For those of you who don't know me, there is a bit more to this.
Of course I didn't lose 75lbs by literally sitting on my bum. I have been doing this for 11 months. Of course I move more than I did a year ago. Simple things, like parking farther away. Less simple, like dedicated exercise. Two days a week I do an intense workout - step or spin - and follow it with either an hour long weight class or Pilates. On the weekends I exercise one day - either running/walking or a spin class. I stretch after every workout; I think stretching is key. From April until August, I also ran or did a class on Tuesdays and Thursdays, but now, with my work and Emily's school, I find myself either dashing off on those days or just needed a breather, and neither situation is good for gym going.
I worked up to all this, walking on my treadmill at home. I own a Pilates ball, a Pilates video by the woman who trained my girlfriend and former Pilates teacher, and a few mom/kid yoga videos. I do not own weights, nor do I plan to buy them or any other equipment. I just don't have the space for equipment, and as for weights, I'd frankly rather get a new lip gloss.
Talking about my exercise doesn't jazz me; talking about shoes, well, that does. We don't have sidewalks here; I'm not going to turn into this happy smiling mom with her kid and their bikes. I adore the image, but that's not me. I'm not motivated, I don't get up and think, yeah! I am plenty motivated by lots of other things - work, writing, friends, movies, etc etc.
I am who I am. I do not go to the gym after 10am - doesn't fit my life. I am in the house by 5pm, making dinner like a 50's housewife, or barring that, making reservations. I am never going to be Kat or Erika or Nancy or Lyz or Lisa or even Paula - I give you so much credit, girl.
I'm not an exercise loser - I ran a 5k - but I am not a reacher. I have a Trek bike but I'm not going to ride it until I get to a better place - because why would I expose myself to the elements like that?

I have makeup on!
I believe very much that exercise is key for maintaining weight and being healthy. I also believe food is key to losing weight. While Erika and I are two peas in a pod in many ways, she is the exerciser and I am the tracker. She can kick my a$$ but if it was just about exercise, she wouldn't have an a$$ left to sit on.
This is a rant, although I prefer manifesto, and I am well aware of that. The truth is, I felt like I wasn't telling the whole story and that felt, in light of offline conversations, a bit disingenuous. I have struggled this month. I've felt lost in my exercise, lost in my tracking, lost on this journey. I think the 5k was a goal, and now it's gone, so training is over. That leaves a hole. Also vacation is over, so food must be back on course. Easier said than done.
I've felt like maybe this wasn't important enough to ask for support on. And truth be told, I know a lot of stuff, right? But when I have reached out informally, those of you who heard me responded in lovely ways.
Anyway, that's where I am. If this thread is about support in our journeys, I felt like this should be out there.
I still feel a bit lost, but I am hopeful. And I am taking all your suggestions to heart. Right now, I have seven lbs I am struggling with, two days that need exercise, and some emotions I don't want to feel but have to. That's me, for real, right now.