I'm struggling

[MousekaMaddi]

yikes!!!!!!!!
I would HATE for those NOTES to get in the hands of the wrong people.

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Don't worry, the teacher (aka the Wicked Witch) didn't confiscate it! I'd hate if ANY personal note was seen by unwanted eyes!

 

[2moms]

yikes!!!!!!!!
I would HATE for those NOTES to get in the hands of the wrong people.

I'd have to agree there...sometimes notes get misplaced and wind up getting picked up and read by others who are not so caring/understanding. Just be careful!
I'd also like to agree with what all the others have written, you have plenty of time to figure out who you are. Don't rush into labeling yourself gay/straight/bi just yet...don't even worry about that...just enjoy being in high school and have fun... Ahhh to be 15 again and know what I know now!
Good luck!

 

[PghLybrt]

Hi sorry I have not been around

I just wanted to ad a bit of my insight.


I dated in high school, both guys and girls. However when I was in high school nobody knew about the girls. It was not until college that I actually figured out who I am and what I wanted. Needless to say I have changed a lot since High school, and so will you! We have our whole lives to do what we want, figure out what we need and who we want to be with.

I guess what I am saying is try not to pigeon hole yourself at such a young age. Go out and enjoy being young. The rest of your life is not a decision you have to make overnight!

(Now I am not implying that you don't know who you are , I am simply saying that in high school I wish that I had just let things happen and experienced all high school had to offer)

I wish you the best. High school seems so hard when you are there but is remembered with such rose colored glasses. Just enjoy.

 

[PghLybrt]

yikes!!!!!!!!
I would HATE for those NOTES to get in the hands of the wrong people.

really off topic......


My best friend and I just passed a note book. Teachers never thought anything about it. However i can only imagine what would have happened if they did!!! It wasnt just one note but pages and pages and pages!!!


(Istill have one, it is the funniest read ever!)

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Good idea about the notebook, OP!

I'm making good progress. I came out to 3 people yesterday! Go me, go me! And normally, I'm so shy...

Well, it was through written form that I told them, since I seem to express myself better through written words than spoken words, but I still told them! And they're fine with it. Probably after the shock of my BFF coming out kinda wore out the shock part of their brains! (none of us expected it at all when she came out)

I'm doing well otherwise. I'm going to try to come out slowly, maybe one person a day. How do I tell parents, though?

 

[invisible_children07]

hey amanda
my name is tyler, nice to meet you

listen.
you sound almost identical to me when I was a high school freshmen (im a college freshmen now)

coming to terms with your sexuality is a long ardous journey that you will, i promise, never take alone. there are plenty of people out there that want to help you I'm sure and you came to the right place asking us for help.

no need for lables, psh, those are old fashioned. If you want to know what i consider myself well it goes something like queer pansexual pre-op FTM but i mean. who cares right? love who you love. lust who you lust

dont make a big deal out of telling everyone yet. accepting is a huge part of the process of understand anything about yourself.

i wish you well and if you need to talk or anything
xxxxyellowbird is my AIM name, I'd be happy to talk to you

(p.s. I'm studying in college to do...well...just what were talking about right now. yay! who ever thought LGBT studies would be a minor. exciting stuff)

tyler

 

[invisible_children07]

another p.s.

parents are a hard thing to deal with
probably not the best idea to go there yet
i don't know much about your situation but
it can present many problems or lack there of
sometimes is creates the
"elephant in the room" effect if you know what i'm saying
its probably best to hold that off until you really know whats going on

i was out in the 7th grade but my parents didn't find out about
me being queer until sophomore year
and i havent outed myself as FTM yet and well
that is not going to be fun

tyler

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Thanks, Tyler

Wow, they have a minor in that?! Cool!

My best, best, BEST friend is a lesbian, and she wants to become a FTM when she's old enough. So...yeah.

I'm not planning on telling my parents. I'm too scared to.

As for labels, I'm trying not to label myself.

Maybe a few GSA meetings at school will help with some things...hmmm...

 

[invisible_children07]

i guess im not following
how can you become a FTM
well

im glad i could help
if you have any questions
just ask
im here to help

 

[AmandaSparks730]

i guess im not following
how can you become a FTM
well

im glad i could help
if you have any questions
just ask
im here to help

Oh, goodness, I don't want to become a FTM! My best friend does, in fact. Heck, I didn't even know what gay/lesbian/bisexual/transsexual WAS until I saw RENT in 7th grade! (I am in honors classes, and I had heard those terms before, I just didn't exactly know what they ment)

Gosh, I'm bored. Killing time before American Idol.

But...there's a thing...I think I'm falling for my best friend. Gahhhh what now?! ALSO, my other best friend (one of many) is having surgury on Thursday!! ANY HELP FOR POOR SPARKIE?!

 

[invisible_children07]

no i mean
how does one become a FTM
i just don't understand that concept
never mind

just slow down
breath
things will be fine

p.s.
were doing a drag show at school
la vie bohemme is the last number
i'm playing mark
haha

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Ha! LOL. I love Mark!

As for the FTM thing, I asked the same thing a while ago, on these boards. Just search on these forums for the one titled "Best Friend Help". It's old(er), so you'll have to go back a little.

And I have good news for all!!

I. Have. A. Girlfriend!!!!!!!!!!!


My best friend asked me out when we were talking online last night! It was so, so cute. I can't stop smiling right now!!

 

[invisible_children07]

oh my
a girlfriend?
spill

 

[2moms]

Wow! You're a fast worker...you went from confused about your sexuality to having a girlfriend in 6 days!

 

[AmandaSparks730]

oh my
a girlfriend?
spill

ok!

Well...let's see. We've been best friends since April/May last year. We're extremely close. We actually know pretty much everything about each other. She's:

Pretty
Sweet
Cool
Funny
Nice
Comforting
Understanding
and the best person in my world
She wrote a SONG for me!! I almost cried when I read it, too! We really, really love each other. It was very cute when she asked me last night. I'm so, so happy!

 

[invisible_children07]

awh
young high school love
thats so cute
have fun

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Thanks! She just left the sweetest IM's while I was watching AI. She actually left the lyrics to this song: I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna live like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...
So, awww! She really loves me, and I really love her. Soooooo happy!!

 

[invisible_children07]

awh

well today i spent the entire day discussing gay theory with about 7 different people
it was awesome!

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Sounds awesome!