In search of my body...not the one I ate! Part Deux... We sit at the popular table!

[AKASnowWhite]

Hi Everyone...

I wanted to be online with you all last night, but life has gotten in the way. I got some terrible news about one of my cousin's last night and I am trying to deal with that. The poor thing has been fighting off cancer for the past five years and it is back again. I just don't know how much she can take. My mother is telling me this as we are getting dinner ready so what do I do, instead of eating my JC dinner, I ate a cheeseburger, macaroni salad, corn and what seemed like an entire bag of chips with dips.... a little carb fest anyone... WTH was I thinking??? I really wish I could get my emotional eating under control....

On top of that, I get a call this morning from my company telling me that they still haven't found a suitable replacement for me yet for the project I am on and can't wait any longer for the project in Saranac Lake so that opportunity is officially gone... I can't even decide if I am upset, hurt or angry. To be honest, I am just kind of numb. I have a meeting on Monday with my boss to discuss other options, timelines, etc, but the reality of this is that it looks like I am staying put for the foreseeable future. Stephanie - I would still be interested in getting together for lunch sometime. We are not that far away from each other...

Anyways - I am off to bury myself in work so that I can attempt to keep my mind focused on productive things and not just food.

Thanks for listening to my whining everyone...
Goof

So sorry for your crappy night! I completely understand the whole "emotional eating" fiasco. I do that myself. Just the fact that you recognize what you did is a good thing. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off...and move forward.

No, no, Nancy... I worked out THEN drank my dinner!! My mini-stepper is just feet, nothing to hold on to, so drinking first is a BAAAD idea!

Yeah, well...I was wondering just how you were able to pull that off... I could see me now, back in PT, explaining to the therapist just how I was injured THIS time...

And speaking of being "at risk for getting injured"...can I just tell you that I am the picture of gracefullness? Really. Look it up in the dictionary - and there you will find - ME. So..this is what happened to me on my bike ride today.


Everyone TOLD me I would fall. They all said when I least expect it, I'll go down. I'll pull up to a stop sign, forget I'm clipped in and before I know it, I'll be on the ground.

Fine, I thought. If it HAS to happen, at least let it happen where I fall on the grass and no one is there to see me.

NOPE. Not at all how it happened.

DH and I went out for a ride this morning - all was well. I was doing GREAT getting "re-clipped" after stops. Were nearing the end of our hour-long ride, and have to stop for traffic at a rather nasty intersection. It's busy. REALLY busy. We pull up, I unclip (yes, unclip), stop and wait for all those cars to go by (yes, stop. and stand) Traffic coming in BOTH directions (and as an added bonus, a car approaching us from behind). I decide to grab a drink of water while I wait to cross. I was still clipped in on my left foot, standing on my right. I leaned over with my left hand for my water bottle. FATAL ERROR. As I reached with my left hand, my body weight shifted - and my left foot was clipped in....so...down I went going "NO, NO, NO!!!". From a dead-stop, stand-still. I FELL. In front of 1/2 dozen of so cars. DH was laughing at me (ok, I was laughing at me too...) what a dope! Scraped my knee...not bad, but still a little war wound.

So very special.

now I have to shower and go to work...have a GREAT day....

 

[goofyfan-12]

And speaking of being "at risk for getting injured"...can I just tell you that I am the picture of gracefullness? Really. Look it up in the dictionary - and there you will find - ME. So..this is what happened to me on my bike ride today.


Everyone TOLD me I would fall. They all said when I least expect it, I'll go down. I'll pull up to a stop sign, forget I'm clipped in and before I know it, I'll be on the ground.

Fine, I thought. If it HAS to happen, at least let it happen where I fall on the grass and no one is there to see me.

NOPE. Not at all how it happened.

DH and I went out for a ride this morning - all was well. I was doing GREAT getting "re-clipped" after stops. Were nearing the end of our hour-long ride, and have to stop for traffic at a rather nasty intersection. It's busy. REALLY busy. We pull up, I unclip (yes, unclip), stop and wait for all those cars to go by (yes, stop. and stand) Traffic coming in BOTH directions (and as an added bonus, a car approaching us from behind). I decide to grab a drink of water while I wait to cross. I was still clipped in on my left foot, standing on my right. I leaned over with my left hand for my water bottle. FATAL ERROR. As I reached with my left hand, my body weight shifted - and my left foot was clipped in....so...down I went going "NO, NO, NO!!!". From a dead-stop, stand-still. I FELL. In front of 1/2 dozen of so cars. DH was laughing at me (ok, I was laughing at me too...) what a dope! Scraped my knee...not bad, but still a little war wound.

So very special.

now I have to shower and go to work...have a GREAT day....

Don't worry about it... that is something I so would have done... Why waste time falling while riding??? Falling when at a dead stop is the more creative way to do it....

Glad you are all right...
Paula

 

[HockeyKat]

Okay, for the non-bike riders... what does clipping mean??

Sorry for your fall. I only seem to fall when NOT doing something that might merit it... like, I can stay up fine on skates, rollerblades, etc, but I trip over the sidewalk.


It smells like smoke here today. The wildfires from Eastern NC seem to be blowing all their smoke in this direction.

 

[3DisneyKids]

D.
Last night I had every intention of coming home and plopping my self in front of the computer but I had a strong urge to fold the laundry that I had put in the dryer before I left work because we know no one else will do it and for some reason it won't fold it's self !
Well off to do another load of laundry

Laundry? What is this laundry thing? My clothes just magically reappear clean and folded....(DH does all the laundry here... )

Hi Everyone...

I wanted to be online with you all last night, but life has gotten in the way.

We will listen to you whine any time you need to. That is what we are for! Sorry to hear all of your news...cousin and the job thing. Another opportunity will come along at work. I am sure of it. You are such a superstar there...hang in there!

As for the food fest....Nancy is right...pick yourself up and dust off...today is a new day. One meal is not going to make or break you. Stay OP for the rest of the week...take it one meal at a time.

Quick question...I know that you are super close with your family...but how are they with the whole JC thing? Are they supportive? Or do they think you should be doing something else? or nothing at all cause they love you how you are? Just wondering about the support system.

Keep going, Paula! You have come SO far. You don't want to back there! Let us know if we can help in any way.

No, no, Nancy... I worked out THEN drank my dinner!! My mini-stepper is just feet, nothing to hold on to, so drinking first is a BAAAD idea!

I am feeling a little off this morning, but that will fade. And, I was 165.4, so that is good... hoping for a good number tomorrow.

WOO HOO, Kat! That Disney weight just melted off! Awesome! OMG, you are going to be in the 150s so soon!

And speaking of being "at risk for getting injured"...can I just tell you that I am the picture of gracefullness? Really. Look it up in the dictionary - and there you will find - ME. So..this is what happened to me on my bike ride today.

So very special.

now I have to shower and go to work...have a GREAT day....[/COLOR]

That would totally have been me as well. I am a HUGE klutz (graceful is so not a word to describe me! ) And I am sure that when I graduate to clip shoes I am going to be an absolute menace to those around me.

Glad the only thing bruised is your ego....could have been worse, right? Just like you told Paula...dust yourself off....

As for me...

I did a 7-mile run today, so I am happy about that. I was supposed to do another half mile, but I can live with not doing that last part. 7 miles is still a victory for me. I ran the beach route which always puts me in a good mood. Same weather as Nancy....just a stunningly gorgeous day. Brilliant sun, mid-70s, zero humidity, and light breeze. Just doesn't get better than days like today. Days like this are the reason Maine is called Vacationland.

I woke up this morning feeling thinner. You know those days? You are like, "Wow...there is less of a roll here today!" So I figured I would jump on the scale...see what was up. And guess what??? No change. Still nothing on the damn scale. So I tried on some jeans that were too tight a couple of weeks ago, and now they fit really well and are even a bit loose in the waist. I'll take it.

I got to thinking about something Lyz said the other day about maybe the scale was wrong (like hers was). Hmmmm...could it be? All this time? My scale is something like 15 years old. So I think I will buy a new one just so I can have some accuracy.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Okay, for the non-bike riders... what does clipping mean??

Sorry for your fall. I only seem to fall when NOT doing something that might merit it... like, I can stay up fine on skates, rollerblades, etc, but I trip over the sidewalk.

Nancy just bought a road bike. These are specialty bikes that have really skinny tires and are made for bike races, triathalons, etc. Anyway, they don't have "real" pedals. They have these tiny little squares about 2.5" x 2.5" with little prongs that stick up. Then you buy special shoes that have little holes in the bottom where the little prongs clip in. Thus, when racing, your feet can't slip off the pedals. As Nancy said, it takes getting used to....(and you thought you learned how to ride a bike when you were 5.... )

 

[HockeyKat]

AH!! Thanks for the info. I am such an exercise novice... all my experience is either gym-based or hockey. I can wax poetic on hockey gear, though! The strategic use of hockey tape to keep on shin pads that are really meant for men....

Thanks for the kind words about the weight. I am sure that most of it was just bloat/water. And I likely melted it off in not the most healthy manner. I am such a type A that I can tend to get a bit too... limiting, I guess, and that isn't always good.

I agree on the scale. Get a digital one. Mine does body fat too but I don't trust it... it is quite a bit higher than the wellness nurse tells me from her calipers.

And woo-hoo on the run!!

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Laundry? What is this laundry thing? My clothes just magically reappear clean and folded....(DH does all the laundry here... )

AREN'T YOU THE LUCKY GIRL!!!!!! NO,Dh does his own laundry! I do the kids and mine. The reason he doesn't do it all is because I had a nice sweater that was about $70.00 outlet price and he washed it with TOWELS! It was ruined. Then he tends to put DD shirts in the dryer and her shirts are short enough and we don't need to shrink them anymore! So I have banned him form doing anyones laundry except for his and towels.

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

So I just got some encouraging news. AS I told you we are going back to Disney next September and my brother is coming along with us. We are also trying to get my step mom to go too. Well, I got the bright idea to see if my dad and his girlfriend will go too. I figured that if I talked her kids into going that I would have a better chance in getting them to come. But her DD is going in Jan and doesn't think they could swing two trips in one year. So I took the off chance and called my dad and invited them. I told them that I had emailed GF daughter and they couldn't go but I really would like them to think it over and come with us! ( Yes I know it would be my DM my DSM and D dad and his GF) Well he asked about the price and I quoted Disney while on the phone with him and he thought it sounded reasonable and was going to talk it over with GF! I hope they go It will be a grand gathering~~ Steph's Magical Family Gathering! magical being that they all get along for 8 days

 

[goofyfan-12]

Laundry? What is this laundry thing? My clothes just magically reappear clean and folded....(DH does all the laundry here... )


Can I rent him out for mine??? I'm sure the commute won't be that bad....

We will listen to you whine any time you need to. That is what we are for! Sorry to hear all of your news...cousin and the job thing. Another opportunity will come along at work. I am sure of it. You are such a superstar there...hang in there!

As for the food fest....Nancy is right...pick yourself up and dust off...today is a new day. One meal is not going to make or break you. Stay OP for the rest of the week...take it one meal at a time.

Quick question...I know that you are super close with your family...but how are they with the whole JC thing? Are they supportive? Or do they think you should be doing something else? or nothing at all cause they love you how you are? Just wondering about the support system.

Keep going, Paula! You have come SO far. You don't want to back there! Let us know if we can help in any way.

Thankfully, my family has been ultra supportive of my JC efforts. If I had gone to Saranac Lake, I would have been counting on them to pick up food and ship it to me which my mother had volunteered to do since there is no JC center in the Adirondacks. They all want me to be happy and healthy and know that this is something that I want to do. Its funny because my mom recognized that something had clicked when I started it and my attitude towards food changed. Now I need to work on the subtle things (like emotional eating), but at least I have not put any of the weight I lost back on. I have only been floating back and forth on the same five pounds so I take that as a huge step.

I had read an article online where it said to focus on losing weight in six month intervals and maintaining for six months. They said that if you can maintain the loss for six months, your chances of keeping it off long term skyrocket. It was an interesting concept I thought, but I still would like to lose more weight before I officially stop and enter maintenance. Maybe my body is just trying to get used to the recent changes and needs time before the scale begins to move again. Either way, I am not giving up because I refuse to let the scale go back to where it was.

As for me...

I did a 7-mile run today, so I am happy about that. I was supposed to do another half mile, but I can live with not doing that last part. 7 miles is still a victory for me. I ran the beach route which always puts me in a good mood. Same weather as Nancy....just a stunningly gorgeous day. Brilliant sun, mid-70s, zero humidity, and light breeze. Just doesn't get better than days like today. Days like this are the reason Maine is called Vacationland.

I woke up this morning feeling thinner. You know those days? You are like, "Wow...there is less of a roll here today!" So I figured I would jump on the scale...see what was up. And guess what??? No change. Still nothing on the damn scale. So I tried on some jeans that were too tight a couple of weeks ago, and now they fit really well and are even a bit loose in the waist. I'll take it.

I got to thinking about something Lyz said the other day about maybe the scale was wrong (like hers was). Hmmmm...could it be? All this time? My scale is something like 15 years old. So I think I will buy a new one just so I can have some accuracy.
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I agree with Lyz - time to try and different scale. Perhaps the one you have has lost its calibration...

So I just got some encouraging news. AS I told you we are going back to Disney next September and my brother is coming along with us. We are also trying to get my step mom to go too. Well, I got the bright idea to see if my dad and his girlfriend will go too. I figured that if I talked her kids into going that I would have a better chance in getting them to come. But her DD is going in Jan and doesn't think they could swing two trips in one year. So I took the off chance and called my dad and invited them. I told them that I had emailed GF daughter and they couldn't go but I really would like them to think it over and come with us! ( Yes I know it would be my DM my DSM and D dad and his GF) Well he asked about the price and I quoted Disney while on the phone with him and he thought it sounded reasonable and was going to talk it over with GF! I hope they go It will be a grand gathering~~ Steph's Magical Family Gathering! magical being that they all get along for 8 days

Congrats on the news... I'm keeping my fingers crossed for Steph's Magical Family Gathering.... I can picture the trip report now...

Have a great afternoon everyone...
Paula

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I got to thinking about something Lyz said the other day about maybe the scale was wrong (like hers was). Hmmmm...could it be? All this time? My scale is something like 15 years old. So I think I will buy a new one just so I can have some accuracy.

EriKa, OMG. Wouldn't that just knock you out! Let us know ASAP!

Busy day. Gotta get payroll done and tball this evening..

Nancy - falling story, HI LAR IOUS! Of course you fell at a dead stop in the busiest intersection. The stars were aligned. At least you got that over with.

And that so sucks about the brats vandalizing your equipment. I get mad just thinking about it. I can imagine how you feel. And the police are not much help. We have a mail box build like Fort Knox, because before that, it seemed to be a destination smashing. Hubby put a big piece of pvc pipe in side for our mail and filled it with concrete all the way around. We were so excited for some kid to break their arm trying to bash it in. (and I'm sure we'd have been in trouble, but SO worth it. (ahem, razor wire)) but alas, no one has even tried.

Paula, man did you get hit with the news last night. I fully appreciate the emotional eating and the helplessness you feel. Sorry about all that.

Last night I was watching Real World Hollywood. Not sure why, I don't know anything about the show, but there was a guy on there who was an alcoholic and drug addict. Anyway, he was reading a "goodbye letter to drugs and alcohol" and it really was neat. This must be part of a 12 step process. His words were something to the effect "I believed in you, (drugs & alcohol) and all the promises you offered. Ruined relationships, job opportunies and just about everything worth anything because of all you had to offer." And I do this with food. It's a safe haven for me. It never lets me down. It always feels the void I need it to. Except for, it doesn't. And not only that, it's now made me and overweight, middelaged person hell bend on misery. Just appreciated the message. KWIM?

Ok. All for now. I'm gonna have to go back, you guys have been busy today, I LOVE IT.

See you later.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hi all--having a bad night. Will not eat through it. Will talk about it later...maybe in IM. Not sure. Busy night. :frown:

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi all--having a bad night. Will not eat through it. Will talk about it later...maybe in IM. Not sure. Busy night. :frown:

I know how you feel.... hang in there... things will get better...
Goof

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Paula -

Erika aka P -

Hi to all my friends!

Online tonight...working...but come chat.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Erika aka P -

Liz aka funny!

EriKa - sorry bout bad night. Thinking of you.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Just had a killer work-out and that brought my spirits up. That and venting to Liz and Kat last night! Thanks!

DH is working from home today as he gets ready to leave at 4am...so I am bsuy helping him pack, etc.

I will pop back in later this afternoon.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hi guys. It's Friday. Where's everyone at? Any good stories to tell? Exercise miracles? Food temptations? Idiot coworkers? Children funnies?

Let's see, do you want to hear about the time I met Jeff Gordon or the time I frantically woke my husband in WDW?

I'll tell you that one. (And you all know Mr. DWD. He ain't no bag full of amusment.)

"OK, it was not funny at the time...but now I laugh and laugh when I think of it! (I originally posted this in the now locked "Have You Ever Had A Shock" thread, in 2005.)


"I totally forgot about this...

My husband got a shock.

This January, we went to the "World" without our children.

Our last night, of course he went to bed as soon as we got back to the room and I packed everything we wouldn't need at 5:45 am. I must have finally crawled into bed at midnight.

I woke up and looked at the clock and it reads 6:30. 6:30am!!!!

I literally jump out of bed and start hissing "get up, I didn't hear the alarm clock. We're late!"

We have to be at the airport, like NOW.

I am sucking down toothpaste and just thinking of how the CMs at the WL front desk are going to see a whirlwind of me, sprinting through the automatic doors. (Can anyone say "express checkout.")

So we are fully dressed, throwing suitcases on our shoulders, jogging to the door and I glance at the TV.

2:10am.

DH is NOT happy.

Thank goodness for that TV, can you imagine if we had made it all the way to the car then realized the time!

We got 3 more hours of sleep (in different beds) and made it to the airport on time."

 

[HockeyKat]

Hmm... I had one too many mich ultra ambers on Wed night and during a dream, ate one of my wax earplugs that I had in my hand (fell asleep before putting them in my ears). Vaguely remember waking up, spitting it out, and rinsing my mouth out, and thought ALL of it was a dream until the next morning when the remains were on my nightstand. Erika found it quite amusing, last night.

I am barely staying awake today... had to work from 2:30-3:30AM and I am really tired. They are going to make us leave at 5:30 (going to jackhammer the 5th floor), so that at least will get me out of here early.

I am considering a cheat night tonight but I shouldn't.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Kat, I find this highly amusing too! And a little bit gross.

 

[HockeyKat]

Yeah, I was a bit grossed out too.

Yay for the new laptop!! How are you liking it??

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

So far so good. Still uploading my 30 day trial of Norton, so haven't done much yet.

But...the screen is so clear. The color is BRIGHT! A whole new world.