In Search of my Body...Not The One I ate...#3 "Crowning Goddesses As We Go"

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I can't take the cold and it's only 57` here. Not sure if I will make the winter..... -15 is going to be like a death sentence for me this winter I don't have my extra thermal layers.. WHY DID I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!

Steph, I was the same way when I lost weight. I'd get the chill, deep in my bones and couldn't shake it. (Course I fixed that by gaining 40 lbs, but I don't recommend that. I'd rather be chilly.)

Erika it's getting to the time of year in FL where we can totally call our families and brag about how gorgeous the weather is down here. I LOVE it!

Oh you're one of those people.

so that is 3 lbs down from Friday weigh-in. I guess that counts as part of the challenge...

Go Kat!

I love my sweaters and can't wear them when it is hot out...

Me too Paula.

My @ss is sore - i walk like I am 300 years old...and am up to 259 - although I m assured it will drop off..

I want to ve beck to 245# by the 15th and healthy.

Hang in there Dawn.

We have cable in every room as well - including the master bathroom (not kidding). we don't necessarily USE it - but it's there, just in case!

"Just in case" what? Hmmm?

So ....Any idea how to handle someone who throws a temper tantrum when they don't get their way?

Dan, no different advice. Just stay the course. Things don't always right themselves and life isn't fair, but if you are honest, available and consistant, it will count for something.

Kat: I have been reading and you are having some life challenges...I just want to say violence is a way to solve some problems....Listen to the voices they are usually right.

See, I miss this funny.

Goofy: Ok put down the ketchup and step away from the onion rings!!! Repeat after me: I am a beautiful person. I am a stupendous Architect(sp?) and gosh darn it if anyone (including my sister) tics me off the building(house) will fall on them....

Stuart - LOVE IT!

To all others, It is not that I don't care but rather I am tired from working and now must return to my tv to watch BL...Love ya really I do.

Regarding BIGGEST LOSER, I only watched in snippets last night. I still can't get over weigh in. Some of these women weigh exactly what I do. I don't look like that. They must provide biking shorts 2 sizes 2 small and lift all the belly fat they have and lay it over the shorts!

This is what we do in our family...all of us...adults and kids.

1. Sweet to think of J, preping for dinner q&a.

2. I am going to start doing this.

3. I so know this isn't true. And you'll be annoyed with me for saying so. But sometimes your life seems like a story book.

It's got so many good points. Your smart, beautiful and healthy. Very independent. A husband who helps, a ton. (I know that is qualified by the fact that he's OCD, but who gives a crap. He's freaking doing the dishes.) J is a good man. Your kiddo's are smart and beautiful. Got your bohemian parents right in your little pocket. You ARE the llbean catalog. You got it babe. I know, that what you have was hard fought. And I know it's far from perfect. (Farther than I can fathom.) But sometimes it looks that way.

We eat dinner together every night too. But the tv is on. Am I the only one? (turning it off isn't an option. trust me on that.)

Morning everyone!

I totally remember wearing shorts when it was 55 degrees when I was in high school in VT.

Yes, my daughter is wearing flip flops and it's COLD here in the morning.

Hope your mood gets better...

Sorry I have been MIA... yesterday I had the day off work so I spent it cleaning, eating and shopping... Bad combo! But on the plus side I'm down to a size 18 in pants!!!! I haven't been an 18 since I started college in 2002 and even then I think they were a bit tight and I was pushing into 20s... Also got the shirts for DL!!! only 30 more days!!! Hope everyone has a good day!

Sarah

Sarah, that is AWESOME about 18's! TOTALLY!

Okay, here is a picture from this weekend. I am the 2nd from left, on the top row:

Kat! How neat is that. Love the pic. And love that you are on a hockey team. (And you didn't need to tell me where you were! Crazy girl.) Ok, point out the superstar on the team.

Steph - how goes the house closing?

 

[3DisneyKids]

1. Sweet to think of J, preping for dinner q&a.

2. I am going to start doing this.

3. I so know this isn't true. And you'll be annoyed with me for saying so. But sometimes your life seems like a story book.

It's got so many good points. Your smart, beautiful and healthy. Very independent. A husband who helps, a ton. (I know that is qualified by the fact that he's OCD, but who gives a crap. He's freaking doing the dishes.) J is a good man. Your kiddo's are smart and beautiful. Got your bohemian parents right in your little pocket. You ARE the llbean catalog. You got it babe. I know, that what you have was hard fought. And I know it's far from perfect. (Farther than I can fathom.) But sometimes it looks that way.

I SO needed that today. Thank you. And no, my life isn't a storybook, but the reality is that it is really good. I have very few clouds on my horizon, and in the grand scheme of things, things are wonderful.

But sometimes I just can't see the big picture, you know?

For the past couple of days or more I have been in a funk of epic proportions. Just can't get out of it. It is food and parenting and work and just everything. Today was a half day of school for the kids. So they are home now. And watching tv. In the middle of the freaking afternoon! And I just can't get out of my own way enough to change direction.

My Disney trip is in 4 weeks. I still only have half of my ADRs...and again, I can't even manage to sit down and plan the trip and make the reservations. WTH is that about? I mean, I love planning trips. But I just can't muster up the energy to do it. And I feel like that with everything right now, thus the tv in the middle of the day for the kids.

So anyway, thanks for your sweetness b/c I really needed it today.

Everyone else--I am not ignoring you. I will respond to everyone. I am just a bit self-absorbed at the moment and am treading in murky waters.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

EriKa - I'm sorry you are in a funk. That just happens sometimes. I recommend a bag of Ghiradeli chocolate with caramel. But that's just me.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Army of Women

I saw this information on the Today show, today. The above link is to a website regarding breast cancer research. It is looking for women, specifically women who *DON'T* have breast cancer.

The idea being to track and gather information on women who are healthy so eventually a cure will be found. I guess up to this point, the focus has been on "treating" breast cancer and not necessarly preventing it. Much work has to be done, and the Doctor (Dr. Susan Love) spearheading this army/project found out that scientist's were dumbfounded as to how they were going to find willing women.

This is the call to arms.

If you register to participate, there will be ongoing studies, and they will email you and you can decide which or even if you want to be part of a study. Some may only need questionaires completed. Others may include urine samples, or even a trip to a lab for blood work.

The website explains it all. I signed up and am encouraging you to.

 

[MunkyMe13]

I'm Here. I'm Here.

I have alot to read, but I saw my summons, so here is my excuse.

Yesterday. I posted. I think. I had a meeting in the morning with my insurance agent (so he could tell me what ELSE I needed.)

Afternoon, I went to another town with my sister for a dr. appt. (My mom works part time and my schedule is much more flexible). So, we got the ball rolling - hopefully for the final time - to get her body in order.

Update for those of you who need it - she has one barely functioning kidney. Dialysis 3 days a week. Needs a kidney transplant, but before that can happen, other work - which I will not go into here. She has been in and out of hospitals her whole life and abhors (sp?) the thought of more. More surgery. More hospitals. More of it all. We, my family, are on here case as she is going to die from this disease and dialysis is not going to work forever. (She is in her 3rd year!) She has started this process a couple times now, but then puts on the brakes. Thus the hand holding from all of us (me going into the dr appt with her). We simply are pushing it/her thru.

Last night, tired. I went to bed at 10:00. I know. I figured there was a ho down on AIM, but didn't have the energy.

This morning, I have been spending money. Ahhh, my favorite past time. Went to Sprint for a hands free headset for my new phone, Bath & Body for lotion, Hobby Lobby for Pilgrims and Native Americans and Office Max for ink.

I need to go catch up.

Hang in there... I don't know what else to say that won't sound cliche and having never experiencing something like that I am not sure I even know something cliche... Just hang tough and if you need anything let me know...

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hang in there... I don't know what else to say that won't sound cliche and having never experiencing something like that I am not sure I even know something cliche... Just hang tough and if you need anything let me know...

Thanks Sarah. It's not a panic thing, right now. We don't dwell on it. Well, my mom and dad do. She's not sickly. She's weak and we watch out for her dialysis arm, it's got a permament port. But we all have a good time.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Lyz - loved your post on E. I think of her like that, too. And I let Emily watch TV half the time during dinner. I know it's wrong but I do it. I'm not perfect but that's okay. I am a good mom and I love my kid. And so are you.

E, please, let's talk. You're having my September in October.

Kat - You are so cute!

Paula - HI! Missed you.

Dawn and Dan - nice to see both of you. Can't wait to Dec!

Lisa - come on back. Miss you girl.

Sarah, Steph, Nancy, Amy...hugs!


Ok, me.

I weighed in and am 3.8 down. So I have 3.2 to go to hit my goal of 7lbs.

I also told my favorite clients that I am not working for them any longer until they pay me. They owe me a lot. So I have billed them and today is my last day. Sad but good. Now I need to go hustle for work.

I am feeling better, focusing on the positive. I make good choices. I value my work and myself. I choose good for myself.

Love to you all.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I am a good mom and I love my kid. And so are you.



Ok, me.

I weighed in and am 3.8 down. So I have 3.2 to go to hit my goal of 7lbs.

I also told my favorite clients that I am not working for them any longer until they pay me. They owe me a lot. So I have billed them and today is my last day. Sad but good. Now I need to go hustle for work.

I am feeling better, focusing on the positive. I make good choices. I value my work and myself. I choose good for myself.

Love to you all.

I can't believe you are down 3.8! That is awesome. And I'm totally green. I haven't lost anything. (Could be the daily candy bar, I'm just sayin'.)

That is good you told them they needed to pay you. It's good for so many reasons. And it was HARD to do. I know.

 

[Astro Orbiter]

I'm Here. I'm Here.

I have alot to read, but I saw my summons, so here is my excuse.

Yesterday. I posted. I think. I had a meeting in the morning with my insurance agent (so he could tell me what ELSE I needed.)

Afternoon, I went to another town with my sister for a dr. appt. (My mom works part time and my schedule is much more flexible). So, we got the ball rolling - hopefully for the final time - to get her body in order.

Update for those of you who need it - she has one barely functioning kidney. Dialysis 3 days a week. Needs a kidney transplant, but before that can happen, other work - which I will not go into here. She has been in and out of hospitals her whole life and abhors (sp?) the thought of more. More surgery. More hospitals. More of it all. We, my family, are on here case as she is going to die from this disease and dialysis is not going to work forever. (She is in her 3rd year!) She has started this process a couple times now, but then puts on the brakes. Thus the hand holding from all of us (me going into the dr appt with her). We simply are pushing it/her thru.

Last night, tired. I went to bed at 10:00. I know. I figured there was a ho down on AIM, but didn't have the energy.

This morning, I have been spending money. Ahhh, my favorite past time. Went to Sprint for a hands free headset for my new phone, Bath & Body for lotion, Hobby Lobby for Pilgrims and Native Americans and Office Max for ink.

I need to go catch up.

I didn't know Hobby Lobby sold Pilgrims and Native Americans! Like, actual people? Do they fold laundry? (Sorry, forgive me - I was skimming in a meeting and almost burst out laughing when I saw that.)

I SO needed that today. Thank you. And no, my life isn't a storybook, but the reality is that it is really good. I have very few clouds on my horizon, and in the grand scheme of things, things are wonderful.

But sometimes I just can't see the big picture, you know?

For the past couple of days or more I have been in a funk of epic proportions. Just can't get out of it. It is food and parenting and work and just everything. Today was a half day of school for the kids. So they are home now. And watching tv. In the middle of the freaking afternoon! And I just can't get out of my own way enough to change direction.

My Disney trip is in 4 weeks. I still only have half of my ADRs...and again, I can't even manage to sit down and plan the trip and make the reservations. WTH is that about? I mean, I love planning trips. But I just can't muster up the energy to do it. And I feel like that with everything right now, thus the tv in the middle of the day for the kids.

So anyway, thanks for your sweetness b/c I really needed it today.

Everyone else--I am not ignoring you. I will respond to everyone. I am just a bit self-absorbed at the moment and am treading in murky waters.

So what if the kids are watching TV for one afternoon? No permanent harm will come to them. On rare days it ends up being what's best for the family. And the mom.

I actualy like making ADRs late. Well, that's because I can never make them early - I plan my trips about 6 weeks out. Without fail, 2 weeks before my trip restaurants start opening up left and right. It may or may not be the time I prefer, but it's a space neverless.

And, Erika, I can tell you're in a funk. No bold purple! Shall I? Can I? Dare I?

No exercise for me tonight. Again. Because some )@(#*$ called a 6pm conf call. Which I can't skip. And can't take in the car. Grumble. So now...do I go home an hour early and take it from home? Or go home 2 hours late? Either way, I'm screwed.

On a completely different subject - BL and the camping trip. I sat last night in disbelief as 12 people couldn't figure out how to exercise outdoors. I mean, really. Please tell me that the producers did some creative editing. And shall we count product placements?

Deb

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Update for those of you who need it - she has one barely functioning kidney. Dialysis 3 days a week. Needs a kidney transplant, but before that can happen, other work - which I will not go into here. She has been in and out of hospitals her whole life and abhors (sp?) the thought of more. More surgery. More hospitals. More of it all. We, my family, are on here case as she is going to die from this disease and dialysis is not going to work forever. (She is in her 3rd year!) She has started this process a couple times now, but then puts on the brakes. Thus the hand holding from all of us (me going into the dr appt with her). We simply are pushing it/her thru.




This morning, I have been spending money. Ahhh, my favorite past time. Went to Sprint for a hands free headset for my new phone, Bath & Body for lotion, Hobby Lobby for Pilgrims and Native Americans

Wait...What!?! shopping for Pilgrims & Native Americans? That just sounds weird....

I weighed in and am 3.8 down. So I have 3.2 to go to hit my goal of 7lbs.

Nicely done, Liz!!!

I also told my favorite clients that I am not working for them any longer until they pay me. They owe me a lot. So I have billed them and today is my last day. Sad but good. Now I need to go hustle for work.

I am feeling better, focusing on the positive. I make good choices. I value my work and myself. I choose good for myself.

Good for you!

As for me - I forgot to weigh in this a.m - will do it tomorrow. Maybe I *may* wait until Friday....today is our anniversary. 20 years! Nothing special planned - as a matter of fact, I have a meeting tonight - 6:30! But we are going to Cancun for a week right after Thanksgiving - just the 2 of us...

Good lord...just the 2 of us??? what will we talk about!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

20 Years! Golleee! That is odd nowadays!

Happy Anniversary! Congratulations!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

IAnd, Erika, I can tell you're in a funk. No bold purple! Shall I? Can I? Dare I?

I dare. and I shall. I'll even make it BIG! I used bold purple for a while, but Erika was just a little possessive of it....so I switched....and let her have it



No exercise for me tonight. Again. Because some )@(#*$ called a 6pm conf call. Which I can't skip. And can't take in the car. Grumble. So now...do I go home an hour early and take it from home? Or go home 2 hours late? Either way, I'm screwed.

Bummer.

On a completely different subject - BL and the camping trip. I sat last night in disbelief as 12 people couldn't figure out how to exercise outdoors. I mean, really. Please tell me that the producers did some creative editing. And shall we count product placements?

No kidding! A week in the Grand Canyon...and you can't HIKE or something at least? Deb

Lyz - going to go check out your army of women....

 

[goofyfan-12]

Lyz - loved your post on E. I think of her like that, too. And I let Emily watch TV half the time during dinner. I know it's wrong but I do it. I'm not perfect but that's okay. I am a good mom and I love my kid. And so are you.

E, please, let's talk. You're having my September in October.

Kat - You are so cute!

Paula - HI! Missed you.

missed you too.... welcome back...

Dawn and Dan - nice to see both of you. Can't wait to Dec!

Lisa - come on back. Miss you girl.

Sarah, Steph, Nancy, Amy...hugs!


Ok, me.

I weighed in and am 3.8 down. So I have 3.2 to go to hit my goal of 7lbs.

I also told my favorite clients that I am not working for them any longer until they pay me. They owe me a lot. So I have billed them and today is my last day. Sad but good. Now I need to go hustle for work.

I am feeling better, focusing on the positive. I make good choices. I value my work and myself. I choose good for myself.

YEAH!!!!! I am happy to hear that you are feeling better... our world here is a little darker when you aren't yourself...
Love to you all.

Liz - as hard as it is to deal with the money / career issues... remember, it is not personal, it is just business... you have to do what is best for you and your clients will ulitmately respect you for that provided you are fair and consistent... be strong...

give me time and I'll make a closet pit bull out of you yet... one with great outfits, shoes and lip gloss, but a pit bull none the less...

Paula

 

[goofyfan-12]

Nancy - Happy Anniversary!!!!!!!

Have fun tonight and have an even better time in Cancun.... very exciting....

Paula

 

[amykab]

for everyone!

I am in a bit of a funk myself lately, can't quite put my finger on it, but I think it stems from my job situation and ongoing family drama that I think I am just tired of. It doesn't directly involve me and DH, but it involves our respective siblings and it kills us to see what it does to our parents.

So to anyone who needs one...

 

[amykab]

Where is everyone??

I did 100 crunches tonight. I've been doing at least 200/week and I swear it is making a difference, inches wise. Was supposed to do pilates tonight too but I have been getting my drink on since I got home from work and I just didn't feel like it.

I did however feel it necessary to make an emergency run to Target to see what kind of Tampa Bay Rays stuff they had, since they are in the MLB playoffs for the first time ever and I wanted a shirt. They didn't have any. Grrrr. I did get DD red sparkly shoes to go with her snow white costume and myself a halloween "good witch" shirt.

Cheers Everyone!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hi All and thanks for the good wishes. I am slowly turning the corner and getting out of this funk...but not quite there yet.

Got my wine....now I gotta make dinner. Looks like the kids voted for tacos...what goes with tacos? White wine or red shoulda got tequila!

Nancy, this is why I adore you. Really! When it comes to life, you just get it in terms of the big picture. My purple is back...and it is so funny because I totally associate you with navy blue.

Okay, here is a picture from this weekend. I am the 2nd from left, on the top row:

LOVE it! Your team looks like it has a lot of fun women! I am so glad for you that you have this team and this league!

Army of Women

Thanks for posting this. I signed up.

But sometimes your life seems like a story book.

Lyz - loved your post on E. I think of her like that, too. And I let Emily watch TV half the time during dinner. I know it's wrong but I do it. I'm not perfect but that's okay. I am a good mom and I love my kid. And so are you.

E, please, let's talk. You're having my September in October.



I weighed in and am 3.8 down. So I have 3.2 to go to hit my goal of 7lbs.

First, OMG on the 3.8!!! You SO SO SO f'ing rock! Goddess crown, natch!

As for the storybook life...this bounced around in my head a lot today. (And no, it didn't annoy me ) You know, I really do have it good. I do. And I need to remember that. Like, we do the stuff that people say "no families really act like that". We do. We have family game night at least once a week. On Sundays in the winter we make a fire in the fireplace in the living room and all play charades and laugh hysterically. (Lest you think this is Leave it to Beaver-esque, you also should realize that after each round J and I go into the other room and do a tequila shot! )

And yeah, we are an LL Bean family...we hike and camp and surf and all of that healthy-family-laughing-in-the-great-outdoors-crap.

And Lyz was right...J does all of the dishes and all of the laundry. I don't know any other husband/father who does as much around the house as he does. Of course, I do more than my share as well, but still...it is very equitable.

All of this is leading up to me realizing that I need to stop whining! I mean, really! No, my life isn't perfect. And even though my husband does all of the laundry, he is far from perfect as well. But if I can stop being self-absorbed long enough, I can see how good my life really is. This is totally helping me de-funkify and put crap in perspective. So thanks Lyz and Liz.

And as a P.S.--I have no problem with kids watching tv once in a while, so please don't anyone think I was judging parenting based on something like that. It is more that...part of my funk is that I feel like I am not as in touch with my kids and their lives as I should be. But I think that is just because we have just finished the first month of school and it is an adjustment after being with them 24/7 all summer.

And, Erika, I can tell you're in a funk. No bold purple! Shall I? Can I? Dare I?

No.

As for me - I forgot to weigh in this a.m - will do it tomorrow. Maybe I *may* wait until Friday....today is our anniversary. 20 years! Nothing special planned - as a matter of fact, I have a meeting tonight - 6:30! But we are going to Cancun for a week right after Thanksgiving - just the 2 of us...

Good lord...just the 2 of us??? what will we talk about!

NANCY! Congratulations! What a milestone! Happy Anniversary!

Ok, so I am on the mend, which is good. Hopefully I will be back to being perky tomorrow.

Exercise for the day:

I had planned a 19-mile ride today, but it looked like rain, so I cut out the last 5 mile loop and called it quits at 14 miles. Good decision--started to rain about 2 minutes after I was done! Followed the ride up with 30 minutes of strength training (gym). I just re-worked my exercise schedule and I am pretty psyched about it. Adding lots of different stuff:

Monday - 5 mile run; modified upper body weight training (not as complete as the upper body routine later in the week); 15 minutes of core
Tuesday - 4 mile run; weight training--full leg work-out (hams, quads, adductors, abductors); 15 minutes of core
Wednesday - cross-train cardio 45-60 minutes (bike until it gets too cold, then elliptical), followed by full upper body workout (bis, tris, chest, back, and shoulders); 15 minutes of core
Thursday - the long run. Tomorrow I will start with 5.5 miles and gradually build for my next half in January. May or may not do core afterwards. Likely not.
Friday - cardio boxing (which is also upper body); full leg workout as above; 15 minutes of core.
Saturday - tempo run (usually about 3 miles...these runs are for building speed, so it is not about the distance); optional core workout if I missed one earlier in the week.
Sunday - rest

 

[goofyfan-12]

Erika's getting her groove back....

Liz is getting her groove back...

Lyz is getting her groove back...

love it....

welcome back gang... you have been missed...

Paula

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Erika's getting her groove back....

Liz is getting her groove back...

Lyz is getting her groove back...

yep. Life is good...

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

We eat dinner together every night too. But the tv is on. Am I the only one? (turning it off isn't an option. trust me on that.)[/COLOR]
Same here TV is on and most of the time since there are so many of us and our table isn't big enough the kids sit at the table and steph and i are in the living room watching the darn TV.That is on the nights I am home of course and if we weven eat with the kids because I am programmed to eat late now do to my shift and the kids eat early due to zac's bed time and snacks.



Yes, my daughter is wearing flip flops and it's COLD here in the morning.
UM YEAH Sam had on a tank top today for school and it was um like 57 and rainy


Sarah, that is AWESOME about 18's! TOTALLY!
GREAT JOB!!!!



Steph [/B]- how goes the house closing? [/COLOR]

Let's see I have writers cramp and I have never ever used my Middle initial more than I did to day! The house is MINEwell not really it is the banks but I can' say it is mine!!!

I got here late, but I wasn't asked for anyhow.
UMMM I knew you were around... you know I love ya!!! and I had just talked to you last night!!!

Great Photo!

I weighed in and am 3.8 down. So I have 3.2 to go to hit my goal of 7lbs.
Love to you all.

GREAT JOB LIZ!!!

Ok so the house is officially OURS now and I have all sets of Key's and let's see my room is empty except for my bed. This is including my clothes Stephen took it upon himself to bring all my stuff to the house! So now to get dressed I have to drive 5 miles across town! Tomorrow is the kids rooms and hopefully the Kitchen. I will spend a good portion of the day emptying boxes because I have to wait for the CABLE GUY! ( I automatically think of Jim Carey when I say that)

In other news Sam went for her first physical therapy session today on her knee, her therapist thinks she may have a torn ALC are at the least it is stretched so bad that he leg is unstable, so I will be calling the pediatrician in the am to have us set up with the orthopedist to get his prospective on it!
Oh and Kat Sam's PT is a hockey Player too she plays for a league in Canada.. She lives up there !
Ok I am falling asleep and I have a busy day of unpacking tomorrow and then WORK YUCK!!!
have a great day tomorrow.
E~ hope you feel better!