hey there. just read this whole thread and thought I'd weigh in. school sure is different than when I was 14 and a high school freshman. I'm pushing 40 now and in the 80s, you had crushes, but not girlfriends....
i just wanted to encourage you to not label yourself, and don't feel that you have to tell everyone you know about how you feel. it's okay to keep some things to yourself. I know that feelings can be very intense and strong when you are a teenager, but a funny thing happens once you put yourself into a box.
Even if you build the box yourself, you may find it hard to get out of once you're in there. What I mean is, the more you label yourself, and the more you tell people, and make statements to yourself and others, "I AM A LESBIAN!" - the more you'll feel pressured to follow through with that course in your life than if you didn't.
I would encourage you to leave yourself the option to follow your heart wherever it leads, because you have many loves ahead of you. You might miss out on some good opportunities by choosing such a limited road for yourself so early in life. And though you don't think so right now, your map is going to change about a million times over the next 10 years or so - so just leave yourself some other routes to some other destinations, instead of clinging so tightly to just one course.
-advice from a 'married' dyed in the wool gay ex-cheerleader who had many boyfriends in high school, went to all the dances, but later married a woman and had a baby. isn't he cute?
