In search of my body...not the one I ate! Part Deux... We sit at the popular table!

[SeptemberGirl]

I started a training diary - of course, right? Because I need to write EVERYTHING down. Can you imagine there was a time when I didn't call myself a writer??? It's like Erika not being a runner!

Kat, I totally agree with Erika. You look awesome and like it's been that way forever. But we know how hard you've worked!

I went to see Wall E on Sunday with Nick and Emily, Get Smart last night with Nick, and Hancock with Jodi today. I love movies. They make me happy. But now I am broke for the rest of the week!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Liz - I'm gonna start calling you Forrest.

KAT - OMG!!!! You look so great. Even your shoulder looked sleek and sexy. And yes, you do look natural. Awesome. Truly.

I'm doing good today. Don't wanna brag too much, cause you all know how shaky I am.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Babe, I live my life on shaky ground. Say as much or as little as you need to. We get it.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Liz - I'm gonna start calling you Forrest.

KAT - OMG!!!! You look so great. Even your shoulder looked sleek and sexy. And yes, you do look natural. Awesome. Truly.

I'm doing good today. Don't wanna brag too much, cause you all know how shaky I am.

OMG, I hate that movie. Please, anything but that. Lord almighty.

Go, you!

Babe, I live my life on shaky ground. Say as much or as little as you need to. We get it.

Word. My next five seconds are on shaky ground!

 

[goofyfan-12]

A few weeks ago, Liz recommended the article from the June issue of Allure magazine (it is still on the racks). I got it on her advice and it says this exact thing...people lose for 6 months, then maintain for 6, then lose for the next 6. So you are not insane! Here's to the next 6 months!

I knew I read it somewhere, but couldn't remember where. Thanks for the reminder...

Today has been a good one so far. Stayed on my eating plan and hit golf balls... good food choices and some exercise. I am one step closer to my goals than I was yesterday.... yeah for forward progress!!!!

Goof

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Thank you for this.

And thanks to all of you - you know when in When Harry Met Sally, they tell Carrie Fischer her married lover is never going to leave his wife, and she says "You're right, you're right, I know you're right"?

GEE I don't remember that Line I just remember the "I'll have what she's having" line...leave it to me to remember the sex parts!!!

 

[MunkyMe13]

LMAO!! I love that line. I used to use it all the time and people would give me blank looks...

Okay, I have a couple of pics to post, gonna do it here and in the Peep thread. The first is at my fattest, and it is really hard to see, but it is all I have. The 2nd most of y'all have seen, it is at about 205 probably. The 3rd is from last weekend when I managed to fit into my size 10 gap khakis from the "thin" drawer.

You look great!!!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Just waking up the thread....as usual!

Ok, things have gotten out of control. I had a stress dream about running! All day long I kept trying to get my run in and I couldn't do it. At one point, I finally had time to go for my run, and I made a wrong turn and ended up running on the turnpike! So I had to turn around and didn't even do a mile. I kept telling myself in the dream that I would go later in the day and then one thing after another kept happening and I couldn't run! I woke up all stressed and freaked out!

I WILL, however, get my run in today. Also on the agenda for the day is to take the kids berry-picking. That will be fun--we go every year for most types of berries (strawberries, raspberries, and blueberries...since this is Maine, we have tons of wild blueberries right on our own property, so we don't have to go anywhere for those).

I may blow off the pool/beach thing today even though it is a great day for it. We'll see. I will likely cave once it warms up, but I really need to get stuff done around this house!

Ok, have a great day everyone!

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Just waking up the thread....as usual!

Ok, things have gotten out of control. I had a stress dream about running! All day long I kept trying to get my run in and I couldn't do it. At one point, I finally had time to go for my run, and I made a wrong turn and ended up running on the turnpike! So I had to turn around and didn't even do a mile. I kept telling myself in the dream that I would go later in the day and then one thing after another kept happening and I couldn't run! I woke up all stressed and freaked out!

I WILL, however, get my run in today. Also on the agenda for the day is to take the kids berry-picking. That will be fun--we go every year for most types of berries (strawberries, raspberries, and blueberries...since this is Maine, we have tons of wild blueberries right on our own property, so we don't have to go anywhere for those).

I may blow off the pool/beach thing today even though it is a great day for it. We'll see. I will likely cave once it warms up. I need to get stuff done around this house!

Ok, have a great day everyone!

Berry picking sounds good! I should look into that to do with the kiddies...

As for the stress dream! I say take a day off from running! Maybe your body is telling you it needs a break! Then again I could be wrong. Go to the pool and soak up the sun and relax...... And think of me while I am at work!!!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

OMG, I hate that movie. Please, anything but that. Lord almighty.

Sorry Liz. Didn't mean to offend your delicate sensibilities.

I don't know that I've ever been berry picking. Sounds fun. (Till I got hot and didn't have anywhere to sit. )

Kat - I was looking at your pics again. The biggest "you" pic. Where is that taken? And who took it? And what did you weigh?

We (me and the girls) are getting our hair cut this afternoon. Nothing exciting, just a trim.

Later

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Okay, so weigh in today...up .2 lbs. The leader said to me, "Now, Liz, we're not going to get upset about .2 of a pound, right? That's nothing."

Yeah, okay. Not getting upset. See? This is me, not getting upset.

I had a great week and exercised my a$$ off...and this always happens when I kick up my exercise into high gear. I had 26 activity points for the week, when normally I might have 14-19. So my body needs a week to adjust.

21lbs to go, still.

My body is sore from the last few days, and today I am taking off exercising. I also need to sleep. I'm tired.

Erika, I love the sound of your wholesome family day! Can I come up and pick blueberries?

Back to work. I have a client all day today. But hopefully, I'll get an early night in.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

KAT- Love the pictures! You've come a long way, baby!


Berry picking! Yum-o! I wanna come too!!

I gotta go shopping. But not "fun" shopping....gettting-kids ready-for-camp shopping. Why do they ALWAYS need a new flashlight? Where the he** are the other 18,000 flashlights I've bought over the years?

All 3 of my kids will be gone next week. My boys are headed your way, Erika! (no, not to STAY with you - although they ARE good berry pickers! but even better berry EATERS ) They're actually headed to Machias - staying at the University of Maine campus there. Every year our church's high school youth group goes on a mission trip, working thru an organization called "Group Workcamps". They travel to different communities and help to rehab homes for people who need assistance.

that reminds me - I have to tell you about DS15's back....we had that appt last week - right before I got the stomach illness from "down under" Hearing about all the salmonella, etc in the news, it makes one wonder. I've never stressed too much about eating raw fruits/veg- but now I'm looking at everything with different eyes! After a week with very little food, and certainly no fresh fruits/veg (the very thought of roughage was most intimidating! ) Now I'm back on track - finally! Went for a modest bike ride yesterday - felt great, but still had no "fuel" in my system. Today I went to the gym and did a weight circuit. Now I'm feeling famished - but am determined to be a "responsible eater" today!!!

Ok - kiddos are in need of something (a ride? money? oh...GROCERIES! - being sick I haven't shopped in AGES! ) I'll tell you about DS a little later....

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hello ladies...

This is a bit off topic so if you don't feel like reading, please skip, but I need to rant a bit in order to move on and keep moving forward (love you Sarah...)...

I got a call last night during my golf lesson from one of the big wigs at my company (one of the ones who has been giving me agida over this whole Saranac Lake job) asking if I had given any thought to the position he was telling me about in Syracuse (long story short, it is a great opportunity for a different type of position in Syracuse... not as much on-site work, more office type stuff, but a step up in the food chain) and asked if I was still interested in the position. The timeline that we had talked about was for early next year, but now the timeline has moved up and they need someone as early as two weeks from now.

My question to him was this... if you couldn't get me out of where I am two weeks ago without pissing off the client, what makes you think that you can get me out of here now. I am getting really tired of this guy's attitude of lets throw a bunch of crap at the wall and see what sticks. When I asked if he had talked to the guy I currently work for to see what the implications to our client relationship was, he said he had not, but would and told me not to worry about it. I explained that conversations had already occurred between our company and the client giving them some assurance that while I was still interested in leaving it wouldn't happen until after the first of the year. The client even sought me out personally to talk about this so I have given my word as well. Am I crazy to think that if I were to shift courses now and pull out that I am going to look like a total fool? I am trying to balance my personal need to continue to grow professionally with my company's need to maintain their client relationship and this guy is not helping the situation at all. Never mind the fact that if I say yes, I have to pick up and move to a strange city in the next few weeks (how crazy does that sound?) all for a job that I am not really sure that I want.

On top of that, I was just coming to terms with everything and was begining to move on with my life. Now I am back in emotional h*ll and my attitude is to say just screw it... Any advice?

Thanks for listening...
Paula

 

[HockeyKat]

Paula, . Your situation sounds like a real roller coaster! I would do whatever feels right to you. My personal bias (with what is going on with me at work) would be to look out for yourself, though.

Nancy, glad you are feeling better!!! I certainly haven't eaten any veggies either... cheese sandwiches and soups.

Liz, .2 is nothing. Plus w/ the exercise you are likely bulding muscle. One trick I use is to never, ever do a weight training class before weigh-in day. Lactic acid can build in the muscles and make you seem heavier. I learned that one from a Peep-er.

I also don't let exercise give me license to eat more. I know that WW promotes that, and so go with what works for you, but I never add calories based on exercise.

Erika, bring me some berries!!

Lyz, I was 218 at my heaviest. That was a pic that I took from the video from our Jan 2007 WDW trip. D was filming. I avoided the camera like the plague around that time, so that is the best I can do. I started my journey here on the day after we returned from that trip. I didn't take a "before" because I wasn't sure I was going to stick to this.

Thanks for all the compliments on the loss!! It has been a rough road, and a long one, but I really am feeling a lot better about myself. It's funny that you say I look like I have always been that way... I get a lot of, gee, I can't remember you fat, comments from my coworkers who see me every day. I also wonder how many of the "skinnies" that we envy fight every day to stay that way.

I am still feeling like crap. My summer cold is now in full bloom, although some of the intestinal issues seem to have subsided. Granted, I haven't eaten yet today! I decided to sleep in this morning and work from home this afternoon. I have a nice deep chest cough that gets set off by talking, so I figured it would be better for all parties.

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

We (me and the girls) are getting our hair cut this afternoon. Nothing exciting, just a trim.

Later

We are getting pictures right??? Sammie and I are going on Saturday for our cuts and my color!

Okay, so weigh in today...up .2 lbs. The leader said to me, "Now, Liz, we're not going to get upset about .2 of a pound, right? That's nothing."

Yeah, okay. Not getting upset. See? This is me, not getting upset.

I had a great week and exercised my a$$ off...and this always happens when I kick up my exercise into high gear. I had 26 activity points for the week, when normally I might have 14-19. So my body needs a week to adjust.

21lbs to go, still.

My body is sore from the last few days, and today I am taking off exercising. I also need to sleep. I'm tired.

Erika, I love the sound of your wholesome family day! Can I come up and pick blueberries?

Back to work. I have a client all day today. But hopefully, I'll get an early night in.

Liz I did the same thing when I started walking three miles every other day I gained 3 pounds in a 2 week time and I didn't eat my activity points?? So ya it is your body doing where things!

that reminds me - I have to tell you about DS15's back....we had that appt last week - right before I got the stomach illness from "down under" Hearing about all the salmonella, etc in the news, it makes one wonder. I've never stressed too much about eating raw fruits/veg- but now I'm looking at everything with different eyes! After a week with very little food, and certainly no fresh fruits/veg (the very thought of roughage was most intimidating! ) Now I'm back on track - finally! Went for a modest bike ride yesterday - felt great, but still had no "fuel" in my system. Today I went to the gym and did a weight circuit. Now I'm feeling famished - but am determined to be a "responsible eater" today!!!

Ok - kiddos are in need of something (a ride? money? oh...GROCERIES! - being sick I haven't shopped in AGES! ) I'll tell you about DS a little later....

Ok I'm waiting to hear all about it!

Hello ladies...

This is a bit off topic so if you don't feel like reading, please skip, but I need to rant a bit in order to move on and keep moving forward (love you Sarah...)...

I got a call last night during my golf lesson from one of the big wigs at my company (one of the ones who has been giving me agida over this whole Saranac Lake job) asking if I had given any thought to the position he was telling me about in Syracuse (long story short, it is a great opportunity for a different type of position in Syracuse... not as much on-site work, more office type stuff, but a step up in the food chain) and asked if I was still interested in the position. The timeline that we had talked about was for early next year, but now the timeline has moved up and they need someone as early as two weeks from now.

My question to him was this... if you couldn't get me out of where I am two weeks ago without pissing off the client, what makes you think that you can get me out of here now. I am getting really tired of this guy's attitude of lets throw a bunch of crap at the wall and see what sticks. When I asked if he had talked to the guy I currently work for to see what the implications to our client relationship was, he said he had not, but would and told me not to worry about it. I explained that conversations had already occurred between our company and the client giving them some assurance that while I was still interested in leaving it wouldn't happen until after the first of the year. The client even sought me out personally to talk about this so I have given my word as well. Am I crazy to think that if I were to shift courses now and pull out that I am going to look like a total fool? I am trying to balance my personal need to continue to grow professionally with my company's need to maintain their client relationship and this guy is not helping the situation at all. Never mind the fact that if I say yes, I have to pick up and move to a strange city in the next few weeks (how crazy does that sound?) all for a job that I am not really sure that I want.

On top of that, I was just coming to terms with everything and was begining to move on with my life. Now I am back in emotional h*ll and my attitude is to say just screw it... Any advice?

Thanks for listening...
Paula

gee Paula I think your boss is putting you in quite a Pickle! i would rather see you come to Saranac Lake for my own selfish reason! But Syracuse isn't that far away and my SIL lives there. I can introduce you both! You could have a friend already!

 

[3DisneyKids]

As for the stress dream! I say take a day off from running! Maybe your body is telling you it needs a break! Then again I could be wrong. Go to the pool and soak up the sun and relax...... And think of me while I am at work!!!

Good one, Steph! Me giving up a run intentionally! That's cute... I ran 5.6 miles today.

I don't know that I've ever been berry picking. Sounds fun. (Till I got hot and didn't have anywhere to sit. )

I think of you as 4H Queen and you have never been to a Strawberry Patch?!?! Ok, you have to go. It is fun, cheap, and takes less than an hour to pick more berries than you know what to do with. Make some calls and find out where the pick-your-own farms are. There is one close to you, bet on it. And next month is raspberries...that ought to get you motivated!

Okay, so weigh in today...up .2 lbs. The leader said to me, "Now, Liz, we're not going to get upset about .2 of a pound, right? That's nothing."

Yeah, okay. Not getting upset. See? This is me, not getting upset.

I had a great week and exercised my a$$ off...and this always happens when I kick up my exercise into high gear. I had 26 activity points for the week, when normally I might have 14-19. So my body needs a week to adjust.

21lbs to go, still.

My body is sore from the last few days, and today I am taking off exercising. I also need to sleep. I'm tired.

Erika, I love the sound of your wholesome family day! Can I come up and pick blueberries?

Back to work. I have a client all day today. But hopefully, I'll get an early night in.

DO NOT FREAK OUT. I repeat, do not freak out! You are wearing a bikini these days...let's keep things in perspective, shall we? First, Kat is right that you weigh in on the morning AFTER a day OFF from working out (especially if you are doing weights. Shouldn't matter too much if you are just doing cardio stuff, though it could have an impact as well).

Secondly, remember that when I went to WW, I was where you are now...about 15-20 pounds to lose. And while I wasn't working out to the extent that I am now, I was running quite a bit. They told me to eat my activity points. I did. I didn't lose.

Third, once you get to the last 20 pounds like this, you start the whole muscle building phase (cause you don't have much fat left since you are skinny!) You are now going to have to use a couple of different things besides the scale to measure success. Do this TODAY--take your measurements. Measure your upper arm at its thickest point, bust, waist, hip, and thigh at its thickest point. Write them in your training journal. Re-measure at 4-week intervals. Also, find a pair of "next goal" pants...ones that you can squeeze into now, but you wouldn't dare wear them in public. Try these on once a week. They will get more loose each week and will eventually fit--regardless of what happens on the scale (though I am confident your numbers will continue to drop as well). Trust me...this is my turf and I won't steer you wrong.

And finally, remember that you are a goddess!

When you come to Maine, yes, we can take Em berry picking (for whatever is in season). Maine is pretty much synonymous with wholesome. But then again, I think of Lyz like that and she has never picked a berry, so go figure.

I gotta go shopping. But not "fun" shopping....gettting-kids ready-for-camp shopping. Why do they ALWAYS need a new flashlight? Where the he** are the other 18,000 flashlights I've bought over the years?

This just made me laugh! Totally!

All 3 of my kids will be gone next week. My boys are headed your way, Erika! (no, not to STAY with you - although they ARE good berry pickers! but even better berry EATERS ) They're actually headed to Machias - staying at the University of Maine campus there.

Are you driving them up to Machias? Or is the church group taking a van or something? If you are driving, you go by right by me, so please let me know so that we can have some drinks (or whatever).

that reminds me - I have to tell you about DS15's back....we had that appt last week - right before I got the stomach illness

Hope all is well there and I am glad you are getting back to yourself!

KAT--glad to hear that you are on the mend as well...and good choice to work from home! Rest and heal.

PAULA--Yikes! What a bind they put you in! Not fair! My take is similar to Kat's. If this guy (who is a higher-up) is not worried about the client, then you can't be the only one who is. True, this is not the most customer-service-oriented response out there, but I would take the customer right out of the equation for now. Think about you and this job. Answer these questions for yourself over the next few days: (1) Are you interested in the specifics of this particular job? Would you enjoy it? Would you gain new skills? Would it make you more marketable? What about the day-to-day of this job? Would like you doing the tasks? (2) Syracuse--are you willing to move there? Do you like the area? Any contacts? How far from family?

If you think you would like the day-to-day of the job and if you are ok with living in Syracuse, then do it. Don't worry about having to move in 2 weeks. You can do that.

Ok...now I have to take the kids to swimming lessons.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I got a call last night during my golf lesson from one of the big wigs at my company (one of the ones who has been giving me agida over this whole Saranac Lake job) asking if I had given any thought to the position he was telling me about in Syracuse (long story short, it is a great opportunity for a different type of position in Syracuse... not as much on-site work, more office type stuff, but a step up in the food chain) and asked if I was still interested in the position. The timeline that we had talked about was for early next year, but now the timeline has moved up and they need someone as early as two weeks from now.

My question to him was this... if you couldn't get me out of where I am two weeks ago without pissing off the client, what makes you think that you can get me out of here now. I am getting really tired of this guy's attitude of lets throw a bunch of crap at the wall and see what sticks. When I asked if he had talked to the guy I currently work for to see what the implications to our client relationship was, he said he had not, but would and told me not to worry about it. I explained that conversations had already occurred between our company and the client giving them some assurance that while I was still interested in leaving it wouldn't happen until after the first of the year. The client even sought me out personally to talk about this so I have given my word as well. Am I crazy to think that if I were to shift courses now and pull out that I am going to look like a total fool? I am trying to balance my personal need to continue to grow professionally with my company's need to maintain their client relationship and this guy is not helping the situation at all. Never mind the fact that if I say yes, I have to pick up and move to a strange city in the next few weeks (how crazy does that sound?) all for a job that I am not really sure that I want.

On top of that, I was just coming to terms with everything and was begining to move on with my life. Now I am back in emotional h*ll and my attitude is to say just screw it... Any advice?

Thanks for listening...
Paula

Paula - I'm (thankfully) out of office politics, so Kat and Erica offer a more balanced perspective. So take my thoughts with a grain of salt.

It seems shady to me that he can't lose/replace you at current project and then all the sudden he can. And I'm glad you called him out on that. I mean really, why play games. Not that you'll figure out why, but at least you've painted yourself as someone who is aware.

Regarding wether to take the job, that's a big one. You have repeatidly said you are ready for a move. Is this the move you wanted? It is sudden, but if it takes you where you want to go, then full speed ahead.

All 3 of my kids will be gone next week.

Ohh, I'm jelous. Do you have anything planned, or just plan to enjoy the peace.

No, no pics of our hair. It's really not exciting at all. I get my hair cut when I can't stand it anymore. I'm a low maintenance kinda gal.

E - I forgot to comment on your dream. That's hi lar ious to me. I've been having crazy dreams too. Not about exercising.

 

[MaMabearJo]

Hi guys,

Long time I know, was having a breakdown and think I still am. Does anyone have anziety issues? Think I do.

Well to start with let me say Sarah, Liz & Kat you all look wonderful give yourselves a pat on the back for all the hard work. Just looking at the physcial changes really inspires me to keep going.

Goof, the job situation is a tough one, but take a moment and think do you want this? Are you going to benifit from this? Are you prepaired to move somewhere else? Remember this is your life. Good luck on your decision here's a hug.

I have been not feeling well both physcially and emotionally. The house project just add to it. I have not been to the gym or walked for 2 weeks. My low back has been out and the nerve is pinched. I'v had neck pain since 99 from a car accident and 2 surgeries and now I have arthitis above and below the plate so I deal with pain everyday. So now the low back that I was suppose to have surgery on years ago is getting worse, and working out just aggervates it then I get laid up for awhile and I want to quite, but I know I can't. I need to lose 100 pounds to help with keeping the pain down.

So now on top of it all I am trying to figure out my body and what I am allergy to or like I said before if is anziety making some of my other symptons. Yesterday was horrible, I was itchy, red on my chest and face, hot from the inside out, felt overwhelmed, cried 4 or 5 times which is not like me at all. Even Hanna gave me a hug not knowing what to say. So Maybe I just have to much going on or I am losing it. I did start writing in a journal yesterday and did a great job at eating, well, kind of I only got about 800 cals in. Just not hungry and don't know what to eat. Hopefully this will all work out and soon. I hate felling down

On a up note we have had many people in the house and 2 offers, but they were lower then we can afford to get out of this house. We do have an offer coming in tonight. Around 4pm these people really like it and they have sold there house so they can move in right away. Cross you fingers and toes please It's only been 1 1/2 weeks since we finished remodeling so I think having people interested is a good think.

We really need to get out of this.

Now on a downer my first batch of raspberries got killed by hail, so you will have to wait a little longer for the jelly. Hopefully we will get our fall crop. Plus we had to put our cat tiger to sleep he was 13, great cat, I wasn't really close to it, but seeing him sick and puting him down made me sad, I even cried then. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME. I should be cleaned out with all my tears lately.

Thanks for listening, don't me to be a downer.

I will start walking and going to the gym, you guys won't let me quite. RIGHT!!!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Okay, gang, a serious post here. Most of you know about my mom's struggle with breast cancer for the last 12 years. I know, without a doubt, that the advances in treatment are why she is still alive today. So in March, when my friend Teri asked me to be part of a triathlon relay team to raise money for breast cancer research in my mom's honor, I said yes. My job? To run 5k.

You know me, and you know how I feel about running (absolute terror). But I am going to cross that finish line, and I am going to ask for your help.

My goal is to raise $1,000. I will run for all the women and men and children on this planet, the ones whose lives have been touched by breast cancer, and the ones who might be lucky enough not to be. I will run for you, my friends, in the hope you never battle this disease. I will run for my aunt who lost her fight. I will run for my daughter, so she never has to go through what my mom did. I will run for my mom, a survivor four times over, and I will run for myself.

I know I can count on your support as I put on my sneakers and hit the pavement outside my house. I hope, if you can, you will donate something towards my goal. If you'd like to donate, information can be found here:

http://web.mac.com/lizwalter/iWeb/Site/Donation Information.html

Tuesday I go outside, and start to run. Wish me luck! And thank you for everything you have given me since January. Your friendship has been priceless, and I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

Guys - I have fundraising catalogs available - 40% profit and it can help huge - let me know Liz if you are interested inthem - or anyone else

I MADE MY 10% GOAL
I HAVE LOST 25.8 POUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry LYZ had to scream it from the ROOF TOPS!!!
OH WAIT there is more I tried on my nieces size 16 and they friggin fit!!!!

Awesome! Kat and Liz - you too...and EriKa - love campin..you are EriKa Stewart...camp living for the lifestyles of the rich and almost famous...

Ok - that should tell you how far back I am - WW was good - need to go grocery shopping - eating less - weigh in tom - ugh...not the best yet - tooooo much on my plate -Dan says hi -

 

[goofyfan-12]

Paula - I'm (thankfully) out of office politics, so Kat and Erica offer a more balanced perspective. So take my thoughts with a grain of salt.

It seems shady to me that he can't lose/replace you at current project and then all the sudden he can. And I'm glad you called him out on that. I mean really, why play games. Not that you'll figure out why, but at least you've painted yourself as someone who is aware.

Regarding wether to take the job, that's a big one. You have repeatidly said you are ready for a move. Is this the move you wanted? It is sudden, but if it takes you where you want to go, then full speed ahead.



Ohh, I'm jelous. Do you have anything planned, or just plan to enjoy the peace.

No, no pics of our hair. It's really not exciting at all. I get my hair cut when I can't stand it anymore. I'm a low maintenance kinda gal.

E - I forgot to comment on your dream. That's hi lar ious to me. I've been having crazy dreams too. Not about exercising.

Thanks for the advice... Everyone's input is helpful. I keep coming back to two things while debating this in my head...

The first is why is he asking me to go when two weeks ago he said I couldn't? What mess am I walking into or should I say why am I capable of this now, but not before? I can't shake the feeling that I am a warm body to fill a spot in this instance.

The second is that making this move would be moving for the sake of moving and nothing else. The job I would be doing is very different from the one I do now and I am not sure if I would enjoy the day to day functions of the new position. For starters it would take me away from building and put me smack in the middle of the politics of a construction project and I am not sure I am ready for that mess again. I left a successful career in architecture because of the politics of the design process.

So - after a great deal of soul searching (and frankly accomplishing nothing at my current job today as a result), I think I am going to decline this opportunity since the job is not the right fit for me right now. I love building, I love being on site and working through the issues. I love the equipment we have here to play with (cranes, excavators, etc). Yes, I am the ultimate tomboy playing with trucks in the sandbox and I love it. I am still up for a change, but I want to stay with onsite operations for now. In time, I may change my mind and want to take on a role in preconstruction, but for now I think I am going to stay and play in the dirt a little longer. There are other projects coming down the line that I can work on that are outside the Capitol and get me to where I want to be.

Thanks again for all of the words of wisdom.... We now return you to our regularly scheduled thread...

Paula

PS - I so need to exercise tonight.... if for no other reason than to work through some of the stress....
On the plus side - I did not stress eat today. I stuck to items that were packed in my lunch bag and nothing more so I know of at least one positive came out of this.... I did not stress eat... and that deserves a happy dance...