I'm Wishing...

[1GR8DISNEYFAN]

To be skinney! I am so tired of being a large person. I think I am writting this just for therapy. Twenty years ago I had 10 pounds to loose. I lost it and gained it back about 4 times. 10 years ago I had 30 pounds to loose, lost that and gained it back. Now I am up to 70 pounds to loose, and I just don't know if I can do it. I have lost 20 pounds twice in the last year and gained it back. I am fortunate that I do loose the weight when I diet, but it is so difficust to get through the first day and week. And the once I cheat, it is downhill all the way. I just hate to diet. I love food, I love to eat socialy, I am a busy mom and food is my one reward. I have heard it all and tried everything. WW at least six times, JC 3 times. I wish I could treat food the way an alcoholic treats alcohol and just not have it, but we all know that is impossible. I dwell on how big I am, (please tell me I am not the only one who does this), when I am sitting in a chair, I notice how much of the seat I take up, and then when I get up I look at how big the chair is and I can't believe my hips are that big. I am so envious of thin moms, I want to be one of them. I want to buy clothes in the average sized women section, not the plus size. Every morning I think "this is the day" and every day ends as a failure. And here we are approching another summer that I am going to be glued to my beach chair, covered to my knees because I don't want all of my very thin family members to think to themselves "I can't believe she has gained so much weight". More than anything, I just don't feel good. I don't have the energy to do all the things I use to do. Please someone tell me they have discovered the magic cure. There are so many sucess stories here.I know it just takes a lot of hard work.

 

[pjlla]

Wow.... I feel your pain and you have come to the right place. There are lots of folks here to sympathize and help you find the right mindset to help yourself.

Your story sounds like mine! In my early 20's I needed to lose 10 pounds. In my late 20's I needed to lose 30 and I lost it before I got married. Then I packed it all back on and then more. By the time I was 30 and contemplating pregnancy, I was 40+ pounds overweight. Add two pregnancies and the extra leftover weight and the "stay at home" weight and all of a sudden I am in my mid-late 30's and looking at approaching 70 pounds overweight!! I NEVER imagined myself that big! But I'm sure the folks out there who are 300 pounds and up never imagined themselves that big either.

I lost quite a bit after my second pregnancy but didn't keep it off and of course, when it came back on, there was another 10 pounds with it. So then I am approaching 40 with 80+ pounds extra. I was determined NOT to hit 40 at that weight. I buckled down about 18 months before my birthday and managed to be down about 40 by my birthday and was feeling much better about myself. I didn't lose much more, but I did manage to maintain my weight loss for over a year. But then it started to creep back on and suddenly I have regained 27 of the 40 I had lost. I was PANICKED!! There was NO WAY I was going to be that big again. I started up again with my "weight loss journey" in January of this year and have lost 33 pounds since January 2. So I am lower now than I was when I turned 40 (several years ago). I am so glad that I caught it before I regained ALL of that 40 pounds, but I'm still sad that I regained as much of it as I did.

The more I pursue this path, the more I realize that it HAS, HAS, HAS to be a LIFE STYLE change... not a "diet". I will NEVER be the kind of person who can eat whatever/whenever and not worry about my weight. It is about choices. Do I want to eat whatever I want but wear a size 16 or 18 or 20?? Or do I want to pass by that cake and that extra potato and feel good about how I look EVERY DAY??

I try to remind myself that I WON'T remember what I passed up, but I definitely remember the FEELING of how it feels to buy a smaller size jeans or how it feels to walk into a family function and not feel like the biggest person there or how it feels to get on the scale and not see a SCARY number!!

"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels." It is a great quote.

The first thing you want to do is find a weight loss plan that you can LIVE with. It is not just a "I'll go off when I lose xx pounds". That is not realistic. You need to LEARN to eat right. Whether it is a calorie program or whatever. And it has to be something that you can live with FOREVER. And you need some accountability. Coming here is great for that.

Next you need to start moving. It helps if you find a form of exercise that you like (I haven't found that yet), but at the very least it needs to be somethat that you can do almost anywhere (walking, running, stairs all come to mind). That way you will have no excuse not to exercise no matter where you are or what is happening. Make you family a part of your exercise and it will help you keep going.

I hope I don't sound like I have all the answers. If I did I wouldn't be where I am with my weight! I just feel like I can sympathize and maybe help you find a place to start. Take a look around at some different weight loss plans (preferably practical ones... not Slimfast and the like) and keep telling yourself that this is for a LIFETIME... not a quick fix. Good luck........................P

 

[Tiger Lily 03]

Welcome to WISH!

I do hope you can get your mind in the game this time. Never give up!

Try not to make it look like a bad thing you are doing, rather try to focus on the positive. I think that is important. Make that lifestyle choice to give your body the healthy fuel it needs and forget that "D" word.

Keep on keepin' on!

 

[ohMom]

 

[goofyinohio]

Welcome!!!! My only advice is to look at it as a Life Style change and not as a diet. That word scares me and many people off. I myself had a ton of weight to lose and thanks to my walking and watching my calories and now my running I lost all the weight I wanted to lose and have been able to maintain for about a year now.

Good Luck to you! You can do it!!!!!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Girl, you need to come to our thread! We ALL started out this way...we ALL could have written your post. And now we are on our way and there is room for more on this journey, so join us!

Here is the link to the thread:

http://www.disboards.com/showthread.php?t=1803479

And in case that doesn't work, our thread is right near this one called, "In search of my body, not the one I ate!" We've been together since January, but don't let that stop you from joining us. In fact, we just started "Part 2" so the thread is only about 24 pages long and it won't take you long to get caught up and find out who we are.

Some of us only have the last 10 pounds left to go (that would be where I am) and some have well over 100 to lose...and everyone and everything in between. We are looking at the reasons why we eat and then changing those behaviors.

Like you, most of us have tried and had some success only to gain it back. Or just haven't been able to get started. Well, the difference for each of this time is the support system we have found in each other.

We all obsess over our weight (just like you described in your post) and of course the people in our daily lives don't want to hear us obsess (or we don't feel comfortable obsessing in front of them) but we all listen to each other and obsess together!

Seriously, for me WISH has made the difference.

WELCOME! It sounds like you are truly ready to tackle this.