need your humor here!

Kat: Since you are working from home, I expect you to be posting a lot more during the day!

As for me: I did 5.1 miles this morning, which was tough, but a great feeling of accomplishment once done. The last 15 minutes I was looking at the time like ever 30 seconds. Today was the Dis Unplugged Podcast, so that usually make my runs a bit easier, but I was just hurting today.

I was supposed to have my meeting with the sports nutritionist today and he just called and canceled. Turns out that in order to get my base metabolic resting rate (or whatever the hell it is called), I can't eat or workout 3 hours prior to the test. Hmmmm....would have been nice if they had told me that when I scheduled the appointment. So now it is for Thursday morning...one more thing in an already over-crowded day. Still, I am excited to see what he gives me for a meal plan. It is a 3-step process....first he figures out my base metabolism, then we have a consultation, then he makes up a meal plan for me. So I figure it will be several days before I even get the plan.

Ok....lots of work to do....have a great day everyone!

 

[MunkyMe13]

Okay...so here is my weekend recap...

Saturday Treyner had a game for soccer...and then we spent the day looking at cars for Treyner/Me...
Since Treyner drove his car into a pond and it is ruined...I am trying to figure out what to do...

Long Story Short....
I have a mid size car with only 56,000 miles...instead of buying another beater...I will give my car to Treyner until he leaves for college...and then it wll go to Carsyn and then when she leaves..onto Baylor. 1 owner..know what is wrong...and it will survive God willing all three kids. Chad can pay me 1/2 of the owed amount on the car...his half of the kid car...and I will use that money to put down a payment for a car for me. (We have spent literally thousands on beaters and I am sick of it)

That leaves me to figure out what I want...and I think it will be a used mini-van...probably a Montanna (2003 since I had one from Tupperware and have the tow pkg I bought for it) and that way I will have a bigger vehicle for soccer tourneys etc and if I don't need a bigger car...could use the kids one if I have far to go...

Chad will be taking the bigger vehicle in the divorce..

My head hurt by Sat night because we kept going back and forth over what to do...need to make good financial decesions..

Sunday morning...went for a drive with Chad to talk about this issue away from the kids...and he agreed with that portion...but became enraged again regarding the divorce....He blames himself but doesnot take responsibility if that makes any sense...

he is okay being angry with me even though he says he knows that he chose not to go to counseling and never cared if I was happy...

It is exhausting...

He was raised by a woman who literally never had him take responsibility to anyone else for his mistakes...so this is a huge struggle for Chad...
(example..When Chad was 16 he was benched in basketball from starting because he talked back to the coach in the locker room...His mom walked onto the court...stopped the game..to find out why her son was not starting...)

Sunday I went to a movie and the mall with Baylor...had a charicature done with us..I look like a man because my hair was in a pony...and no hair besides wisps in a charicature equalls a man...but Baylor looked awesome...it was a good keepsake...

I came home to Chad being an @ss....used a laptop of mine that I had said not to use...(he has destroyed a computer with viruses sice he is an idiot about opening up stuff and certain websites) and of course..his computer is virrus riddled again and so he takes my stuff by breaking into the computer through one of the kids sites...he guessed the password...

I cannot read him at all..yesterday he is short and curt on the phone..which is fine....then sends texts after he hangs up on me...saying... "sorry to cut the phone call short...love you" and last night while I am at a Tupp event...I get one saying "Kids looking for you..goodnight...love you."

Okay WTH?? Since the day I said I wanted a divorce...I slept on the couch for 4 months and he never said a word...we discussed that Sunday morning and he said..."I can't control you so when you went to the couch I knew you wanted to and I figured why should I give up the bed..."

Then 4 months later...I meet Dan...Chad knows this and....he decides then I am worth talking to..

The reality is this..Chad was fine me being unhappy in this marriage and on a couch because his life did not have to change..he figured life would go on and nothing in his world would really be different...

Dan entering my life means that his life will change...so now he is angry...now he is mad...

not about me...

but about Chad...

He says...."I never was given a chance to fix this marriage"...

I mention 18 years...me going to counseling for 3 years...couch for 4 months etc...and he still is not thinking I gave him an opportunity to work on us....

I seriously cannot take it...how do you make someone see their culpabilities...

and now..the "Love you" stuff...????

I am not kidding when I say that in the past 15 years of our marriage...he said that maybe 5 times...we kissed maybe 3 times not involving the bedroom and besides my free trips in Tupperware...never went out by ourselves...

Pointing this out...He always talks about our lack of money(which is just an xcuse because there were plenty of years we did not struggle)....

I say it costs nothing to sit on a couch together, to go for walks etc...and he then points out that all I want is "a wipped, puS$y who is willing to cry and feel bad about his mistakes...that is not me...you are not going to make me feel bad."

Okay...I need to stop...it is just goes on and on...I cannot help him get past this marriage..he needs a counselor..he agrees but says he will only go to marriage counseling...

not happening...family counseling is fine...

Good news...He will be out soon...looking for places here now...and I am gone as much as possible and spend time with the kids away from the house so I have some sanity...

Sorry but I needed to rant...

We will post the Challenge results today...still was getting posts last night for weight loss from some others who procrastinate...I would never understand that!!!

I'm sorry hun! At least hes leaving soon!

I hope everyone is doing well! TOM is luckily not effecting me much... *knocks on wood* I didn't go to the gym last night cuz my mom and I had to take a cab home since my dad had the car and by the time we got home it was too late and the gym would have been crowded... Instead I cleaned my hub and my bathroom... must of paid off... lost some weight this morning... LOL! Anywho have a good day!

Sarah

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Rant of my own....'cause people really do annoy me sometimes....skip this post if you want....

He was raised by a woman who literally never had him take responsibility to anyone else for his mistakes...so this is a huge struggle for Chad...
(example..When Chad was 16 he was benched in basketball from starting because he talked back to the coach in the locker room...His mom walked onto the court...stopped the game..to find out why her son was not starting...).....

The reality is this..Chad was fine me being unhappy in this marriage and on a couch because his life did not have to change..he figured life would go on and nothing in his world would really be different...

Dan entering my life means that his life will change...so now he is angry...now he is mad...

not about me...

but about Chad...

That's just in. His whole persona in a nutshell! He may have been brought up as a god in his household, but he's a grown man now. Time to suck it up and take responsibility for himself.

And I can honestly say, I almost feel sorry for the guy. Really, I do. To be so self-absorbed and uncapable of caring about much more than himself is a sad, sad thing. Reality is slapping him hard and he's not equipped to deal with that. So here's my advice to him: HIKE UP YOUR SKIRT SALLY, AND MOVE ON! You f***ed up, now deal with it! Your Momma can't fix this one for you! You've just lost probably the best thing to ever happen to you in your life!

Hang in there Dawn - it will have been worth the trip once you finally get to the other side!

 

[chbc]

I'm sort of here. I keep trying to get caught up. I still can't figure out the pinapple juice? where was that 3DK. The district has been investigating the Principal situation and still I am on unpaid leave. Don't want to say to much and the attorney is $400.00 an hour. District stop paying for insurance and cancelled my options. I am still trying to pay out of pocket for those. I got on the scale and I've gained 3 pounds since Friday am. We are off to visit cousins. I'll check in.
E- I'll look over all the running info they have.

Miss you guys. I hope I can divulge soon. If I don't, I'll gain weight. Stress was a big factor in losing weight, I am not going to gain weight again because of this situation.

Happy April Fools. We might tell the kiddos we decided to drive to DL. That would be cruel.

Depending on the faucet, you can tape it on and then when the unsuspecting victim turns it on. shower to the face.

Make meatloaf cupcakes, poundcake grilled cheese.

Have fun!

 

[3DisneyKids]

I'm sort of here. I keep trying to get caught up. I still can't figure out the pinapple juice? where was that 3DK. The district has been investigating the Principal situation and still I am on unpaid leave. Don't want to say to much and the attorney is $400.00 an hour. District stop paying for insurance and cancelled my options. I am still trying to pay out of pocket for those. I got on the scale and I've gained 3 pounds since Friday am. We are off to visit cousins. I'll check in.
E- I'll look over all the running info they have.

Miss you guys. I hope I can divulge soon. If I don't, I'll gain weight. Stress was a big factor in losing weight, I am not going to gain weight again because of this situation.

Happy April Fools. We might tell the kiddos we decided to drive to DL. That would be cruel.

Depending on the faucet, you can tape it on and then when the unsuspecting victim turns it on. shower to the face.

Make meatloaf cupcakes, poundcake grilled cheese.

Have fun!

Youlost me at meatloaf cupcakes....bleh! Still waiting for a vomiting smiley!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I actually started typing this message 2 hours ago, but kept getting interrupted!!!!!!!!!!!

I love lady bugs... lol!! but then again i used to have pet tarantulas... LOL!

TARANTULAS! No, no noooooooo!

DWD--good luck at the home show! Try to get some rest in between all of the craziness. And take a pic of the princess cake!

I did. I made a rockin' great cake! Will have to post later. No usb cable here at work.

JODI-- Glad DS is going to be OK. Hopefully no surgery will be needed. I think it is great that he still needs his mom! Gives me hope for the future.

Yes. Agreed. Surgery! Yikes! Wierd how you felt like something was wrong. If I get that feeling, I try to note the date, time, conditions, but nothing ever comes of it.

Except for, remember that lady in Florida (?) who was on life support for years and years and years!!! Her x-husband wanted to cut the support and her parents didn't. Susan (?). Anyway, the controversy was raging on, and one night, I was asleep and I woke up and thought about her. And I prayed for her. I don't usually do this in the middle of the night. It turned out, they cut support, either that night or the very next day. Weird huh?

Anytime. Hope DS is okay.

I am having that kind of day today... went to go to the gym and realized I forgot my gym shoes. My wallet was still at work so I went back to get it, and went to Wal-mart to buy shoes. While in Wal-mart, dropped my wallet, but by some great coincidence the person who found it called my name out next to a co-worker of mine who then found me and gave it back to me. So I bought the shoes (only $15 on sale!) but by then it was 1:15 and I was famished so I headed back to work.

I am still hoping to sneak away around 3:30 and get my workout in and come back and finish out my workday... I would go after work but I get so hungry and it gets really crowded after 5PM... plus bossman & team lead are both out today so it isn't like anyone would notice.

Hope everyone else is having a better day than me!

Kat!!! Dropped wallet!!!! Thank heavens you got it back!!!!

ACK! Is this confessional taken???

We were away this weekend (Boston)...ate, drank and was QUITE merry! And then...I ate, drank and was quite a bit MORE merry!

Today - I worked from 7am-1:30 (highly unusual time for me) catering a breakfast and luncheon at one of our local schools (teachers in-service)...

and I haven't exercised since FRIDAY MamaBearJo & I are going to have to meet up in rehab as we work thru our withdrawls!

I feel GROSS! And it's raining a cold, cold rain here today....puts me in the mood to bake cookies. Perhaps I'll make some home-made tomato soup instead....

Finally, someone else confessing bad things.

Get OUT! You have to workout today! I mean, otherwise who is going to be freaky-ocd-exercise-addict with me??? I can't stand up to DWD all by myself!

Taking off shoe and throwing!

Today is crazy, crazy busy for me as well. In fact, the whole month of April will be nutty for me...last 3 weeks of the semester and all of that, plus I have a HUGE project to present on Thursday....haven't looked at it in like 8 weeks! And there is no way I can work on it today, so look like I will be Last Minute Lucy on that one...

I so totally get - crazy busy!

What's with the dark green? I associate you with purple.

Sorry but I needed to rant...

Sorry not necessary! Time. I suppose is the only answer. (and he's a professional idiot.)

I'm sorry hun! At least hes leaving soon!

I hope everyone is doing well! TOM is luckily not effecting me much... *knocks on wood* I didn't go to the gym last night cuz my mom and I had to take a cab home since my dad had the car and by the time we got home it was too late and the gym would have been crowded... Instead I cleaned my hub and my bathroom... must of paid off... lost some weight this morning... LOL! Anywho have a good day!

Sarah

I LOVE cleaning my bathroom. I keep windex wipes right under my counter in my bathroom and wipe it down couple times per day. MMMMMM. Likes a shiny faucet.

Rant of my own....'cause people really do annoy me sometimes....skip this post if you want....




That's just in. His whole persona in a nutshell! He may have been brought up as a god in his household, but he's a grown man now. Time to suck it up and take responsibility for himself.

And I can honestly say, I almost feel sorry for the guy. Really, I do. To be so self-absorbed and uncapable of caring about much more than himself is a sad, sad thing. Reality is slapping him hard and he's not equipped to deal with that. So here's my advice to him: HIKE UP YOUR SKIRT SALLY, AND MOVE ON! You f***ed up, now deal with it! Your Momma can't fix this one for you! You've just lost probably the best thing to ever happen to you in your life!

Hang in there Dawn - it will have been worth the trip once you finally get to the other side!

Amen and halalujah!

MamabearJodi - enjoying you posting more of your life. Keep it up.

3DK - why are you vegetarian?

OK - today I got to be recorded for a tv segment on the H & G Show. I tried to stand in a fat eliminating pose. I'll let you know.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I'm sort of here. I keep trying to get caught up. I still can't figure out the pinapple juice? where was that 3DK.

Page 149 is when it all got out of control. Our fearless leader was teaching us, err, tawdry lessions on "how to please your man". Dawn, how much detention did you get for that anyway? Or do the moderators just ignore us family threads.

For the record, my husband will have to do something pretty great for me to even tell him that pineapple juice "might" be his best friend!!! Like, say, letting me meet the body boarders at WDW in December. Oh yeah, baby!


The district has been investigating the Principal situation and still I am on unpaid leave. Don't want to say to much and the attorney is $400.00 an hour. District stop paying for insurance and cancelled my options. I am still trying to pay out of pocket for those. I got on the scale and I've gained 3 pounds since Friday am. We are off to visit cousins. I'll check in.
E- I'll look over all the running info they have.

Miss you guys. I hope I can divulge soon. If I don't, I'll gain weight. Stress was a big factor in losing weight, I am not going to gain weight again because of this situation.

Happy April Fools. We might tell the kiddos we decided to drive to DL. That would be cruel.

Depending on the faucet, you can tape it on and then when the unsuspecting victim turns it on. shower to the face.

Make meatloaf cupcakes, poundcake grilled cheese.

Have fun!

You go all out for the holidays, don't cha. My family will be lucky to have a pizza thrown on the table at 7pm.

Sorry you have so much bottled up inside.

 

[HockeyKat]

Yeah, that working from home thing doesn't seem to keep my phone from ringing off the hook. I just managed to squeeze in a shower before my 3PM conf call. At least you can take them in a robe, when working from home! Thank the Lord that videophones have never caught on.

Holiday? What's that?

Hope everyone is having a great day.

 

[MunkyMe13]

I'm sort of here. I keep trying to get caught up. I still can't figure out the pinapple juice? where was that 3DK. The district has been investigating the Principal situation and still I am on unpaid leave. Don't want to say to much and the attorney is $400.00 an hour. District stop paying for insurance and cancelled my options. I am still trying to pay out of pocket for those. I got on the scale and I've gained 3 pounds since Friday am. We are off to visit cousins. I'll check in.
E- I'll look over all the running info they have.

Miss you guys. I hope I can divulge soon. If I don't, I'll gain weight. Stress was a big factor in losing weight, I am not going to gain weight again because of this situation.

Happy April Fools. We might tell the kiddos we decided to drive to DL. That would be cruel.

Depending on the faucet, you can tape it on and then when the unsuspecting victim turns it on. shower to the face.

Make meatloaf cupcakes, poundcake grilled cheese.

Have fun!

I miss you!!!!

TARANTULAS! No, no noooooooo!

I LOVE cleaning my bathroom. I keep windex wipes right under my counter in my bathroom and wipe it down couple times per day. MMMMMM. Likes a shiny faucet.

LOL!! You are too much!!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

I'm here, reading...

I have ennui...a fancy way to say that I am BLAH to the nth degree. I hate the rain. I hate the gray days. I have a cold, I swear it's the same one I've had for like a month on and off. My head hurts, I don't want to go outside in the rain, I don't want to cook dinner, I don't want to do anything except lie in bed with the sheets over my head. Which is so not an option.

I am forcing myself to work tomorrow - projects I have to finish up. I don't FEEL like it. Argh. My skin looks awful - I need a really good facial. There are several light bulbs out in my house so it's not even bright in here. I am even bored by my whining.

I have some parts of my online life I need to cut loose - and that sort of sucks. I want more time for what I care about, namely this thread and my blog. So I kind of have to say goodbye to some parts.

Um, what else? I weigh in tomorrow - I am happy about that. And we are going out tonight to buy a boatload of light bulbs. So I can SEE! And maybe I'll get out of making dinner. A girl can dream.

Whine over!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Yeah, that working from home thing doesn't seem to keep my phone from ringing off the hook. I just managed to squeeze in a shower before my 3PM conf call. At least you can take them in a robe, when working from home! Thank the Lord that videophones have never caught on.

Holiday? What's that?

Hope everyone is having a great day.

People "Do" work and video it. I just don't think they are talking about banking deposits. Pineapple deposits, maybe?

I'm here, reading...

I have ennui...a fancy way to say that I am BLAH to the nth degree. I hate the rain. I hate the gray days. I have a cold, I swear it's the same one I've had for like a month on and off. My head hurts, I don't want to go outside in the rain, I don't want to cook dinner, I don't want to do anything except lie in bed with the sheets over my head. Which is so not an option.

I am forcing myself to work tomorrow - projects I have to finish up. I don't FEEL like it. Argh. My skin looks awful - I need a really good facial. There are several light bulbs out in my house so it's not even bright in here. I am even bored by my whining.

I have some parts of my online life I need to cut loose - and that sort of sucks. I want more time for what I care about, namely this thread and my blog. So I kind of have to say goodbye to some parts.

Um, what else? I weigh in tomorrow - I am happy about that. And we are going out tonight to buy a boatload of light bulbs. So I can SEE! And maybe I'll get out of making dinner. A girl can dream.

Whine over!

I was worried when you said you needed to cut something loose online for more time. I'm glad it ain't us.

for your blahhhhhhsssss.

 

[HockeyKat]

NJLiz. I had the blahs yesterday. Hope that tomorrow is a sunny, better day for you.

Heather, to you too. I hope your situation resolves itself and they get all the mean people that have made your life heck.

I was... 174.8 this morning. Scary. Hope it sticks for Friday. I am wearing a pair of size 14 jeans that are actually a bit loose, that no way in freakin crap that I could have squeezed into a few months ago, so that is good too.

Crossing my fingers that I can stay strong at the game tonight. D is picking up subway on his way home and I have three light beers each cooling in the fridge, and I am going to try and stick to that. I only had 200 cals at lunch (wrap and a salad) to allow for wiggle room.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

I was worried when you said you needed to cut something loose online for more time. I'm glad it ain't us.

for your blahhhhhhsssss.

Cut you guys? Never!

I have a bunch of blogs I read, though, that need editing, and a community I'm part of that is just too much work. Seriously, when you forget it exists, it's probably not that important, right?

I should take a picture of how dark it is inside my house. Really. It's like, what, we can't afford bulbs? And all of our bulbs are 1. Different 2. Energy efficient. So I can't even go solo and buy them. I'm picking Nick up at the train station and forcing him to buy them by the caseload. And then I'm going to label them so I know which ones go to which lights. And then I'm going to whine about making dinner and having ennui to him.

Em is asleep on our bed upstairs. For some reason she won't nap in hers, but can be convinced to take looong naps in mine. Hey, whatever works. Cranky toddler is the last thing I need today.

Thanks, Kat! I need to follow you and Erika and drink more of my calories. In a good way, of course! I hope you have a great time at the game tonight! And I think the weight will stay down - how exciting!

 

[MaMabearJo]

I got in a quick run (20 minutes, but hey - that's better than none! )...I have PT this afternoon - and that is quite a workout in itself most days, so...while it's not my typical a$$ kickin' that I prefer it's a start. Tomorrow a.m. it's my day for spinning class (although I'll probably be sucking wind.... )

I've also began to wonder if I'm suffering form some version of chronic fatigue... I don't get nearly as much sleep as my body & activity level require, and it's really started to take it's toll. Goal for today - in bed, lights out EARLY!

I wanted to start a spinning class but I think my BUTT is to big for the seat. Why don't they have tractor seats if you want them they would be so much more comfortable. I guess I will have to walk my bottom off and then join the group, my neighbor teaches it and she loves it, plus she is a size 2 and looks amazing .

I am posting this on my fidge..on my mirror in the bathroom and my office...I am vowing to make the pledge to read it every morning hwhen I wake up and every night when I go to bed...

I need this in my life...I really do.







They hide in Lyle's skibbies! Now I know why they smell





I get the whole drained thing...I am not sleeping worth a darn anymore and my elbows are sore...in the joints...and I feel like I could cry all day....maybe I just need to hit something...
Ohh...Chad....


Okay...so here is my weekend recap...

Saturday Treyner had a game for soccer...and then we spent the day looking at cars for Treyner/Me...
Since Treyner drove his car into a pond and it is ruined...I am trying to figure out what to do...

Long Story Short....
I have a mid size car with only 56,000 miles...instead of buying another beater...I will give my car to Treyner until he leaves for college...and then it wll go to Carsyn and then when she leaves..onto Baylor. 1 owner..know what is wrong...and it will survive God willing all three kids. Chad can pay me 1/2 of the owed amount on the car...his half of the kid car...and I will use that money to put down a payment for a car for me. (We have spent literally thousands on beaters and I am sick of it)

That leaves me to figure out what I want...and I think it will be a used mini-van...probably a Montanna (2003 since I had one from Tupperware and have the tow pkg I bought for it) and that way I will have a bigger vehicle for soccer tourneys etc and if I don't need a bigger car...could use the kids one if I have far to go...

Chad will be taking the bigger vehicle in the divorce..

My head hurt by Sat night because we kept going back and forth over what to do...need to make good financial decesions..

Sunday morning...went for a drive with Chad to talk about this issue away from the kids...and he agreed with that portion...but became enraged again regarding the divorce....He blames himself but doesnot take responsibility if that makes any sense...

he is okay being angry with me even though he says he knows that he chose not to go to counseling and never cared if I was happy...

It is exhausting...

He was raised by a woman who literally never had him take responsibility to anyone else for his mistakes...so this is a huge struggle for Chad...
(example..When Chad was 16 he was benched in basketball from starting because he talked back to the coach in the locker room...His mom walked onto the court...stopped the game..to find out why her son was not starting...)

Sunday I went to a movie and the mall with Baylor...had a charicature done with us..I look like a man because my hair was in a pony...and no hair besides wisps in a charicature equalls a man...but Baylor looked awesome...it was a good keepsake...

I came home to Chad being an @ss....used a laptop of mine that I had said not to use...(he has destroyed a computer with viruses sice he is an idiot about opening up stuff and certain websites) and of course..his computer is virrus riddled again and so he takes my stuff by breaking into the computer through one of the kids sites...he guessed the password...

I cannot read him at all..yesterday he is short and curt on the phone..which is fine....then sends texts after he hangs up on me...saying... "sorry to cut the phone call short...love you" and last night while I am at a Tupp event...I get one saying "Kids looking for you..goodnight...love you."

Okay WTH?? Since the day I said I wanted a divorce...I slept on the couch for 4 months and he never said a word...we discussed that Sunday morning and he said..."I can't control you so when you went to the couch I knew you wanted to and I figured why should I give up the bed..."

Then 4 months later...I meet Dan...Chad knows this and....he decides then I am worth talking to..

The reality is this..Chad was fine me being unhappy in this marriage and on a couch because his life did not have to change..he figured life would go on and nothing in his world would really be different...

Dan entering my life means that his life will change...so now he is angry...now he is mad...

not about me...

but about Chad...

He says...."I never was given a chance to fix this marriage"...

I mention 18 years...me going to counseling for 3 years...couch for 4 months etc...and he still is not thinking I gave him an opportunity to work on us....

I seriously cannot take it...how do you make someone see their culpabilities...

and now..the "Love you" stuff...????

I am not kidding when I say that in the past 15 years of our marriage...he said that maybe 5 times...we kissed maybe 3 times not involving the bedroom and besides my free trips in Tupperware...never went out by ourselves...

Pointing this out...He always talks about our lack of money(which is just an xcuse because there were plenty of years we did not struggle)....

I say it costs nothing to sit on a couch together, to go for walks etc...and he then points out that all I want is "a wipped, puS$y who is willing to cry and feel bad about his mistakes...that is not me...you are not going to make me feel bad."

Okay...I need to stop...it is just goes on and on...I cannot help him get past this marriage..he needs a counselor..he agrees but says he will only go to marriage counseling...

not happening...family counseling is fine...

Good news...He will be out soon...looking for places here now...and I am gone as much as possible and spend time with the kids away from the house so I have some sanity...

Sorry but I needed to rant...

We will post the Challenge results today...still was getting posts last night for weight loss from some others who procrastinate...I would never understand that!!!

You know I am just right around the corner or actually out of town about 12 miles, well you know where to find me if you need a hug from someone other than your MAN. HUGS & KISSES

I'm sort of here. I keep trying to get caught up. I still can't figure out the pinapple juice? where was that 3DK. The district has been investigating the Principal situation and still I am on unpaid leave. Don't want to say to much and the attorney is $400.00 an hour. District stop paying for insurance and cancelled my options. I am still trying to pay out of pocket for those. I got on the scale and I've gained 3 pounds since Friday am. We are off to visit cousins. I'll check in.
E- I'll look over all the running info they have.

Miss you guys. I hope I can divulge soon. If I don't, I'll gain weight. Stress was a big factor in losing weight, I am not going to gain weight again because of this situation.

Happy April Fools. We might tell the kiddos we decided to drive to DL. That would be cruel.

Depending on the faucet, you can tape it on and then when the unsuspecting victim turns it on. shower to the face.

Make meatloaf cupcakes, poundcake grilled cheese.

Have fun!

I have to ask what are meatloaf cupcakes , are they any good, maybe I could make them for family.....

Ok I had a pretty good day still fighting my urge to drink a pop, but that will go away soon, I hope. DS had his pre-op physical today, past with flying colors. He then took off for school until Friday morning, his surgery is at 2:00 pm that day, I'll have to remind him nothing to eat or drink after midnight on thrusday. I know still doing the mom thing even though he is 20, I just can't help it. .

I think we are all done with our snow here in MN. Even though I make money off it, I am glad it is over. I love spring & summer, well summer more cause it's not so muddy and dull looking actually I like fall the best nice & cool, but not to cold. what I am trying to say I am glad winter is finally over.

Food choices today were good and I have been drinking tons of water. I am hoping for a good lose on Friday.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

IExcept for, remember that lady in Florida (?) who was on life support for years and years and years!!! Her x-husband wanted to cut the support and her parents didn't. Susan (?). Anyway, the controversy was raging on, and one night, I was asleep and I woke up and thought about her. And I prayed for her. I don't usually do this in the middle of the night. It turned out, they cut support, either that night or the very next day. Weird huh?

Terry Shiavo was her name. Sad, sad story.

So - anyone have any good April's Fools pranks today? DS16.5 came home today with a detention slip for duct taping a kid at school today. I was not so sure it was a fake at first, because I knew what he had been planning..... ...(yeah, he really did use duct tape for a prank on a teacher today - didn't get caught though! ) Oh to be 16 and invincible again!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Peeps Patrol
Week 4
#1 Disney Freak - 2.15%
#2 PixieDust112 - 1.42%
#3 PJLLA - 1.28%
#4 Utah Mama - .98%
#5 DARuss - .92%

Total Loss of 6.75%


Body Boarders
#1 GrumpyYoung Guy 1.84% - owes that to PJ
#2 SeptemberGirl - 1.69%
#3 Chbc - 1.55%
#4 MunkyMe13 - .91%
#5 3DisKids - .88%

Total loss for week 4 6.87%

YES!!! We won week 4!!!


Month of March top 5 for entire team as a month goal for Peeps...
#1 Twinkie Mama - 4.11%
#2 PixieDust12 - 4.09%
#3 LMO429 - 3.60%
#4 PJLLA - 3.58%
#5 UtahMama - 3.32%

Total Loss of 18.7% for the month!!!

Month of March top 5 for entire team as a month goal for Body Boarders...
#1 SeptemberGirl - 3.87%
#2 Chbc - 3.73%
#3 MunkyMe13 - 3.44%
#4 3DisKids - 2.98%
#5 Grumpyyoungguy - 2.92%


Total loss of 16.94% for the month!!!

Peeps lost an average of 3.39 pounds each....Boarders lost an average of 3.25 pounds each!!

Soo....Peeps pull it out for the month!!!! Those who participated will get their magnets...and I will talk to Utah about continuing this challenge in April!!!

It will change a bit...we will post by Tuesday night....weekends were way too difficult!

So please let us know if you are in for another month or not!! I hope the answer is yes cause I need the motivation not to cheerlead but get on the field!!

 

[HockeyKat]

I am in. Would like to switch my weeks this time since TOM is always on the 4th week and that isn't fair to the team that gets that every month.

So, this week would belong to BB.

I, am a complete idiot. I thought my tix were for tonight... NO! They are for tomorrow! Why did I think today was Apr 2? At least we never left the house, so nothing burned except perhaps my face...

 

[SeptemberGirl]

I'm in! I'm a Big Loser!!

 

[MaMabearJo]

Pick me pick me

 

[3DisneyKids]

I actually started typing this message 2 hours ago, but kept getting interrupted!!!!!!!!!!!


Hope you are at least able to enjoy the show!



What's with the dark green? I associate you with purple.

I know, I know....but I was quoting AKASW and she stole my purple!



I LOVE cleaning my bathroom. I keep windex wipes right under my counter in my bathroom and wipe it down couple times per day. MMMMMM. Likes a shiny faucet.

And you call ME a freak?!?!?


3DK - why are you vegetarian?

Well, I was basically raised vegetarian (my parents are still hippies...they never got over it! ). When I went away to college, I ate and tried everything, then I pretty much came back to vegetarianism on my own terms at about age 22 and have been that way ever since. Now, meat pretty much just grosses me out.

OK - today I got to be recorded for a tv segment on the H & G Show. I tried to stand in a fat eliminating pose. I'll let you know.

Ooooh....what is your local station? They likely put their news on the web. We wanna see!

I'm here, reading...

I have ennui...a fancy way to say that I am BLAH to the nth degree. I hate the rain. I hate the gray days. I have a cold, I swear it's the same one I've had for like a month on and off. My head hurts, I don't want to go outside in the rain, I don't want to cook dinner, I don't want to do anything except lie in bed with the sheets over my head. Which is so not an option.

UGH! I hate those days! Here's hoping that tomorrow you will be out of your funk!

I was worried when you said you needed to cut something loose online for more time. I'm glad it ain't us.

for your blahhhhhhsssss.

I thought the same thing! I was like, nooooo....you CAN'T go! Phew! So glad it is not us who is getting the ax!

I was... 174.8 this morning.

WOO HOO! That is so awesome!

Cut you guys? Never!

I have a bunch of blogs I read, though, that need editing, and a community I'm part of that is just too much work. Seriously, when you forget it exists, it's probably not that important, right?

I know what you mean...living online as I do, I have a ton of different online places that I visit...since finding this thread, I have pretty much dropped 'em all!

Thanks, Kat! I need to follow you and Erika and drink more of my calories.

Ummm, yeah you do! Belly up to the bar! I'm buyin'!