In search of my body...not the one I ate! Part Deux... We sit at the popular table!

[DISNEY4XMAS]

I am here and reading...and you guys are totally making me laugh when I really need to! Thanks for that! Liz can fill you in (or I will later)...but I am in DMV hell...and I am sure you can imagine how horrible that is.

All morning I have been waiting for my insurance company to fax some form to the state. Finally, I called them and asked why they hadn't sent it yet (I had been calling the woman at the State every 15 minutes asking "is it there yet?") and my insurance guy says..."We have it all ready to fax...we want to fax it...but we can't fax this form until the State faxes us a form requesting this form." I can't make this stuff up. I am about to literally explode!

Erika I hope all goes well. Tell state to fax and tell insurance company to fax all at one LOL maybe they won't get their wires crossed

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Nancy, it would seem to me, maybe YOU should be driving the tractor. BUT, there's alot to be said for the good exhaust you get after a day spent, well, working hard. KWIM?


DMV is that for Department of Motor Vechicles? Liz, fill us in. Did she have an accident?

And that's ridiculous. RED TAPE eats me up!

I am currently driving with tags that don't belong to my new vechicle. Haven't gotten the "offical tag" from the dealer yet and I hate riding with 30 day tags. SO, I ripped those puppies off and put on "MY" plates. The odds of me getting pulled over are SLIM to none and I figure, oh, I'll maybe get fined. Screw you, OHIO DMV.

Well, ask me if my butt wasn't puckering at 1am, Sunday night, as I was heading home from the office. Cause we all know, Memorial Day Weekend, is "high season" for pulling someone over. And who exactly is out at 1am? Only drunks and, well, drunks. I was never so glad to get out of city limits.

Dh and drove home from Ma with Vt plates on a car that wasn't reg or insured and we lived in NY. In Vt you can put plates on a car and you have thirty days to register it. So took old plates and slapped those puppies on it and drove home , really slow!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Paula--I am with Dawn on this. If someone is not interested in you heavy, then he is not worth much.

I think it might be a good idea, though, to ditch the online thing for a while. I have always found that it is when you STOP looking for someone that you actually FIND someone. So just chill, relax, and live your life and keep your eyes open...you might be surprised by someone that has been there all along....

 

[3DisneyKids]

OMG LIZ! I can't believe that great loss! Amazing! And I had an incident with my greenie as well.

I was complaining about my lack of loss regardless of exercise and she just said, "well, this is where you are meant to be...your body won't let you lose any more weight. This is it. It is not like you are ever going to get to your pre-kid weight." I was like, "thanks for the encouragement, green face!"

And I am not even trying to get to that weight. Just get rid of the SBF that is still there! And NO! SBF is never "supposed" to be there!

 

[3DisneyKids]

I am sitting here posting as I try and wait out the 15 minutes...cause I know they are sick of me calling! I am really going to try and last a few more....

 

[3DisneyKids]

I caved...called....not there! BOO!

And LYZ!!! DMV!!! Omg, now I am never going to go there again without thinking of that!

 

[3DisneyKids]

P.S. Lyz--5 Days and counting!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I would like to hear exactly what transpired to make you an outlaw.

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Paula I agree with Dawn and everyone else. I was really, well not really heavy in high school but I was bigger than most girls and I didn't have one boyfriend. I moved here and I was slapping away with sticks. My Dh always tells me it doesn't matter what I look like because he loves me for the inside. Sometimes I get mad at that but he does love me for me!
Take it slow look around I have just heard such bad things about online dating. Maybe you'll find the love of your life when you move like I did!

Erika you'd think that they would get this squared away so that they don't hear from you again Keep calling Keep BUGING them they will get it don fast

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Uno, Dos, Tres, Quatro, Cinco, Cinco, Seis.

What did you ever do about your bathroom color?

KAT - calling on Kat. Where are you? Wilson?

 

[3DisneyKids]

Oh there is some good news...yes, I have a bathroom color. It is Ben Moore Audubon Russet. I love it. It is a burnt orangey-brown. Looks perfect. Jeff hates it. Too bad.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

=highway potato (or potatoe if your a Republican)

 

[goofyfan-12]

Thanks to everyone for all of the words of support... they really do help...

Dawn - I did read your post and will continue to read it as so much of it is true. Thanks friend...

OK - I am about to go on a little rant here, but it is what is in my head at the moment... feel free to skip if you are not interested...

Here's the thing... Believe it or not, what I am most upset about is not really my body. I have never felt more confident about myself and my body than I have in the last six months. I mean - I lost 40 freaking pounds and I feel great!!!! You all know how hard it is to do that, so I won't preach to the choir, but how can that kind of accomplishment not boost your confidence? I also know that I am an incredible woman who has so much to offer the world in general. I have a strong belief in things like family, community, integrity, but because I am not a size six bimbo with a big rack, I can't get any guy to give me the time of day.

I know that I am not looking to build a relationship with a man based solely on outward appearances because that is not who I am or what I am interested in. Hands down the mind is the single most sexyiest attribute a man can offer so why would I sacrifice that for washboard abs that will fade in time as the body's metabolism slows? What frustrates me the most and who I am angry with the most is the media (magazines, music, entertainment, fashion, etc) who have brainwashed society in general to believe that if you don't fit the model that the Anna Wintour's of the world feel are beautiful then you are deemed unattractive and become a leper in society. Who the he!! made them the chief judge of what is good and what is not? I mean looking at any of the movies, TV shows, magazines, etc - can anyone truly live the way the media likes to represent society. I don't think so... Society has almost been trained to believe that unless we can match what the media holds as the ideal, we cannot hope to have a mate, live a happy life or be one of the cool people. When did fashion, appearance and status take control from integrity, family, honesty, etc as the defining aspects of our lives. When did society become so shallow? I am a cool person dangit (really wanted to say something else there, but I'll hold back) why can't the rest of the world recognize that coolness comes in all shapes and sizes?

Dating in general is cruel enough, but in some ways I think that online dating may be even crueler. Online dating gives you hope that something may happen, but more often it doesn't and you are left to sit and wonder what happened... In my case, I see a pattern... all communication stops after a potential match has seen me (both in person or in photos). What else am I supposed to think? Despite how I feel about my body, there is not a whole heck of a lot I can do to make someone else share those thoughts. So - I'll go back to my status quo of doing my thing while hoping / waiting that someone will come along and like what they are looking at. It has worked for me since - well forever, so it will continue to work for me in the future. I hope you'll forgive me if I think the system sucks and keep looking ways to better my odds and give fate a hand...

In the meantime, I'll being healthier, walking more, working hard, volunteering for causes I care about and working on my short game in golf... Those things, along with spending time with my family and friends, make me happy
and life is frankly to short to be anything but unhappy...

OK - rant over...

Erika - did you make any progress with DMV????

Paula

 

[3DisneyKids]

I am now officially getting the run-around.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

What frustrates me the most and who I am angry with the most is the media (magazines, music, entertainment, fashion, etc) who have brainwashed society in general to believe that if you don't fit the model that the Anna Wintour's of the world feel are beautiful then you are deemed unattractive and become a leper in society. Who the he!! made them the chief judge of what is good and what is not? I mean looking at any of the movies, TV shows, magazines, etc - can anyone truly live the way the media likes to represent society. I don't think so... Society has almost been trained to believe that unless we can match what the media holds as the ideal, we cannot hope to have a mate, live a happy life or be one of the cool people. When did fashion, appearance and status take control from integrity, family, honesty, etc as the defining aspects of our lives. When did society become so shallow? I am a cool person dangit (really wanted to say something else there, but I'll hold back) why can't the rest of the world recognize that coolness comes in all shapes and sizes?

Goof - You are dead on right. It's really too bad.

Dating in general is cruel enough, but in some ways I think that online dating may be even crueler. Online dating gives you hope that something may happen, but more often it doesn't and you are left to sit and wonder what happened... In my case, I see a pattern... all communication stops after a potential match has seen me (both in person or in photos). What else am I supposed to think? Despite how I feel about my body, there is not a whole heck of a lot I can do to make someone else share those thoughts. So - I'll go back to my status quo of doing my thing while hoping / waiting that someone will come along and like what they are looking at. It has worked for me since - well forever, so it will continue to work for me in the future. I hope you'll forgive me if I think the system sucks and keep looking ways to better my odds and give fate a hand...

In the meantime, I'll being healthier, walking more, working hard, volunteering for causes I care about and working on my short game in golf... Those things, along with spending time with my family and friends, make me happy
and life is frankly to short to be anything but unhappy...

Obviously my post was WAY off base. It's not respect for yourself. You diservedly have that in spades.

I don't have anything to offer, but to agree with you, a bunch of retorical questions that can't be answered, and crappy meaningless catch phrases. So...

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Paula - loved your rant.

The irony is, Anna Wintour is unattractive and insane, but somehow her kind controls the idea of beauty in this country. Bizarre. With the exception of Diana Vreeland, let me lump all fashion editors in there, too.

Anyway, I personally think any man who rejects you based on your looks is certifiable, because you are attractive...and have great taste in shoes...and of course are intelligent, and caring, and loving, and cool!

But that's just my opinion!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Paula - loved your rant.

The irony is, Anna Wintour is unattractive and insane, but somehow her kind controls the idea of beauty in this country. Bizarre. With the exception of Diana Vreeland, let me lump all fashion editors in there, too.

Anyway, I personally think any man who rejects you based on your looks is certifiable, because you are attractive...and have great taste in shoes...and of course are intelligent, and caring, and loving, and cool!

But that's just my opinion!

Love you for saying that....
Thanks...

BTW - who is Diana Vreeland... I'm intrigued...

 

[3DisneyKids]

Good news--the fax was finally received by the state!
Bad news - they put tomorrow's date on it! And I need to drive TODAY.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Paula I agree with Dawn and everyone else. I was really, well not really heavy in high school but I was bigger than most girls and I didn't have one boyfriend. I moved here and I was slapping away with sticks. My Dh always tells me it doesn't matter what I look like because he loves me for the inside. Sometimes I get mad at that but he does love me for me!
Take it slow look around I have just heard such bad things about online dating. Maybe you'll find the love of your life when you move like I did!

Erika you'd think that they would get this squared away so that they don't hear from you again Keep calling Keep BUGING them they will get it don fast

Stephanie - you are not the first one of my friends who are convinced that I am going to fall in love and marry either a lumberjack (remember I live with city folks who think that everyone in the north country is a lumberjack) or a medical researcher on the campus where my new project is. Here's hoping right???

Goof

 

[3DisneyKids]

I am officially grounded until tomorrow. No way to change the date. What a day.