In search of my body...not the one I ate! Part Deux... We sit at the popular table!

[DisneyWorld Delight]

This may be funny to some of you...but really...I need help on this one!

So I am feeling really crampy and I am eating everything in sight!

So I read to here and think, "oh my, who would make fun of her for eating everything in sight?" I hope she's not implying sarcastic, exercising bashing me...

This is always a major sign of TOM for me. But I thought I had it just a couple of weeks ago? (NO, I don't really keep track...) But I know that I am in sync with someone here...I just can't remember who. I don't think it is Kat. For some reason I am thinking Liz? Are we due this week?

And then I got to here...:lmao: Wonderwoman can't keep track of everything. And Liz.

Dawn - welcome back and congrats on the new trainer, Treyner. And very cool about school.

Paula - yes, I was shocked about T. Russert too! Gracious, that's just scary.

Was in a very foul mood this evening. I am just feeling very antsy. Unhappy with everything. My weight, my non structured life, always being behind the ball, my "job", my attitude toward my kids and husband, my hair...had a massive headache and layed on the couch for a few hours. Headache is gone, but I have GOT to make some changes. Starting with...what? What do you change when nothing is what you want it to be?

Overfreakingwhelming.

I know the answer, and you all are gonna tell me, make yourself first, la la la, and logically that makes sense, but my mind does not work that way. It expects immediate gratification and anything less is just not worth the effort. Ok, sorry for the tirade. If anyone understands, it's you guys.

I'll wake up tomorrow in a better mood.

I have changed one thing. I am showering in the morning now. I know you are all thinking, what? But I have been a late night showerer for years. (Mostly due to procrastination.) But, I would have my daily shower before bed. But, since I have made this change, it's one thing I don't have to dread doing in the evening. It's already over with. KWIM? And I just feel better.

Ok. All for now. See you in the morning.

Oh and I LOVE VickiB (Beckham) She is gawgous, has awesome fashion sense and a Hermes collection to die for.

Oh and another thing. You know my old laptop was on the fritz. Local and only computer place in town was taking it's sweet old time fixing.

Well got the call last week, it probably was down for the count.

After not having MY laptop for like a month and a half, I could not wait any longer. Went to Walmart, bought a new one.

Guess what. They called today. Had to reformat it back to a clean slate, but it's working. You know the only reason it works is because I bought another one.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Lyz!

Yes, I totally get where you are at. I won't preach or give advice other than to say I was where you are in it is what got me to do something. I was just miserable and/or frustrated with every aspect of my life and couldn't stand it anymore.

And the reason I chose exercise, as I have mentioned before, is because it is somehow easier for me to control that...as opposed to eating (which is still a massive issue for me), my marriage (which I can't tackle just yet) and so on. I could control what I did with my body and exercise so that was what I changed first.

And I am by no means WonderWoman. Yup, I have the exercise thing down. No issue there. And because of that, my weight is under control as well, though still not where I want it to be.

But the rest of my life? Right there with you, girlfriend. I feel like I am behind the 8-ball in every other category. Which I hate, you know? Just being pressured and last-minute on everything. And having everything "good enough for now" instead of how it SHOULD be. This goes for work especially. I am doing the bare minimum...and getting it done at the last possible second...and so I am always stressed about that. And on and on.

My house is the same...it looks picked up...but it is all smoke and mirrors right now. Crap shoved everywhere just to be out of sight. God forbid you open a drawer around here! And if it would make you feel better, I will post a pic of my office. Jeff doesn't care what the office looks like...so it looks like a bomb went off. No lie. Crap just heaped up everywhere. And it drives me crazy to work in an environment like this. I am not totally OCD like J, but I do like things nice.

So yeah, I feel like I am losing battles on every front except the exercise one.

So, I don't have answers for you, but I do have support. And whatever I can do...just name it. I find this to be a win-win situation. When I am helping someone with something, it makes me do it in my own life as well, kwim?

Sorry for the ramblings, but your post just struck a cord with me. I get it. Totally.

And you should be Scary Spice, btw! (She got the nickname Scary not because she is scary...she got it because of her sense of humor! So that totally works for you, my sarcastic friend! I love your humor!)

BIG day today....taking the kids (wiht 2 of my friends and their kids) the local 6-Flags-type of place. Not actual 6-flags, but that type of Amusement Park. Have done nothing to get ready for the day and we leave in 45 minutes. Like at Disney, I have the day pack ready the night before, waters in the freezer, all of that type of thing. I have done ZERO...no one is dressed, don't have their matching shirts laid out...no one has eaten breakfast...day pack not ready...oh crap I forgot about sunblocking everyone...and we leave in less than an hour.

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Erika are you headed to Old Orchard Beach? Everything will fall into place! I am this way everyday! I run around to get everything done last minute!
I am off to clean my house because for the last two days I have been off from work and guess what I have done NOTHING!
Have a great day Everyone!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

All this Spice Girl talk....I have to share a little story with you now.

Ok. So y'all know that we have goats. Most of them are brown (actually a gorgeous color known in the goat world as "red bay"...Ms. Clairol would be envious...but I digress ). Well, DD has a goat named Ginger. Ginger had a baby this spring - a girl. While celebrating this little miracle, our conversation was something like this.

Me: Aw...she's SO sweet. Whatcha gonna name her?

DD: Well, since momma is Ginger, I think I want to stick with the whole "spice girl" thing.

Me: Really?? Is she going to be Posh? or Sporty? or SCARY?

DD: You're so weird mom. I meant SPICE girl..you know..like cinnamon or cloves or somethin'...

Me: Oh. 'cause you know that POSH would be so much cooler..



So - her name is Cinnamon Bun...not *quite* a Spice Girl...

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

All this Spice Girl talk....I have to share a little story with you now.

Ok. So y'all know that we have goats. Most of them are brown (actually a gorgeous color known in the goat world as "red bay"...Ms. Clairol would be envious...but I digress ). Well, DD has a goat named Ginger. Ginger had a baby this spring - a girl. While celebrating this little miracle, our conversation was something like this.

Me: Aw...she's SO sweet. Whatcha gonna name her?

DD: Well, since momma is Ginger, I think I want to stick with the whole "spice girl" thing.

Me: Really?? Is she going to be Posh? or Sporty? or SCARY?

DD: You're so weird mom. I meant SPICE girl..you know..like cinnamon or cloves or somethin'...

Me: Oh. 'cause you know that POSH would be so much cooler..



So - her name is Cinnamon Bun...not *quite* a Spice Girl...

I like to tease my daughter and my niece because they are so over the spice girls and I love to remind them that they watched the movie over and over when they were little. Plus they used to pretend that they were THE SPICE GIRLS!

 

[HockeyKat]

Nancy, that is awesome.

Oh E, it is definitely TOM week for you. I forgot, I messed w/ my BC and delayed everything a week so that I wouldn't have to deal with it on vacation.

Lyz and Erika... I am so incredibly, totally with you. I feel like my whole life is out of control most of the time. I do the bare minimum (which unfortunately is still too much) at work and skate by. Take right now, for instance. I have a project that was supposed to be done last week and it is not done, and I am about to have to HAVE it done for real (my job is hurry up and wait, which doesn't help my base procrastination level), and yet I am on the DIS...

And since this is rant day...

Also, I am so incredibly, totally SICK of watching what I eat (as I wait for my SF oatmeal, aka PASTE, to cool enough to eat). I wish I could eat like normal people and just moderate intake and exercise, and not have to watch every frakkin calorie in order to squeak off every frakkin pound.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

EriKa and Kat - well - at least we can be in the sinking boat together. You know I'd try to actually get "caught up" but that will NEVER and I mean NEVER happen, so why try. Even if I get remotely ahead of the ball game, there is always something else to do. It's to the point that going on vacation is debatably more trouble than it's worth. Crazy, no?

And Kat - sucks counting every little calorie. Maybe take a trip to Layne Bryant to remind yourself why your sucking down paste.

Nancy - cute little innocent story about spices. Apparently you are the "extra" watcher at your house.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Lyz and Erika... I am so incredibly, totally with you. I feel like my whole life is out of control most of the time. I do the bare minimum (which unfortunately is still too much) at work and skate by. Take right now, for instance. I have a project that was supposed to be done last week and it is not done, and I am about to have to HAVE it done for real (my job is hurry up and wait, which doesn't help my base procrastination level), and yet I am on the DIS...

And since this is rant day...

Also, I am so incredibly, totally SICK of watching what I eat (as I wait for my SF oatmeal, aka PASTE, to cool enough to eat). I wish I could eat like normal people and just moderate intake and exercise, and not have to watch every frakkin calorie in order to squeak off every frakkin pound.

Wowza, Kat. You just took the words right out of my mouth! On BOTH subjects...

Didn't do an "official" workout today because my list of things to do is so stinkin' long. And it's not things that I simply WANT to do, it's stuff I NEED to do. My house, my life - it's all out of control. I rarely get to enjoy "the moment" I'm in, because I'm so frazzled about what's next, and what I need to do to pull it off... I wake up in the morning feeling like I've never slept - my mind never stops churning with all the "to-do's"

SO - in typing this I already feel a bit better, and have now decided how I'm going to approach the rest of this week.

I'm going to write up an actual list of "crap I need to do" -and prioritize, do, cross off, etc...I think I'll feel better at the end of the day because I'll be able to see that I really WAS productive - also, I won't have to rely on myself to REMEMBER everything that needs to be done. If it's written down, I can just let it go from my brain until it hits the top of the list.

Hope it works - I gotta do SOMETHING here...

 

[MaMabearJo]

Yeah, I noticed that! Poor guy. Bad enough that it happened in someone else's family photo...but now it has been digitized so it can last for all eternity!

I am glad you saw it or I was starting to feel stupid for saying anything.

Hey everyone -

I am back from the college hunt...I think we have a winner....

Fort Lewis College....In the Mountains of Durango, CO....

Treyner is now in love with the coach, the place, the people and the coach... did I mention the coach???

I love the coach as well...very matter of fact and very pro-active...
He coached the pro's in Florida and Colorado...college in Texas and Alabama and foreign teams in Brail and Equador. Very well known around the world in soccer. Has it in with most of the pro teams...has successfully coached many to go on....and is a stickler for good athletes lead good lives...

Treyner is leaving for Durango again at the end of July for a camp...and to get the final word...

He is visiting Augsburg here locally on Thursday -being his agent is a full time job! I should get paid!!

As far as work goes... I am speaking on a State level in a few weeks on the 50's and Tupperware's significance...paid speaking engagement so not too shabby....they want me to show up looking like June Cleaver for nostalgic purposes...I will take pics if it ever happens..

I feel lost...being in the bowles of the mountains left me with no cell-phone or e-mail access for most of the past week...

I will also let you guys know...I hired a trainor...he is freakin hot...great smile...very personable...he acts like he has a vested interest in my health...

his name...

Treyner.

That's right...

Treyner...

He needs to gain about 20...I need to lose about 20 plus 100...and he is looking for some part time work...so...he has a job...on top of Tupperware...which he is doing...because he wants money with little hours...and no one wants to hire him with his schedule...


I don't blame them either...

So I have him at $10 an hour for 2 hours a day...he makes me meals...he can have 3 hours...

He and I will be posting pics by the end of the week...we shall see the difference by the end of summer...and his Birthday....I know I have said this before..but he is brutal...and believes in public humiliation...

As far as the trip...

He again wants to know nothing of the trip....thinks it is funny because it is killing me....but...he does know some of you will be there...and he is asking if anyone has single young sisters, cousins or nannies!

I will post pics from our trip....and get caught up....between tonight and tomm....

The good news is I weigh the same...no gain after a week of not having a stove...

Sound like you had a good time and Treyner will be a great coach. Did Dan come back with you guys or end up staying there for work?

Good luck on your speaking conference I would love to see your June Cleaver Look


I am done with painting Now just the little clean up and a few minor fix ups. I think we might make our dead line.

Hanna has her senior pictures today at 11:00 so we have been checking her outfits and getting everything ready. I remember taking my pictures and having 2 changes a dressy and a causual now there are 8 different outfits . She will look wonderful in any.

My girls and I went and saw kung fu panda and loved it. Cute story line to it, and your right the song kinda of sticks in your head....

still no work out need to jump back into it soon

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Nancy, that is awesome.

Oh E, it is definitely TOM week for you. I forgot, I messed w/ my BC and delayed everything a week so that I wouldn't have to deal with it on vacation.

Just watch yourself by messing with the BULL because you can always get the HORNS!!! I did this so I wouldn't have TOM around during surgery and I had TY 9 months LATER!!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Hi guys - I will get caught up...I will...answering some questions....

Jodi - Dan is working in Denver for 2 more weeks yet...then back a few days...then Omaha..then gone for 2 more weeks... Denver and Durango are over 6 hours apart.

Durango from here is forvever away - Drivewise - at least 20 hours..so Treyner will be flying...

They have graphic arts...a great program..college is about 4000 students...small classes like he wants...awesome for a D2 school...

It sits on a plateau all by itself...surrounded by mountains..overlooking the town of Durango. Durango is a good sized town...very upscale cliche like Aspen....cute shops and lot's of tourism.

There is a white water rapids river that goes through the town, mountain biking, and a ski mountains 15 minutes drive to the lifts. Plus...literally right off the plateau...a snowboard hill with a tow rope...that is steeper than what he snowboards on in Minnesota.

I am telling you I will never get him back..but I do not blame him...because I would not want to come back. A friend told me that if kids from the midwest go east...they come home..from the west...never do.

I will be off the computer for the majority of today....work to do and games tonight....

You all are cracking me up about spice goats and tom drama!!!!

 

[believen]

Ok, I have laughed and burst into tears reading this morning. I am usually very Pollyanna-ish, annoys the crap out of my kids, but that's me-usually.
Hear is my rant! Got woke up this morning by fil's dog at 8. I don't do 8. Last night, while cleaning up after said dog, (she pees at the backdoor. Stands there, no barking, scratching, nothing. If you don't see her, tough. And Lord knows she barks at everything else) My FIL calls. He is in Temple, at his sisters. He fell asleep 2 times and ended up in the median on his way there, (most likely overmedicated) Can I please come pick him and his car up.
I leave in an hour. I will be gone at least 4 hours driving . Jake ds19 is going with me, to drive a car. Then I call the bank-figure I should check and see if I have $100 to fill up the car. Nope $53.17! One of those things I have put off, Just a lazyness issue-not cash problem, try to transfer $ from other account. Won't let me. Talk to banker, I'm leaving out a number......and while reading kat's I was eating soupy, crappy, oatmeal.
Reading it sounds way less stressful than it has been! But I just feel like one more thing and I'm done!

I would love to see the June Cleaver look,too.
Much more to comment on, but I will be driving for the next several hours. Have I ever mentioned I hate hate hate to drive????????
Thanks for listening, Vicki

 

[HockeyKat]

Steph, at the time, believe me, it wasn't an issue!

Vicki, I call that being pecked to death by a duck. It isn't any one thing, and all of them are small (like a duck pecking you)... it's just the combination of all of them and you are like ARGHHHH!!! ENOUGH!!

Call the bank? What's that? I do everything online... then again, I basically do online banking for a living...

 

[3DisneyKids]

I amback! It was a great day. We go on this day every year because there are always NO crowds. And I mean zero. Our school district gets out 3-4 days before the rest of the local districts, and before Mass and NH as well. So there are no kids our tourists yet.

Weather--perfect. 70 with a light breeze, mix of sun and clouds. Perfect for park touring. We had 11 kids (well, 10 + an infant...all kids were ages 5-9), 4 moms and 1 dad (4 families total). The kids went on everything that they wanted a minimum of FOUR times each. Just stayed on the rides over and over again. Most of the stuff we don't have to go on with them (not that I mind), so they love being able to go with just each other while we watch. So, a good day. My kids were perfectly well behaved.

The whine twins (you remember them...from the Cape?), on the other hand, sheesh. These kids are SO high maintenance. I will say, though, that since both their moms were there (the two moms are a couple and together they have 3 kids), someone was always able to minimize the whining right away, so that really helped.

We are TIRED and I have yet to workout. I will just do a couple of DVD-based work-outs and a core workout in a little bit. After I have rebounded a bit.

And I am still bloated and way over-eating, so I wish TOM would hurry up and arrive already.

Nancy--spice goats! HI LAR IOUS!

Lyz, Kat, Nancy--so, what should we do to reclaim our lives and stop living in this insanity? My life should slow down on Friday for about two weeks (I have two contracts that are ending and it will be a couple of weeks before the news ones start). I really want to use those 2 weeks wisely and get things caught up around here.

We still need a Baby Spice, btw. Maybe that should be Lyz (youngest) .... and Kat can be Scary Spice...what with her hockey stick at and all! And Liz...you have to decide between Posh and Ginger, but really...I think Posh is you all the way!

Jodi--just a couple more days till you can turn the house over to the realtors! Hang in there!

Vicki--ugh! What a drag! I am so sorry you have to deal with this! Hope your day gets better.

Steph--not, not OOB. Locals don't go there...because it is omigodsogrossandtrashy. We went to FunTown/SplashTown, USA.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

EriKa - sounds like the perfect day. I wondered if the whiners were coming.

Vicki - sounds like a miserable day. I HATE riding/driving too. I just about go bananas. Like, what is up with a "Sunday Drive." You'll not catch me riding to ride.

 

[MaMabearJo]

Hey gals,

Need your input, My sister in-laws mom died last night from a long battle of cancer. They are having the memorial on Sat, here is where I need your input. My husband does not want to go because he does not want to see or talk to his brother, or dad who took brothers side. (it is his brothers wifes mom who died.) What do I do, just let it be, and let him handle what ever comes his way or do I say something. My heart is torn to, because of the anger I have towards them both, but I have know Lori and her mom since I was 16. My youngest can home today and said she is so mad at them for not taking any responsiblitie for what has been going on, and my son said all's he does is think about what the whole family has been doing to get this place in order and how it bugs him all day at work.

Now I see this whole situation has taken a toll on my family and Me being a MAMA who wants to protect her young is not happy they are feeling such emotions on all this.

So I will leave it here and see what you all think.

Be honest thats what I like about you all.

 

[MaMabearJo]

Hi guys - I will get caught up...I will...answering some questions....

Jodi - Dan is working in Denver for 2 more weeks yet...then back a few days...then Omaha..then gone for 2 more weeks... Denver and Durango are over 6 hours apart.

Durango from here is forvever away - Drivewise - at least 20 hours..so Treyner will be flying...

They have graphic arts...a great program..college is about 4000 students...small classes like he wants...awesome for a D2 school...

It sits on a plateau all by itself...surrounded by mountains..overlooking the town of Durango. Durango is a good sized town...very upscale cliche like Aspen....cute shops and lot's of tourism.

There is a white water rapids river that goes through the town, mountain biking, and a ski mountains 15 minutes drive to the lifts. Plus...literally right off the plateau...a snowboard hill with a tow rope...that is steeper than what he snowboards on in Minnesota.

I am telling you I will never get him back..but I do not blame him...because I would not want to come back. A friend told me that if kids from the midwest go east...they come home..from the west...never do.

I will be off the computer for the majority of today....work to do and games tonight....

You all are cracking me up about spice goats and tom drama!!!!

I am so excited and happy for Trey.

Steph, at the time, believe me, it wasn't an issue!

Vicki, I call that being pecked to death by a duck. It isn't any one thing, and all of them are small (like a duck pecking you)... it's just the combination of all of them and you are like ARGHHHH!!! ENOUGH!!

I don't think I would like to die that way seems to anonying all that pecking.

Call the bank? What's that? I do everything online... then again, I basically do online banking for a living...

I amback! It was a great day. We go on this day every year because there are always NO crowds. And I mean zero. Our school district gets out 3-4 days before the rest of the local districts, and before Mass and NH as well. So there are no kids our tourists yet.

Weather--perfect. 70 with a light breeze, mix of sun and clouds. Perfect for park touring. We had 11 kids (well, 10 + an infant...all kids were ages 5-9), 4 moms and 1 dad (4 families total). The kids went on everything that they wanted a minimum of FOUR times each. Just stayed on the rides over and over again. Most of the stuff we don't have to go on with them (not that I mind), so they love being able to go with just each other while we watch. So, a good day. My kids were perfectly well behaved.

The whine twins (you remember them...from the Cape?), on the other hand, sheesh. These kids are SO high maintenance. I will say, though, that since both their moms were there (the two moms are a couple and together they have 3 kids), someone was always able to minimize the whining right away, so that really helped. Ok release the ducks on them.

We are TIRED and I have yet to workout. I will just do a couple of DVD-based work-outs and a core workout in a little bit. After I have rebounded a bit.

And I am still bloated and way over-eating, so I wish TOM would hurry up and arrive already. I am so happy my Tom was taken away years ago.
But I feel for you, really I do.
Nancy--spice goats! HI LAR IOUS!

Lyz, Kat, Nancy--so, what should we do to reclaim our lives and stop living in this insanity? My life should slow down on Friday for about two weeks (I have two contracts that are ending and it will be a couple of weeks before the news ones start). I really want to use those 2 weeks wisely and get things caught up around here.

We still need a Baby Spice, btw. Maybe that should be Lyz (youngest) .... and Kat can be Scary Spice...what with her hockey stick at and all! And Liz...you have to decide between Posh and Ginger, but really...I think Posh is you all the way!

Jodi--just a couple more days till you can turn the house over to the realtors! Hang in there!

Vicki--ugh! What a drag! I am so sorry you have to deal with this! Hope your day gets better.

Steph--not, not OOB. Locals don't go there...because it is omigodsogrossandtrashy. We went to FunTown/SplashTown, USA.

 

[believen]

Jodi, I have no idea. No words of wisdom. Sorry you are going through all of this.
Vicki

 

[3DisneyKids]

Gosh, Jodi--that is a tough one. I guess I would err on the side of kindness and compassion and go as opposed to not go. Here is my thinking on this:

You and SIL have been very close for years. Eventually, this mess will likely blow over (at least between you and her...maybe not as easily for the brothers). And if/when you and SIL reconcile, well, then you wouldn't want a NEW grudge about how you didn't go to her mom's funeral.

The second point here is that you had no issue or problems with the woman who died, right? You have known her since you were 16 and were always friendly with HER. And this service is about HER. So, I say go and at least pay your respects. You don't have to stay long...just long enough to pay your respects. The funeral is not about your BIL or SIL...it is about this kind woman who you have known for most of your life and toward whom you hold no anger.

Finally, as I was saying...when you have a choice between showing kindness and compassion or holding onto anger (even though it is very justified), I say go with kindness and compassion. Does this make sense?

Anyway, that is my two cents here...I would love to hear other points of view on this. This is just off the top of my head...I didn't analyze it from other angles, so maybe someone else has.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Jodi - okay, I am in brutally honest mode today - just ask my husband! So...

I think you have to go. Or rather, do what you and your family would normally do. If that's attend services, do it. If your kids would normally go to the wake, then they go. Your husband's choice is his, but I would encourage him to behave as he would in better circumstances.

Now me, I'd tell Nick he HAD to go, but I don't recommend bullying to other wives!

When you lose someone, there is nothing but good feelings for those who come to the services, and on the other hand, any negative feelings can just be blown up if you guys don't show.

Although they have been awful to you, you can be better than them and be do the right thing. Your kids and husband don't have to talk to them, just show up and be there. Don't give them any amunition against you, and you may even give them comfort. Win-win.